MAXINEThe first thing that came to my mind was, "So soon?" I had thought about progressing and making a transformation and I had somehow manifested it. The artifact's energy was working in weird ways.I let out a scream as pain rippled through my door. Cinder's expression turned grave. "Maxine, it looks like you're starting to shift. You need to focus on controlling it."Panic surged through me as the pain grew worse, spreading through my limbs. "I... I don't know how! Help me!" I cried with fear."Stay calm," Cinder instructed, her voice steady. "Breathe. Focus on your breathing and try to stay in control.""Come on, Maxine. You can do it." Zel assured me, keeping a safe distance away from me. I could tell she wanted to help me but her hands were tied. This was something I had to go through.I closed my eyes, trying to follow her instructions, but the pain was a lot. It felt like my body was being torn apart from the inside.Just when I thought I couldn't take it anymore, a sudden,
MAXINEMy eyes flew open. What were they trying to put in my drink? What drink were they even talking about? There was no way they would try to drug me, right?I relaxed when I heard Cinder say, "It's supposed to help with the pain but I think just this much is enough."I waited until I heard Zel's footsteps. She opened the door and I sat up slowly. In her hand was a wooden cup."Here. Drink this." She said, offering the cup to me. I sniffed it, feeling the warmth of the vapor on my cheeks.It didn't have a scent so I brought the cup to my lips. I took a sip and gagged. "Ew, what is this? It takes like dirt." I replied, holding the cup away from me.Zel grinned. "If you want to get better, you've got to take this. I'm telling you from experience. I hate the stuff but it works literal magic."I scowled before drinking it quickly, refusing to breathe so I couldn't taste it until the very end. After I had downed everything, the taste hit me."Bleh!" I exclaimed, sticking my tongue out in
MAXINEThe morning light filtered through the window, casting a soft glow over the room. My body still ached but I felt a strange sense of calm.Zel was gone when I woke up, and I had a feeling she was off seeking answers about her mother’s deal with the demons.I slowly got out of bed, my muscles protesting with every movement. I wanted to stay in bed but I wanted to offer support to Zel. Surprisingly, I found Cinder in the kitchen, brewing a pot of tea. But, Zel wasn't with her.She glanced up and smiled at me. "How are you feeling?""Sore," I replied, "but I'll manage. Where's Zel?""She went to meditate," Cinder said. "A lot seems to be going through her mind lately. I wonder if you know what it is."I didn't know if it was my place to tell her what the problem was so, I opted to say nothing. She filled a wooden cup with some tea and passed it to me.I took it, enjoying the delicious warmth on my fingers. "She just needs to talk to you. We should join her."Cinder agreed, and toge
MAXINE"Zel!" I screamed, running to her and wrapping my hands around her. I pulled her back, both of us falling backward on our behinds."What do you think you're doing?!" I yelled. "You can't kill yourself."She removed my hands from her and stood to her feet. I did the same. "I wasn't trying to kill myself, Maxine. Far from that. I'm my mother's only biological child." She dropped."What?" I asked in shock."My siblings were all adopted. The only child she gave birth to was Gabriel and I. As we grew older, the family got bigger." Zel explained."Whoa…" It made a lot of sense now. I thought the kids were Cinder's, all with different fathers. I know, it was a derogatory thing to think about Cinder. I had considered adoption but I thought too much about it."This was where he died. He was trying to save me, Mom, Oz, and Raine. He was a wolf. Mom had fallen in love with an Alpha and she had his child. He had rejected her, of course, because he already had a luna." Zel sighed and took a
MAXINE"How?" I asked, walking closer to them. Zel acknowledge me with a nod of thanks. I gave her a small smile."Do you know a way?" Cinder asked.Zel nodded. "I'm going to let you into my memories. It's not going to be much but it might trigger something and bring back your stolen memories." She said.Cinder thought about it for a while. "I don't know. The memories we have about Gabriel are not the same. I'm not sure it will work." She said."I'm only going to show you the memories where you were involved. So, somehow, it's yours too." Zel explained.I nodded. "That makes more sense. How do you plan to do it?""A spell?" Zel let out a nervous grin. "We just need to find the right ingredients to make it." She looked at Cinder for approval."I did say I was going to do everything it takes." She offered a small smile. Zel smiled back."Great! I'll go study about it!" She said, excitedly before rushing off into the house.Cinder and I watched her go. "Thank you," she said to me."I did
MAXINETogether, we walked back to the house. Zel and Cinder held my hand all through the way and I was grateful. It was time to say goodbye to all the kids I had come to love.There was a dinner waiting for me. The kids had managed to wait, keeping their hands to themselves. When they saw me, they all rushed to hug me."Maxi!" They called. That was what they mostly called me.I felt tears well up in my eyes as I wrapped my hand around all of them. Raine and Oz watched, smiles on their face."Raine said you're leaving, is it true?" Chester, the boy who had scared me by saying he changed into an orange cat on the first day I came, asked. He was holding onto my tunic.I nodded my head. "Yes. The reason I came, I've done it. Now, I'm free. I have to go back."He pouted, then hugged me. "I will miss you, Maxi." He said. "So much.""I'll miss you too," I smiled, my heart aching. I didn't want to leave. I didn't want to go back to a world where I had responsibilities, where I had to be what
MAXINEThere, on the bed, was another woman and Liam, both of them stark naked and tangled in the sheets. Liam was on top of the woman. She moaned, her hands holding tightly to his back as he pounded into her.He grunted and I froze, watching the scene unfold in front of me. Liam turned his head, wondering who would interrupt him like that. I saw his face shift from anger"Maxine," he called breathlessly. I turned on my heels. "Maxine, wait!" He called after me.I didn't wait. I hurried down the stairs as fast as I could, ignoring everyone and anyone who tried to get my attention. I didn't stop even after I was outside the pack house.I thought, oh my goodness. I'm so stupid. I thought Liam and I had something going on. I thought I could finally find that one person for me. I thought Liam was the one.I was so wrong.I felt wetness on my cheeks. Why was I crying? I swiped at the tears with the back of my hand harshly."Stop crying!" I yelled at myself. He doesn't deserve my tears. I b
MAXINEThe moment I heard Liam's voice at the door, Ella had seen the panic in my face."Go to my room and stay there." She whispered sternly, getting to her feet. She waited until I had entered the room before she walked towards the main door and answered it.I held my breath, waiting patiently to hear her come back into the house. It took a while but I finally heard Liam's car driving away. I exhaled in relief and only came back outside when Ella came to get me."He's gone now." She replied as we walked back to the couch. "What's going on? Why is the Alpha looking for you? And why are you hiding?"I bit my lip, contemplating how to tell her. "I don't know how to put this…" I began.""Start anywhere," she said.So, I started from the beginning. I told her about Liam, about how my father gave me to him, and how our relationship had started. How he only came to me to satisfy his needs.I felt vulnerable coming clean to her about that. I hadn't told anyone about it. It was something I h
MAXINEI got a job working at the pack hospital again. This time, I signed up to be a real medical practitioner. I was going to become a midwife. There were a few familiar faces at the hospital and lots of new ones.Still, I was grateful to Ronan for giving them this opportunity again.That evening, I walked back into my apartment. The dead herbs were still in a box on the floor in the kitchen. I wondered if I would go back. I used to pick herbs and sell them to women who wanted to get pregnant.It felt like eons ago. Times were simpler. Back then, I saved lives not help take them. That was a time when I didn’t have blood on my hands.I sighed, running my fingers through my hair. I wanted my simple life again. It was simple but everything made sense. I didn't have to try to untangle myself from this mess that was my reality.A knock on the door brought me back. Zel was back from work. She worked as a bartender a little while from our apartment. Zel had gotten the job. After the manag
MAXINEI nodded, not trusting myself to speak without crying. Ella was right. I needed to let myself grieve. The love I once had for Ronan still occupied my heart.Lindsey reached out and held my hand. "We’re here for you, Maxine."I squeezed her hand, grateful for their support. They were right. I didn’t have to go through this alone. I had them.Maybe it wasn't so bad after all.***Going back to my old life felt like stepping into a strange place. There was the feeling of losing something. My apartment felt like a place from a faraway memory. Zel was gone and I was feeling so sad.I was back from saying goodbye. I unlocked the door and stepped inside. The space was just as I’d left it. There was still dust over everything. At least, I had something to do with my time.I took a deep breath. I hadn't lost everything. I was still okay.I began to clean up slowly. Lindsey stopped by to help me out and together, we covered a lot. As I was cleaning, I heard a knock on the door.“Are you
MAXINEI wanted to believe her that everything would be okay but deep down, I felt guilt and grief. This was my fault. I pulled back from her and wiped my eyes. I gave her a shaky smile. “It doesn’t feel like it.”She cupped my cheek. “Everything isn't always as it seems, my dear. But, I can tell you one thing I know for sure.” She said.“What's that?”“It's not your fault. I'm sure you don't know where to go from here, what to do, or where you belong. You want to come with me, you want to continue your life back at the place where you and Zel liked and you want to go back to how things were in this pack.” Cinder explained.“But, I see you staying here. This is where your strength lies, where hope lives, where you have friends and support.” She lowered her eyes and winked. “It's where you have a future.”“And, we'll always be here for you to fall back on, regardless of what happens. We're your home away from home.” The Luna Queen said, putting her hand on my shoulder. “I'm very proud.
MAXINEI didn't feel anything. No pain from a stab whatsoever. I looked between us and that's when Ronan smiled. His lips were close to my ear and he whispered, “I would never hurt you on purpose, love.”I didn't know when I screamed.Ronan collapsed into my arms, taking the both of us down to the ground with him. I tried my best to hold his head up on my lap. My eyes traveled down to the blood pouring down the stab wound in his belly.“Ronan,” I called, tears filling my eyes and rolling down my cheeks. He had stabbed himself.My hand shook as it hovered over the wound. I didn't know what to do. The dagger was in his chest.Ronan had chosen death. Death over a life without me.“Maxine…” he called, his voice unnaturally calm for someone who was dying. He reached up to touch me and I guided his hand to my cheek.“I'm here, I'm here,” I cried. “I'm sorry,” I whispered the last part. My hands shook as I held him. I never wanted this. I didn’t want him to die.Ronan gasped. He looked up
MAXINEI held my breath as Ronan kept his eyes on mine. When he was close enough, he stopped. Neither of us said a word. The battle continued around us but I couldn't get myself to make the first move.He didn't either. I wondered if it was hard for him to see me. I wondered if he thought he could fight me. I also wondered if he thought that he could kill me.I spoke up first. “Ronan,” I called. My voice was sounding more longing than I wanted.I missed him, to be honest. I missed sitting down in the quiet and reading books. Strangely, I missed making his cinnamon coffee.Ronan didn't say anything. Instead, he took a step closer. “You don’t have to do this,” he said.There was no hurt, no anger in his voice, just nothing but kindness. I wished he would yell. I wished he would curse me and call me evil for everything I've done.“Come with me.” He said, softly. I heard it regardless of the noise. “We can fix this, Maxine. We'll leave everything behind together.”It sounded so good. But,
MAXINEHe caught me off guard. It meant that he still cared about me. I didn't focus on that though. “I won’t, I promise,” I replied.We stood there in silence for a while, neither of us knowing what to say. I could feel it though. I could feel it. The unspoken feelings and questions we didn't have the time to ask.Or we didn't dare to ask, I guess.After everything that had happened, I still wasn’t sure where we stood. I said I was okay with him hating me but, I didn't know anymore. The lines between us were confusing now. I didn't know how to fix that.But now wasn’t the time to focus on that. We had a mission and that was a priority. Every other thing could come after. We would cross that bridge later.For some reason, Liam stepped closer and I held my breath. “Regardless of what has happened between us, out there?” He said, “No matter what happens, we’ll get through this together. Do you understand?”I nodded. “Together,” I repeated.Before I could say anything else, Zel appeared
MAXINECinder gave me and Zel a brief of the plans that night when she showed us a bedroom. She and the Luna Queen were sharing the one right next to us. They told us to come to them if we faced any issues.Sleep didn't come easy because my mind was entirely on Ronan. I didn't know how I was going to face him again after betraying his trust. But, I knew I couldn't sit out of this fight.The sun had not even risen when I was woken up by the sound of Liam's voice. He was given instructions and I heard more footsteps around the house than the number of people I had seen the previous day.It meant that Liam was already up and gathering the troops. I could hear him giving commands like it hadn't been two months since he was last in power. He was a natural-born leader. He carried this air of authority around him.He was giving orders, explaining ranks and positions for this fight. Every single detail was important to winning.Zel was still asleep, of course. She wasn't a wolf so she wouldn'
MAXINEI chuckled bitterly. “What about now?” I asked. “Will you take me back now that I have a wolf? Isn't that what you've always wanted?”His eyes widened slightly but he kept himself composed. “That would be unfair to you. It would be wrong. If you want to come back to me, I will take you but the choice is yours now. You have a choice and I see now that I was wrong. I’m so sorry, Maxine. I hope you can forgive me.”Tears welled up in my eyes. I hadn't thought about this but I let the anger roll away from me. He was still family. He was my father. “I forgive you. You're my father, whether you abandon me or not.” I said.“Thank you, Maxine.” He said. He reached for me hesitantly. I would have settled for a handshake but he wrapped his hands around me. For the first time in what I knew was forever, my father hugged me.I didn't know what to feel about that.LIAMAfter Maxine spoke to her father, they returned to the living room. However, she moved toward the far end of the room, away
LIAMDespite everything that was unfolding in front of me, my thoughts were stuck on one thing.Maxine had a wolf.I couldn't wrap my head around it. After everything that had happened to her, it didn’t make sense. I glanced at her. The strange white-haired girl was sitting between us.Maxine was staring out of the window. The white-haired girl squeezed her hand. Maxine turned to look at her and offered her a small smile. That was when she caught me staring. She looked away, taking her eyes back to the window.It left me confused. Was she pissed at me? I was the one who had the right to be mad at her. She had chosen him over me. Well, the distance between us was necessary.I didn't know what I would say or do if I were sitting next to her. Kris took a sharp turn, causing Maxine to grab the handle of the car door. I opened my mouth to say something but I stopped myself. There would be time for questions later.“You alright back there?” Varis asked.“We’re fine,” I said. I didn't know i