Thinking things through

(Acacia)

Two weeks had passed and Elio kept his word by visiting me often. He would have sex with me forcefully and leave like I meant nothing to him. I was still in the dungeon, in the same clothes that I was brought here in three days ago. I was also given a bucket of water and soap to take a shower right here in my cell. I didn't care though, if it meant that I can keep clean, then I would do anything too.

I shivered from disgust as I looked at the other bucket that was in the corner, the stench that was coming from it was making me sick to my stomach. I don't even know how Elio didn't notice while he was here having sex with me.

Knowing that I lost my virginity here made me cry each time, he didn't even take his time with me as he forcefully had sex with me over and over. As much as I didn't want to enjoy it, I did. He left me in a moaning mess by the time he was done. It's not something that I can help, he's my mate after all and the bond made it difficult for me to say no to him.

I started to crave his touch, his scent that would make me go weak. It had gotten so bad that I found myself anxiously waiting for him to come to me.

No matter the number of times I smelt another woman's scent on him, it was hard for me to resist him. My arms were going numb because of the handcuffs that were placed on them. He did that as a punishment earlier because I was trying to get him to leave me alone. I opened my eyes and saw a young girl who was responsible for giving me food and water walking in.

“Good morning, how are you feeling?” I didn't reply to her overly friendly attitude, I didn't see the need to respond when she knew what I was going through.

“I brought lunch. It's turkey sandwiches, fries, and orange juice.” She placed the tray in front of me and started to walk away before I stopped her.

“Aren't you going to taste it first?” I asked. I did not trust anyone here, so I had this rule that she had to be the one to eat it first to show me that it wasn't poisoned.

“I'm not allowed to eat any, I'm the one who made it, so please believe me when I say that it's not poisoned.” I nodded my head and started to eat. I didn't trust her, but I was starving, and I had to eat to gain some strength. I couldn't be weak around here, it was only cause for trouble.

When I was done, she took my tray and was about to walk away when I stopped her.

“I've been here for two weeks and I still haven't gotten your name.” She smiled at me before replying.

“It's Leah.” She left shortly after that. Leah is the only one who treated me kindly around here, I have to remember her once I leave this place. I found out from her that I was the only omega here, they didn't have any because to them, we were a disgrace to the pack. I sighed, knowing that my life will never be the same again. But, I won't give up. I had to find a way to leave this place, the only thing was that this place was swarming with guards.

Nashton and Chase made sure that they were the ones stationed at my cell, the only time they would leave was if I had to use my buckets. I didn't even have any privacy, since they were always just standing, there staring at me. I find them creepy most times, but at least Nashton stopped throwing insults at me for now. I have no reason why, but I was thankful.

Occasionally I wondered if I was the only one down here due to the quietness of it. The eerie feeling would freak me out sometimes, but I decided to remain strong so that I can think of a way of getting out of there. I know that it won't be easy, so I have to tread carefully when I finally make my move.

Elio didn't know that I'm his mate, somehow something was keeping us apart, and I wasn't sure what it was. I can't stay here with this one-sided bond, knowing that I'm the only one who felt the connection was tearing me apart. Even though we didn't accept each other, there are certain things I could feel because of the link we shared. My heart would shatter each time I realized that he was in bed with someone else. I would cry until I couldn't cry anymore.

Those are my weaknesses, I also know that it was affecting Mesha. The more we felt the link shatter with mistrust, the more she slowly started to fade into the darkness at the back of my mind. It had gotten to a point where I was unable to feel her at all, I was always prepared for this, so I knew that it would come. I just didn't know that it would be so soon.

Without my wolf, I would remain an empty void. I won't be able to defend myself, and I know that I would be disowned right away and treated more poorly than before. I couldn't be here, knowing that I had no one to help me.

Sighing, I touched the necklace that Jeremy gave me for my birthday. I promised him that I wouldn't take it off, and I kept my promise ever since. Jeremy is the only one who showed me what it would be like to care for someone. Whenever I was down, he would give me the strength to go on. He's very much protective of me, making me wish that he was my mate instead.

There are numerous things I've often wished for and hoped for. But being here made me realize what was more important. I'm now praying to the goddess for freedom, I'm praying that one day I would be happy. That I can wake up with a smile on my face and not have to worry about people wanting to hurt me or use me. Those are the things that I've been thinking about, it made sense, yes. Anyone in my shoes would, and as much as I was hoping and praying for those things, I knew that luck was not on my side. I knew that it would never happen because fate had already made plans for me.

I'm not going to give up though, I've never done that, and I won't start now.

Even if I'm without a wolf, I'm still one. The bond that I shared with Elio showed me that much. In the end, I'll be fine, for as long as I'm alive I will fight my way to freedom once and for all.