We make each other alive. Does it matter if it hurts? -Ingmar Bergman. |L O R E N Z O|My mind is chaos as I fight the urge to force her to admit who she belongs to. She doesn't know the height of my obsession with her and I am keen on making her realise that. But then she had to say, "Don't force me, Lorenzo" in that soft and collected voice. Her voice was so low and shaky that I thought she would start crying right now. So, despite the urge to get my way with her I leaned backwards and met her violet eyes which looks at me like I am her saviour, right now but she has been her own saviour for the whole life. My heart starts beating wildly against my rib cage when I register the look on her face. I feel like killing someone so I can take the memory of her current facial expressions out of my mind. I set her both the wrist free and she brought them up to take my face in her palms, gently, like she wants to be careful with me. Like, she wants
Stare at the dark too long and you will eventually see what is not there. -Unknown. |I R I S|Walking alone in this big mansion and that too after watching a horror movie brings a very new experience to me, that, I don't want to experience in all honesty. But since I am hungry I have to walk to the kitchen and get something for me to eat. There isn't even a single soul in this mansion except the two guards at the entrance, who probably won't even hear me screaming, just in case. I would have even appreciated Bianca's presence right now. Okay, maybe not really. But what I mean to say is that I am so freaking scared. I walk with slow steps and hyper aware of my surroundings. At first, I got scared of my own freaking steps. So, to spare myself another heart attack I took my flip-flops in my hand and walked. Why the flamingo is it so silent today? Maybe because there is no one except you? I grin when the kitchen comes in view but before
I am terrified by this dark thing that sleeps in me. -Sylvia Plath. |L O R E N Z O|The guards bow to me when I pass them to enter the mansion. The gardens before the mansion are looking more lively than before. The flowers which Iris water almost everyday, are looking beautiful even under the light of a bulb. I walked a little faster and opened the door of the mansion. To my surprise it is all dark inside, not even a light is on. A frown touched my lips as I checked my surroundings for any kind of danger. Just then Iris' words from earlier repeated in my head. She said she would watch a horror movie today. Does that mean she did all this to make it more exciting? Because there is no way that there is an electricity cut when all the lights from outside are still very much working. Like Rowan says and does.With careful foot steps and not ignoring the chances of it being a completely different situation I step ahead. "Iris?" I called but n
The thing I am most afraid of is me. Of not knowing what I am going to do. Of not knowing what I am doing right now. -Harumi Murakami.|I R I S|I stop crying after an hour or two or even more, I don't know. What I know is that Lorenzo held me in his arms as long as I cried, helping me breath when I forgot how the simple process of inhaling and exhaling breath. He rubbed small circles on my back while I sobbed in his chest and soaked his shirt with my tears. I can't let go off his hand for the life of me. I feel like I would go back to that man or creepy man who ran after me like he is so determined on sucking the life out of my body. While I ran with my whole strength because I was so decisive about saving myself from his darkness. The darkness that scared me to hell. The darkness that looked like would swallow me whole and wouldn't spit me out, ever. So, I ran and ran and ran until I reached the only room I find solace in. Because I know even
Perhaps home is not a place but simply an irrevocable condition. -James Baldwin. |I R I S|"Now, I need you to calm down and tell me what fuck happened." He asks when I am pretty sure the sun is soon to rose. It's close to 5:30am and yes, we did stay awake whole night. He stayed with me. I peel away from his warm embrace despite wanting otherwise to face him when I tell him. "There was someone in the house." I tell him and his expressions stays blank while I speak, "I was hungry and was going to kitchen but then suddenly all the lights went off and it was dark everywhere." I explained as the scene played slowly again and again in my head. "Then, suddenly that person came out. He was dressed in a black hoodie. Matching the darkness around me." I say as my mind drifted of to the last night. I told him everything and he listened attentively, his facial expressions changed slowly from blank to murderous. "Come out, baby." His heavy voice said
I felt there was no point in telling anyone anything that was happening inside me. -Christa Wolf. |I R I S|It's been two days since that horrific incident happened. Lorenzo has been hell bent on finding the man who managed to break in his mansion. That also made him question his security, as a result, he changed the whole security from the pass lock to other systems. He even called Shawn for help with the security system since he is like a genius human being when it comes to computers and technology. Two guards in black stands at the door of the kitchen and I give both of them a small smile before I enter inside the kitchen. Did I mentioned that there are now guards even inside? They just stands at their places like a robot. I have never seen even a slight change in their facial expressions which helped me to reach at the conclusion of them being a robot. Anyways, it's the day of charity ball and as much as I had like to go out with Lo
Look how we bleed from all this wanting. -Ama Asantewa Diaka. |L O R E N Z O|"Do you think-" Lucas started but over excited child among us, Rowan, cut him off in between. "All the time. I am a good thinker, you know." He smiles widely at Lucas and I shift my attention ahead of me. I have better things to do. "That's not what I meant. Do you think-" Rowan again interrupted poor Lucas, thinking that this is where the question ends ever fucking time. "Yep." Rowan answered with a grin. "Will you be quiet?!" Lucas snapped and I think Rowan just enjoys getting on everyone's nerves, including mine, especially mine. "I am trying to ask you something." Lucas says. "Ask away." Rowan says as he brings out a fucking candy from his pocket. What the fuck he is? A toddler? "Thank you." Lucas said, sarcasm dripping from him voice, but Rowan seemed to be deaf when it comes to this thing called sarcasm because he answered, "You're welcome." "Ugh I forgot what I
She is the kind of trouble, I ,for the life of me, can not stay away from. She is like my favourite kind of trouble. -Unknown. |L O R E N Z O|She stands like a fucking fairy between these fuckers who all eye her with the same intention, they have no right to even think of. The urge to punch all of them in the face and to pluck there eyeballs out of those socket, solely, for the reason for looking at what's mine, like that. She is wearing a black dress - that makes my blood red even when I think of this color - with off shoulder and a large slit that stops at her right upper thigh. Her tan leg is out for show and everyone has their eyes either on her leg or her chest. But she is unknown to all of this as her wide round violet eyes roam around in the hall like a child who has seen ball for the first time. But when she notices the whole attention from her surroundings, I notice her body language changing from lost to uncomfortable. She in
Two months later..."You are hot." Iris' mother complimented Lorenzo and he blushed under the judgmental gaze of his girlfriend's mother."Daisy!" Mr. Emerson scolded but only if his wife was one from listening."What? Isn't he?" Mrs. Emerson looked up at her husband with doe eyes and her husband gave in."Thank you so much for coming." Lorenzo thanked the couple, genuinely."Oh come on, you are proposing her. We need to be here." Mrs. Emerson shrugged."You better take care of my little daisy or I will kill you." Mr. Emerson threatened and a death warning coming from such a sweet person absolutely had an deep impact.Lorenzo nodded his head as he assured the couple, "I will always take care of her. And, if any day I fail, you are free to take my life." Lorenzo added.Mr. Emerson nodded with assurance at the man's sincerity before walking ahead towards their assigned room."How is my favourite son doing?" Came his mother's voice.He beamed at his mother before she pulled him in her mo
What we lived through is living in us. -Unknown. |I R I S|"I have a surprise for you." Both Lorenzo and Rowan said in unison. While Rowan had a big ass smile on his face regarding the same, Lorenzo had an evil smirk plastered on his face. I stared up at them, confused. "What surprise?" Lucas asked on my behalf. "Wait!" Rowan exclaimed and quickly rushed outside the mansion, leaving the three of us behind to wait for him. He returned with two people on his tail, but he was blocking my view so I could not really see them, until he stepped aside letting me take in my surprise. "Oh my god!" The words left my lips when I saw Tori and Vince standing at a few meter distance.Tori was wearing a yellow top and black jeans while Vince on the other hand was dressed formally, like going on a business trip. I waited no more time before I rushed to them and pulled Tori in a none crushing hug. She hugged me back, happily. "I am so happy that
An eye for an eye and the whole world goes blind. -Gandhi. |I R I S|"Good morning," A husky and drowsy voice greeted me in my sleep. My eyes fluttered open and I smiled, contently, at the beautiful sight in front of me. He was hovering my body and nuzzled his face in the crook of my neck when I gave him a smile. His nose tickled my sensitive skin, pulling out a giggle from me. My hands found their to his back and I sighed in pleasure as he marked my translucent skin with his torturous kisses. He took hold of my both hands in his one and pinned them above my head. His eyes gazed into mine for a fleeting second before he leaned down and crashed his lips against mine, holding me caged under his huge body. "God! I missed you." He whispered against my lips before he shoved tongue inside my mouth, ravishing it. I was completely at his mercy and he was merciless. His free hand explored my half naked body as his hand travelled from my s
Peace be upon those who hand pick their words, for fear of hurting anyone. -Unknown.|I R I S|Today, I am going to talk to Marcus. Because, umm, I kind of got distracted from the mental note I made last night. Anyways, I wore my white crop and black jeans before I headed towards his room. Marcus, I mean. Marcus' room is right opposite to Lorenzo's. The mansion is silent today, as if, people are still asleep. Most importantly Rowan. He is the only one who keeps this mansion alive with his cheerful screams when his favourite team wins a match, or when he running away from the other mam whoever he has pissed or annoyed in the mansion on the specific days. Once, I was standing in front of Marcus' room, I heaved out a long breath and lifted my hand to knock on his door. I waited for him to open the door while I thought about all the things I can possibly talk to him about. His sister? All the things starts from her and end on her. I was bu
I want you. Your bones. Your body heat. The bite marks your teeth leave, to see how bad and beautiful those eyes look beneath me. -Beau Taplin. |I R I S|After spending the whole day together inside the room with Rowan, talking and watching movies, we finally came out of that hole at night, during the dinner time. Lorenzo, Lucas and Marcus were already sitting at the dinner table, waiting for us while the servants served the food. Lorenzo's eyes immediately came to meet mine as if he has suddenly got some super natural powers to know about my whereabouts. I descended the stairs with Rowan on my tail. When we reached the dinner table, Rowan was quick to take a swat right next to Marcus, who by the way looked very lost and was barely eating. I made a mental note to have a conversation with him after dinner. I sat down next to Lorenzo on the dinning table, his heavy gaze ready to burn a hole in my head with the intensity he is watching me.
A loss is not always a lesson. Sometimes it's just a tragedy. -Unknown. |I R I S|I saw through my half open lids as he immediately rushed to me in the burning house. Vince."Iris!" He called out again but my body feels so hot and exhausted that it feels almost impossible for me to say anything. The wound in my chest hurts so much, "Iris, open your eyes." Vince patted my cheeks as he tried to get me back to my senses. Vince looked worried. Sick worried. Like with me, he himself is going to get admitted in the hospital along with me. If we would even reach there in time. "Fuck!" He cursed and if he is cursing then the matter is really worse. Because Vince does not curse. I have never heard him curse except the one time when Tori fell down the stairs. Vince was scared for her because he thought she is going to die and leave him alone. He might not say it but it is very obvious that he loves his sister so much. Tori is lucky to have h
When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth. -Jess C. Scott. |I R I S|Today morning, when I woke up, my day was already reserved for Ronan without my knowledge. So, I was waken up in the most horrible way one could wake up. That stupid human being threw a bucket of cold water on me. It not only ruined my precious sleep but also ruined my sheets as well. And, now he is sitting at floor in my room while the servant changes the sheet. I am in the bathroom brushing my teeth when all I wanted to do was sleep. "Hurry up, lazy lad." He yelled out from outside growing impatient after ruining my morning. With brush in my mouth I could not properly speak so I just rolled my eyes and went ahead to spit out the content in my mouth. I splattered cold water on my face and my eyes did not felt as heavy as before anymore. I am going to kill Rowan. Was my first thought since my brain
I can not tell you how piercingly and endlessly I think about you. -Virginia Wolf. |I R I S|A new day, a new morning, a new start and a new beginning. I woke up after a long night that provided me with the enough rest I needed for today. Stretching my arms, I let out a lazy yawn and rubbed my eyes with the back of my palm. When my eyes opened properly, I looked around in the room I was sleeping in. The same room, I used before. Everything seems exactly the same, just a few changes here and there. I smiled at the memories that are connected to this room, fondly, before standing up from the bed.I opened the curtains of the room letting the sun rays enter the room to lighten up the dark room. Light reached almost all the corners of the room, filling it with a new yellow and glowing light. My lips curved in a cheerful smile at the joy of this mew beginning.ast night, I decided to give my relationship with Lorenzo another chance. Despite all
I just want to be in love with somebody who wants to be in love with me. -Unknown. |L O R E N Z O|I took her petite hands in mine and looked into her eyes with tenderness before I spoke, "I did a lot of horrible things, Iris." I started, speaking with my heart because I do not remember remembering these words when I was preparing for the apology speech that Google helped me write. "I made mistakes. I disappointed you. I hurt you." I confessed all my mistakes, "But, I never meant to." I told her. "I am not trying to justify my actions here. Trust me." I insisted as if my world would crumble down if she would believe otherwise. Her violet orbs stayed focused at me while I spoke, not saying a word or interrupting me, "I.. I want to tell you that everything was wrong. It was so fucking wrong. And, you do not know how fucking sorry I am." My voice shakes when I say this and I control myself from breaking into a crying mess. Because I feel th