Thirty Six

Jill's POV

I tried to relax in to Chad when I was sat on his knee, but I could not get the image out of my head. I know that it was not real, but that did not seem to help me recover. I hated feeling like this. My mum finished telling us a story about when she was little. I was so happy to learn that my grandparents were still alive. I would love to meet them. I was even happier when I learned that they live with humans. I am not really enjoying the pack life. It all just seems like a fight for power to me. I know I need to get used to it if I want to be with Chad. He will be the Alpha of this pack. I want to be with him, I am just not sure if I want to be here. Do I really want to give up all my hopes and dreams to follow him and sit by his side? Is love worth it? I was getting so confused. I know I love Chad. I know I want to spend my life with him. I just don't like the fact that power is so important. Why can we just not follow our dreams and be happy? It was time to leave before