Chapter 46 behind his back

This morning was rough, Erik wanted to help me with everything but being so weak and needing help just to go to the bathroom is maddening. He hasn’t been to the office to do any work in the last few days or called Andrew for updates. I feel like a burden like this. He stepped out of the room for a second to take a phone call, and while he was in the hall I tried to walk to the bathroom by myself. At first it was going okay. I used the bed to hold myself up but then once I got to the end of the bed I had nothing to hold myself up with. Erik wanted to get me a cane but I was against it because I didn’t want to look how I felt. I thought about getting down on the floor and crawling but it’s my legs that aren’t up for anything. Maybe army crawl. I can feel my wolf on the inside hating herself for not being able to heal us faster. I really wish I had someone who could explain to me what the hell is wrong with me. When the door swung