Sebastian
My body wants to stay in bed, even though my mind is fully awake and ready to go as soon as the sun comes up, just hours after I collapsed on this cot. I look around the room, the light filtering through thin blinds revealing that most of the cots are still occupied. A few are empty, and I suppose those early risers have first patrol or are preparing breakfast for the pack, that sort of thing. I wonder how many of them were up when I came in last night. Are they as exhausted as I am?
My eyes fall on Aria, who is still sleeping, but she has a V between her eyebrows, so I know she is not sleeping soundly. I imagine she’s dreaming, probably of something dark and tortuous. I wouldn’t be a very good boyfriend if I didn’t wake her.Tha
Sebastian“Mim?” I assumed it had to be Mim on the other side of the line, answering Dez’s phone, but her voice was so low, so evil, such a growl, I couldn’t even tell for sure that it was her.The fact that the woman was enraged was a pretty good clue that that was who I was talking to.“What the hell do you want, Sebastian?” she spat, not bothering to identify herself. I knew it was her, though. I locked eyes with Aria, who looked as panicked as I felt that Dez hadn’t answered his own phone.“Where’s Dez?” I asked her, trying to keep myself calm. There would be plenty of time to overreact if she was even more evil than I had thought she might be and was actually planning on hurting my co
Aria Being home, seeing it desolate and burned to the ground, is overwhelming. Feelings I’ve been pushing deep down inside of myself for months begin to resurface as Sebastian and I walk along, hand in hand, down streets I had run both in my human form and as a wolf for years as a child and strolled along with my friends as a teen and adult. None of the people I used to hang out with are at the village now. I know they had not all been killed, but some had found refuge in other packs. Others had lost their lives that night during the attack. If Wilkes is truly responsible for raiding my village that night, for destroying my home and killing my packmates, he will pay severely for all that he’s done. We came to the remains of a building that had meant a lot to me. Only a pile of bricks, charred black in many places, and other debris rema
SebastianBack in the olden days, it would’ve taken days for us to organize our packs and make it to Albert Wilks’s lands in order to free Dez and get vengeance for Aria’s parents. But now, thanks to technology and transportation advances, my father can send one of his large jets to pick us all up and fly us to an airport near his pack lands so that we can hopefully get there in time. I’ve tried calling Dez back, but his phone is out of service, and I have no idea what Mim’s number is.My father isn’t there as we load up the plane with members of Vargas and Wade, even a few from the rougher pack I ran through, Dark Forest Pack, have agreed to come because they love the taste of blood and owe a bit to Ward for their protection.There are already twenty
SebastianWe arrive at the rendezvou site to find the forces already assembled there, spread out, ready to rush in. It’s getting dark, which is good because it will give us a bit more cover. I don’t expect to make it too far beyond Wilks’s border without being detected, but I’m pretty sure the warriors I have in my group will easily beat back his thugs. After all, everyone that’s here on my side of the battlefield has an objective. Either they want to free a beloved member of their pack, avenge unjust murders, or both. Wilks’s assholes will have no reason to defend him to the death and break. I’m almost sure of it.Because we are not all from the same pack, we will not be able to communicate once we shift into our wolf forms. We have to have a good plan going in and make sure that each pack is aware of its
AriaMim’s house is far too quiet as Sebastian and I make our way through the living room, stepping around expensive furniture, over Oriental rugs, and past pieces of art that are worth more than the car my parents got me for my sixteenth birthday. I expect there to be wolves coming out of everywhere to attack us, maybe even some in their human forms, but that’s not what’s happening as Sebastian and I make our way through the house.It seems deserted, like maybe Wilks found out that we were coming and has taken off with his family. I can’t imagine that could ever be the case because Mim seems to want revenge against me for something--something I can’t quite understand since I’ve never done anything to her. There are many times I should have; if she’s done anything to De
SebastianI know something is horribly wrong with my cousin when he finally starts to reply to my mind-link messages in a groggy, almost unrecognizable voice. “Don’t come here, Sebastian,” he says to me. “It’s dangerous.”“Dez? What’s going on?” I ask him, but he won’t tell me. All he keeps telling me is not to come.When Aria and I are in the basement, and I finally make him realize that he’s not going to get rid of us, he tells me that Mim has a machine gun, and she’s planning on killing all three of us.I ask him a lot of questions about where he is and what’s happening to him, but he can’t say much of anything. Just, “Sebastian, please. Leave me. Go. Save
AriaI hear the crack of the gun just as I am lunging toward Dez, trying to reach him before the lack of oxygen makes it impossible to save him. I know that Mim has her machine gun trained on me, hoping to make me stop, but I trust Sebastian to make it to her before she can hurt me or Dez.So when I hear shooting, I am surprised. I duck my head but move forward toward my goal of helping Dez. A sharp pain pierces my upper arm near my shoulder. It feels like a bee sting, maybe a little more severe. I don’t slow down, though. Whatever it is, I can put up with it for a moment longer. If it can keep Dez alive, that’s all that matters. I hope that he is not hit, but he’s so covered in blood anyway, it’s hard to tell.I also have to pray that Sebastian is all right. I know that Mim was
SebastianSeeing Aria bleeding is heart wrenching. I know that her arm isn’t bothering her too much right now because she has so much adrenaline coursing through her body, but later, when all of this is over, it’s going to hurt like a son of a bitch. I wish she would listen to me and leave, but she is already making her way down the hallway, looking for Wilks, and she will not be stopped.Wherever he is hiding, he is doing a good job of it. Our best troops are looking for him all over the house and coming up empty handed.I wish that Dez was awake so that maybe he could help us, but then, I know how much pain he’d be in if he were conscious. I don’t know the extent of his injuries yet, but it’s clear that Mim has done quite a number on him.
Sebastian I am standing at the end of an aisle, outside in my mother’s garden behind our house, waiting for the most wonderful woman in the world to walk down and stand beside me so that the preacher before us can pronounce us man and wife. All of our friends and family are also here, including the remaining members of Vargas Pack. There are rows and rows of white folding chairs covering the velvety green lawn. The sky is crystal blue, white puffy clouds roll by high above us, and I can’t imagine how my life could be any more perfect than it is at this moment. My father retired from being the pack Alpha a few months ago. He said he hoped it wouldn’t interfere with the wedding plans, but it was time. Mom had this river cruise she wanted to go on in Europe, and it was getting ready to set sail. He said he’d neglected her wishes for far t
Sebastian“I remember.”Hearing Aria say those two words is almost as good as it was to hear her say that she loved me for the first time. Tears fill my eyes as I look into hers, the magic from the rings in the moonlight dissipating as we are left in the ruins of her home with our arms around one another.“You do?”Her smile widens as she nods enthusiastically. “I do. I remember everything.”A sigh of relief escapes my lips as I wrap her up into my arms and swing her around. “I’m so glad,” I tell her as I set her down on her and brush her hair back before I kiss her. Just like our hands melding together started the magic that brought he
SebastianAria and I walk hand-in-hand up the hill that leads to her old village with the light of a full moon guiding our feet along the path. I am nervous about what might happen when we get to the top and she sees her old homesite. Either she will recognize where she’s at and a flood of memories will come back to her, or she won’t, and this entire visit will leave her devastated.I try to reassure her as we go. “Now, if this doesn’t work, it’s all right. There are lots of other things we can try. There are people we can see. We’ll go visit your old packmates. It’s possible that some of them will be able to help you remember. Or we can find a doctor, an expert on amnesia. I bet there’s a good one that knows about the shifter world already. If not, they don’t have to know you’re
AriaWe take another plane to my hometown, or at least, as close to it as we can get. Sebastian tells me that there are no airports in my former territory. In fact, the closest one is a few hours’ drive from where we want to go. This time, on the airplane, when he wants to hold my hand, I not only let him, I want to hold his hand, too.The flight is much longer this time, over three hours. To pass the time, I ask Sebastian questions about his childhood, and he tells me stories about when he was a little boy. I wonder how many of them I have heard before and how many of them are brand new to me. He makes me laugh, and I love to hear the sound of his voice.But I am nervous. What if this is my last chance to remember? What if I get to my hometown and I don’t recognize anything?
AriaOnce again, Sebastian has me by the hand and is leading me down the stairs to another part of this enormous house. I have no idea where we are going, only that we are looking for some rings that Dez mentioned when he was talking about Mim.I don’t bother to ask Sebastian any more questions because he seems to not want to tell me anything. He said he needed to show me. Maybe whatever he’s going to show me will help me to understand more, even if it doesn’t help me remember.We stop at an office door on the first floor, and Sebastian knocks. I hear a deep voice that I think is his dad say, “Yeah? Who is it?”“Father, it’s me, Sebastian, with Aria. Can we come in?”
SebastianWaking up next to Aria, I think for a moment that things are normal, that all of this has just been one horrible nightmare, and she’s still exactly the way she should be, her memories are intact, and she knows who I am and who she is.Then her eyes open, and I can see the vacancy registering there. My heart feels crushed again. She blinks a few times and then smiles at me, and I don’t feel quite as bad.Since she lost her memories, I’ve felt terrible for her, but I have also held onto one selfish fear, that she will never remember me and won’t learn to love me again. I have been terrified that she will decide she doesn’t want to be with me anymore.This smile reassures me that that isn’t the case, that
AriaI feel like a wanton woman, but I want this man, and since we have been together many times, I can’t convince myself that it’s not okay. Trying to keep my hands off of him is like trying to prevent myself from breathing. The longer I try, the more it burns, the greater grows the need.I don’t know if the two of us being together will inspire any memories to fire off within my head, but at the moment, I don’t care. He is kissing me like he loves me, and I believe that maybe he does. He tastes like rain water, and I can’t get enough of the feel of his tongue against mine. He is cautious at first, taking his time, but when I place my mouth on his mark, he knows what I want and that I’m sure that I want it.We waste little time stripping our clothing off as
SebastianI take Aria to my room, not sure what to expect. I am surprised that she’s had such vivid memories of Mim. It seems that scents can trigger memories for her, so I will have to try to think about how I can use this knowledge to help the situation in the future.I’m not sure there are any particular scents she can associate with my room at first, but when I open the door and see the bed, one comes to mind.Her memories might be trapped in her mind somewhere, but mine are not, and walking into the room, holding her hand, seeing the bed where we made love for the first time, where we made love so many times, I miss her in a way I haven’t missed her since she was lying in that hospital bed and I was sitting in the waiting room, waiting to see if she would recover.
AriaAfter a few days, I am dismissed from the hospital. Dr. Wilson, charming man that he is, says that normally, he would keep a patient who has no memories a bit longer, but in my case, he was fine sending me home. He said it was best if “my kind” took care of me. Since i still think I am his kind, I don’t appreciate this. But I go because I’d rather be anywhere but in the hospital.On the plane ride to Sebastian’s home, I sit next to him but say next to nothing as I stare at the window of the private jet we are on. His parents, who seem like nice enough people, although I’m not crazy about his dad, sit in the row in front of us and also don’t talk. Sebastian tries to get me to speak a few times. I mostly shrug and use one word responses, so he gives up. I know he wants to hold my hand, so when