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2024-10-29 19:42:56"I don't know why I reacted that way, Dad. I just said all those things to Kalyx." Sidhiel admitted in front of his father's tombstone.
That's where his feet brought him. He expects that if he tells his father what happened between him and Kalyx a while ago, the tension he's feeling will decrease.
But he wasn't succeeding.
"Ahh!" He rubbed his face with his hands. "I'm stupid, stupid, stupid. Why Dad? Why does every time I see him, all I can envision and think is how far we are from each other? I feel like, I don't even have the right to be his friend. I don't know, Dad. I hate this feeling. Why do I always feel like I'm nothing compared to everyone."
"I tried to do what you told me, Dad. You know, that ‘believing-in-yourself’ thing. I swear I tried. Sometimes, I succeed. But a lot of times, I fail."
Sidhiel cried because of frustration. " I think, Mommy is right. That I am heading nowhere. That I will just stay like this. I wou
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Stammering Hearts 9 - Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star
A lot of minutes had passed but Sidhiel'sheart is still racing. Whew! What happened during dinner was tough. It was not him that Earakept on interrogating but it felt like he was the one on the hot seat. Good thing he thought immediately of a way out. He was thankful that he doesn't need to hear Kalyx's answer because he will surely get hurt. What kind of person in his right mind would like to date someone as simple and plain as him? Certainly not Kalyx. Heissure that Kalyxwould want to be with someone that is intelligent and fun to talk to and be with. Not like him who shakes with nervousness and stammers when spoken to. But he was surprised by how Earadescribed him. They both know that she was referringto him. A simple person but very beautiful in their own way. Those were Eara's exact words. This is the first time that Eara complimented him. His father would often tell him how gorgeous he is
Stammering Hearts 10 - Even Just For A Moment
"W-What are you doing here? H-Have you been there since..? D-Did you see..?" Sidhielasked Kalyxsequentially. Kalyx was not answering his questions yet but his face already started coloring red. He already knows what the answer to his questions was. Oh, Gosh, why does he have to see me like this? Sidhielwailed in his mind. "Take a deep breath, sweetheart," Kalyx instructed. Sidhielinvoluntarily obeyed Kalyx. He took several deep breaths. Then, Kalyx's word sank in his mind. Did he hear Kalyxright? Did he really call him 'sweetheart'? He eyed Kalyxthrough his lowered eyelids. Kalyxwas grinning. He scowled. Kalyxwas surely teasing him again. "Are you ready for my answers, Sid?" Kalyxasked mischievously. "To all of your questions, 'yes' is my answer. Yes, I've been here since you came down. Yes, I saw your performance. Ye-" Kalyxsuddenly
Stammering Hearts 11 - Jealousy
Kalyxsmiled at himsoftly.Then he bent his head again to kiss Sidhielagain. This time, it wasn't just a light kiss. It was deeper and passionate.Sidhiel doesn't know how to respond. He just closed his eyes and mimicked the movement of Kalyx's lips. He felt light-headed. He fisted Kalyx's shirt under his palms. Kalyx's hands traveled down Sidhiel's sides causing the boy to shiver at the warmth seeping through his shirt from Kalyx's hands.Kalyx's hands gripped Sidhiel'swaist and pulled him closer until they were chest to chest. He banded his arm around Sidhiel'swaist while his other hand traveled up, cupping the back of Sidhiel'shead and tilting it to accommodate their kiss even more.Kalyxnipped Sidhiel'supper lip, not stopping untilit was swollen. Then he focused on the lower lip, biting it and eliciting a gasp from Sidhiel. He thrust his tongue in the boy's mouth and roamed around, tasting it.
Stammering Hearts 12 - His Only Rescue
"I was about to tell you the reason, but it looks like I don't have to because you don't care. Get inside. I'll go ahead." Kalyx walked past him and went straight out of the gate.He wanted to call after him and stop him from leaving but shyness had crept up on him again. Besides, why is Kalyx so angry?Sidhiel shook his head and entered the house. He saw their long-time cook and helper, Mrs. Porter."Oh, Sid, you'd arrived. Have you talked to Kalyxalready?" She asked."Yeah." He answered shortly."He'd been waiting for you since five pm. Have you seen the flowers and his gift for you?""What?" He exclaimed. "W-Where?""There." She pointed towards the sofa. On the center table was a bouquet of flowers. Beside it was a big paper bag.He walked towards it and took it. He bid goodnight to Mrs. Porter and went up to his room.He put the flowers in a vase and giddily stared at it. Then, he opened the paper bag and pulle
Stammering Hearts 13 - Misunderstanding
"Since when is this happening?""Huh?" Sidhielwas confused. Why does it seem like his mother had calmed down?"Answer my question. Since when is this happening?""Just…now.""Go upstairs. Get some rest. We will talk about this later." She seriously said.He confusedly obeyed his mother. He needs to talk to Kalyx to tell him about the situation. He'll just take a nap. Then, he will contact the man immediately once he woke up. He needs to warn Kalyx.He will understand him. Right?*****A gentle tap on his shoulder, along with a call of his name was what woke Sidhielup."Hmm?" Sidhiel slowly sat up and stretched his arms up, yawning and rubbing his eyes with a closed fist. "What is it, Mrs. Porter?""Your mother called for you. They are all waiting downstairs.His eyebrows furrowed. "Who are 'they'?""You could've at least entrusted me with this secret, honey."
Stammering Hearts 14 - Fast Forward Wedding
Two days later, Sidhielfound himself standing beside Kalyxin front of a judge.When the judge said that he and Kalyx are now husbands, instead of feeling relieved, he felt nervous even more.The judge shakes their hands then said that they can now seal their marriage with a kiss.Sidhiel gathered all his courage to turn and face Kalyx. Kalyx's eyes seem to be saying something, but before he could identify it, Kalyx's lips captured his already.Their kiss was short, but Sidhielfelt his knees weaken. Kalyxseemed to know it because he surrounded Sidhiel'swaist with his arms.The way Kalyx was holding him was full of gentleness like he's some kind of a porcelain doll.After a small party in celebration oftheir union, they head to a flat that was owned by Kalyx."I'm sorry if this is where we'll stay for a while," Kalyx explained when they entered the flat."This is okay," Sidhiel said timidly whi
Stammering Hearts 15 - Tongue Tied
Time passed by quickly.It had been three weeks since Sidhiel married Kalyx. So far, there had not been any problem between them, aside from Kalyx working overtime almost every day for the preparation of the engineering firm he'd been building in the country.They almost had not been seeing each other because the man goes to work early and gets back home very late. Just one more week and Kalyx's company will be operational.It's okay with Sidhiel too because he's also busy with the upcoming exhibit. His days were spent in Jade's studio to paint. Once in a while, he and Mr. Niall Steiner coordinate. He's also nearly finished with his last painting.Right now, he's cooking dinner. It was six in the evening and he was not in a hurry because he knows that his husband won't be home until later and that he will just eat alone.The radio was blasting loudly. He was singing along, ironically, to Faber Drive's Tongue Tied while waiting for the pan to heat u
Stammering Hearts 16 - Hidden Feelings
"Oh, my!" Sidhielsaid after his shock. "Have you been there since-?"He cut himself off, feeling a sense of dè jávu. His dialogue was a replay. It also happened before."Got you.. again." Kalyxsaid smiling."Y-you're home early," Sidhiel stated to cover up for his embarrassment."Do I hear disappointment, love? You don't seem happy that I went home early today." Kalyxteased."N-No! I mean, of course, I'm glad that you're early. Are you hungry? Dinner will be ready in a few minutes." He turned around to face the stove."Why are you always barefooted? The floor is cold."Kalyx's obvious concern brought a pleasant fluttering in Sidhiel's heart. Only now did he fully realize how much he missed Kalyx."How was your day? Did you go to Jade's studio? Did you paint?" He felt Kalyxbehind him. He knows because his attention was on him instead of the food he's cooking. Besides, his radar is stro
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Stammering Hearts 21 - The Wedding
Mr. Steiner's exhibit was auspicious. A lot of people loved and were impressed by Sidhiel's works. That night was a success. Of course, Kalyxwas with him that night. As well as their families, even Mrs. Porter. He already forgave his mother. They already talked heart to heart. It would take time for them to be close to one another but they're both willing to work on it. ***** "Geez, Kalyx. Stop, please. You're making me dizzy." Alenasaid, staring at her son pacing back and forth in the room. "Sorry, Mom. I'm just.. just really-" "Nervous?" Geoff supplied. Kalyxnodded. "Yeah." "Well, don't be. Everything's going to be fine, son." Alenasaid. "I know.. I just.. what if he changes his mind?" Kalyx's eyes widened at his own realization. "Oh my gosh, Dad, Mom, what if he realized that he doesn't want to get married to me? What if he realized that I'm not the one for him? What i
Stammering Hearts 20 - Home
Sidhiel felt so happy and light after their sibling talk. Earahad been gone for a while now but promised to come by again tomorrow. Now, he really believes that the sun shines after the storm. How he wished that his husband would come home soon. He wanted to apologize for not believing him when he said he loved him. Please, Kalyx, come home. He silently pleads. And it looks like his guardian angel was listening, because the door opened, presenting Kalyx. Their eyes met. Kalyx's expression was soft. It looks like he was not mad anymore. Hope surged in Sidhiel'sheart. "H-Hi." He greeted. "Hi, yourself!" Kalyxgreeted, smiling fondly. Kalyxwalked towards him and encircled his waist with his arms, pulling him towards him. "Are you in the mood to talk now, Mr. Brier?" Sidhiel'seyes became teary. His husband is not mad anymore. "Sshh.. It's okay,
Stammering Hearts 19 - Reconciliation
When Sidhielfinally managed to stop himself from crying, heand Kalyxare now sitting on the grass, facing each other. "Now I know why Mommy is so distant to me ever since I was a child." He told Kalyxin narration. "In a way, I understand her, you know. She was raped. She's mad at my father. And I remind her of what happened. But still, a big part of me wants to be angry at her." He admitted. Kalyxjust listened. His hands were caging Sidhiel'ssmall ones, like he's giving him the strength to continue. "It was not my fault." Sidhiel'stears started to appear again. "I just wished she had been a mother to me." He stated forlornly. "What ever it is that happened, it did not happen without a reason. There were lessons learned. And that's what matters. We learned something from it." Kalyxfinally said. He pulled Sidhieland encased him in his arms again. They remained that way for around five minutes.
Stammering Hearts 18 - The Truth
Sidhielquickly started the engine of his car and drove away from the studio. He already said what he needed to say to Kalyx. After what happened, he doesn't know how to face him again. But before that, he needs to know something first. If he needs to face everything, he would want to do it now. He'll confront everything today. Not long after, he stopped his car in front of their house. He had to talk to his mother once and for all. He saw no one in their living room, so he went straight to his mother's room. Before reaching his destination, he passed by the library. Its door was open and he heard talking inside. He listened. He knows the voices: his mother and Mrs. Porter. "I don't know why he needs to communicate with me again after the years that passed by." He heard his mom say. Anger was evident in her voice. "What does Roy need? Did he say it?" It was Mrs. Porter's voice. "He wants to meet his child."
Stammering Hearts 17 - Blurting It All Out
Sidhielwas already asleep but Kalyxwas still awake. The room was full of shadows but enough moonlight found its way through the window so he could see Sidhiel'sface in the darkness. Besides, Sidhiel already changed his position in his sleep. He was now facing him. "Nothing could be better than this," Kalyx murmured sleepily. He brought his hand up and ran his knuckles along his husband's cheek. Sidhiellooked so beautiful. He looked so peaceful and contented lying there in Kalyx's arms. Sidhielcares. With that thought, he went to sleep. ***** Sidhiel stared at the masterpiece that he just finished painting. Finally, he was done with the last painting that he will need for the exhibit. He was so happy when he woke up that morning. Kalyx was not in their flat anymore but he left a note, saying that he just has to finish something important and that t
Stammering Hearts 16 - Hidden Feelings
"Oh, my!" Sidhielsaid after his shock. "Have you been there since-?"He cut himself off, feeling a sense of dè jávu. His dialogue was a replay. It also happened before."Got you.. again." Kalyxsaid smiling."Y-you're home early," Sidhiel stated to cover up for his embarrassment."Do I hear disappointment, love? You don't seem happy that I went home early today." Kalyxteased."N-No! I mean, of course, I'm glad that you're early. Are you hungry? Dinner will be ready in a few minutes." He turned around to face the stove."Why are you always barefooted? The floor is cold."Kalyx's obvious concern brought a pleasant fluttering in Sidhiel's heart. Only now did he fully realize how much he missed Kalyx."How was your day? Did you go to Jade's studio? Did you paint?" He felt Kalyxbehind him. He knows because his attention was on him instead of the food he's cooking. Besides, his radar is stro
Stammering Hearts 15 - Tongue Tied
Time passed by quickly.It had been three weeks since Sidhiel married Kalyx. So far, there had not been any problem between them, aside from Kalyx working overtime almost every day for the preparation of the engineering firm he'd been building in the country.They almost had not been seeing each other because the man goes to work early and gets back home very late. Just one more week and Kalyx's company will be operational.It's okay with Sidhiel too because he's also busy with the upcoming exhibit. His days were spent in Jade's studio to paint. Once in a while, he and Mr. Niall Steiner coordinate. He's also nearly finished with his last painting.Right now, he's cooking dinner. It was six in the evening and he was not in a hurry because he knows that his husband won't be home until later and that he will just eat alone.The radio was blasting loudly. He was singing along, ironically, to Faber Drive's Tongue Tied while waiting for the pan to heat u
Stammering Hearts 14 - Fast Forward Wedding
Two days later, Sidhielfound himself standing beside Kalyxin front of a judge.When the judge said that he and Kalyx are now husbands, instead of feeling relieved, he felt nervous even more.The judge shakes their hands then said that they can now seal their marriage with a kiss.Sidhiel gathered all his courage to turn and face Kalyx. Kalyx's eyes seem to be saying something, but before he could identify it, Kalyx's lips captured his already.Their kiss was short, but Sidhielfelt his knees weaken. Kalyxseemed to know it because he surrounded Sidhiel'swaist with his arms.The way Kalyx was holding him was full of gentleness like he's some kind of a porcelain doll.After a small party in celebration oftheir union, they head to a flat that was owned by Kalyx."I'm sorry if this is where we'll stay for a while," Kalyx explained when they entered the flat."This is okay," Sidhiel said timidly whi
Stammering Hearts 13 - Misunderstanding
"Since when is this happening?""Huh?" Sidhielwas confused. Why does it seem like his mother had calmed down?"Answer my question. Since when is this happening?""Just…now.""Go upstairs. Get some rest. We will talk about this later." She seriously said.He confusedly obeyed his mother. He needs to talk to Kalyx to tell him about the situation. He'll just take a nap. Then, he will contact the man immediately once he woke up. He needs to warn Kalyx.He will understand him. Right?*****A gentle tap on his shoulder, along with a call of his name was what woke Sidhielup."Hmm?" Sidhiel slowly sat up and stretched his arms up, yawning and rubbing his eyes with a closed fist. "What is it, Mrs. Porter?""Your mother called for you. They are all waiting downstairs.His eyebrows furrowed. "Who are 'they'?""You could've at least entrusted me with this secret, honey."
