It wasn’t like Christian could do anything to help Dala or anyone else anyway. Even if he could find them, it’s not like he had an antidote. I wished there was something I could do to stop Dala from transforming into one of those awful things, but Christian wasn’t the answer. As hard as it was to believe it might be possible to save her, I reminded myself that I had been spared. If we could get over there quickly enough, maybe we could save her, too.
I needed to tell Cadence and Aaron what I’d found out, but it was well past midnight, so I figured my sister was asleep. The time had really gotten away from me. I must’ve been in Dala’s head longer than I thought. I could tell Aaron—he never sleeps. But I didn’t want to tell him without talking to my sister. He’d probably ask me where Christian was, and I didn’t want to go into that right now.
Bed would’ve been a good option for me at that point, but I was
By the time I made it down the hallway, I was no longer thinking at all. I just needed the noise to stop. I hammered on the door with my fist, barely able to keep my mouth shut. The last thing I needed was everyone on the floor staring at me.It took a second for the door to open. Brandon stared at me like he wasn’t sure what to say. I didn’t give him time to say anything I flew into his apartment, rushing right past him, with my hands over my ears. “Make it stop!” I begged him, bending over and pulling at my hair. “I don’t know how to make it stop!” He probably thought I was crazy. Maybe I was.“Make what stop? Cass, what’s the matter?” I could hear the concern in his voice. He reached out for me, trying to stabilize me, I assume. I was thrashing all over the place, not sure how to shout to Brandon what was happening over the noise in my own head, though I was aware he couldn’t hear it and didn’t
I unwound my arms from Brandon, and he let me go. I took a step back. “Thank you, Brandon. I’m sorry. I freaked out. I didn’t know what else to do.”“It’s okay. I’m glad you came. I’m so sorry that happened to you.” He reached up and brushed a few strands of hair behind my ear, his fingertips grazing my cheek, and I wanted to jump back into his arms.I didn’t. “I’ve never had anything like that happen before.”“It seemed really scary.”“It was.” I couldn’t remember the last time I’d been that scared, but I imagined it had to have been before I Transformed. Probably when Zabrina had me, or when I was lying on the ground, turning into a Vampire.Brandon stared at me for a second and then bit his bottom lip. I wanted to stay. The thought of going back to my apartment, alone, where Daunator had infiltrated my thoughts, was frightening. I co
But I had to check on Christian even if the threat of Daunator showing up in my head was terrifying. I could hear Brandon washing his hands and figured I had a second to pop into the other Guardian’s head, just to make sure he was alive. He was—but he was asleep, which was so weird because Guardians sleep so little, but I was glad. It must be so horrible being down there. Sleep might be the only peace possible.“Sorry about that, Brandon said, wiping his hands on his jeans. “Do you want something for breakfast?”I was tempted to say yes, to pretend like everything was fine and we hadn’t spent the last few days apart, but I couldn’t do that. We’d have to talk before we could move on, and Cadence needed me. “No, that’s okay. I should probably go. I have to check in with my sister.” I ran my hands through my hair and stood up.“Oh, okay.” I hated making his face look like that, like I&rsq
Still, I couldn’t just blab everything to Elliott, especially not since I’d just decided I wasn’t even going to tell my sister. “What do you mean?”He ran his tongue over his lips like he’d also felt that blast of hot air and it had dried them out before he asked, “What were you doing yesterday when Daunator got stuck in your head?”I had known he was in the hallway when I was talking to Brandon, trying to get the monster out, but I didn’t realize until that moment how carefully he’d been paying attention to what I was screaming about. “I was checking on these people.” I tipped my head in the direction of the stacks of paper all over my coffee table but didn’t pull my hand out. I needed to get him off course, make him think he was wrong. “I found one of them. I was just about to go tell Cadence and Aaron—some of these missing people are those creatures Eliza fought. Daunator is ke
Out of the corner of my eye, I studied him for a second before I asked, “If you already know that, why do you need me to tell you anything?”Elliott sighed so loudly, the papers on the table moved. I turned my head to look at him now, feeling like a small child who’d disappointed her favorite parent as he said, “I guess I was just hoping you were still my girl. That you hadn’t changed so much in the last year that you wouldn’t be straight up honest with me.”Those words stung deep inside of me. I knew he was right. I had changed. But in this case, I was trying to be true to my old self, the one that would’ve never betrayed her word, not to anyone, regardless of who was the friend and who was the enemy.Elliott’s hands banged down on his legs and he pulled himself up off of the couch. “Guess I was wrong.”“Elliott, come on. Don’t be like that. Look, I’d tell you what I know
Mrs. Carminati is one of the nicest people in the world. I could seriously stand at her desk and talk for hours. She smells kind of like cookies and flowers, but in the sort of way that makes you just want to hug her. Even though I wasn’t feeling very good about myself when I walked into the office, her smile instantly made me feel better.“Well, hello there, Cassidy. How are you today?”“Fine,” I said, managing a smile. “How are you?”“Fair to middlin’,” she said with a little chuckle. I’d heard my grandmother say that before and figured it meant somewhere in the middle. “Glad the weather’s finally starting to cool off a bit. Us humans care about such things.”“I remember.” Had it been all that long since I’d been human myself? Not really, but it seemed like an eternity. I leaned against the counter. “Cadence wanted to see me.”“
Aaron turned his attention back to me. “I want you to get into contact with Mila later and see if you can help her out while they look for the next Vampire on their list. She’s aware now that Eliza was speaking to you.” He must’ve seen my eyes widen because he assured me, “Eliza’s not in trouble or anything, but I’m sure it’s yet another reason why Mila doesn’t quite trust her. Anyway, if we can find that guy, and take him alive, we might be able to figure out the answers to some of our questions.”I said, “All right,” but I didn’t think that would be possible. I knew enough about Sylvester, the next mark, from my research to know he wouldn’t go down easily. They looked ready to move on to the real reason I was here, so I switched topics. “Something else happened last night.” Even thinking about the situation with Daunator made me nervous. I could feel sweat popping up on my upper
Taking a deep breath, I knocked on Brandon’s door, hoping my mouth would be as confident as my feet had been when they led me here. I was praying he was home while I still had the nerve to talk to him about everything. But he wasn’t answering. I knocked again, a little harder this time, but not the bone-shattering way I’d pounded on his door the night before.Waiting for him to open up, I thought about the conversation I’d just had with the bosses. I didn’t want to go over it all again. I couldn’t explain why I felt the way I did, but I felt like I was letting everyone down. At one point, I actually thought I should go ahead and get Christian while I was sitting there, but I hadn’t done it. I hated the fact that Cadence had put me in the middle of the situation—keep my promise or help the team. Maybe I was just being stubborn.And with Elliott’s speech earlier, about how I’m not who I used to be and I’m