His eyes became cold and hard at the mention of the name, he jumped off the couch harshly pacing around the room, pulling at his hair. The sight of it alone made my insides churn, I had rarely seen him so uncomposed it was an unnatural sight to witness."You don't remember?" his steps halted, he stood facing me a mere five feet away but I could feel the negative emotions roll off of him. "I don't know what I remember," I sighed embarrassed. How could I not remember?"You blocked it out for a reason, Embry, maybe you just leave it at that." Tears of frustration started to spill out, he didn't get it. "Me knowing about it is not your decision to make, I'm just asking you to tell me something I have a right to know of" I protested, jumping from my sitting position as adrenaline ran through my veins.Nothing good ever comes from adrenaline and Noah."Oh yeah, then who gets to decide Embry, because I'm pretty sure you decided you didn't want to know" the volume of his voice was rising but
Whining, I rolled over onto my side trying to clutch onto another sweet hour of peaceful sleep. My body protested, willing me to get up and empty my bladder, these bodily functions are really beginning to get on my nerves.Grudgingly I lifted myself out of the bed and plodded towards the bathroom, the bathroom tiles cold beneath my bare feet. Re-entering the room that I was now to call my own I found myself stuck in a dilemma. I mean, not as big as the general dilemma my life has become but it still seemed like a pretty significant thing at the moment.Do I get dressed? Do I just walk downstairs? Do I get dressed and then walk downstairs or do I wait for Noah to come? Would he be mad if I left the room by myself, but would he be mad if I didn't go downstairs by myself?Hesitantly I pulled out clothes for myself, yet again lacking shoes. Maybe this whole kidnapping thing will give me time to work on my sense of style, that's good Embry you keep cracking jokes so you can avoid the peril
My body sunk into the mattress as I let myself get lost following the patterned swirls on the wallpaper. A task that allowed me to shut off my thoughts, if I was to guess I would say it was around 4:30.The sour taste of vomit remained in my mouth from me splurging up my breakfast after the realisation that I had let Noah kiss me hit me. I had tried scrubbing my mouth, but nothing could help me get rid of the bitter taste in my mouth.I had locked the door as soon as I ran up here, which happened to have been approximately 3 seconds after the kiss ended. As soon as the lock slid into its crevice of the door the pounding guilt weighed down on my shoulders.The water works that had been ignited lasted closer to an hour before I managed to even gain some control on myself, so here I was. Lying pathetically on the bed, face tear stricken, saliva acidic with bile and thoughts null as I pushed away the popping up faces of my family.The look of betrayal in their eyes was enough to send me s
"God you're so perfect, little bug" his breath tickled my ear as he pulled away from the hug slightly to leave a small kiss on my forehead. I stepped away, breaking the hug as I remembered the reason I had come down here.Heat rose to my cheeks as I thought about what I was about to do, "actually I, I came down b-because I got my period and I need your help" my voice was irritatingly quiet as I spoke but I knew he had heard by the glisten of satisfaction at my choice of the last four words."Of course princess, let's go get you sorted" I hesitantly placed my hand in his awaiting one as he gently pulled me out of the kitchen in the direction of what I assumed would be a bathroom.As we passed the sitting room area, I forced myself up against Noah's back to avoid the dark hateful eyes of his brother. "It's okay, he won't hurt you princess, he knows his place now, don't you brother" he spat with such venom that I found my stomach muscles clenching in dread."Sorry Embry" I barely heard i
"911, what's your emergency"The bathroom door seemed weak, as if it was just a temporary fit after Noah broke the other one. At least that's what it sounded like as Sebastian threw his body against it. "Help me please, I've been kidnappe-'' the phone fell from my hands due to their violent shaking. "Sorry ma'am I didn't get that, would you be able to repeat what you just said ''. Diving to the ground to retrieve the phone I clutched it with both hands.The banging of the door was getting more violent with each second. "I've been kidnapped, I don't know where I am, my name is Embr-" a terror filled scream pierced the air as Sebastian's heaving body flew through where the door used to stand. "You f*cking b*tch" his boot slammed down crushing the phone against the tiles as his chest heaved up and down in fury.I crawled to the corner of the bathroom, curling my body into a ball as my tear filled sobs echoed throughout the bathroom. "Just wait until Noah gets his hands on you, god it's g
"I see you've met my mother" I broke away from the hug as Noah entered the hall, a smile covering most of his face. "Your descriptions didn't do her beauty justice Noah" she winked my way as I shyly looked away, a blush tainting my cheeks.A short woman rushed into the hallway, "excuse me ma'am, your presence is required in the kitchen" she stated formally, straightening out her uniform. "I'll see you at dinner sweetie, it was a pleasure to finally meet you" Evelyn smiled leaving Noah and I."Maids?" I questioned loudly, the look of confusion on my face sending Noah into a fit of laughter. "You are too cute, yes we have staff here so I assure you, you won't have to lift a finger" he smirked charmingly walking up to me."How about we get you showered and ready for dinner, my dad is very eager to meet you" nodding I silently followed his lead up the steps. The mention of his dad sending shockwaves of anxiety through my body, I had a feeling any future contact with a male would have this
Crawling into the bed beside a shirtless Noah, I scooted as close as far away from him as humanly possible. I was afraid if I moved even an inch he would hear the loud thrumming of my erratic beating heart."Night little bug" he sighed, rolling around so his back was facing me. Shutting my eyes, I internally groaned knowing it would be awhile before sleep and took me from this living nightmare.After a little while, I began focusing on the soft snores emitting themselves from the man beside me, the peaceful rhythm distracting me from thinking too much. Lying on my back, I traced the patterns on the ceiling as I always did when I couldn't sleep.My mind couldn't help but trail back to thoughts of my parents, I wondered what they were doing now, it had been four days ago when I was taken and they were told their only child had committed suicide, not that I could confidently keep count of the days anymore.Did they actually believe I was dead? Were they still mourning me? Or had I just b
Opening the door that sat to the side of us he shoved me inside. Screwing my eyes shut I waited for the impact of the ground to hit me. Eventually it did, but not quite the way I had imagined, instead I was met with a soft padding. Squinting to see what little I could in the dark room, I relied on the light from the open door.White cushioning was secured to every surface of the room, the floor, walls and ceilings. It was oddly familiar, it reminded me of some place I couldn't quite remember. "Call me when you're ready to start acting in an appropriate manner" Noah snarled before shutting the door in my fear-stricken face."Wait, no, Noah! Please I'm sorry" I practically wailed out, banging my fists against the door as the locks slid into place. I was never one for the dark, something about it turned my insides so intensely it had me wanting to tear my skin off. Choked sobs rang out around the confined space.Clutching my chest I tried to ease the sharp pain that came with every breat
Five years later...Embry's POVI rubbed my hands against the fabric of my trousers, the anxiety building within me at the large crowd of people. Pulling at the collar of my shirt I tried to ease my breathing, this wasn't my first book reading, but I always got very nervous at them.When I did these, I put my work, my inner thoughts in front of everybody to judge. I put my experience, my trauma before their scrutinising eyes. So far the audience seemed to be interested in what I was saying, in work that I had actually published. Something I never would have thought would be happening. But the book had been published for a month now and the reviews were beyond me.I suppose everything with Noah had its purpose in my life, its reason. It led me here. Led me to a dream of mine I had long forgotten under the weight of everything. My dream of being a writer. A silly hope I had when I was a child, one I never gave much of a second thought to.Taking a sip of the water, I cleared my throat p
Embry's POVIt had been two weeks since Jonathan had confronted me in the kitchen about who I was. Two very peaceful weeks. Well, as peaceful as my life could ever be in these circumstances I suppose. Noah had been sticking to his promise and I felt myself growing a little saner than I had been while stuck in the basement.I was achieving more freedom. Well in a certain sense. More freedom over my thoughts, slightly so in my actions to a small extent. Such as no longer having to ask permission to go outside and not having to second guess everything that I did. He was here and I was here and to me, we just happened to be here together."Everything okay little bug? You seem to be very in that head of yours" Noah questioned, taking the space on the couch beside me and lifting my legs onto his lap. Coming back to reality my eyes met his, "yeah, just thinking is all" I gave a small smile, turning my head back to the TV. We had started a show called Lost. Noah had picked it and I must give
"Like I said, I've worked for this family since I was a boy, my father watched Noah's mother go through the same thing Embry, whatever promises he makes that he won't hurt you anymore are lies. I can't force you to let me help you so whenever you realise what you need to do, you can come to me" he grabbed my hand, reassuringly squeezing it before walking out the door.Closing the door, I leaned my head against it, the tears flooding my vision. My shoulders shook with the weight of my grief as I tried to silence the noise of my sobs. He knew who I was. He knew me. I could have walked out that door with him, but what right did I have to put another life in danger. I slid down to the floor, allowing my body to curl up in misery. A raw sense of agony convulsed within my body, agony over this endless situation, over Indigo having actually cared about me, over the impact everything Noah said had on me.Jonathan had made a remark about not believing Noah's promises that he would no longer hu
Embry's POV"So, I'm going to kill myself."There it was. That feeling. The one that used to haunt me so often in the past year, that gnawing sense of hopelessness, of self betrayal. My composure dropped, and it sort of felt like I had blacked out for a couple moments, but I was aware of my existence. Aware of my consciousness sitting heavily in this temple I called a body.My body worked faster than my mind, as it had done so many times before. When the words seemed to register in my mind, I found myself staring straight into the empty eyes of the boy I had grown up with. The boy I had watched grow up. The boy I had shared many firsts with.I'm going to kill myself.....Kill myself...The uncomfortable memories sat heavy in my mind, haunting me. The ones I had tried so hard to block out, pushing their way back into my life. I was ashamed of them. They were a reminder of every weakness I could never overcome. A reminder of everything I swore would never happen again. My hearing had fa
Embry's POV"All I want to do is look after you Embry, I swear, you gave me this fresh start, I won't mess it up."But how was I to tell him, he already had.My glossy eyes were blankly trained on the floor, I couldn't look at him. Every time I did I seemed to lose a part of myself, a part of us. "Look at me Embry, everything I do, I do it for you, don't you get that?" Desperation seeped from his voice as I made no move to entertain him. "Or maybe you just say that to make yourself feel better" I muttered, gently rubbing my throbbing cheek."Do you know why I call you little bug?" He perked up, crouching in front of me so that I had no choice but to look at him. My silence was enough of an answer for him as he gently smiled, continuing. "Do you remember when-" sighing, my tears fell one by one, "don't Noah, just don't" I whispered. "Do you remember when we were kids, and one summer we were hanging out in your room and there was this spider in your bathroom," he rambled on, ignoring my
Embry's POV"Nice to meet you" I smiled, now meeting the eyeline of the man. I watched as he stretched his hand out for me to shake, but as he looked at my face his smile faltered.As if he knew something.As if he knew me."And you Mrs. Hill," he was quick to compose himself, his smile coming back full force. Shaking off the doubt I previously had, I excused it as grogginess from the flight earlier in the day, giving him a quick shake of my hand."Well, I should get going, it was lovely seeing you again Mr. Hill, and you Mrs. Hill, I shall bring fresh bread and fruit to you both in the morning, have a safe night," he gave a quick nod of his head before grabbing his things and leaving the kitchen."He seemed nice" I smiled, helping Noah put the new food in its correct places. "Yeah he is, he used to deliver groceries with his dad when I was a kid and we were on holidays here" he smiled softly, clearly lost in his memories."Tell me about it" I encouraged, shutting the cupboard, "your
Embry's POV"Wake up baby, we are here" a soft voice whispered in my ear as the sensation of a hand on my back came to the forefront of my awareness. Pushing my face further into the soft fabric I tried to block out the disturbance, too consumed by my utter sense of peace. Groaning in protest, I tried to shoo away the cold hand that now stroked my cheek. "Embry baby, we have to get up now" the deep voice became stern as my eyes tiredly opened and closed."I know, I know, I'm terrible, but I'm really excited to show you the new house, our new home" he murmured against my temple, gently pressing his lips against my skin. Taking a couple moments to regain consciousness, I sat with a prominent pout on my face, my body feeling heavy with sleep. "What a pouty little baby I have" Noah teased, lifting me from his lap as he jumped up to grab the bags that we kept in the seats across from us.My heart thudded in my chest as he abruptly stopped what he was doing and a massive smile lifted on his
Embry's POVDay 12My body shivered slightly with the coldness that enveloped it from the wet hair that sat heavily against my shoulders. My fingers continuously stroking the soft fabric of the dress, the feeling seeming foreign to me after spending so much time without it. That ended today, Noah had woken me up early enough, elation rolling off of him as he explained how we would be leaving today. I would finally get to leave this basement after God knows how long.I was at long last able to wear proper clothes again, hence my excitement with the dress, as well as a wool cardigan to keep the frosty January air from irritating my skin. I even had shoes. Small black pumps. "I was thinking of two French plaits, what do you think, little bug?" Noah questioned, already parting my hair as I gave a small nod."Words baby" he scolded as I hurried to fix my mistake, "French plaits would be nice, thank you Noah" I smiled, humming along to the playlist Noah had playing from his phone. "Good gir
Embry's POVDay 10.My legs were securely tucked underneath me as I sat on the heels of my feet, facing him. Six cards sitting coldly in my hand as I scrunch my eyebrows in concentration, "do you have a six?" I observed his neutral face as a gentle smirk lifted from the edges of his lips. "Go fish," with a roll of my eyes I picked up a new card from the deck."This is my fourth go fish in a row, you have to be cheating" I narrowed my eyes at him, sighing as he continued the game. "Do you have an eight?" Loudly sighing I handed him over the card, watching with bitterness as he joined his last pair of cards together.Grouchily I counted my seven pairs as I watched the pile of pairs surround him. "Cheater" I muttered, throwing myself dramatically onto his lap. "Awh, is my poor baby a sore loser?" he teased as I stuck my tongue out at him. "Bully" I crossed my arms, a frown settling on my face.My body lurched forward as his fingers grazed my sides, dread filling me at the knowledge of wh