I rush up the stairs, back to my room, even though I am conflicted at this point as to whether or not I should go speak to Dez or even Aria first. I know what I will choose to do after I dismiss Gloria. I know that I will choose to make Aria my personal maid, even though it is a mistake for more reasons than I can count. Being attracted to a servant is not a good idea, especially not the one that is responsible for cleaning my underwear and making my bed, but there isn’t anyone else I would dare ask.
I won’t be asking. I need to remember that. Of course, it will come across that way when I invite her to my office, have her sit across from me like a client, and tell her what is going to happen. I will ask her if she would like to take the position when it comes out of my mouth, but even if she says she’d rather not, it is not an option. Once I’ve posed the question to her, she cannot
AriaMim is hilarious. Even though we are just polishing the wood furniture in the library, she finds a way to make me laugh. No matter what we are doing, with Mim beside me, it’s fun. I can’t imagine how I would’ve survived this experience without her. She makes what would otherwise be an impossible job a great experience.She is in the middle of impersonating a comedian she’s seen on television, back when she was at home and could watch television, when the library door opens. We both draw our faces into straight expressions as we take in the form of the woman standing there. It’s Elvira, and she is not amused.“Mimosa!” she says in an angry shout. “How many times must I ask you not to be so loud and obnoxious while you’re working?”
AriaI follow Sebastian up the stairs to his room, my pulse racing. I wish I would’ve had the opportunity to go tell Mim that I wouldn’t be back, but I can hardly do that now. I also wish I would’ve cleaned a little more quickly today. She’ll have so much to do herself. Maybe I can go and help her finish after I clean Sebastian’s room. We clean so many rooms downstairs during the day, I can’t imagine it could possibly talk me all day to clean his room and his bathroom.We are not using the staircase I normally use, the one in the back of the house, the one for help. Instead, we are using the main staircase, the one in the front of the house. I have never gone up or down these stairs and get a little lost admiring how elegant they are, with their hand carved railing and thick red carpeting.
SebastianI cannot get down the stairwell fast enough. Aria is so beautiful, and she smells so divine, just being around her makes my heart beat out of my chest and my breath catch in my throat. If I am going to get any work done today at all, I’ve got to find a way to get her out of my mind.In the meantime, I need to go let Mim know what’s going on. It wouldn’t be fair for me not to tell her myself.I follow the sounds of her singing softly to herself down the hallway and find her in one of the offices currently unoccupied by the member of my dad’s henchmen that generally operates out of this space. Mim is dusting the furniture as she sings, and I can’t help but smile at her. She really is quite the entertainer. It’s no wonder Dex has it so bad for her. I
AriaIt’s really important to me to do the best job possible cleaning Sebastian’s room, so I am multitasking as much as possible. I have a load of laundry in--mostly towels, though I also need to wash his sheets--I have sprayed the bathtub so that the cleaner can start to loosen some of the grime that has adhered itself to the tile over the last few weeks when it’s been pretty clear that Gloria hasn’t actually been cleaning anything, and I’m busy dusting all of the furniture so that I can vacuum. I know I have to make time to iron all of his shirts, too. I knew there was something wrong the moment I first saw him this morning because his shirt was so wrinkly. He’s usually so put together.The room is super quiet, and I wish I would’ve asked Mr. Sebastian if it’s okay for me to listen to music while I
Aria“Spill!” Mim demands the second I catch up to her downstairs. I have finished cleaning Sebastian’s room. All of his shirts are ironed and hanging in his closet. The towels are folded, and the sheets that were on his bed are folded and placed in his closet so that when I change his sheets again, probably the day after tomorrow, I can put them back on his bed. I have sent his other bedspread out to be dry cleaned and am told it should be back in a day or two so that I can have it on hand the next time I need to completely change his bed. I hope if I can keep the sheets clean, the bedspread won’t need cleaning quite as frequently.Mim is dusting an office near the end of the hallway we were assigned to clean that day, so she has made a lot of progress on her own. I am slightly surprised, but then, if she has no one to dis
AriaI wake up early the next morning. It had been difficult to even fall asleep the night before. My mind kept wandering to Sebastian, visions of the two of us in that large shower refusing to stay out of my mind’s eyes. I know it’s ridiculous; he is a soon-to-be Alpha, and I am no longer the daughter of an Alpha, so certainly not fit to be a Luna, especially not for a pack like the Kurts Pack. Victor Kurts will only want the best for his pack, and that does not include promoting a maid--a slave--to the highest status amongst his people.I take a quick shower and put on my maid’s uniform while Mim is still sleeping, taking a few minutes to straighten up our space. It’s not big enough to get too untidy, and we aren’t here much of the day either. Still, Mim has a tendency to toss her few belongings around the room, so
SebastianIf I found it difficult to work yesterday, today, it is impossible. I may as well not even try. I’ve been sitting behind my desk in my office for hours, trying to concentrate, but all I can think about is Aria.Her face this morning when she saw me walk out of the bathroom wearing only a towel is burned in my mind. Of course, she was shocked, but that’s not the only thing I saw behind those eyes.I saw the same emotions I have been feeling inside since I first met her. Longing. Lust. But even more than that… attraction. It isn’t just that I want to ravish her. Of course I do want to take her. I have no doubt the two of us would be magical in bed. Beyond that, I am drawn to her for who she is. Not a former Alpha’s daughter, but an intriguing, intelligent
AriaSebastian is acting weird. I’m not sure what’s gotten into him, but when he came into his room to do his work, I could sense something was going on. Every time I turned to look at him, he’d look away, like he didn’t want me to know he was watching me. I could feel his eyes on me, though, so I knew he had been watching me clean. I couldn’t blame him for watching. What else was he supposed to look at while he was on the phone? I was moving around… naturally a person’s eyes would be drawn to that movement.He left, and when he did, I was kind of glad. Not that I don’t enjoy his company. I do… but not when he’s acting all weird and stressed out. He didn’t say anything, only slipped out while I was straightening up his bed. I’ll admit… I was fantasizing about
Sebastian I am standing at the end of an aisle, outside in my mother’s garden behind our house, waiting for the most wonderful woman in the world to walk down and stand beside me so that the preacher before us can pronounce us man and wife. All of our friends and family are also here, including the remaining members of Vargas Pack. There are rows and rows of white folding chairs covering the velvety green lawn. The sky is crystal blue, white puffy clouds roll by high above us, and I can’t imagine how my life could be any more perfect than it is at this moment. My father retired from being the pack Alpha a few months ago. He said he hoped it wouldn’t interfere with the wedding plans, but it was time. Mom had this river cruise she wanted to go on in Europe, and it was getting ready to set sail. He said he’d neglected her wishes for far t
Sebastian“I remember.”Hearing Aria say those two words is almost as good as it was to hear her say that she loved me for the first time. Tears fill my eyes as I look into hers, the magic from the rings in the moonlight dissipating as we are left in the ruins of her home with our arms around one another.“You do?”Her smile widens as she nods enthusiastically. “I do. I remember everything.”A sigh of relief escapes my lips as I wrap her up into my arms and swing her around. “I’m so glad,” I tell her as I set her down on her and brush her hair back before I kiss her. Just like our hands melding together started the magic that brought he
SebastianAria and I walk hand-in-hand up the hill that leads to her old village with the light of a full moon guiding our feet along the path. I am nervous about what might happen when we get to the top and she sees her old homesite. Either she will recognize where she’s at and a flood of memories will come back to her, or she won’t, and this entire visit will leave her devastated.I try to reassure her as we go. “Now, if this doesn’t work, it’s all right. There are lots of other things we can try. There are people we can see. We’ll go visit your old packmates. It’s possible that some of them will be able to help you remember. Or we can find a doctor, an expert on amnesia. I bet there’s a good one that knows about the shifter world already. If not, they don’t have to know you’re
AriaWe take another plane to my hometown, or at least, as close to it as we can get. Sebastian tells me that there are no airports in my former territory. In fact, the closest one is a few hours’ drive from where we want to go. This time, on the airplane, when he wants to hold my hand, I not only let him, I want to hold his hand, too.The flight is much longer this time, over three hours. To pass the time, I ask Sebastian questions about his childhood, and he tells me stories about when he was a little boy. I wonder how many of them I have heard before and how many of them are brand new to me. He makes me laugh, and I love to hear the sound of his voice.But I am nervous. What if this is my last chance to remember? What if I get to my hometown and I don’t recognize anything?
AriaOnce again, Sebastian has me by the hand and is leading me down the stairs to another part of this enormous house. I have no idea where we are going, only that we are looking for some rings that Dez mentioned when he was talking about Mim.I don’t bother to ask Sebastian any more questions because he seems to not want to tell me anything. He said he needed to show me. Maybe whatever he’s going to show me will help me to understand more, even if it doesn’t help me remember.We stop at an office door on the first floor, and Sebastian knocks. I hear a deep voice that I think is his dad say, “Yeah? Who is it?”“Father, it’s me, Sebastian, with Aria. Can we come in?”
SebastianWaking up next to Aria, I think for a moment that things are normal, that all of this has just been one horrible nightmare, and she’s still exactly the way she should be, her memories are intact, and she knows who I am and who she is.Then her eyes open, and I can see the vacancy registering there. My heart feels crushed again. She blinks a few times and then smiles at me, and I don’t feel quite as bad.Since she lost her memories, I’ve felt terrible for her, but I have also held onto one selfish fear, that she will never remember me and won’t learn to love me again. I have been terrified that she will decide she doesn’t want to be with me anymore.This smile reassures me that that isn’t the case, that
AriaI feel like a wanton woman, but I want this man, and since we have been together many times, I can’t convince myself that it’s not okay. Trying to keep my hands off of him is like trying to prevent myself from breathing. The longer I try, the more it burns, the greater grows the need.I don’t know if the two of us being together will inspire any memories to fire off within my head, but at the moment, I don’t care. He is kissing me like he loves me, and I believe that maybe he does. He tastes like rain water, and I can’t get enough of the feel of his tongue against mine. He is cautious at first, taking his time, but when I place my mouth on his mark, he knows what I want and that I’m sure that I want it.We waste little time stripping our clothing off as
SebastianI take Aria to my room, not sure what to expect. I am surprised that she’s had such vivid memories of Mim. It seems that scents can trigger memories for her, so I will have to try to think about how I can use this knowledge to help the situation in the future.I’m not sure there are any particular scents she can associate with my room at first, but when I open the door and see the bed, one comes to mind.Her memories might be trapped in her mind somewhere, but mine are not, and walking into the room, holding her hand, seeing the bed where we made love for the first time, where we made love so many times, I miss her in a way I haven’t missed her since she was lying in that hospital bed and I was sitting in the waiting room, waiting to see if she would recover.
AriaAfter a few days, I am dismissed from the hospital. Dr. Wilson, charming man that he is, says that normally, he would keep a patient who has no memories a bit longer, but in my case, he was fine sending me home. He said it was best if “my kind” took care of me. Since i still think I am his kind, I don’t appreciate this. But I go because I’d rather be anywhere but in the hospital.On the plane ride to Sebastian’s home, I sit next to him but say next to nothing as I stare at the window of the private jet we are on. His parents, who seem like nice enough people, although I’m not crazy about his dad, sit in the row in front of us and also don’t talk. Sebastian tries to get me to speak a few times. I mostly shrug and use one word responses, so he gives up. I know he wants to hold my hand, so when