Afraid of Loosing

Raveen examined Lavina, who was remained unresponsive on the bed. She was clearly angry because Raveen had left her for too long. Raveen came closer.

Raveen called her again, "Lavina ..." Raveen sat on the bed this time. He was going to touch Lavina on the back when he heard a little sob. Raveen moved closer to Lavina and unzipped the blanket that had been covering her body.

Lavina quickly covered her face with her hands. When Lavina was like that, Raveen sighed deeply. It was clear that this girl didn't want to see Raveen. She appeared scared or sad, and perhaps—definetely—angry as well. Because he betrayed her promise to her yet again, the most likely conditions for Lavina's feelings were anger and upset.

He was inexperienced when it came to dealing with ladies. However, this didn't imply that he was wholly unconcerned with how women are treated. Raveen's father was the best role model he could have. The girl seemed frail. If he hold her incorrectly, she could break. Lavina, in particular, must be handled with care. Raveen decides to hug Lavina and lied down beside her. Lavina was slightly surprised, wriggled a little to release herself, and crept away from Raveen.

“I'm sorry,” Raveen said quietly, trying to get closer to Lavina again. Raveen's apologies wasn't without reason. It was clear what a mistake he had made. "I'm sorry for leaving you for so long," Raveen added, emphasizing that he was sorry for leaving her again. Then he embraced the smaller-than-him body. To channel his longing and regret, the man gave warmth through his tight embrace.

Lavina gave up after feeling helpless in Raveen's warm embrace. Her tears couldn't be held back any longer. Sh e sobbed even louder and unleashed everything she had hidden behind her eyelids. She was terrified, unhappy, sad, longing, and enraged. Earlier, while Raveen was away, she just whispered Raveen's name and waited for him to return. Sh e desperately needed Raveen. He didn't want Raveen to be separated from her. Now she could see the owner of the strong scent she craved.  She was not going to let Raveen went away.

"You've been gone for too long," Lavina grumbled between sobs. Raveen kissed Lavina on the top of her head. He knew. He was already aware of it. Raveen  was comforting Lavina, embracing her tightly to make amends for his guilt.

"I'm sorry," Raveen apologized once more.

"Don't leave me again!" Lavina replied. Raven inhaled deeply. His wish was the same as hers. Who wanted to leave her? Raveen almost went insane when he was separated from Lavina.

Raveen released his hug and gazed at the girl in front of him. Raveen was captivated by her eyes. The man's lips wanted to answer yes to every single one of Lavina's requests. Unfortunately, the universe's reality was cruel.

“I won't be able to always be here for you, Lavina. I have a lot of business to attend to.”

What Raveen said, became a new thorn in Lavina's side. The uneasy feeling she felt all the times had been answered. She disliked what Raveen said, which appeared to imply that her owner would leave her or will truly abandon her. Finally, the sweet girl got out of bed and away from Raveen.

"You're lying!" Lavina was agitated. Despite Raveen's promises that he wouldn't leave her. She recalled Raveen whispering his promise to stay with her but he lied. Then this night, the man was speaking as though this was their final meeting.

Raveen got out of bed as well, walking towards Lavina, who was still trying to walk away from Raveen. Raveen reached for Lavina several times when she was about to fall because she stumbled, even though Lavina eventually pushed Raveen's hand away.

"First, listen to me!" exclaimed Raveen. "I will not leave you. It's only that I can't be able to be at your side continuously. I have a lot of business to take care of."

Lavina sat quietly listening. Not because she didn't believe it, but Raveen's words was too hazy to hold on to. Raveen had breached his promise twice. He claimed Lavina as his. Shouldn't 'his' had to remain on the sidelines? When she heard Raveen's footsteps, she took a step back. She didn't want to hear all the excuses Raveen was trying to make.

"Don't get close!" Lavina, still enraged, refused to be touched by her owner. Raveen agreed. He came to a halt not far from Lavina.

“Fine, but listen to me!”

Raveen complied with Lavina's request, but he didn't give in. There must be symbiotic mutualism in the business. Both the action and the reaction must be mutually beneficial. Raveen had to get what he deserved if he offered something. Lavina must paid close attention to Raveen's words.

"I have to go to college," Raveen stated, having had enough of Lavina's rejection. Meanwhile, the girl three steps ahead of him had stopped sobbing.  She remained silent and listened.

"College?"  Lavina was perplexed.

"You know, school, college—study."

Lavina blinked her eyes closed. Taking in all of the terms Raveen used to explain why his presence by her side was just temporary.

“Then ... I still have parents. They will be worried if I leave the house too frequently,” Raveen added.

While straining the dress she was wearing, this gorgeous girl remained mute. Lavina opened her mouth and was about to say something. But she was still puzzled. Many thoughts raced through her mind, but she couldn't decide which to say first, until her valve closed again. Silence, didn't respond.

"Do you get it?" Raveen tried to approach her carefully. Lavina stayed still this time. Raven gave a smile. It was mean, that Lavina was willing to be close to him again.

"So, what about me? Why don't you bring me with you wherever you go?" Raveen's eyes widened slightly as the question was eventually asked. That was exactly what Raveen needed. Raveen's will was to think of Lavina, to keep Lavina by his side. However, that was impossible unless Raveen really wanted to provoke a war with his father.

"Please take me!" Lavina insisted

It was clearly a temptation. Seeing Lavina's strong desire to constantly be at his side increased Raveen's intention of carrying out the insane plan that had been spinning in his head. Furthermore, Lavina's face was still annoyed at Raveen, indicating that she didn't want to be separated from him.

However, once again, reality forced him to temper his wild plans. He was still concerned about his own safety as well as Lavina. He wouldn't give sacrifice for something that wasn't yet clear to him. Raveen couldn't afford to be careless, especially since it was connected to him and Lavina.

"How can I take you away if you won't come close to me?" asked Raveen. Trying to tease hers, who was still standing far away and keeping a safe distance between them. Lavina was stunned by what the man said. Lavina took a step towards the source of Raveen's voice without hesitation. Sh e was running blindly without knowing where she was going because she was certain Raveen would catch her.

The man quickly caught Lavina's body, which rushed to hug him. Raveen's smile widened. The girl was very cute. Raveen wished he could swallow Lavina whole and make her completely Raveen's. Not satisfied with merely pledging ownership. It felt like he was marking Lavina on every inch of her body. Want to dominate Lavina as his submissive.

“I've already hugged you, so please take me!” Lavina replied. Raveen softened his smile and cupped Lavina's cheeks.

"You're in danger if I take you now. Do you want to have anything horrible happen to you again?” Raveen seemed to be able to keep this girl under his grip. Even if it appeared cruel, threatening Lavina with something that has scarred her would be extremely effective. Predictably, Lavina shook her head, dismissing Raveen's assertion. She didn't want to go through that again. No way.

"So you have to stay here.I promise to visit every day, hm?”

"And what about me? I'll be on my own." Lavina still disn't want Raveen to leave for even a second. What distinguishes this life from her prior one? Lavina was nothing without Raveen.

Chu.

Raveen kissed Lavina's red lips briefly. Refrain from gave her a deep kiss, otherwise Raveen would truly lose and go insane.

"I've considered it. You won't be alone. That's why I brought you someone." Raveen stated.

Lavina then listened to the footsteps as someone entered the room. Lavina shrank back and hugged Raveen tighly. She was afraid of strangers. She refused to believe anybody.

"Lavina, introduce yourself, it's Aunt Maria. She will look after you while I'm away," Raveen stated. Lavina was silent, her face hidden in Raveen's chest.

“Miss Lavina, good evening. You can call me Maria. I will look after you ."

That was how the middle-aged woman introduced herself. Lavina finally pulled her face away from Raveen's chest. Slowly, she turned her face to the source of the voice. The middle-aged woman's voice appeared to be very similar to her mother's voice, despite the reality that her mother's voice was not as hoarse as the woman's voice. Lavina could detect the softness of the voice.

"Aunt Maria?" Lavina double-checked to make sure she didn't say her name incorrectly.

"Indeed, Miss. "My name is Maria," said the middle-aged woman.

Raven smiled. Bringing Aunt Maria to this location appeared to be the best option. Lavina's reaction, which seemed to drown out her own fear, proved that Lavina would be fine with Aunt Maria.

“You and Aunt Maria will be here. She will teach you a lot when I'm not here. Okay?"

Raveen breathed a sigh of relief as Lavina nodded slowly.

"Then give me a smile. Don't be mad with me anymore." Raveen kissed Lavina on the cheek. But the woman stayed still. She had a lot to think about.  Everything happened all at once. Too many thoughts wanted to enter Lavina's mind, but none of them were understood.

She was still upset with Raveen, after all. Reality would remain unchanged. Raveen would still leave her, right? Lavina, more than anyone else, intended to be with Raveen at all times and in all places.

"Hey, come on, smile!" Raveen persuaded.

"I don't want to!" Lavina was still grumpy. How did she manage to smile easily?

Raven chuckled. The entity he was hugging was so adorable . She looked to be angry, but her hands were still tightly clasped around Raveen's waist. Seemed  didn't want to lose him.

"Well then, I'm leaving." Raveen tried to tease Lavina. He wanted to explore Lavina's reaction further.

"Don't!" Lavina whimpered and hugged Raveen even tighter. Look! Was it work? "Don't go!" Lavina was concerned.

Lavina buries her face in Raveen's chest again. She closed her eyes, enjoying Raveen's heartbeat, which was heared so clear. Calm. The pounding voice which  Lavina always missed. The beat that had calmed Lavina and that she always heared when she fell asleep. Sh e didn't want to lose it all.

"You're really here," Lavina said suddenly, causing Raveen to frown. He wasn' t sure what that means.

"Hmm?"

“Your heartbeat really soothes me. I no longer have to be worried about being alone. You're warm," she said.

Raveen flinched. What should he do? It felt tickling. He wanted to dominate Lavina even more. Raveen seemed to have taken over this girl's entire life. Raveen was everything to Lavina and she couldn't live without him. Couldn't this girl tease him? Raveen was certain that what Lavina said was true. Lavina was just an innocent young woman who needed to learn a lot of things. But whatever she said made Raveen fallen even harder.

Until the very end...

"Do you want to know what affection makes you less worried about being alone than my heartbeat?" Raveen inquired.

Lavina blinked, attempting to look up despite the fact that she couldn't see Raveen's face. She opened her eyes wider, even though it wouldn't catch the image her owner's face.

"What is it?" Lavina asked back.

Raveen's eyes grew dark. He couldn't stop himself from devouring the lips of the girl in front of him. No, he needed more than just a kiss. He wanted to channel all of his feelings to Lavina so she knew Raveen was also crazy about her. In his heart, there was only Lavina.

“Put your mouth open and stick your tongue out!”

So, after Lavina did as he was told, Raveen pressed their lips together and licked Lavina's tongue without hesitation. Sip it so wildly. When Raveen tried to enter Lavina's mouth, she felt an excruciating sting. The kiss Raveen taught her the day before wasn't as tickling but pleasurable as this one. It felt so rough but full of passion. At the same time, there was tightness and happiness embedded.

Lavina could finally feel her heart beating extremely fast. Just like when she was afraid. But this wasn't like that. It was incredibly warm.   Lavina understood what Raveen wished to teach. When their two heartbeats mingled in one rhythm, she wouldn't feel or be afraid of loneliness. They wouldn't be alone because they shared their warmth and bubbling feelings with one another. It was just that there was a very popping sensation. A feeling that made her happy and sad all at once. Lavina hadn't understood it yet.

When the union of their lips was severed, leaving a connection in the form of clear saliva, Lavina's eyes remained closed, savoring the sensation that lingered on her lips and tongue. She didn't mind about her wheezing breath because was running low on oxygen. Raveen then sealed it with a soft kiss, not as wild as before. Trying to play a little more the tongue though not as brutally as before.

As soon as their kiss ended, Lavina hugged Raveen back. Their heartbeats were now clearly hitting a single frequency and resonating into the recesses. Both Lavina and Raveen were overcome with happiness. The sense of belonging to one another had been very strong. However, there was a throbbing pain in their pits. This was indeed more terrifying than the fear of loneliness.

Lavina's eyes heaten up, and clear tears streamed down her cheeks again. Her breath appeared to be suffocated. Only a small amount of oxygen can be obtained, causing a pain in her chest.

“I was afraid of losing you, Raveen.”

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