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CHAPTER FOURTY-FOUR: Know Him

Author: maiden_pinkish
last update Last Updated: 2022-10-28 15:41:06
Throwing those thoughts, I take a look at him again and I noticed that this time, his expression became serious. He stared at me for a moment, making us surrounds a silence. It seems he was reading me, if what was on my mind as his eyes were on me--meeting our eyes to each other.

As I feel uncomfortable at this moment, I sighed and tried to chuckle. I was intent to open my mouth to continue what I will say also.

Ugh! I don’t know but I feel awkward as he was in front of me. Maybe because I am not used to it and my androphobia is a bit attacking me.

Yes, it is because just of what happened in my past--about what Kade did to me. But with Heaven’s case, I know this is just the first time that we’re in this situation. Particularly, there’s something that makes me feel a bit uneasy about what he will really say and his looks toward me.

Ugh! I just don’t know. I always feel it every time I was with Heaven alone.

And talking about him--I can’t deny that he is handsome. His black sleeves
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