Jesse stood, resting a hand on my shoulder which made my skin prickle. I almost grabbed her and pulled her into my lap, but instead clenched my hands to fists as she smiled at Rake and leaned across the table to squeeze his arm.
“I’m so glad you’re safe and here and… I’m just glad, Rake. Let’s go for a walk or something when you have time, okay? I want to do like Cazz said and have you show me how my brothers are acting with you, and how they’re saying these things, in case there’s anything you’ve missed or I can help interpret.”
Rake got to his feet because he was old-fashioned like that. Maya loved it and always muttered criticism at me when he did it and I didn’t.
But I was distracted from t
~ CASIMIR ~I snorted. “What has happened is that I am learning who I can trust. And I trust you, Rake. I also trust my mate. Both of you are the only ones who know about this entire picture. Now, don’t distract me and get off the subject,” I said hurriedly. “I’m telling you, you have a male on your team who is well intended, but has concerns about you. Be careful what you let him see. If he misinterprets it and comes running with claims of your betrayal… I shudder to think what could happen.”Rake flapped his hand. “He’ll be fine. I’ll talk to him, let him ask his questions, explain what he’s seeing so he knows how to watch for my heart in it. Leave it to me.”“I will. I just wanted you to be aware.”
~ JESSE ~I found Reeca in one of the side tunnels we often passed on the way to the Den. She was surprised to hear from me, but beckoned me into her cave when I reached her.It was small and simple, and I loved it, because the furnishings and the way she decorated seemed much softer than I would have picked as her taste.“Are you busy?” I asked her quickly when she invited me in.“No. I have a meeting this afternoon with the healers, but I’m free until then. What’s going on?” she asked me, somewhat warily, tucking that white stripe of hair behind her ear.“I just wanted to prepare you—and give you a last chance to bow out. I’ve just left a conversation with Rake and Ca
~ JESSE ~I wasn’t going to fight that, and laughed a little as he growled and shoved the door closed behind me, then lifted me up and started carrying me towards the bed.For a moment I was just going to go with it—I wanted him too. And it was still thrilling and reassuring every time we reunited and he wanted me. But I also knew we had to leave for dinner soon, and he was probably going to be talking to the Council tonight. So I needed to convince him now.He dropped me on the bed, then straightened, his eyes raking down my body as he began to strip off his shirt. “I don’t have much time,” he muttered. “Get your clothes off.”I laughed and pushed up onto my knees, reaching for his shirt and smiling. “I want you to
~ JESSE ~I went still and Cazz dusted one more kiss on my neck, then straightened, one hand still under my chin to meet my eyes, his expression grim.I stared at him, trying to understand how his tone and touch could be so at odds with his words.“Cazz—”His thumb tightened on my chin and his eyes flashed. “Hear me, Jesse. I said no. And I’m not discussing it further,” he said, the words clipped.All the hope and excitement I’d felt about how we were connecting and how he was listening just crumbled. My stomach sank as I held his gaze, examined him in the bond, and realized there was absolutely
~ JESSE ~I got my shit together and made myself go to dinner. The wolves were already perceiving and scenting everything that happened between us, I didn’t want to have to face questions about why the Queen was absent—and pouting. So a few minutes after Cazz left I put my big girl pants on and made myself follow him to the dining room. But I wasn’t happy about it.Cazz was already seated, and many of the others were already there scattered at seats around the long dining table that could sit twenty, but would only have about a dozen tonight. The food hadn’t come yet, so some of them hadn’t taken seats and were standing near the table, talking.When I walked in, Cazz was sitting at the head of the table, one elbow on the arm of his chair, his temple resting on his fist. The moment I stepped
~ JESSE ~By Tuesday morning with Maya, I was waging internal war. She was so focused on my mental defenses and preparing me to “manifest” this power she said was hibernating inside me, she refused to even hear me talk about questioning Cazz’s decision about my help.And then when I was walking back to the Palace and considering whether to just go find Cazz and push my point, Rake nudged again.‘It’s a no, Jess. He’s determined that it’s too risky. I’m sorry. But you and I will have a conversation tomorrow. I’ve told him that I really want your input and advice. After the Selection tonight things will calm down a little for me, so we’ll get together after you see Maya tomorrow, okay?’I blinked.
~ CASIMIR ~When I realized I had been pacing my rooms for twenty minutes, I shook my head and made myself stop.She was my mate. She loved me. And I loved her. She was preparing for her first true duty as Queen, and I was nervous like a puppy at his first Rite. It was stupid.She still welcomed me every night, and falling into her arms was the highlight of my day. She was going to be beautiful—in the dress I arranged for her.It was time to put this tension aside and just be together.So, taking both a metaphorical, and briefly, a literal grip on my balls, I strode out of the room and towards her chambers, nodding to acknowledge a
~ CASIMIR ~I reached for her skirts and she pulled her head back out of the kiss, so I started on her neck again, but she was gasping.“Don’t wrinkle the dress—please, Cazz.”With a guttural growl, I picked her up, dress and all and started carrying her out of the closet towards the bed. Her hands clawed at my hair and she sucked on my neck as I carried her over to the bed, then dropped her ass onto the edge of it.She gave a little squeak of dissatisfaction, but her eyes gleamed as I descended on her, taking her mouth with mine, and her hips in my hands.When I felt the jolt of her need in the bond, I chuckled breathlessly, then grasped her hips and flipped her over, dropping quickly to grab the h
~ CASIMIR ~I was pretty sure if I didn’t get inside her, I was going to eat her alive.Scooting with her in my lap, still straddling me, I got her so both my knees and her back were flat against the wall. Then I flipped open the wide, leather cuffs that had been secured directly to the wall and first lifted one of her hands, to strap it in so her hand was levered above her shoulder, but with her arm comfortably bent so she could relax. Then I did the same with her other hand on the other side.So I straddled the banana-seat, while she straddled me and her hands were secured to the wall behind her.Her breasts rose and fell with her heavy breathing, and her eyes were bright with desire.Overwhelmed again with how much thought she’d put into this, for a moment I just took her face in my hands and kissed her. But that drew us together—my cock pressing against her, and I couldn’t resist rolling my hips, teasing
~ CASIMIR ~“I made a new Den,” Jesse whispered, her hands over her mouth, staring up at me—those beautiful eyes wide, but also a little fearful. “I know it’s not the same, but I got Ghere to help me because he remembered what things you’d had before and… I hope you like it.”Like it? Was she serious?My heart was slamming against my ribs, and I was having trouble breathing.The room seemed smaller than I remembered because the walls were painted a dull black. But the tighter space than what I’d had down next to the Den just made it feel more intimate.There were two lamps, one on each end, and a chandelier high above. Candles everywhere, though she hadn’t lit mo
~ JESSE ~It was Cazz’s turn to plan the monthly date. But I was humming about this one. Things were finally ready, and impossibly, Ghere had helped me successfully pull off the surprise. But I still had to figure out how to get Cazz there without ruining it.He’d taken me out to the meadow again—my favorite date. Though we’d enjoyed several others now too—and we’d just finished eating. He was leaning back against the cab of the truck, looking out at the city lights, his brows a little heavy.“What are you thinking about?” I asked him, though I had a hunch.He had his arm around me and I was leaning on his shoulder. His hand trailed up and
~ CASIMIR ~I came out of the bathing room after a long bath rubbing my hair with a towel, to find my mate standing in the middle of the chamber with her arms folded and looking sternly at my daughter, who sat on the floor in nothing but a diaper, with her chubby legs straight out. She, too, had her arms folded and her lips pursed in the perfect reflection of her mother.The two glared at each other and half my heart went cold, while the other half wanted to splutter with laughter.“Abigail, I have told you—”“No!”Our daughter could only get her tongue around a few words so far, but
~ JESSE (a few weeks later) ~I had just finished nursing Abigail and was holding her on my lap while Reeca sat with me on the couch.Her eyes were bright and she was beginning to smile, so I was tickling her cheeks to see if I could get her to do it. But she was sleepy because she’d just eaten and only yawned and cooed.“She’s a very calm baby,” Reeca commented from the other end of the couch, smiling. She loved babies, and had been so helpful when I was tired—and just for reassurance for me.She was a calm presence in any room, and with Abigail, she showed a lot of delight and joy that she seemed to stifle in other areas of her life.“Reeca,” I said carefully, because I’d b
~ JESSE ~I was too tired to do more than lift my hands to his neck, so I just curled my face into his chest and let him settle us into the chair, cradled in his arms with my ass in his lap.When he’d sat, I had my head resting on his shoulder and my body curled in his arms.“Do you hurt?” he asked quickly.“No, just tired, like I said.”I felt him relax a little then and another chill started in my blood.“Cazz… what’s happened?” I asked quietly.He turned his head to meet my eyes and lifted his hand to comb hair back from my face. His throat bobbed, but his touch was g
~ JESSE (Hours later) ~My dreams were disturbing—my body in pain, screams of terror, darkness, the floor shaking, the mountain falling, humans fleeing and wolves…I tried to break free, tried desperately to open my eyes and to speak, because I knew I was asleep. But all I did was fade… in and out. The nightmares, or nothing.And through it all, his voice.“Heal… live.”My heart ached. My body hurt. My chest didn’t want to expand. It was as if my flesh fought his words, and I didn’t understand.But finally, the dreams faded and I could hear a heartbeat. Little, and quick. And feel warm flesh. And the breath of my m
~ CASIMIR ~I felt the moment the power went out of Jesse. The entire mountain felt it.I howled with triumph and shifted, sprinting towards the room, ecstatic when there was no sense of Maya gripping my mind or stealing anything from me. But of course, there was no power left for her to steal.I prayed and pleaded and ran, Rory and the others coming in my wake. And the moment I broke through that door in my wolf—the only power left to me anymore—everything slowed. Though my body whipped and my mind was singularly focused, it was as if everything happened in slow motion.I caught a bare glimpse of Jesse on the bed, and at first my heart leaped. She was moving, awake, aware,
~ JESSE ~Maya had me sitting up in the bed, curled forward, gripping my knees. Reeca on one side, helping prop me up, a guard on the other.My body was nothing but a conduit for pain. Wave after wave, my entire lower body condensing, contracting, pushing to get this baby out. I could barely think.Cazz was there, so quiet, so distant, but there, calling his encouragement and pushing love at me through the bond.There was a moment when I thought I wouldn’t make it, when I thought my body would give and I would just drift away.But then I caught Maya smiling. Leaning forward between my legs, reaching, grasping, for