Chapter 26

Leonor narrating:

Hard looked into my eyes and let the words come out in a way that created fear in me, at the same time it made me give in to the real feeling that made me look for him again, the desire to feel protected, as if he could hold my whole world just by looking into my eyes. I understand my mother now, for seeing that I have spent a lifetime judging a feeling of which I am about to discover, I am about to find, and I see with other eyes the betrayal or less in my marriage, since I was betrayed for five years by the person I swore to love, who lied to me. The betrayal doesn't necessarily have to be physical. I felt like running out of Hard's way, because I felt all that flood of feelings and desire coursing through me like an electric current that made me want to rip off that apron and throw the spatula he was holding in his hands away, but it was as if my feet were stuck to the ground, and even though a part of me felt like I needed to run, another part of me felt li