Chapter 5

ISABELLA

Entering my house I was very nervous and not only for facing my father, after being late but also for Alexander, this man had something in him that attracted me more than I would like to admit, I had never met someone like that and I had never felt what I feel when I see him or when he touches me, that electricity I felt when he took my arm has me totally disconcerted, wanting to discover if every touch of his will feel like that, but I know this man has something dangerous about him, I know it by the way he looks at me and I know I don't have to get close but that's all I want when I see him, all the control and confidence he exudes makes me want to be close, it seems like nothing could bring him down and no one could control him, he makes you feel like he can dominate the world easily, that's what attracts me the most besides his stunning good looks and those beautiful grey eyes that cast a spell on you.

"Why the fuck are you so late?" asked my father angrily as he approached me with a frown on his face and one of his hands clenched into a fist and I couldn't help but shudder.

"Daddy the car had a fault and wouldn't start, I had to wait for someone to come and get it fixed." I explained as calmly as I could, trying not to take a step back, because that would make him even more angry.

He reached over and grabbed my neck squeezing just a little as he watched me closely with narrowed eyes to assess if I was lying and I fought my urge to get his hands off me and yell that he should leave me alone, that I wasn't lying and that I was tired of putting up with his mood swings and bullshit rules when I was home, I wanted to tell him everything I was sorry when he acted that way but I just couldn't because things would get too bad for me.

"You know I hate being kept waiting and you better have money to pay for his repair because I'm not giving it to you" he said releasing me "so get a move on, let's go eat."

I just nodded and continued towards the dining room, thinking that again I would have to take money from the little savings I had managed to save, hopefully it really wouldn't be as expensive as Alexander said. I had a plan and without money everything would become more difficult, besides I have to be prepared in case things get worse here, in that case I would have to improvise and for that I would need more money, I really wish I didn't have to worry about these things and live my life as I made everyone think it is, full of luxuries and perfect, and well of course I have luxuries after all I live in a big house and I have a very nice car and brand clothes, but I also have to live in fear while everything in my life is being controlled by someone else, when I know I can't make any kind of mistake or there will be consequences, so to tell the truth my life is quite far from the perfection I like to pretend to be to mask my weakness.

When we had already finished eating and I was going to retire to my room my father stopped me to inform me that tomorrow he was going on a trip again and I almost jumped with joy, but I hid it in front of him so he would not suspect anything, at last I will have a few days of tranquility and freedom, but he did not know about this freedom I had in his absence, He believed that I still followed his rules when he left, because if I did not comply, Mirtha our housekeeper had to inform him, but she understood me and covered for me, that woman is like an angel for me, she is the one who has given me the maternal affection that I did not have and thanks to her I have been able to have a little freedom and I have been able to forget about the rules that torment me so much at times when my dad goes on a trip.

I went up to my room happy in spite of what happened because having a few days without my dad is the best thing that can happen in my life, every time he goes on a trip I feel like a huge weight is lifted off my shoulders.

The hours passed and when I was organizing my things for tomorrow, Mirtha came into my room to inform me that they were looking for me at the door and to my surprise when I came down it was a worker from some mechanic shop that came to deliver my car, I thought it wouldn't be ready today, He only made me sign a delivery sheet to leave me the keys and the car ready and when I asked him about the payment he explained to me that it had already been paid and that he did not know the amount, he was just following orders, so now I have to contact Alexander to pay him but I do not have his number, I only gave him mine and he has not called or written, I hope he at least sends me a message telling me how much it is, to prepare me for what I have to pay.

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Alexander never called or wrote, so I hope to see him today to clarify about the payment, just when I was thinking about that I see him walking towards me, as perfect as always wearing a white dress shirt with the sleeves rolled up and inside a black dress pants with a belt, always looking so neat and perfect, an almost celestial or infernal apparition, maybe the second option is more accurate because those gray eyes they have burn and only incite to sin, to do the wrong thing and I don't know what is happening to me but my heart at this moment wants to jump out of my chest.

"Hi" he greeted as he came to my side with that mischievous smile, which was driving me crazier at this moment.

"Hi" I said smiling back "I was going to look you up to thank you for yesterday and ask you how much I owe you."

"Don't worry, it's nothing" he said making a nonchalant gesture with his hand.

"Yes it is something, yesterday you helped me a lot and the least I can do is pay you what it cost to repair my car" I insisted.

"Well if you want to pay me so much invite me to dinner at your house or any restaurant you like, I don't know much here" he suggested with a smile and with that look that made me uneasy and at the same time attracted me more and which made it clear that he would not accept any other kind of payment and my rational part wanted me to tell him it was ok if he didn't want to receive a payment and continue my way as if nothing, but this new part of me that was coming to light when I was close to him told me the opposite and for once I let myself go by my instincts.

"Ok, so text me tomorrow at 7 pm and I'll send you the address of a place to meet me there."

"Isn't it better if I pick you up and we go together? I mean because I haven't even lived here for two weeks and we'll pollute less this way" he asked with a flirtatious smile while looking me in the eyes.

As if this beautiful man cared about contamination, that was definitely an excuse, but I decided to accept it anyway. Looking at those catching eyes of his I could hardly deny him anything.

"Well okay, pick me up at 8 pm, call me when you get there and I'll be out, no need to get out of the car, bye" I said as I left for my first class of the day, trying to calm myself down as I was starting to regret letting myself get carried away by my less rational side.

But I was also so excited to go out with this man, who eliminated every rational part of my brain when he was around. He caused so many fascinating sensations in me with just one look that it was driving me crazy, I wanted to run away from him because I was scared of all this, but at the same time I wanted to see how far he would go. What new sensations I could discover with this man who doesn't leave my head.

I want to know what it feels like to be truly free without worries, without so much stress and all that pressure of having to be and look perfect both at college and at home and all that constant pressure disappears when those gray eyes envelop me, with mixed emotions that I am still trying to decipher.

I still try to understand what is behind that look, I want to discover what this man hides when he looks at me, I want to discover everything about him and I know that I will probably get hurt in this search, but I want to take a risk for once, do the wrong thing and now that my dad will be away, I have the time to let myself go by my instincts and those eyes that erase all my other thoughts.