Alexander's POVI arrived at the church and parked outside, I couldn't bring myself to go inside because I know that today I will have to do the most difficult thing I have ever had to done and that is to do something I didn't want to do. I cannot believe that I allowed myself to be played by Tatiana. I don't know why she would do this to me after all that I have done for her. A few weeks before my father announced that I was to wed Ella, I was with her. I had taken her on as a sub and for years she has been the perfect sub but I was leaving the club for good. When you take on a submissive it is pretty much like marriage, as long as they are yours you are bound to protect them and I have done that fort her, I have given her all that her hearts desired, that will also include the modelling gigs, they were all because of me, I know people in a lot of high places and my recommendations are always the first to be considered and so I put a good word for her and she got into in the industr
Tatiana's POV**** Ten to eleven years ago. ****" What is this on your wrists? Lacey I am talking to you?" My mama said with a southern accent. " It is nothing mama..." I said and pulled down my cardigan. I marks on my wrists, I can't tell her where or how I got them because she would lose her mind if she knew. " Lacey Gwendolyn Jones I won't ask you again, it is that boy isn't it? He did this to you didn't he?" She asked me. She was talking about Gary, we have been together for three years now. He is the love of my life. I am a big girl and no guy ever looked at me twice let alone tell me that they love me, all except for Gary. Everyone thought that we were wrong for each other. Gary was a bad boy, a little older than me but I didn't mind. He has been with a lot of girls but since he has been with me, he hasn't been with anyone else. I thought that it was a joke in the beginning, I mean how can the most popular guy in school be attracted to litterally the biggest girl at school.
Alexander's POVThey say that when life throws lemons at you, you make lemonade. I suppose that is what one should do in this world but I don't see how to make lemonade with these lemons. I feel like I have lost control of my life, like I was a puppet being pulled by the strings and I hate it. I keep on praying that everything goes according to plan because this might actually be the last chance I have been given to bring my son back home where he belongs.I have spent the entire week trying to find a way out of marrying Tatiana. I have a problem with people who force me to do things I don't want to do and this morning I was faced with that dynamic again when I found myself having to take the most hardest decision I could ever make. I do not want marry Tatiana, I have made that known from the beginning, I have no intentions of spending a year being married to this woman, I have the woman I love, the one I already married and I was not about to let her go. I was willing to go through
Lacey Jones POVTatiana... The name that was supposed to give me a new start in life. I thought that I had left my past where it belongs but it seems like I was wrong about that too. I feel like I am at a point in my life where nothing matters anymore. Yesterday I did a stupid thing, I should have never lost control like I did but when I saw Ella, I was like a bull seeing red, I couldn't control my rage towards her because she had everything that I ever wanted in this life and that is for Alexander to love me like I wanted him to. I was here first and I was the woman who was there when he was at his lowest in his life. I made him the man that he is today and now he was turning his back on me and I couldn't handle it. I was in love with Gary at one point and I would have done anything for him but all he wanted to do was to hurt me time and over again. but when I was with Gary he made it seem like love and hurt go together. I will say that it took me a lot of strength and willpower to
Ella's POVI fell in love with a man who was already emotionally involved with another woman. I do not have a single doubt in my mind about how he feels about me, I do not doubt his love for me but I saw something in that church and it scares me more than anything in this world. For a moment I thought that he was going to choose Tatiana. He looked at her in a way that he has never looked at me so I have to wonder if he is not in denial about how he feels about Tatiana. I saw the rage in Tatiana's eyes when she pointed the gun at me. I knew my fate and I had accepted it. She saw me as a stumbling block. I don't know much about the relationship and I don't know what really happened between the two of them but what I saw is that this woman is still very much in love with Alexandra. I also saw that she hated the man she was married to in the past. Gary is intense, I can't explain it but when he walks into a room, you can feel his presence. I know that I don't really know much about BDSM
Alexander's POVAs a man it is my outmost duty to protect the people I love and sometimes that is the hardest part of being a man, especially when you come across situations you can't control and I hate not being in control and that is what I feel like when I am with Ella. I have given her so much free reign and she doesn't even know it. I hate the fact that she thinks with her heart and with her mind because if she did, she would understand that there are things that are beyond our control and there is nothing we can do about that. I wish she could put herself in my shoes. I know that by now she has an idea about the kind of relationship I had with Tatiana but she doesn't know the whole truth. I will be honest and say that a part of me wishes that I could give her what I gave to those other women but I know that my heart won't let me. This is why I have realised that maybe I took it a bit too far at times, especially with Tatiana who gave me everything I wanted in a sub. I wish tha
Ella's POVYesterday was a bit hectic, I hate fighting with Alexander but I hate it even more when he keeps things from me. I am trying to understand the man that he really is. He thinks that he is protecting me by not telling me the truth but it the exact opposite of that. I don't want a man who is going to give me only half of him. I need to know the man I love, the man that I married in every sense of the word. I need to know his thoughts, both good and bad, I want to know all of himFor the first since we got married a year ago I feel like everything is moving too fast and I can't cope, it is no wonder I had a nervous breakdown. The problem with me is that I am an over thinker and that is seldom a good thing, that is why I need to be told information so that I don't make up my own conclusions about things. Just like how I wanted him to tell me the truth but he didn't, instead he chose to bark orders at me, telling me that I am not going to have an abortion as if he has the right t
Alexander's POVI know that I have not been the best husband, that I have not been the man that Ella needs but I am trying. I have never had to have a real relationship with anyone other than Ella. This is actually the first time I actually get emotionally invested in a relationship and I am starting to remember why. Having a relationship with no strings attached gives one freedoms he or she would never get in a commited relationship. I don't know how people do this because this is very hard for me. Having to share my feelings was always the hardest thing to do with me. A few days ago I realised just how much I really love Ella because I almost lost her, I don't even know how I would have been able to cope without her. In that moment I also realised that what I feel for Ella compares to nothing, not even what I shared with Lacey. I didn't do right by Ella, I released that when I saw her sleeping on that hospital bed. I realised that she was right about a lot of things as well, I have
Alexander's POV **** Fifteen Years Later**** " I am sorry Mr Black but we can't allow him to come back to this institute, your son is brilliant, he has a brilliant mind but he is the worst student this institution has had. " The Dean of students said to me. This is the fourth call she has made to me in the last two months about my son, he has been involved in fights and brawls ever since he went to university. I have three other children that I need to worry about and the person I should be least worried about is giving me stress. " I am sorry Dean, I will talk to him. " I said to the Dean. " Mr Black I don't think you hear me, we are beyond talking at this point, your son has proven time and again that he doesn't want to be here. " She said to me. " Dean I heard through the grapevine that you are about to host a gala dinner, something about raising funds for a new division at the university. " I said to her. " We haven't made a notice, how do you know about this?" She asked me.
Alexander's POVI knew something was up with Jack when he kept on dissappearing without any explanations. Not only that but he kept on asking me to give Michelle a job so that she would miss the wedding. I know that we have a lot of history together, that we are basically brothers but I don't know if I can let my wife down like that. Ella doesn't have that many friends, she only has two that she holds close to her heart, that would be Isabella and Michelle, both of which are part of the wedding celebration. The same wedding celebration I flew everyone here for, I booked out an entire resort for everyone. I didn't even understand why he would ask me that so I told him that I wanted a reason why he would even ask me to do something like that, especially after I told him that I want this wedding be perfect, I told him that Ella has to have the wedding of her dreams, if she had told me that she wanted to have dolphins at our wedding, believe me when I tell you that I would have made it h
Ella's POVThe last couple of days have been stressful, having a destination wedding is never easy. I wanted a beach wedding out of the country. I know that Tatiana is behind bars but after all that she has done to me, I can't let my guard down. I didn't tell Alexander but I have been having nightmares about the day of the shooting, I keep on releaving that moment in my mind, I wish I can say that being shot at was the worst part of it but it was not, it was the way Alexander looked at her that scares me to death. I can't help feeling like she will always find a way to ruin my marriage, to ruin the good thing I have going with my husband and family. I know that as long as she is truly out there, I will never be truly happy. She might be in jail but she won't be there forever. I have a fear that one day when I am truly happy, when my children and husband are happy, she will come and turn our lives upside down. She will snatch everything away from me. I have had to put Brad through ca
Alexander's POVI don't usually follow people's advice, especially when it comes to my personal life, I thought that I had all the answers, that I could really be a different man but I soon realised that I was wrong. I suppose talking to Minty helped me to make a few things clear for me, it made me realise what I wanted and why I wanted it. At first I was doing BDSM to deal with issues I couldn't control, I never thought that there was another reason for doing it but after I talked to Minty, I realised that I was using my troubles as an excuse. The truth is that I have always been that kind of a man. I have always had a taste for the extreme, from jumping out of the plane to diving with the Sharks, I have always been the one to live on the edge so my sexual tastes was also extreme. Even before I knew about the BDSM works I always had a thing for bondage and spanking but even then, not even when I was drunk out of my mind, I never did it to Ella, I didn't even think I could. I am abo
Ella's POVIt has been days since the Gala dinner and I honestly don't know what happened but I have been seeing a lot of changes in my husband and as much as I told him to stop buying me expensive gifts, it is like he is purposely trying to ignore me. On top of a very expensive necklace that he got me, he decided to get me an art piece, a very expensive art piece. Last night we went to an art gallery, one of his friends was having his work shown there and so he invited Alexander. It was the first time I set foot in a place like that, up until last night I didn't really think much about art. To me a painting was just a painting and a statue was just a statue but that changed last night. His friend had one of his destopian art pieces and I fell in love with it instantly. The statue was just full of life, the raw materials used were just out of this world and I could somehow imagine that in our home. I didn't tell Alexander that I wanted it, but I told him that I liked it and this morn
Alexander's POVI don't know how she managed to pull this off but I am happy with the work that she has put in to make this night a success. I will also say that I didn't think that I would see some of the faces I saw here tonight, especially faces that had no business being here. I am talking about the women in my past, the women I have had to let go and all for various reasons. I also realised that my parents were happy about the work my wife has put in to make this night a success. I still can't believe that this is where we are, that we are finally going to get everything we have always wanted. In a week I will see my wife walking down the isle once again and this time, I can't even wait for the day to come. I am at a place in my life where I feel like everything has finally fallen into place. I am about to become a father again and I will tell you now that there is no title in my life that I hold in high regard than the title of father. Two years ago I was not even thinking abo
Ella's POVIt has been three weeks since I got shot, three weeks since I have been back home with my family and I am only a week away from my wedding day, not only have I been planning my wedding, I have been planning the restaurant's official opening and also tonight's Gala dinner. It is the first time I have had to throw a party so big but with the help of my friends I was able to pull it off. It is an annual event that was had been organised by his mother since it was founded a decade ago. I will admit that I never thought that my life would turn out like this. That I would be a wife to a man like Alexander or even the fact that I would be responsible for events like the one I organised tonight. Alexander's mother said that she was tired of running the organisation and that it needed some fresh blood, I was not too keen on the idea of taking on something as big as this and in such a limited space of time. The gunshot wound was healing and now I felt like I was ready to take on the
Alexander's POV I did not want my wife to find out about my previous lifestyle and what used to happen between me and my ex's. I know that if it was up to me she wouldn't have found out at all but she wanted to know and I told her. I told her what was happening and I thought that she would ask me for details which would have been the worst because I don't think I could have been able to utter the words to her. The more I thought of it, the more I hated myself for it. All this time I thought that I was using Lacey as a coping mechanism but that is not true. The truth I that I was taking it all out on her because I was not dealing with things. I also realise that my wife was right when she said that I could not cut off that part of me like it didn't exist. I didn't want to hear that especially coming from her but that still doesn't change the fact that she was right but I also know that I can never do to her what I did to all those other women. I told her and left because I didn't wa
Ella's POVI will be the first to admit that Alexander caught me completely by surprise. I know that the insurance said that they would take some time to pay out and I was wondering if I was even able to start all over from the start again. I had put in a lot of work into making that restaurant what it was before that crazy woman burnt it all down. I kept on asking myself what I had done to have so much bad luck and now I know that it had nothing to do with bad luck at all. It had to do with the fact that another woman wanted my husband so bad that she was willing to ruin everything I had in order to get what she wanted and for a moment it seemed like she was going to do it, that she was going to get everything I had. My husband, my daughter and even my marriage. After weeks of worrying about my son, I couldn't just sit and do nothing. I don't know what I would have done if it was not for Michelle, she really came through for me and I don't even know how to thank her. I don't know w