When the healer said, "hurting is hard but healing is harder."
“How is this part of what training entails?”I sigh and turn to look at Safira.“Lying on the grass is a way to connect to the earth around us. The spirit of nature.”“The spirit of nature will hardly come to your rescue when you’re engaged in battle Adelaide. Stop messing around and get up so we can actually start doing something worthwhile.”I groan at her words because this is impossible. It’s difficult enough to fall asleep on the bare floor without being questioned every five minutes as to the aim of this activity, talk less of when I'm getting questioned serially. “Don’t you just feel like resting sometimes, Safira? Just taking a break to escape all this chaos?”I don’t see Safira’s reaction but her voice is melancholy when she speaks.“I would, but not when lives are on the line. Your life and possibly Cain’s rides on if you’re successful in the tournament.”Something in my chest deflates at Safira’s words because she might be right. There’s hardly anything stopping Lyros from
“I saw him.” A frown lines my face as I stare at the queen, confused.“You saw who?”“I saw him. My mate.” Her voice cracks heavily as she speaks and she wipes tears hurriedly from the side of her face. “Ashryn. I saw Ashyrn.”Chills run down the length of my spine and my skin pebbles with goosebumps.“You… saw the dead king?”She nods and something at the back of my mind tingles. It’s the tingle of suspicion so I dare to touch this subject.“The child you had with the King, the one with the dark hair and white eyes. What happened to him?”Queen Diane freezes over like a lake in deep winter. The look in her eyes goes cold and she turns away.Confusion ripples through me like a wave.“Did I say something wrong?”I get no response yet again and a strange sort of anger bubbles up in me.“One of my friends almost died yesterday while I was here with you. I didn’t wake up so a psychopath had him bound down and burnt, continuously. I was here with you while someone close to my heart was s
“The Lycan’s flame.”Ashryn the Great holds up something that burns. I look around and see I am in a room. Metal equipment of various lengths and sizes are littered around and Diane is here too. Her hair has been let down and it looks so silky it’s almost like a curtain but she has curls to them. There’s a frown on her face.She does not look happy. King Ashryn turns to look at her and he frowns, concerned,“You don’t like it, my love?”Diane’s frown falls as her husband addresses her and she sighs.“It’s beautiful. Powerful, dare I say it, but you know this isn’t safe right?”I nod along with her. Ashryn was a good king according to what I read but this might just be the only mistake he made.I feel the Lycan’s flame power up as he commands it to. The air becomes charged with energy, the kind that makes you feel like you’re breathing better and the world has suddenly become a million times clearer. I find it weird that I can feel this but I can. I can see my hands even.I am standi
“We shouldn’t be doing this.” Darkness. I can’t see anything yet I am in a memory. I can feel where I am right now and I know it’s a large space. “We really shouldn’t be doing this Diane. We could get caught, you could die.” A female voice. One of them should be Diane, but the one who’s speaking, I haven't heard that voice in any of her memories. I’m blind here and it’s disconcerting. I don’t like being trapped in memories blind. Light bursts forth and it almost blinds me. I hiss and avert my face then realize I'm not the only one who’s hissing. “What the fuck Diane?” “I’m sorry, I'm sorry. I didn’t know it would react like that. I swear this thing misbehaves sometimes.” “I shouldn’t go blind because of the staff’s misbehavior, Diane. If anyone should, it’s you. You’re the one who wants to steal it.” I hear someone’s chuckle and I can tell it’s Diane’s. I still can’t see her, I can barely see anything. “Blood’s leaking from my eyes Di, shit.” Magic hums in the air and I hear
Queen Diane helps me hold my hair back as I retch. Sea water gushes out of my mouth and what follows is relief. I always feel horrible when I vomit, yet this makes my body feel freed. Something in me chills as I come to a conclusion but that isn’t what matters right now. “Someone’s been using the Lycan’s flame.” I look up at the queen and blink back the tears at the side of my eyes. My body is still a body after all, but what I saw just now…. “You’ve known all this while haven’t you?” She shakes her head and rises. The Queen I see in those memories and the one who stands in front of me are so vastly different that I almost feel scammed. Where is the fierceness I saw in her eyes? The pride of being able to command spirits of every shape and size? The assurance of capability she exuded? “I suspected something like that was happening too, but I know it isn’t. No one could have used the Lycan’s flame, not after what I did.” Something in me curls at her words. It doesn’t just curl,
“Hey, wake up.”My eyes flutter open to Safira gently shaking me and I blink back the bleariness I feel. My eyes scan the room immediately and I’m relieved to find that it isn’t in a state of destruction.Lyros doesn’t seem to be here and Safira…. Looks okay.She frowns when I continue to stare at her so I look away. I sit on the bed and stretch to alleviate the ache in my back.“I think I’m up. Can I know what time it is?”Safira is silent for a while before she answers.“It’s the sixth bell. Dinner should be waiting for you in the castle by the next hour.”That means I slept for at least six hours. It didn’t feel like six hours, but maybe that’s just the thing with Diane’s memory realm. Maybe the place is getting used to me.Or maybe it’s because I viewed only two memories.“Cain should be awake by now. Want to come with me to see him?”I nod almost eagerly and Safira chuckles as she slips into her clothes. The jacket makes her look formidable, and the leather pants are also beauti
“Tell us the truth, Cain.”Adelaide sounds cold. Like the wind in winter.When I look at her I can see it’s the concern she feels for me that’s making her sound like that. The concern and the suspicion in her eyes.She knows something new and I hate the fact that this has to happen in front of Rafie. I wouldn’t have minded showing it to her alone, but Rafie is a wild card. I don’t know what to do with him.“I have other things to do, Cain. Don’t make this harder than it already is.”At the sound of Rafie’s voice, I feel something in the air change and memories tingle the back of my mind. To have a King care for you is a deep and violent thing, sometimes they cause you harm without meaning to. I consider how much harm this will cause if I do tell them, but the truth is that it will cause more harm if I don't.“The first time it happened was when Lyros used his magic to heal me.”Adelaide tenses up immediately and I take a few steps away from her just to put distance between us. I don’
“Adelaide.” I ignore his call and keep walking. “Adelaide, come on, let’s talk this out.” I don’t know why this hurts me the way it does but I know it does. How could he keep that kind of information secret? It’s not like I'd understand half of what caused it anyway but at least, just so I could know, he could have told me so I could be aware of it. I interacted with Fenrir on that ship. I thought something was odd about him, but it was Cain all along and he didn’t say anything! I wallowed in fear and blamed myself for so long and he was around me all the time that happened. Did he find it pleasing to see me in that state? Was he happy to know I felt horrible and wondered constantly about where he was? “Adelaide.” Cain’s hand wraps around my wrist and I snap it away. “Don’t! Touch me right now okay? I’m angry, you shouldn’t be touching me while I'm angry.” People stop to look at us in the hallway but I don't care about that. My heart twists and constricts and I don't know w