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My doubts

Author: Chickennugget
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>>Hazel

The disgusting feeling of having your skin and clothes get stained with blood that is not even your own made my stomach squeeze tightly and I groaned in disgust and pain. The liquid thicker than water seeped into my jeans and drops of it colored the lower part of my shirt.

Valek stood there right in his place with an unchanging expression. An expression I couldn’t read because it didn’t show any emotion at all, but at the same time it was an expression that told me he wasn’t affected by my fall at all.

For a moment, it even felt like he was just a statue frozen in time with no feelings or anything.

He stood dead still in his place with his gaze stuck on me as if he was waiting for me

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