CHAPTER 5: WALKING AWAY

ANDRÈ

She aforesaid she'd see me later. That alone makes me smile. I sat on my porch, it absolutely was three days since she'd aforesaid that, and she'd been out on her porch many times, and really had waved to me. I’d been sitting on my porch a lot, simply to have one thing to try and do.

I was going over to her house on Friday, I had already set that, and that I could not puzzle out what I was about to say once I got over there. I simply knew I was going over there. I sighed, whom was I kidding?

She'd come back to me once she was prepared.

"Andrè?" I looked up. It was Lou. I pinched myself to make certain this wasn't a dream. It wasn't a dream.

"Yeah?" I answered quietly, looking at as she stood before me.

"I do not…I don't assume we must always see one another anymore…" she aforesaid, crossing her arms round her chest.

I couldn't believe this. I did not believe this in the slightest degree, I blinked, and checked out her. "What?" I aforesaid, standing up.

She looked far from me, and said, "I just…we can't…I got to go."

I watched as she walked fleetly back to her house, not turning back to look at me in the least.

I had ne'er extremely cried before in my life, since I’d become about eleven or twelve years old. I hadn't found a decent enough reason to cry since then anyway. I closed my eyes and tried to consider one thing else, anything. i could not tho'. i could not consider something however Lou telling me she did not wish to see me any longer and so walking far away from me.

I opened my eyes once more and also the tears sort of simply fell down my cheeks as I looked around my area. I hadn't even discomposed turning on the light, I was aiming to head to sleep. I was planning to get out of here within the morning. I’d tell my mother i was reaching to the pier or one thing, and I would go stay out there for the night. I despised lying to her, however I did not wish to elucidate this to her.

LOU

I shook my head; I could not believe what I had done. I told him I did not wish to see him any longer. Great, currently what was I about to do? Move on and forget him, like each different guy I've ever gone out with. He was simply another boy who followed me around till I got uninterested in him. I was merely uninterested in him. I did not simply break his heart because he admired me and that I knew I admired him too, I used to be uninterested in him that was my reason for hurting him. I did not simply break his heart because I am afraid to be in love, nope I wasn't afraid to like or be loved, and that I simply did not wish love. I used to be sixteen. There was no such factor as love at the age of sixteen.

I looked out the window of the tree house; Andrè's car was gone. It hadn't been there since I had climbed up into my refuge, and that I had been up there since five within the morning. I was disquieted. Where was he? 'Why did I care?' I thought, and so a little voice within the back of my mind answered that on behalf of me. 'You care because you like him,' aforesaid the small voice within the back of my head. I closed my eyes; I despised that part of me that thought that manner. I wasn't crazy. I wasn't crazy for Andrè. I wasn't head over heels in love with him. He was simply a stupid boy! I needed to scream once more. I climbed down from the tree house and went within. Taking Mother's car key, I left a note expressing I would be back shortly and to not worry, and drove away, down the only too nearby roads of Middletown. After driving around for a bit, I made a decision to go drive out to the pier. Go away for a short while, perhaps sleep within the car since I could not check into a hotel and that I did not recognize anyone out there. I was glad I did not extremely apprehend any of the individuals out there though; I would not need to do loads of talking to anyone in the least. I did not desire talking to anyone but Andrè at this point, however I knew that was out of the question at once.

ANDRÈ

As I walked on the road close to the beach, I kicked at a rock and I was what I used to be doing out here. I came here before I knew Lou, before I brought her out here what did I do? I could not even bear in mind. Sure, I hadn't brought her out here for a very long time, however I brought her here nearly each day for about three months straight, that seems like forever when it becomes a routine.

I saw this guy I knew from the small boat rental shop that was close to the pier and determined to go talk over with him. "Hey," I said, standing next to him.

"Oh, Andrè! Hey, man, what is up?" he aforesaid, I could not think about his name. I felt bad because he clearly remembered mine.

"Nothing," I said, "My girlfriend simply kind of…freaked out on me many weeks ago…that extremely sucked."

"Aw, man that sucks, what happened?" he aforesaid, taking a drink of his drinking water.

"I told her I admired her," I said, sadly.

He clogged on the water and checked out me like i used to be crazy. "What?! You do not tell her that!"

I had nothing to actually say. Thus he continued telling me how stupid of me that had been and so he asked, "How long have you ever two been together?"

"About three months, however I've liked her for a year…" I aforesaid, stuffing my hands in my pockets.

He checked out me sideways and aforesaid, "Did you tell her this?" I shrugged and shook my head no. "Well, perhaps you ought to tell her that. Thus she does not suppose you only wish in her pants or one thing like that you know?"

I felt awful as before long as that left his mouth, because then I realized she would possibly assume that I simply need sex! I wasn't into that sex before wedding thing tho'. I wished to be ready to my better half that she was my first; I wasn't like most sixteen-year-old guys. I sighed and cut him off; he had started babbling on regarding one thing else, "I got to go! I will see you around. Thanks for your help!"

He laughed and aforesaid, "See you 'round. Oh, no problem! Good luck!"

I started running to my car, and saw a unclean blonde with smudged makeup whom I happened to be a head taller than. I smiled as I force her away from me and began apologizing for running into her, till I noticed it absolutely was Lou. "Lou," I said, hugging her.

She pushed herself away from me and aforesaid, "I'm not here to check you, and I am here because…I did not know wherever else to travel."

I nodded and stuffed my hands back in my pockets. "Oh," I said, taking in an exceedingly deep breath. She began to walk off then again I remembered what I wished to mention to her. "Wait, Lou. Please?" She stopped and turned.

"I did not tell you I really admire you only so I could like…sleep with you or something like that, I do not apprehend if that is why you freaked out or not, however I simply wished to inform you that I am not fascinated by sleeping with anyone till I am married and that I hope that you simply did not assume I used to be telling you I really like you because I needed sex or one thing. And," I said, stopping to require a breath. "I've admired you since I moved in across the road from you and also the longer we tend to spent along the more I spotted that I actually did not like you, that it wasn't simply a crush and it wasn't high school love. And yeah, I told you  I love you because I actually do love you."

Lou looked up at me. I could not tell what was occurring in her eyes; numerous emotions were whirling along in her eyes.

LOU

This had to be the more severe night of my life. I came to the place I knew Andrè would be, on my very own discretion. I came knowing that I might most likely run into him, however I came anyway. I came to get far from Andrè Stone, and nonetheless here I stood with him before me, explaining why or how or one thing regarding his love for me. I wished to break down and cry and hug him and tell him I admired him too, however I could not. I could not tell him I admired him because sixteen-year-old did not fall in love. I do not care what he thought, there isn't any such thing as fairy tale love. I’d suppose that deep down within that it'd be possible however I do know that in point of fact it is not about to happen. It would not happen to me.

I stood looking out his eyes for any sign in the least that he may be lying to me, something that gave the look of it wasn't true, and that I could not notice something that might justify that he was lying. 'Maybe because he wasn't lying in the slightest degree,' a similar stupid little voice within the back of my head aforesaid. I closed my eyes and looked far from him.

"Andrè, I do not wish to speak to you right now…I need to go," I heard fall from my lips.

I turned and walked away, rather like that. Leaving him once more. I could not handle this. I could not handle him loving me. I wasn't prepared for love, or was I? Wasn't that one thing I had forever been searching for?

I stopped and looked behind me. I checked out him; Andrè Stone stood there, looking hurt. The second time I had seen him seem like that, within the past four weeks. I closed my eyes and kicked myself mentally.

When I reopened my eyes he wasn't there. He was gone. Rather like that. I turned and began walking within the opposite direction. I was about to have a good time tonight, even though it killed me.