2. Am I Overreacting?

"You don't want to tell me your problem?" asked Lina after the enter the room in the

Gebangrejo Village leader’s house. Sazkia looked at Lina for a moment. She didn't know how to respond to Lina's request.

Tell her true feelings or choose to keep a secret. Both of them are really difficult. Sazkia wanted to tell the truth about her relationship with Qomar, but she was afraid that Lina couldn't keep her secret but If She doesn't say the problem, she feels very heavy. She doesn't want to keep her troubles alone. She needs to share and find a solution.

            Sazkia tries to find activities to make Lina forget her question. She put her bag and jacket on the carpet. She took off er veil and combed her long hair, then lay down in the corner of the room.

            “I feel very tired Lin.” Said Sazkia

Lina smiled. She knew Sazkia was distracting. she also knows that her friend is grieving. but Lina did not want to force Sazkia to talk honestly with her. Lina immediately did the same thing that was done by Sazkia. took off the veil and lay down beside Sazkia.

Sazkia started to close her eyes. She is restless. Remembering how Qomar came and his statement that he was sorry he didn't send messages for two days. Sazkia smiled. She knew Qomar was relieved when she said she was not angry, but she could not tolerate Qomar's insensitivity to the problems she was currently facing.

Sazkia turned around. Trying to forget the pain that assaulted her since yesterday. She was eager to forgive whatever Qomar's actions were at the disaster site. She wanted to understand whatever feelings and kindness Qomar showed to the refugees. She wanted to understand that Qomar was indeed kind-hearted and did not have any intention of all the actions he did to everyone without exception.

But the more She understood, the more She didn't understand why her lover would do things that It should not be done by men to beautiful women like Syamsa, although when Syamsa was unconscious.

“It's not that you didn't text me, Brother Qomar. I was angry because of your sweet treatment to Syamsa. You do it behind me, as if you don't know that someone is looking at you. Syamsa is indeed beautiful and attractive. She is able to sedate anyone who looks at her. Syamsa is an idol on our campus, but isn't there the slightest taste that prevents you from kissing her? You already have me. But you don't think about my feelings, ”muttered Sazkia while wiping the tears that started to melt down her face with the hem of the jacket she used to cover her face. Sazkia looked at the bedroom wall, then closed her eyes once again. There was pain in the gut which made it difficult for her to sleep. A strange swish also started appearing all over her body causing her to take a deep breath to reduce her anxiety.

"Have you slept?" Lina, who had been lying on her back, now turned her body to face Sazkia who was turning her back. Sazkia was silent. She knew Lina was staring at her, but She didn't want to respond to anything at all. She felt there was no point telling other people about her problems. She did not want anyone to know her problem, including Lina, her best friend.

After not receiving an answer, Lina tried to lean back on her back. Her hand grabbed the backpack over her head and used it as a pillow.

"Okay when you sleep. I'm going to sleep too. Actually I'm sure you're still awake. But no problem. At least you know that I care about you. "

Lina changed her sleeping position, turning her back on Sazkia. She tried to close her eyes. But just as She closed his eyes and flew into her dreamland, Sazkia poked her on the back. Lina was surprised. She opened her eyes and turned to the side, looking at Sazkia who was now staring at her.

"Am I wrong if I get angry, Lin?"

Lina smiled. She turned to face Sazkia then shook her head lightly. She wanted to hug a woman's body in front of her, but She was ashamed to be seen as an abnormal person by the other female volunteers.

"Nothing is wrong. Even when you and him haven't tied the knot to love each other, you have the right to be angry. "

Sazkia smiled wryly at Lina's explanation. She nodded.

"Am I not overreacting?"

"Not at all."

Sazkia started crying. The tears that She was holding back with all her heart were now broken. It can't be stopped anymore. She closed her mouth so that her friends would not hear her sobs.

Lina who saw Sazkia's tears immediately got up. She stroked the head of Sazkia, a girl who now looked vulnerable due to problems.

"Be patient, please! I believe you are strong. "

Sazkia was stunned to hear Lina's sentence, who was now wiser than  Lina, she previously knew. She who usually knew how Lina was smiling. Seeing Sazkia's smile, Lina felt suspicious. She thought Sazkia was getting depressed, starting to become depressed because of her anger at Qomar.

"Why are you smiling?"

"Like you’re not Lina, ha ha ha."

Lina who heard Sazkia's laughter immediately slammed her fist on Sazkia's shoulder softly. She is worried about the smartest student in her class.

“You too, don't seem like Sazkia. I'm usually the one in your position. Fragile. But now it's upside down. Ha ha ha"

"Yes, yes. Upside down. The shame is that I'm fragile because of a boy. Am I really too much? " said Sazkia while covering her face with a jacket.

Lina looked around the room, where the female volunteer friends were no longer awake. Lina put her fore finger on her lips, giving orders so they were quiet. Sazkia nodded then gave her thumbs up while smiling sweetly.

Sazkia lowered her jacket then turned around. By saying bismillah, She closed her eyes, trying to forget the incident that made her hurt. Until a few minutes passed, Lina who was still worried about Sazkia's condition smiled when she heard a small snore from next to her.

"You are dizzy, why am I the one who can't sleep? Huh, if you know about this, I'd better not bother you, Saz. "

Lina immediately closed her eyes, trying to focus on her original goal, take a break to arrange new energy so that tomorrow can work again in the kitchen. Just as She was about to close her eyes, She remembered that She had not prayed Isha.

Lina woke up. She saw that all ten female volunteers in the same room as her fell asleep. She looked at Sazkia who was even now snoring. Lina wanted to wake up Sazkia and ask her to accompany, but she remembered that Sazkia was sad. The hand She had stretched out, She was forced to pull back. Slowly, Lina stood up, then stepped out of her room towards Mrs. Syamsul's kitchen.

"Where are you going, Sista?"

Lina turned to the source of the voice. Looking for the owner of the voice who could surprise her, but there was no one around her. Lina's hair stood on end, enduring the fear that started attacking her. Her lips were moving, saying the best she could. Again She turned her head to the source of the sound, making sure that no one was there.

After confirming that she really was alone, Lina immediately ran to the bathroom. Se immediately performed ablution then returned to the room in a hurry.

"Thank God it's safe." Se muttered

Lina immediately took the veil and put it on, then started the evening prayer with a fifty percent streak. She is afraid to imagine there is a ghost in Gebangrejo Village leader's mansion.

Five minutes later, Lina finished her prayer. She folded the veil and placed it on the table. She hurried to the carpet, where She slept next to Sazkia who was probably dreaming. She saw Sazkia smiling face while muttering something.

"If you knew my fear tonight, you definitely wouldn't smile  sweetly like that, Saz" muttered Lina as she lay down. She failed to close her eyes until it was 1.30 am. The shadows of ghosts and a mysterious voice in front of the bathroom still bothered her.