Were you expecting that...?
[Cordelia]I didn't wake up again for another three days. It might as well have been three years. Even though my body was starting to feel more like myself, nothing else about my world felt the same anymore. Not just because Tilly is still lying in a bed unmoving, but because of the presence of another person who claims to be someone impossible. She says her name is Susanna. Susanna Steele. "But how can this be possible," I ask my husband. "Didn't she die? Didn't they find her body?""I thought they had, but she wouldn't have been the first Steele to fake her death," he smirked and I know he's thinking about his situation from a few months back. Whoever she is, whether she's telling the truth or some very creative fiction, I have much to be grateful for, apparently because of her. When she saw the burns left behind by the sun's rays and the damage from the salty sea, she developed a salve and had it processed in her lab before we unmoored and left the island. My skin is miraculousl
[Cordelia]When the man who betrayed you tells you that someone else is even less trustworthy than he is, you listen, or at least I do. But now that I'm sitting across from her, it is getting harder and harder to deny her charm and good nature. She seems genuinely interested in making things right by Atlas and Clark. I take a few more bites of my late breakfast, watching her interact with her two sons. There is a lightness about them now as if their load has been lifted at least a little bit. But while I am grateful to her for bringing the spark back into Clark's eyes, and the hope back into Atlas' heart, I can't help that my mind is spinning and twirling about the possibility of her being another backstabber waiting to strike. "I've taken a look at Mathilda's condition," she squeezes Clark's hand and I find myself ruffling internally when he doesn't back away. "I think she has a chance to wake, but she'll need more time to heal. I have a serum back at the island that might help, bu
[Cordelia]I turn around. Tilly is sitting straight up out of bed. Her eyes are open. "Tilly," I gasp. She came back. She might just make it after all.Rushing to her side, I call her name. "Tilly!" But her head does not turn and her eyes are staring blankly ahead. Her heart rate monitor is beeping rapidly, the sound filling the room with anxious trills. "Tilly," I place my hand on hers. I feel a spark of static electricity. Her head slowly turns. She blinks once, twice. A spark of light returns to her eyes. "Somebody help!" I scream unable to tear my eyes from hers as I watch in shock as the realization of her situation clicks into place. She reaches for the tube to her ventilator and her eyes widen in panic.Tilly blinks at me with pleading eyes. I don't know how to help, I need to help. Releasing her hand I run to the door. "HELP!!" I continue to scream. "PLEASE SOMEONE HELP!"Two nurses push me aside as they enter the room. They immediately begin adjusting wires and sensors,
[Cordelia]"Please Cordelia," she motions towards her when she sees my hesitation. "I won't bite, I promise." Her laughter, meant to sound comforting, feels a bit sinister as I take my first steps towards her. Looking in both directions I check to see if there is anyone around watching. I don't want to make a mistake like last time when I went alone into danger. Atlas would likely scoff at my fear. She's my mother-in-law after all. When I look to my right and see a crew member to the right cleaning some debris off of the deck with mop and pail, my whole body relaxes. I feel a little guilty that something so small could give me such relief, but the last few weeks have been hell. A terrifying unpredictible hell. When I woke up this morning, I knew today was going to be a hard day. Needing comfort and feeling a bit nostalgic, I draped myself in emeralds, including the infamous emerald and silver comb. The comb is especially precious, not only as the first gift that Atlas ever gave to
[Cordelia] What is she talking about? What ability? "I'm sorry, but you're confusing me. I don't know..." "Your healing!" she shouts, her eyes bright with excitement as she jumps forward to seize my hands, which she traps with her iron grip. "I've spent time with Jasper, I know that his lung improvement has nothing to do with my treatment. And now with what happened to Tilly, I realized that it must have been you. You're the key. You're the catalyst." She can't be serious. This is absolute nonsense. This is no better than when Jude was trying to convince me that Magnus was some kind of a monster. "That sounds too much like magic," I laugh. "Magic isn't real." I think back to the moment that I almost believed in ghosts and shake my head. It was only my foolish husband pretending to be dead and stalking me. I thought I was being haunted until I realized it was all a trick. Nobody is going to trick me like that again. I refuse to be so foolish. Her eyes are wide as she scans my f
[Cordelia]I expected her hands to slip, or her grip to fail. She is, after all, a woman in her 60's, and although I am petite in stature, I am still a full-grown woman hanging by her ankle. Even a strong man would have a hard time keeping a hold of me.Somehow she not only manages to hold on, but she does so for long enough that a crew member could reach out from the deck below to grab my shoulders and ease me onto their deck. It was a careful operation requiring strong hands. Even so, they could have lost me if Susanna hadn't been able to hold on for as long as she did. In all the commotion someone contacts Atlas who rushes onto the lower deck just as they pull me to safety. "Cordelia, oh my God!" He shouts as he scoops me up into his lap. I sigh deeply, sinking into his warmth. I missed him so much. I can't stand when we're arguing. "What happened?""I fell," I nuzzle him closely. "I thought I was going to die."The door flies open behind us. "Cordelia, are you okay?"Atlas swive
[Atlas]Cordelia has been acting strangely. The change is stark. And when I ask her to explain, she won't, she freezes up and gives me this wide-eyed stare. When my mother enters the room, it's even worse. She starts to shake. My mother doesn't even need to say anything and Cordelia starts looking for ways to leave. My mother says Cordelia was trying to leave forever the night she rescued Cordelia from falling off the boat. I couldn't believe it at first when she told me about my wife getting up onto the railing and trying to jump, but the crewman confirmed her story and I have no reason to believe my mother would lie.Which means that Cordelia did try to jump. Cordelia has never been suicidal, even at her darkest, but now that I see the way she is around my mother, I wonder if maybe there is something that I missed. Is Cordelia as mentally unstable as my mother suggests? Could it be some unresolved postpartum depression like the doctor saysWhat is going on with you, Cordelia? Why
[Atlas]Clark's face is drawn and tired, his body hunched. He looks like he's been stuck in this chair for days, and perhaps he has."How's she doing today," I ask as I take a step deeper into the room. His daughters are asleep in a double stroller next to him as the nurses prepare to transport their mother. They make little bubbles in their sleep as they lay in their separate seats, their little fingers touching."As well as can be expected," he sighs like a man who feels the weight of everything on his shoulders. In one quick, tragic moment, he went from a man desperately in love planning his wedding to an almost widower and single father. "They still can't figure out what caused her cardiac arrest. Has Cordy said anything more about what happened before her episode?""No," I shake my head, my disappointment coloring my voice, "She hasn't been willing to talk about what happened." My anger rises as I tell him all about how our relationship has been disintegrating, how we are sleepin