68. Losing

KERN

I stood on the balcony as I watched Abel and Anya leave together. It was clear what the both of them would do when they got inside.

My heart felt like it was breaking, and yet there was nothing I could do to stop the both of them from mating with each other. They were clearly attracted to each other and it seemed that the full moon had sealed a mate bond between them.

I was hurt, but there was nothing that I could do about my feelings. I thought that I would be able to back away so that they could both be happy but I could not do it. I wanted Anya for myself. I wanted to be with her too.

I went inside the house and almost went to Abel's room to stop them but I held myself back. I knew I probably wouldn't be able to do that. I might just end up making a fool of myself.

I sighed and went back to my bedroom. I tried hard to fall asleep. No matter how hard I tried though, I couldn't sleep.

I just lay there on the bed with my eyes open as I thought about all the times that I had