ALEXANDER Since I said goodbye to Isabella that day everything has become so monotonous, I went back to my job at last, but the things I used to enjoy I haven't felt the same.I feel an emptiness in my heart that I have not been able to fill with anything, and instead my mind is full of her, she is all I can think about and she has even crept into my dreams.I have been about to call her a million times to tell her that I am dying to see her, but I have held back not wanting to disturb her peace, after everything she has been through I just want her to be happy, even if it is without me.I just have to find a way to forget her, to get her out of my skin and that's what I'm trying to do today, in one of the most exclusive bars in Manhattan located on the top floor of a building from which you can see the city.Seeing all the lights around me as I take another sip of my drink, I look at my companion for tonight, an old friend, who looks perfect today, hoping I can take her to my bed.A
ISABELLA Soon the day came to fly to New York, my stomach was upset by the nerves of starting something new, in a different place and where there was a chance to meet again with the man I love and missed too much, being both in the same city again filled me with anxiety, if forgetting him was difficult knowing that I had no chance of seeing him, forgetting him knowing that I can meet him at any time seemed impossible.I knew that I would be constantly thinking about whether I would see him that day, while secretly wishing it would be so and at the same time being afraid that it would happen.But I had already made a decision and I had to deal with it, plus I can't dwell on something that may never happen. So here I was at the airport saying goodbye to my friends to go in search of a new beginning."I'm going to miss you so much" Caroline said hugging me "if you don't feel comfortable there I'll be happy to welcome you back to my home, you'll always have open doors.""Thank you for th
ISABELLA I had already started college and had gotten a job at a bar as a waitress at night, because it would not interfere with my classes and with the tips I could save more to move out of Andrew's apartment. Besides, the bar was great, one of the most expensive in New York, and the people there were very wealthy, so the pay and tips were good, and the people there were not much trouble.As for living with Andrew and Maddie I think things were not going so well, they were still very nice, but things felt really tense between the two of them, well that's how I was feeling and I was afraid that my stay there could be the reason, so I was doing everything I could to save as much as possible to leave as soon as possible."Isa, go clean that table and put it as reserved, someone important is coming," ordered my boss pointing to a table in the back of the establishment, more hidden than the others, where the lights of the place almost did not focus, it was VIP.As if this person did not
ALEXANDER When I saw Isabella I thought I had gone crazy from missing her so much or that I was just dreaming, I couldn't believe that she was the one here this time so far away from where she lived and different from how I was used to see her, but when I realized that this was not a dream or an illusion, I wanted to lock her in my arms and not let her go again, but I restrained myself and tried to talk to her and when she refused being about to cry was that I realized how imbecile I was being, I was hurting her again.She wanted to forget about our past and me telling her those things, but they were the truth, there is not a single day that I don't miss having her in my arms, that I don't miss every part of her.And here I was, in the crowded bar, at a table tinged with darkness and half a bottle less, drinking to her, to see if my feelings would go away with the alcohol, to see if with that I could cushion all this pain of not being able to have her with me, of having lost her.But
ISABELLA I was furious, Alexander did not stop drinking one drink after another, it was too much and I did not want to see him like that, besides feeling his intense gaze all the time on me.Worried about him, when my shift was over I had no choice but to approach him to tell him to stop and after my insistence he had accepted and was leaving, but maybe I was being silly again or I had lost my mind, but I could not leave him alone in that state, so I decided to take him, I did not want anything to happen to him.I went to get my things while I left him waiting for me and to deliver the money from his account to my manager."Here is the money from that table" I said handing him the money and pointing to where Alexander was at first."Perfect you can go." he said taking it and I nodded and went to where I had left my purse and met Mariam who did not have a good look on her face."You're going with him? Apparently you're not as saintly as you look" she hinted grimacing.I didn't say any
ALEXANDER After the alcohol left my system, I reacted to the idea that I had had Isabella around all this time, after I had stayed away from her that last time I only checked on her whereabouts after she got out of the hospital to make sure she was okay and the last I had heard from her was that she was living with her friend and still at the same college, after that I tried not to relate to anything to do with her, except the search for her bastard of a father and I had no idea she had moved here.What I didn't understand was, why, and more importantly, alone? I know her friend is here and because of the building she lives in it is impossible for her to be renting it or own it.I know there's nothing going on with him on her side, but that doesn't mean he doesn't want something more even though he has a girlfriend, so I just can't help the jealousy starting to eat away at me because of that.Plus I was so grateful to her for caring about me after all, she's definitely an angel and s
ISABELLA Seeing so much suffering and regret in Alexander's eyes for what happened to me hurt me a lot, I could not believe how much he blamed himself for that and how much he had suffered for that day too, he was tormented.I am too, but at the same time being free from my father's reach helped me to leave all that behind and that was wonderful, before that I lived in fear every day and I don't feel that way anymore, I just want him to be caught so we can all be at peace and have the guarantee that he won't continue hurting other people.What Alexander feels is deeper, I don't even know if by catching my dad I can be at peace, I wish he wouldn't feel that way because it's not his fault, what happened that day had nothing to do with him.The only thing he was guilty of that day was breaking my heart by approaching me seeking revenge that he never collected, but him approaching me for that reason no longer allows me to trust him again to have a relationship, even though I still love h
ALEXANDER Today I had woken up in the wee hours of the morning with the horrible nightmare about that day, I am immensely grateful to Isabella for not blaming me for what happened but I can't let it go, not when those images haunt me.In many of my nights that day is replayed, filling me with fear for seeing her like that, replaying the same terror I experienced thinking she might be dead, the same guilt for allowing her to be harmed like that, for not being able to protect her from either my sister or her father.Every time I dream of that damn day I wake up sweating, my heart pounding and trying to remember that she is okay, that this is part of the past, wanting to make sure she is really okay and needing to see her.Then I have to calm my anxiety to see her, so as not to disturb her life and much less tell her what is happening to me, I hoped that at least by imprisoning the main cause these nightmares could be lessened.But that bastard is still free, this has me in a constant s