When I left Maya, Sven was waiting to walk me back, which was sweet since I hadn’t even thought about asking him to.
I was deep in thought, so we walked in silence for a minute, while I got frustrated because I was too far away to link with Cazz—not that I was sure what I’d say, since he hadn’t spoken this morning—and I couldn’t reach any of the others either.
Then it hit me… I had been so consumed with Cazz I hadn’t even checked in on Reeca!
Shit.
“Sven… are you able to link with the packmind and see where Reeca is right now and if she’s free to speak with me when I get back?”
“Sure.
~ JESSE ~Reeca nodded quickly, but her expression was wary. “I mean… I knew that you would choose me and there would be disruption. I knew it was right to… to just follow this path. I didn’t know… I couldn’t see how it would all come together. And I had no sight on what the males’ reactions would be. I was just waiting to see…”“You’re a prophetess?” I said breathlessly. “Rake told me. I had no idea… That’s why the others listen when you talk, right? Why didn’t you tell me?”Her face kind of pinched as she winced. “I’m sorry about that. Truly. At first I was just nervous. I’m still learning—I can still misread situations or… or just see nothing. But even once I knew that you shared my
Cold Heart – Part 1~ CASIMIR ~When Jesse awoke, I was alone in my office reading reports and forming a strategy for watching over the challenges that would inevitably happen in the packs. I’d spent hours looking for any way that the humans might use this as a distraction, or exploit the conflicts between wolves against us. And had tried to identify any way the wolves in the packs who weren’t happy with my leadership might try to use it against me or even Jesse.I’d been at the end of my tether, unable to see any new strategies we could employ to prevent problems before they started, when the bond hummed because was coming awake, and my stomach plummeted.I had set my p
~ JESSE ~It was so strange not to be linking with Cazz. Having him open in the bond, but not feeling free to speak to him there…I wasn’t sure if his undisturbed awareness was a bad sign or not.Ghere had explained how busy he was, and I understood that he couldn’t hold serious conversations and make decisions with other wolves while also arguing with me in our minds. I knew he was right to keep his focus on the things that were under deadlines, and would help the wolves not to overreact to the adjustments in the hierarchy. So I had stayed away. But when it was almost midnight and I could feel him in the Palace, but he still hadn’t even said a word to me…
~ JESSE ~Rake sighed and wrapped his arms around me, dropping his chin to the top of my head, and stroking my back.“I know it’s rough, but he will get over it. He always does,” he murmured quietly.“I know. I mean, I guess I know. I just… things had been so good…”“Is he still telling you what went wrong? Or is he—”“He’s not talking to me at all—he linked me when I arrived in that room to tell me that he couldn’t take time to talk with you all there. And I get that. But… it was the first words we exchanged today.”
~ JESSE ~Rake had been gone more than an hour when I felt Cazz’s power ripple through the Palace like a sonic wave.I sucked in and sat up in bed where I’d been trying to sleep and instinctively reached out for him in the bond.‘Cazz—what’s wrong, what’s—’‘Come to me.’I blinked.His voice was deep and resonant, husky and rich. It made a shiver travel down my spine.‘Where are you?’‘Do you submit, Jesse?’
~ JESSE ~For a time I was so deeply lost in the sensations he wrung from my flesh that I couldn’t think beyond how to arch, or roll, or press to increase the contact and peak my pleasure.I was panting so loud it echoed in the chamber, and Cazz was no better. Sweat sheened his brow and his eyes glinted like blades. He kissed me with such fervor he threatened to suck my tongue out of my mouth. He tasted my throat with such intensity, his teeth scraped and threatened to actually bleed me. And he pulled me against him so hard I suspected I would be sore in the morning.My eyes kept fluttering closed with each wave of sensation so that I caught only glimpses of him…Cazz, his head thrown back and his throat bare to me.
~ JESSE ~I froze, gaping at him, waiting for him to grin and say it was a joke. But he didn’t. “Cazz… What are you—”“Let. Me. Compel you,” he whispered, then reached up to push a strand of hair back from my face and tucked it tenderly behind my ear. “I won’t do you any harm. I will talk to you, stroke you, use it to make your body sing.”“But.. you already do—why would you need to—”“Because I demonstrated my trust in you—trust I had given to no one. Ever. And then you threw it back
~ JESSE ~His upper lip twitched like he would sneer, but he kept blinking like I’d taken him by surprise. And his brows pinched down towards a frown.He didn’t speak—not out loud, and not in the bond. Just stared at me, searching my eyes.“You submit to my choice?”“In everything, Cazz,” I breathed. “I know you—I know your heart. It’s bound to mine. I trust that man—that male. I trust that King.”His breath caught and I saw his resolve waver. Please, God. Please. I leaned in closer until my
~ CASIMIR ~I was pretty sure if I didn’t get inside her, I was going to eat her alive.Scooting with her in my lap, still straddling me, I got her so both my knees and her back were flat against the wall. Then I flipped open the wide, leather cuffs that had been secured directly to the wall and first lifted one of her hands, to strap it in so her hand was levered above her shoulder, but with her arm comfortably bent so she could relax. Then I did the same with her other hand on the other side.So I straddled the banana-seat, while she straddled me and her hands were secured to the wall behind her.Her breasts rose and fell with her heavy breathing, and her eyes were bright with desire.Overwhelmed again with how much thought she’d put into this, for a moment I just took her face in my hands and kissed her. But that drew us together—my cock pressing against her, and I couldn’t resist rolling my hips, teasing
~ CASIMIR ~“I made a new Den,” Jesse whispered, her hands over her mouth, staring up at me—those beautiful eyes wide, but also a little fearful. “I know it’s not the same, but I got Ghere to help me because he remembered what things you’d had before and… I hope you like it.”Like it? Was she serious?My heart was slamming against my ribs, and I was having trouble breathing.The room seemed smaller than I remembered because the walls were painted a dull black. But the tighter space than what I’d had down next to the Den just made it feel more intimate.There were two lamps, one on each end, and a chandelier high above. Candles everywhere, though she hadn’t lit mo
~ JESSE ~It was Cazz’s turn to plan the monthly date. But I was humming about this one. Things were finally ready, and impossibly, Ghere had helped me successfully pull off the surprise. But I still had to figure out how to get Cazz there without ruining it.He’d taken me out to the meadow again—my favorite date. Though we’d enjoyed several others now too—and we’d just finished eating. He was leaning back against the cab of the truck, looking out at the city lights, his brows a little heavy.“What are you thinking about?” I asked him, though I had a hunch.He had his arm around me and I was leaning on his shoulder. His hand trailed up and
~ CASIMIR ~I came out of the bathing room after a long bath rubbing my hair with a towel, to find my mate standing in the middle of the chamber with her arms folded and looking sternly at my daughter, who sat on the floor in nothing but a diaper, with her chubby legs straight out. She, too, had her arms folded and her lips pursed in the perfect reflection of her mother.The two glared at each other and half my heart went cold, while the other half wanted to splutter with laughter.“Abigail, I have told you—”“No!”Our daughter could only get her tongue around a few words so far, but
~ JESSE (a few weeks later) ~I had just finished nursing Abigail and was holding her on my lap while Reeca sat with me on the couch.Her eyes were bright and she was beginning to smile, so I was tickling her cheeks to see if I could get her to do it. But she was sleepy because she’d just eaten and only yawned and cooed.“She’s a very calm baby,” Reeca commented from the other end of the couch, smiling. She loved babies, and had been so helpful when I was tired—and just for reassurance for me.She was a calm presence in any room, and with Abigail, she showed a lot of delight and joy that she seemed to stifle in other areas of her life.“Reeca,” I said carefully, because I’d b
~ JESSE ~I was too tired to do more than lift my hands to his neck, so I just curled my face into his chest and let him settle us into the chair, cradled in his arms with my ass in his lap.When he’d sat, I had my head resting on his shoulder and my body curled in his arms.“Do you hurt?” he asked quickly.“No, just tired, like I said.”I felt him relax a little then and another chill started in my blood.“Cazz… what’s happened?” I asked quietly.He turned his head to meet my eyes and lifted his hand to comb hair back from my face. His throat bobbed, but his touch was g
~ JESSE (Hours later) ~My dreams were disturbing—my body in pain, screams of terror, darkness, the floor shaking, the mountain falling, humans fleeing and wolves…I tried to break free, tried desperately to open my eyes and to speak, because I knew I was asleep. But all I did was fade… in and out. The nightmares, or nothing.And through it all, his voice.“Heal… live.”My heart ached. My body hurt. My chest didn’t want to expand. It was as if my flesh fought his words, and I didn’t understand.But finally, the dreams faded and I could hear a heartbeat. Little, and quick. And feel warm flesh. And the breath of my m
~ CASIMIR ~I felt the moment the power went out of Jesse. The entire mountain felt it.I howled with triumph and shifted, sprinting towards the room, ecstatic when there was no sense of Maya gripping my mind or stealing anything from me. But of course, there was no power left for her to steal.I prayed and pleaded and ran, Rory and the others coming in my wake. And the moment I broke through that door in my wolf—the only power left to me anymore—everything slowed. Though my body whipped and my mind was singularly focused, it was as if everything happened in slow motion.I caught a bare glimpse of Jesse on the bed, and at first my heart leaped. She was moving, awake, aware,
~ JESSE ~Maya had me sitting up in the bed, curled forward, gripping my knees. Reeca on one side, helping prop me up, a guard on the other.My body was nothing but a conduit for pain. Wave after wave, my entire lower body condensing, contracting, pushing to get this baby out. I could barely think.Cazz was there, so quiet, so distant, but there, calling his encouragement and pushing love at me through the bond.There was a moment when I thought I wouldn’t make it, when I thought my body would give and I would just drift away.But then I caught Maya smiling. Leaning forward between my legs, reaching, grasping, for