ArianaI needed a fresh start.That was my conclusion after my nightmares got a lot worse and the feeling of death just kept hovering. I wanted to die; every memory I tried to suppress only came back to haunt me after everything with Damien.There was nothing that stopped the feeling; it was like I was suffocating. My words became less and less, and the only reply I could give to any reaction was a nod. I needed an outlet to let things out of the bags. Sleep wandered far from me as the whispering that used to visit my dreams started creeping into my reality. I needed to sort things out with my mind if I was going to survive. But I didn't know how to. I had no experience with that sort of thing; I never have. Things changed for me when I arrived here, making me question myself as the heaviness became stronger. It was the only thing I could tie my experience to. Too many things out of the ordinary were already taking place, and it had finally blown up. in my face. The heaviness made m
ArianaI couldn't sleep throughout the night. It has been three days now since I completely shut Damien out. But Dariys has found a way to find me. Diana couldn't lie to him, and he had come to see me. In the midst of that, I was going to speak to him after the long haul of my emotions being mixed with lots of silence and depression. I am not prepared to face him after what I did to his brother, but if I wanted my plan to work, it would be best that I did what was necessary, no matter what. It was a good thing that my mind was occupied; it helped with the nightmares, and for the first time in days, I didn't hear any form of whispering that jolted me from my brief sleep. What was ahead of me was greater than any form of pain; it was fear enveloping me in all its forms. What would he say?Would he rat me out to his brother?Was he going to yell at me? I didn't have a plan, but I knew that I could survive anywhere. I have done it before. I had left home to go to college in another pac
ARIANAMy dreams take me back to the moment of severe abandonment. The moment I left the mansion, it felt like I was leaving something huge behind. Something that was so important to my soul, it was at the state of leaving that I realised that we really haven't spoken about anything. We were dancing around a lot of pain and heartache. It was too dire for our souls to carry a nut, yet I put him through all that. Although Diana was with me most of the time, I wish Damien was lurking with either text, phone calls, or even a meet-and-greet. I found it difficult to believe that he was willing to let go like that. Darius, on the other hand, was always checking in. I knew I tried to make it clear and tell him that I didn't want anything. Sometimes, it was tiring and difficult to get by because I needed to get a job. Going a little job hunting, almost every day of the week, and attending interviews that I wasn't sure of became the highlight of each month. Then, after all that, I just could
ArianaDiana still took her time dressing."I wonder if Jake is aware that you are out there partying when he is properly high on the memory of you." I started. "I should just send him a text so he can meet us there; give me enough time to escape."Diana was seeing this guy, Jake, although she says it was nothing serious.I picked up my phone, but she dragged it from me, instantly glaring at me. In a few moments, her fangs were out. I chuckled nervously. I knew that she wasn't going to hurt me."Show off."She was always on edge any time I mentioned Jake's name or tried to involve the ghost of him in our conversations. I knew she liked him, but she always dismissed the topic like it was not a big deal. It was a big deal because I have seen the way they stare at each other, stripping themselves naked before they even have a chance to be alone. "With that anger, you might eat me pretty soon." "Then don't get on my nerves.""You are acting like you don't even like Jake, which I know is
Ariana My cheeks were hurting, but in a good way.Justin had been making jokes about the little things. It was a good thing we were drinking, and there was a high chance that I wouldn't be able to remember most of it. It was a good thing that I was this carefree; I did not understand what it means to lose myself and just let myself be free. It was the first time I felt like myself in months. Even with the tireless efforts of trying to make sense of my identity, irrespective of the slow change I was passing through, it was refreshing to have a nice conversation without having to think of the possible ways that you might get into trouble if you choose to be clear with the person whom you have chosen to speak to.We were both laughing over our taste in movies and music, and it turned out that he had quite the taste, but I have concluded that maybe I was the alien who had chosen not to connect with the world with the current waves at which it was moving. Time was indeed an incredible thi
ArianaI always felt I was getting into trouble. Nothing was ever straight-forward when it came to me. There was peace knowing that everything that I had tried hard to get away from was always finding itself back to me. The drive home was silent as fuck. There was nothing more deafening than riding with a mute group. It was as if I were one with the dead. We finally got home; Diana fixed up cookies for herself and left us alone. Darius was quiet, and for a moment, I would have mistaken him for someone else if I had not known the resemblance. I was familiar with that face long enough to imagine his brother in my bed when I needed him."You are quiet." I broke the silence that had its wind around."I have nothing to say. You keep doing the same thing that keeps you in harm's way. You should be far away from trouble, but no, you walk right into it.""You don't even know what happened?" "Fine, Ariana. What happened?'"I just needed a break from everything. I guess.""A party is not th
Ariana"What the hell are you doing?" I was waiting by the car as he was watching me from inside. "Taking you to the hospital." I sighed. "Maybe you didn't understand the language I spoke, but trust me when I say I don't need your help. You don't need to be doing any favours for your brother."I have never done any favours for my brother. I am just helping my friend. When she says she doesn't need help, that's when she needs help the most.""You are out of your mind.""Only for you. '' he smiled. There was no point in trying to make sense of why he was doing this. When he was going to do it anyway. I was going to the hospital sooner or later because I haven't been by myself lately. I just wanted to know why I was up all night. We drove down to the city and couldn't help but notice the change in Darius' behaviour. The way he was and acted was way different from when we were in school. Everything felt new about him. I was tempted to ask."Earlier, I heard you talking about the gym. An
DariusThere was a phrase I never thought I would understand literarily. A pregnant pause.After the doctor's announcement and the exclamation, the room had fallen silent; even the machines knew better than to make a beep while the humans were silent.A pregnant pause had truly settled above us, with everyone caught in their thought bubbles and thinking.I had no idea what the rest had on their minds, but I knew what I had in mind.This was totally messed up. Thinking about it made it worse.The girl I longed after now had every chance with the one she truly belonged to.shit.A baby could change things between them; now he would have a child that may constantly need his presence in its life.She would forever be entangled with him in a knot, the knot being the child.I rubbed my palm over my face, trying to soothe my aching heart. Just when I thought I had a chance with her, the tables just had to turn around, and they did so in his favour.I ground my teeth against each other and p
Chapter 152DamienThere were a lot of things that went through my mind as we were about to take the bold steps. I was going to take over my pack from that bitch. It was the best decision I had to make. It has been a week since Ariana had killed her step mom, it was a wonder how, it still wasn't obvious. Deep down I wished the baby was mine but as nature would have it I screwed up and I would be damned if she even considered me at all. We finally raided the pack and Diana was waiting for us. It felt like she knew we were coming. She had a smirk on her face.“I was wondering when you were coming back to me my love.” She tried to come closer but I already took two steps back, disgusted. “Take another step towards me and that would be the last you will ever take.” She laughed. “You have always acted tough. I guess that's why I was so attracted to you for so long. My heart feels pain knowing that you left in such an abrupt manner. I would take it like you are here to give me what I wa
Chapter 151ArianaDarius was curious about this new found power. At the same time he was worried sick about how it might affect my baby. Damien was the one soliciting for my breakthrough with this. I didn't know if he was excited but I couldn't quite catch his expression. I was more concerned about the bitter pain that came from the little sharp pain from my Belly.“If you are not up for this, you can stop.” “No.”“If she wants to continue, let her. Your overprotectiveness might not lead us anywhere.” Damien snapped at his brother but he ignored him. They placed an edible plant in front of me. “You just have to focus on this plant and let's see what can come off it.”I focused my energy on it but nothing happened the first time. “What do you want?” Arya asked me.“I just want comfort and good food. I just want a good meal and a warm Bed to sleep in.” I told her. “Then focus on that. Forget the plant. Breathe in and out. Then watch your power unfold.” I was already locked in my m
Chapter 150ArianaBefore I could get back from bring Darius, the whole land and vegetation was on fire. It was no brainer to not know who was behind the whole thing. It was clear just how much we were being hated. They just wanted us out of existence. I had no doubt that Diana was in too for the last of the raid. We just haven't seen her. I would normally go through the wild and fighting them with my last breath but there was no time to be reckless,I had to think of my babies. “Where is Damien and the kids?” He asked me, holding me close. “He is with kids.in the bunker. Has everyone else reached safety?” “Yes. The women and children are safe. The army is ready to make sure that we are safe. We have to stay away from the pack. It is what's best.” I shook my head. This was not how it was supposed to be but it was what's right. “We just have to look for a way to fend for ourselves “It's been two weeks since the attacks have been worse. There was nothing I could do but to protect m
Chapter 149DamienWhen she said that there was a level of hurt that I dissociated myself from. I had no choice than to move away from her when I needed to. It felt like my breath was clogged and it took really hard work to make sure that I did nothing to think about her again. It was difficult but I would be a fool to disrupt all that she had. My wolf was restless and he was in as much pain as I was. The children ran towards Darius. Hugging him. It was the relationship that they had in between and I hated him for it. There was resentment inside my mind. I keep wondering where the anger was taking me to because I didn't want anything to disrupt what they had here but still I wanted her. I craved her more than anything.“No, I am not going to take this!” I yelled. Their gazes were on me. “You took everything from me. Taking my children as yours.” Ariana covered their ears, not wanting them to know about it. It broke my heart even more because it seemed that she didn't want them to
DamienIf I had known about them being mates with Diana then maybe things wouldn't be so messed up. Diana was just a figure that stood beside me just because of the pack. I never knew she was a ticking time bomb. When she risked everything to me, it all made sense. While she was always near, especially when I needed to talk to someone. There was nothing else that would have fit in if she wasn't in the pictures Her aunt being Ariana's step mom, it felt like the final piece to a puzzle. It was clear why she was always disappearing even when I knew that she was cheating. I didn't know someone higher than her was also influencing her decisions. Darius had no reason to hide that information from me. “Yes, I would have cared. Maybe it would have been a way to stay with Ariana all along.” He scoffed. “Can you even hear yourself? Do you need me as a reason to be with your mate? Someone that has been with you since the very beginning of your relationship. You wanted a figure for your reputa
ArianaI didn't know why he bothered to show up here. There was no remorse left in me for him. He didn't deserve it. For all I knew he could have stayed there with Diana. I didn't know the agreement he had with her,he might be here on an assignment for her. It was so absurd to think that way after seeing the way he was bruised and tattered. It may be nothing and I was racking my brain worrying about what his motives were. There was so much pain knowing what I had to endure because of him. The humiliation he had pulled me through. There was nothing more frightening than the fact that he was near and close to me. All I kept thinking about was Adrian and Adrianna. He might want to take them from me. My wolf became so restless just by thinking about it. I tried to gain control but it was difficult. It was like trying to see through the walls and trying to pacify my own self. The discomfort, I couldn't bear but I had to. He was my mate's brother and despite the connection we might have ha
DamienI saw her again. It felt like everything was right with the world again. She was doing way better than the last time I saw her. It was clear that she was now a Luna. Luna has the protection of the pack and everything just keep radiating on you after that. She was a grown woman compared to when she had first escaped from her father's pack. When she escaped me and built a life with Darius. I wanted the rumours to be false. I didn't know why I came here after escaping from the hands of Diana. I didn't know why I was so foolish to abandon my back and leave it in the hands of a cruel witch. As the alpha, everything in me was dying to go back but it would be worse. I needed to get reinforcement. The only person that had come to my mind wasn't even Ariana, it was Darius. I knew I was stupid to have treated him that way. In ways that one wouldn't treat family. I kept staring at her and my wolf cried anytime I was not near her. I was willing to drop my shame and worship the ground she
ArianaI was still holding Jessica down when every one of her men wanted to fight me off of her, I growled, they stood back. There was a signal for my soldiers to escape and that was just a mere distraction."You think you are that tough huh?!" Jessica tried to fight me off. But I stayed clear from her insults and held her down. There was fear dancing in her eyes and with this position that she was in, she knew that I could easily kill her if I wanted to. As angry as I was there was no o be way I have thought if killing her except that she hurt someone I love. That would be pathetic even for her and no matter how hard I tried to make sense of it, I just couldn't find all her reasons for being so hateful towards me. "I am tough. Next time, when you cross through my borders to threaten my children. I will not spare you then." I laced her with another dose of wolfbabe before leaving. The little army she had left was tending to her when I ran for the hills. All our soldiers were gone and
ArianaShe had changed. She had become more sophisticated, that was because she had taken everything that my father had owned. She was in charge and it bothers me how she had turned everyone here into a slave for no reason. She was desperate for power and she got it.I growled again but Darius came close to me, holding my hand so I didn't lose my cool. "What have I ever done to you that you had to send your group of witches to kill me." Jessica laughed. There was this sparkle in her eyes that made her feel she was on top of the world. "Everything. First of all, you had collected Damien from my niece and honestly, that hurt like hell.""Your niece?" I was still confused. I had no idea what she was saying. The only relation she had was Marcus. Except …"C'mon. I know that you are smarter than this Ariana. We sent you to that school for a reason, I wanted to watch you through and through. So I sent my niece to be your roommate. Just because she is my niece, she would do just about anyth