LETHU
Something was trying to kill me in my sleep.
It posed as a blurring sound repeatedly attacking my ears. I groaned, my hand patting until I found the source just on the pillow next to my head. I fought the urge to throw the phone against the wall. My fingers tapped until I hit the right button, the monster shutting the fuck up.
Another groan pulled from me, burying my head back in my pillow to close my eyes. My body was tucked so perfectly and I felt like a burrito, toasty warm. I could hear the faint rumble of thunder and the rain beating down against my window. Skipping work had never been so appealing. The devil in me whispered and advocated for the idea over and over even when we knew missing work was not an option.
The sound came again, a bloody war I tell you. I screamed at this point. Whoever set this second alarm was the devil’s spawn. I giggled because however that second alarm was set, it saved my life more than once, actually every day. The second alarm ripped the fatigue away just like that, leaving me smiling as I turned it off then I shuffled out of the cocoon of covers. There were some things I learned never to question as I grew up. Like how I would always leave my phone in the charger yet wake up with it on my pillow every morning or the second alarm I never set. I had a lot of theories but the truth was, I probably did it all in my sleep as my father had suggested when I let him know there was a ghost in my room.
I rolled over, giving Mr. Bubbles one last hug. There was just something about him and my bed that always drew me in. Sleep, lord, I loved sleep. I would always wake up satisfied, always happy. My smile grew wider, pulling the covers off to jump out. I wiggled my hips sinuously, giggling at my actions. My heart drummed with nothing but pure happiness and I was blushing, even though I couldn't explain why.
I flapped the flat sheet with this amazing scent hitting me as it always did. I gave up figuring out its source years back. But I never switched my laundry detergent nor any of the toiletries I used since I was sixteen. It was coming from somewhere and I did not want it to go away. I made the bed, rushing to the bathroom.
My tune picked up, the water pouring from the shower. I connected my phone to the house speaker with a jam coming up. Nothing would stop me from throwing my own concert of one. My toothbrush was in my hand. I sang and slid across the floor with the beat dropping. Then they wonder why I was always late for work. It was a pity they didn't know that I doubled as a rock star in the morning and a lawyer during the day.
I jumped around, rushing to rinse my toothbrush so I could sing the bridge of the song. The high note hit and I was there for it, sounding like a chicken screaming for help which left me giggling harder. I stripped off my silky sleepwear. I don’t know what prompted me to wear such a thing but all I know is that every time I went to bed, something sexy was on my body. I never questioned myself, I just did what my heart told me to.
The concert was rounding up to a crescendo in the shower as I threw everything I had out. My wits came about me some thirty minutes later. I jumped out of the shower, frantic, pulling this and that before throwing everything on my body. I wore my heels as I hobbled down the stairs, recalling the file I was supposed to read through the night but gave myself to sleep instead. I shook, exasperated with myself. I was so not getting a permanent position with the firm. I sighed. I could be more serious about life but I slacked off a lot. I did the bare minimum and Dad would be so disappointed in me if he was still here.
There was no time to eat my breakfast. I ran out of the house as if it had caught fire. There was also no time to go back into the house to grab my umbrella. The rain wasn’t that heavy anyway so I could wing it. If I missed the bus again, I could forget about the internship I'd slaved away for. I don’t know, it was disappointing now that I was actually doing the job. The thought that I would be doing that all my life depressed me. I loved being a lawyer so I don’t know why I suddenly hated working at the firm. I was one of three assistants to one of the big lawyers in the firm but looking at him, I did not want that life.
My heels clicked as I sprinted out, my hair already a mess of curls flying in all directions, with my shirt untucked and my bag barely held in hand. I turned the corner only to catch the last glimpse of the bus as it was gliding down the block. My hand came at my face, sighing.
“Shit!” I stomped my feet, getting side eyes from parents who had just put their kids on the bus. I apologized but I could not help cursing again. I quickly pulled out my phone, looking for someone I might call but it was useless. The only useful number in my phone was my Dad’s, if only he was still alive. I huffed, running my free hand through my hair. I was a disheveled mess. What kind of lawyer would I even be, always late? I needed to take life a bit more seriously than this.
'Lethu Ferraro, you need to get your shit together girl'. I talked to myself in my head, not making me feel better at all because I might have also been crazy. I groaned, looking around for a miracle but suddenly there was this sleek Range Rover turning the corner.
My heart thrummed in a nervous beat. I thought of flagging it down but I shook my head. I would just wait for the next bus, they weren't likely to give me a ride anyway. I brought my phone up again, just staring at it like the idiot I was but then, before my eyes flickered up.
The Range Rover stood idle right before me. It was such a sexy car, all sleek and straight lines. Someday I'd spoil myself with their latest model. The dark-tinted window of the passenger’s side opened and there, staring back at me was an adonis. He wore a baby blue shirt. It wasn't fully buttoned, so it beckoned my eyes to the elegant arch of his neck and the firm beginnings of his pectorals. A sexy man in a sexy car. It should have been a crime. The car surely suited him, my eyes lying on the Rolex around his wrist, and hell, I knew it wasn’t fake. I bit my inner cheek, barely functioning.
“Morning,” he greeted, polite and smooth.
That voice for crying out loud!
“Do you need a ride?”
God was clearly working overtime to make up for my stupid decisions. I needed to stop it with the hour-long showers. I blinked over and over again, almost swallowing my tongue.
There was something off about all this but such a decent and good-looking man could not do anything bad to me, right? What would he even do with me? I am just a Betty and surely he had a girlfriend way hotter than my washed-up ass.
I bit my lower lip, I was super late.
“Uhm, yes, where are you heading?” I asked, giving my brain time to come to its senses.
“City, I have a meeting at nine with the Screwz group.” The man said.
I did not even know how I was able to hold a straight face and keep my voice firm. A sharp breath nearly escaped me. The Screwz group offices were just a street from my firm so he would drop me right at the door.
It was God sent.
“Okay, thank you.”
There I was, opening the door myself. I hopped in, closing the door and that was when I noticed the two other men sitting in the back seat.
The car began moving, my heart drumming nervously. I did not want to offend anyone, so my glances never lingered on any of them for too long. Both men seemed preoccupied with their phones. I was uneasy now, and getting in the car seemed like a dumb move.
A voice was telling me to jump off but a more rational part told me to stop overreacting. I sat back, not sure if to slide the seat belt on or not. I decided against it, if anything happened, it would only hold me back.
The tension in the car grew heavy as it moved down the road. The window was rolled up, and I was startled. Damnit! I was freaking out and when the doors locked I was holding on by a hair string to my calm.
I am just overreacting, most cars lock themselves when having moved for a few minutes, right? I told myself, trying to relax but who was I kidding, I probably looked like a chicken in the rain.
Even swallowing became hard as the car drove passed familiar surroundings. I did not know why that comforted me because the trees would not jump out and help me when something happened.
“I need to take something from my colleague, it’s not far from the road.” The man broke the silence, the car already turning off the road. I gulped, nodding my head at that with familiar grounds left behind. The fear was at the neck at that point. My hand was shaking so much. It crawled to the handle slowly but surely, ready to just unlock manually and jump out any second from then. I was shaking so hard yet not trying to alarm anyone. I did not even know what the other two men were doing behind me. I felt as if they were watching me.
The car hit what seemed to be a large pothole. I was jostled with a yelp, losing all focus only to scream out as hands came over my mouth from the back. I kicked out, trying to squirm out of their hold. By the time I realized a cloth was pressed on my mouth and nose, it was too late. I had already inhaled enough.
I was petrified by the fear coursing through me. I tried fighting it, tried holding on to consciousness but it was a war I was never going to win. How could I have been so stupid?
No one would even know.
No one would even care.
No one would find me.
The moment my brain kicked back into consciousness, I knew something was wrong. Something was very wrong. By the time I became aware of the pain in my wrist, I had already been overwhelmed with panic and fear. My body felt foreign, heavy and my mind was foggy. Fighting through the fog made me feel worse. My cries echoed throughout the empty space. My heart beat so hard I thought I was having a heart attack. I felt my ankles burn harder, bound just like my wrists. My head hung low. The chair I sat on was cold. I knew I was stripped down to my underwear. Too many times I had watched such videos, women warning us all to be aware, to stay alert because sex trafficking was real and there I was, having literally thrown myself at them, opened the door and hopped in like an idiot. There was is escaping now, I thought, weeping my heart out. I kept on thinking of all the things that could go wrong. Another part of my brain was trying to figure out the best way I could leverage myself and get
“I will hunt them all. I will hunt their children and grandchildren. I will burn their filthy bloodlines from this world.” Each word was a promise of violence, his voice low and dangerous even I shuddered in his embrace. He growled it in a way even I could see it in my head. The anger was seeping from him, his chest rising up and down in shallow furious pants, sending me up and down with it since my head lay there. He chuckled, a dark chuckle that should have scared me but all I did was cling to him. Could it even be called a chuckle with how frightening it was? My eyes were closed, never getting enough of that scent. I was gulping it like cold water on a hot day. It was way better from its source. My mind was in confusion, wondering how? How had he gotten his scent on my bed all through the years? Six years? It was impossible. Who was he? What was happening? Too many questions yet I was too shaken to ask them. As of then, he was my armor, my protector. I could wear him and nothing
The doctors arrived, a team of five, filling my room. None wasted time, all sorts of equipment as they observed me through and through. I just wanted to sleep, tucked on my stranger’s side as he stroked my arm softly. Too much had happened already. I did not need more people probing and touching my body. I did not even have the energy to speak so I just turned pale by each second. I wanted everyone gone, everyone to just leave me alone except for one. There was only one person I wanted to hold me as I wept my heart out. “Miss Ferraro, I am afraid to ask but I have to. While in captive, were you sexually assaulted?” One female doctor stepped up. The words bounced in my head, and suddenly I was back in the room with the man ripping away my underwear and touching my body. I felt so dirty, shrinking into my stranger even more whilst he wrapped his arms around me. I could hear his heart drum with such force, so much so his chest could do nothing but violently shake. My head shook, not on
ELIO “Run!” The word came out as a harsh groan, the man scrambling from the floor wet with nothing but blood. The house was dark and empty, bodies littering the once-white tiles. Blood was all that coated me, dripping from the very seam of my shirt which had once been white yet as of then, bleeding itself. I shook the chain in my hand, the man running to slip and fall but he scrambled back up. I stalked after, my chest pounding hard with my head not any different. I could not even breathe, the anger having me think I would pass out. I angled it from side to side, wanting to roar out loud. The men who had hurt my belle, my flower, my Lethu were killed way too quickly. There was no regret than how easy I let them off but my only goal had been my angel, she was all that had mattered at that point. Now that she was secure, I would do anything to raise the dead so I could bring those vile men back and show them what I do to disgusting rats who cross me. The cries from the pathetic man
LETHU My head stirred, my body being swung over. My arms wrapped around what I would say were strong shoulders. My legs wrapped around a waist so instinctively as if I had done it way too many times. Warmth, such thick addictive warmth spread all around me, and I could not help but snuggle deeper. My head lay on a shoulder, feeling such warm feelings I could never explain. The person began moving with such ease. I was so secure I could barely feel the movement. I was drifting into more profound sleep than before, my heart beating with such harmony it was soul-healing. Water plopped down, echoing and pulling my mind to stir from the dreamy state it was in. As I slipped back into the world of the living, the sharp pain could suddenly be felt. My whole body was aching but one was too intense, having me moan. I wanted to twist and curl around yet where I was, there was no curling for me. My face buried deep into warm skin, growling. The moisture between my legs suddenly registered in
Elio changed the sheets and made the bed. He took out my heating pads, setting them up before mentioning for me to walk over. My body stood like a tree, dumbfounded as I watched with my brain having thrown the towel. I finally snapped into a walk, sinking into the opened cover, and snuggled in. He tucked me in as if I was his little princess which I would not mind being, honestly. I did not fail to notice the blanket added for me, not wanting me to get cold at all. He pulled out the remotes for the television, turned it on then lowered to place a kiss on my forehead.My world was spinning so fast I would faint.My father was the last person to lay his lips on my forehead before Elio yet Elio’s was way different. It had my heart just explode with such emotions, feeling the tears creep up but I swallowed them back. Butterflies flapped in my belly with such vengeance. I found myself scared because I had never felt such intense feelings pour over me. As cold as it was with the wind heard
The tray was picked up. Elio bent over my body. My head was by his armpit and I had never wanted to dig my face in an armpit so much. His t-shirt had the thread count of a t-shirt an angel would wear, so thick and definitely expensive. His scent just attacked me so rudely and left me defenseless. He sat the tray before me and took the plate of eggs with a fork. I hated eggs with a passion, smiling as he took them away before I threw up. The plate of croissants was picked up by myself, taking one and munching on it. Of course, he had not made them but they were delicious, and maybe it was because he had touched them. I nearly laughed hard at my thoughts. Imagine choking hard and knocking the tray with the food and coffee spilling. I swallowed fast, hiding the grin by taking another bite. I picked up bacon. You could never go wrong with meat when it came to me. The bacon was warm, sure he had made it. It was just in the middle of crunchy and soft like I liked it. God, he knew me too w
The dishes were cleared away. I snuggled back and finally picked up the remote to put on Netflix. I wanted to stay mad at Elio for forcing me to take my medication but I was melting away very quickly. It was drizzling out, making the setting even more amazing for me. So many movies popped out, the door opening with Elio walking in. He slipped into the bed and nearly had me giggle as he adjusted my heating pad. He removed the one at the back and turned it off before holding my body so possessively.My body was pulled into him with such ease. It took everything in me not to moan. I loved that he did not ask, he just did what he wanted with me. He adjusted the heating pad again. My pain was long forgotten, him my painkiller as I drowned in absolute bliss.I could not function for the longest time, just settling into his chest which was the most amazing thing ever in the world. His chest was hard and warm, feeling so safe, so comfortable and so adored if I dared to even say. What was this
I felt the lights then saw them. I felt as we walked through the house. I ran my hands into Elio’s hair, pulling him to me as if I wanted to infuse myself into him. His hands ran up to my waist and when he pulled back I kissed his jaw and lower to his neck. Soft music suddenly filled the house and water soon sprayed on our naked bodies. A deep shiver ran down yet not even it would tear me from my heaven. We were no longer just kissing because it felt like we were devouring each other. I felt as if he was kissing me deep into my heart. His hands tightened on my waist and I did not protest as he lifted me off. I found my footing while buried deep in his essence. He turned me around, kissing my jaw down to my neck as I leaned my head back on his shoulder. A moan pulled from the deepest hole in my core. I arched my back to him as his hand grabbed and mold my breast with such hunger. His other slid down my belly. I spread my legs for him, his dick pressed hard on my back. His hand ran dow
“Husband.” I coaxed, the car flying off the road. Wind blew through the thrown-back roof. I felt free, felt unbound, and cosmic. Elio’s groan and warning look had me giggling. I pushed off the seat, my hands moving up my thighs. I felt Elio’s eyes which made me turn my head to stare at him. His eyes couldn’t even budge as I pulled the underwear I wore down. He turned to the road for a second then back. My white lace underwear was unhooked from my feet, bringing it to my face to sniff. “Lethu bella tentatrice, per favore, ferma il mio amore.” Lethu beautiful temptress, please stop my love. He begged, pressing on the gas. The white lace flew to his lap and I watched as he pulled it up to his face, sniffing it. His eyes closed and when they opened I knew I was in for it. The car took a swerve fifteen minutes later and we were down and near the beach. I could hear the water crush. I could smell them and I could feel them already kissing my skin. We drove up a narrow tropical driveway th
I changed to my reception dress and I danced what seemed like hours with Elio. He spun me around the dance square with my smile so bright my jaw nearly dislocated. After him I danced with Salvatore. It was three full songs of him just waltzing me in his arms. “What do I call you? Sal? Big Bro? Volturi? Oohh, I like that one.” I chirped up as he spun me away only for my body to spin back into his arms. His face fell into a frown. “Do I even want to know what that is?” He questioned as I giggled. “You should watch the twilight movie and the breaking dawn movies. I promise you will like them.” I grinned, him corking a brow but then relaxed. I knew he would watch them and I wished I could see his reaction. I would pay money for it. My insides melted for the hundredth time. He picked me up, my palms on his with my whole weight on him as we turned around. As sad as it had been back then, the wedding being postponed was a blessing because there I was, dancing like a princess with the men
I knew there were over a thousand guests scattered on both sides but I could only see blurs. I heard the buzz, so many drones capturing the whole moment. I heard the weeps, the guests even more emotional. My eyes fixed further down the alter where I was going and I could not help but gasp as my vision cleared. I had last seen Elio the morning before when Salvatore and all the men took him away for a day and night to remember. He stood in his black tux looking so good. His eyes were on me, never faltering. His leg shook and I knew he was holding everything back from just weeping as I was. I was full-on crying and it was so embarrassing. By the time we reached the end I was not even sure I could stand on my own. “Who gives her away?” The officiate asked. “I do.” Mom spoke, pulling her arm from me. Elio descended down and held out his hand. Mom put my hand in his before he kissed my cheek then Elio’s. “I love you both.” She whispered and it nearly left me scattered on the floor lik
Two Months Later “Champagne?” My fifteen-year-old sister gestured, the glass filled with the sparkling liquid held out for me. I narrowed my eyes at her. “Hold it for me sis.” She turned around and I watched as she scoured the room for mother’s eyes before she quickly took a sip. It was why she took the champagne glass in the first place. I chuckled, shaking my head. About seven people ran around me, picking a certain part of the dress, pinning, or dusting something off. They were all in panic which hid my own panic. Eyes from the girls were on me as they dived in the delicates offered in the room. I folded my moist hands, eyes moving around the large room again with red the only thing I saw. Elio took it upon himself to make sure I woke up with every part of our room filled with dahlia flowers. There were boxes on boxes of red, pink and white dahlias. I blushed and nearly giggled while recalling the smell that had hit my nostrils as I came alive from dream land. My head had tu
Giving Elio his sponge bath was the highlight of my days as the week progressed along with spending some time with my mother. It was the only time where no one else occupied the room, leaving me with Elio to take care of him. It brought some light back in me. If anyone walked in they would label me crazy because the whole process was spent with me just talking his ear off or singing to him, hoping my terrible singing would wake him up. I realized just then that he was my best friend and not being able to hear his voice over the days tore me apart. I refrained from telling him about my mother and siblings because I wanted to do it when I could stare in his eyes and see him excited for me. In a span of three days I had learned so much about my mother’s life and culture. She taught me so many things and I could not wait to have cooking dates with her which we put a pin on because she and my siblings were leaving in a day. It saddened me but surely Elio and I would visit whenever we coul
Death. You can dream about it. You can talk about it. You can prepare for it but when it hits, it breaks everything in you and shows you that you can never be ready for it. Silence. A great abyss of silence. I saw them talk. I saw them walk. I saw them stand before me, eyes staring and lips moving but all I heard was silence. I curled myself in the chair, feet on the suede. A fleece blanket covered me, not sure when it was draped over but it brought me warmth. Head on my knees with my left hand holding on, afraid to let go because I was afraid that if I did then they would snatch Elio away. Internal bleeding, fractured ribs, torn muscles, ruptured spline. The list went on and on. The doctor’s words came and went as they had in the three days of my grief. A hand fell on my shoulder, my body jerking in fright, my eyes turning—red and burning. Brown eyes stared at me, never leaving. I could see the sadness, the heartache, reflecting pain I could not describe. For long minutes I jus
Mamma led us to the dining table where food lay in abundance. It seemed they had prepared a feast for Elio’s return. Mamma pulled Elio’s chair and he pulled mine back. We sat down, smiling and thanking as Mamma fussed over him, asking how he was, touching his face, kissing his cheeks, and plating his food. I took my own plate, just filing it because I was dead hungry. The few house staff stood by the door, watching and listening. Other family members, far many than those I left, took their seats. Dario stared at Elio intensely and as my eyes drifted around, Salvatore was nowhere to be seen. Irya sat on her chair, no one next to her. Three new people walked through the doors and I nearly splattered apart right there and then. My eyes went wide. Brown eyes stared back at me as if they had been waiting a lifetime to connect to mine. My world shook and crumbled all around me. I did not know if to cry, shout, jump, or just run. I felt like running, running from the truth staring right at
I don’t know when I fell asleep but I do recall hearing screams somewhere. I heard the crash of glass and I shrunk into myself before darkness engulfed me. In my dreams more trauma waited. In my dream I had been late and when I got to Eduardo he told me it was too late, that Elio had passed. The grief rocked me so hard I could feel myself shiver hard even in sleep. I tried shifting around the sheets to find warmth but none was provided. At a point I cried, weeping for my lost love and the feeling haunted me even as my eyes peeled open. My chest was so sore I couldn’t stop rubbing it. My body ached as if I had been thrown into a hurricane. The sheets were all twisted around me, some hanging to the floor. A trickle of sweat ran down my spine and instead of feeling rested, I felt as if someone murdered then brought me back to life. Movement caught my eye and that was when I saw Elio, his back turned to me. He was buttoning up his clean navy shirt, his hair combed back to perfection. Th