“Just breathe, Jesse,” Maya said quietly. She sounded like she was grieving—urging me not to give up.
But I could barely inhale, and when I did, my lungs didn’t seem to draw oxygen from the air. I was heaving.
“Why… why would he d-do that? Why? He promised me he’d never… wait, has he done this before?!” I was horrified and snapped my head around, staring at her wide-eyed and pleading.
It was only a small relief when she shook her head.
“Then why?!” I shrieked.
~ JESSE ~Maya talked for a long time—about Cazz’s history. About his pain. And about how he’d let me down.I listened. I agreed. I knew she was right. But the longer I sat there, the more I became stuck in a weird duality.Half of me growing more and more numb. Calmer—almost untouched. That side of me felt like if Cazz had walked in right then, I would have just looked at him and asked him calmly to explain.But the other half of me… That half was a forest fire.Grief. Fear. Betrayal. Sick.That side of me continued to crack and shatter, and the longer she talked, the less I heard. Because in th
~ CASIMIR ~I was standing outside Jesse’s chamber door, which had been mostly closed, but not entirely. And I was peering through a tiny sliver of space to watch my mate embrace my best friend.“Rake… if anything happens—”“Shhhhh, don’t do that. Don’t let the tensions here make you catastrophize. I’m back again in less than a week—and I’ll be calling the final Selection for Cazz and you to make the declarations. So, just focus on that. And don’t worry about me.”“No, Rake, I’m serious. If anything happens to you it will kill me. I need you to be so careful. Watch your back when my brothers are around—always. And… and come back safe. Plea
~ CASIMIR ~We stood right in each other’s space, both quivering on the edge of the shift. He wasn’t challenging for dominance so he wouldn’t shift first, wouldn’t push me to it—because he knew he’d lose. But he didn’t drop my gaze, and didn’t back down. If I shifted, he would too.I growled, low and deep in my chest.Rake’s gaze didn’t waver, but he shifted his weight on his feet, balancing himself. “I’ve never touched her, Cazz. Never said anything to her about how I feel. Never given her any reason to think or believe… anything except that I am on her team. I’ve never done anything inappropriate. And before you growl, it’s true—I’v
~ CASIMIR ~Half an hour later I was pacing Rake’s rooms, clawing hands through my hair and growling.Where the fuck was she? I wanted to run, to shift, to go after her, scent her for myself, follow her and drag her back here. But I couldn’t leave this fucker to escape.Rake, on the other hand, sat in the simple chair in his room, watching me pace. The only clue to his tension, the way he drummed his fingers on the arm of the chair.“Would you sit down?” he growled. “This isn’t what you think it is. She’s going to come back and tell you and you’re going to see. You know that, Cazz. You know her. You’re just creating divisions where n
~ CASIMIR ~I growled at the girl, ready to tell her exactly what I thought of that—but Rake cursed.“She’s gone to talk to her brothers. She’s gone to prove herself. You fucking did it, Cazz. You finally pushed her too far—and she’s going to put herself in danger to prove you wrong.”I turned on him then, every ounce of protectiveness of her as my mate and our Queen making me quiver with rage. “I told her no,” I snarled. “I tried to stop her. To protect her. If they kill her, I’m holding you responsible.”“That is such bull
~ CASIMIR ~I was quivering, my whole body shivering with rage and fear and a deeply painful sense of betrayal and—Maya’s knobbly walking stick appeared next to my wrist, pushing my hand away from Rake’s throat with a surprising strength.I considered fighting her, but what was I going to do? Kill my aunt? I snarled and let go of Rake, glaring at him as he sucked in deep, gulping breaths, but didn’t move away. He was still upright against the wall, though his color looked a bit odd.Good. He needed to pay for—Then Maya tsked. “Stop throwing blame to save your heart, Cazz. Jesse didn’t leave to refuse you, or
~ CASIMIR ~When the tunnel outside was quiet and we were alone, Maya sighed, and suddenly the blocks disappeared—I drank in the power as it washed back into my veins, sighing with relief, trembling with it, pushing away the shock of how reliant I was upon it to keep my control.Rake slumped. She’d obviously held some kind of grip on him as well.“If either so much as looks at the other the wrong way, I will return your blocks, and I will not be gentle. I need both of you to set aside your differences and act like the adults that I know you can be.” Then she looked back and forth between us with a sniff. “Well… I hope, at least,” she qualified with disdain.Then she turned and hobbled towards Rake’s chair, speaking as
~ CASIMIR ~I ground my teeth, shocked and furious that Maya was revealing her strength in front of Rake. She’d already revealed far too much in front of the guards and that servant. But none of them would actually know what had happened. Now she was going to tell Rake what she could do?None of the wolves understood my aunt’s power.Our family’s bloodline always held power. Every single one of us. It was why we had risen to the throne. But those in her generation had all been dead for a while, and every generation since had killed every living sibling, so there was never record of adults in the bloodline and their gifts. Maya had vowed to every King after her brother to keep her gifts a secret and retain them o
~ CASIMIR ~I was pretty sure if I didn’t get inside her, I was going to eat her alive.Scooting with her in my lap, still straddling me, I got her so both my knees and her back were flat against the wall. Then I flipped open the wide, leather cuffs that had been secured directly to the wall and first lifted one of her hands, to strap it in so her hand was levered above her shoulder, but with her arm comfortably bent so she could relax. Then I did the same with her other hand on the other side.So I straddled the banana-seat, while she straddled me and her hands were secured to the wall behind her.Her breasts rose and fell with her heavy breathing, and her eyes were bright with desire.Overwhelmed again with how much thought she’d put into this, for a moment I just took her face in my hands and kissed her. But that drew us together—my cock pressing against her, and I couldn’t resist rolling my hips, teasing
~ CASIMIR ~“I made a new Den,” Jesse whispered, her hands over her mouth, staring up at me—those beautiful eyes wide, but also a little fearful. “I know it’s not the same, but I got Ghere to help me because he remembered what things you’d had before and… I hope you like it.”Like it? Was she serious?My heart was slamming against my ribs, and I was having trouble breathing.The room seemed smaller than I remembered because the walls were painted a dull black. But the tighter space than what I’d had down next to the Den just made it feel more intimate.There were two lamps, one on each end, and a chandelier high above. Candles everywhere, though she hadn’t lit mo
~ JESSE ~It was Cazz’s turn to plan the monthly date. But I was humming about this one. Things were finally ready, and impossibly, Ghere had helped me successfully pull off the surprise. But I still had to figure out how to get Cazz there without ruining it.He’d taken me out to the meadow again—my favorite date. Though we’d enjoyed several others now too—and we’d just finished eating. He was leaning back against the cab of the truck, looking out at the city lights, his brows a little heavy.“What are you thinking about?” I asked him, though I had a hunch.He had his arm around me and I was leaning on his shoulder. His hand trailed up and
~ CASIMIR ~I came out of the bathing room after a long bath rubbing my hair with a towel, to find my mate standing in the middle of the chamber with her arms folded and looking sternly at my daughter, who sat on the floor in nothing but a diaper, with her chubby legs straight out. She, too, had her arms folded and her lips pursed in the perfect reflection of her mother.The two glared at each other and half my heart went cold, while the other half wanted to splutter with laughter.“Abigail, I have told you—”“No!”Our daughter could only get her tongue around a few words so far, but
~ JESSE (a few weeks later) ~I had just finished nursing Abigail and was holding her on my lap while Reeca sat with me on the couch.Her eyes were bright and she was beginning to smile, so I was tickling her cheeks to see if I could get her to do it. But she was sleepy because she’d just eaten and only yawned and cooed.“She’s a very calm baby,” Reeca commented from the other end of the couch, smiling. She loved babies, and had been so helpful when I was tired—and just for reassurance for me.She was a calm presence in any room, and with Abigail, she showed a lot of delight and joy that she seemed to stifle in other areas of her life.“Reeca,” I said carefully, because I’d b
~ JESSE ~I was too tired to do more than lift my hands to his neck, so I just curled my face into his chest and let him settle us into the chair, cradled in his arms with my ass in his lap.When he’d sat, I had my head resting on his shoulder and my body curled in his arms.“Do you hurt?” he asked quickly.“No, just tired, like I said.”I felt him relax a little then and another chill started in my blood.“Cazz… what’s happened?” I asked quietly.He turned his head to meet my eyes and lifted his hand to comb hair back from my face. His throat bobbed, but his touch was g
~ JESSE (Hours later) ~My dreams were disturbing—my body in pain, screams of terror, darkness, the floor shaking, the mountain falling, humans fleeing and wolves…I tried to break free, tried desperately to open my eyes and to speak, because I knew I was asleep. But all I did was fade… in and out. The nightmares, or nothing.And through it all, his voice.“Heal… live.”My heart ached. My body hurt. My chest didn’t want to expand. It was as if my flesh fought his words, and I didn’t understand.But finally, the dreams faded and I could hear a heartbeat. Little, and quick. And feel warm flesh. And the breath of my m
~ CASIMIR ~I felt the moment the power went out of Jesse. The entire mountain felt it.I howled with triumph and shifted, sprinting towards the room, ecstatic when there was no sense of Maya gripping my mind or stealing anything from me. But of course, there was no power left for her to steal.I prayed and pleaded and ran, Rory and the others coming in my wake. And the moment I broke through that door in my wolf—the only power left to me anymore—everything slowed. Though my body whipped and my mind was singularly focused, it was as if everything happened in slow motion.I caught a bare glimpse of Jesse on the bed, and at first my heart leaped. She was moving, awake, aware,
~ JESSE ~Maya had me sitting up in the bed, curled forward, gripping my knees. Reeca on one side, helping prop me up, a guard on the other.My body was nothing but a conduit for pain. Wave after wave, my entire lower body condensing, contracting, pushing to get this baby out. I could barely think.Cazz was there, so quiet, so distant, but there, calling his encouragement and pushing love at me through the bond.There was a moment when I thought I wouldn’t make it, when I thought my body would give and I would just drift away.But then I caught Maya smiling. Leaning forward between my legs, reaching, grasping, for