It's the first night I don't sleep in a while.I stare at Phoebe and Kevin, tightly huddled together on the small bed, and I eventually give up and get up . I find Alma in the living area watching a trashy reality show. "Can't sleep?" She asks me and switches off the T.V. I shake my head. "No. You?" She gives me a tiny smile. "I'm always restless whenever Thomas is out on a mission. Until he gets back." Until he gets back alive, is what she's leaving out. I hate just being a sitting duck, not knowing what's happening out there. "How do you do it?" I plop down next to her on the couch, looking at the rings on my finger. "How do you not go crazy?" "Who says I'm not crazy?" She smirks at me. "But T.J. keeps me sane. Whatever happens, I still have that boy who depends on me." I lay my hands protectively over my stomach. I don't want to raise my kids without their father, but if that's what I have to do, then that's what I have to do. "I've always known Thomas's job is dangerous."
"We're going on an adventure!" T.J. whispers to me, his eyes wide with excitement. I wish I could share in his joy of going to yet another place, but I don't. This is not what I envisioned Christmas for us to be. I didn't even get to give Alessandro his present. At this point, we might as well become a traveling circus. "How long are we disappearing for this time?" I ask Thomas, the irritation clear in my voice. "You do realize that I'm pregnant with triplets, right? That I have to see my doctor every second week?" I know they know this, and I'm sure they've taken this into consideration. But we're not at a place where I can just pack up and go to wherever Alessandro thinks it will be safer. "We're staying in the city this time." Thomas informs us. "We have various places set up in case of emergencies." It must be the safe houses Alma told me about. "What about my doctor?" I need to know. I have to see her after New Year's. "Will I be able to go to her?" "Alma will monitor your
It's the second night I don't sleep. Because Alessandro has not made an appearance yet. I'm worried and slightly pissed off. How hard can it be to just send me a text and let me know he's okay and fucking alive?This time, I don't even have Phoebe with me for company, but I'm elated that Kevin finally pulled his head out of his ass so she can stop being insecure about where she stands with him. Being with a powerful man sometimes sucks because they're almost never around. I suddenly miss school, because at least then I had something for me. Definitely going back to school as soon as I get the chance. Or when the triplets are a bit older. I'm not going to sit around for the rest of my life waiting on Alessandro to come back from whatever adventure he finds himself on.I hear a commotion coming from downstairs, and I immediately reach for the gun under my pillowcase. I won't be caught unarmed ever again. I quietly get out of bed and get in behind the door. I don't know if the triple
ALESSANDRO Long after Farrah falls asleep, I stare at her with my hand on her tummy, my three sons moving inside her. They do that every night when she's sleeping. I smile. I hope it's not an indication of what's to come. I read that they tend to sleep during the day because the mother is moving more, lulling them to sleep. I've never been so equally happy and terrified in all my life. I'm scared something will happen to Farrah and the babies every single second of every minute of every hour. I've just lost my parents in the blink of an eye. What if all the bad deeds, all the people I've hurt and killed, what if all that somehow comes back to me and steals the one person I don't see myself living without? A now familiar ache starts in my chest as I think of my mother and father. I can still taste the fear on my tongue as I saw my mother lying in an alley in a pool of her own blood, barely breathing. I should've known then that I wouldn't find my father in a better condition, y
ALESSANDRO I get up at the crack of dawn, reluctantly pushing Farrah's leg from mine. This house is not as luxurious as the ones I usually stay in because my enemies wouldn't expect me to hide my family in this neighborhood. I know for a fact that the lower rungs of the mafia think I'm out of touch with what's happening in the streets. And maybe I am because I'm done doing business there. Maybe I should just hand the mafia over to Mattia. He wants it after all. But if I do that, my deal with the FBI will be null and void. They want one less mafia family to deal with, and just handing over the reins to my uncle is not going to do that. I need to squash his need to rule in the city and direct him back to where he came from. And I need to keep him the fuck away from Farrah. He seems to want everything I do, and dangling the information that Raquel is my side-piece in front of him only confirmed that. I wouldn't touch Raquel even if she was the last woman on earth. She's spoilt and
FARRAH "Why couldn't we hide on a tropical island?" Phoebe moans at the breakfast table. "Greece was really cool. We could've gone somewhere where it's summer." I roll my eyes at her. "Spoilt much? You sound a little like Raquel." She pulls a face like I poured sour milk into her cereal. "Do not make that comparison ever again. I'm going to have to wash my ears out." I can't help but smirk. "I thought you liked her. She has a lot of Instagram followers, remember? " "In case you haven't noticed." Phoebe points her spoon at me. "My followers are steadily climbing. Last week, I got a death threat from a girl who told me to leave Kevin alone or that she would stab me in the vagina." "That can't be good." Alma places a plate with steaming hashbrowns, eggs, and sausages in front of me. "This is just the start." Phoebe shrugs. "Once Kevin goes pro, things will probably get worse." The culprit in question joins us and steals a hashbrown from my plate with a dimpled smile. Alma swats a
ALESSANDRO The proverbial cat is out of the bag. Yesterday, I sent Simon, the guy who covered my wedding, a tip-off that there might be suspicious activity looking a lot like human trafficking to me. I didn't expect it to make it to the actual news. Simon has a lot more pull than I thought. So now, I wait. Whittle will reach out to me sooner rather than later. He needs me to sign those purchase papers, or else he's going down the drain. I've been coming up with reasons why I'm not signing, always finding something in the contract I wanted to go over again, waiting for him to confess. What the hell was the guy thinking anyway? Did he think his illegal business would go on right under my nose after I bought the majority of his company's shares? After I take over all the operations? How stupid could he be? I rub my eyes as I lean back in my office chair. I love working corporate, and I have a talent to scout promising startups and invest in them. There have been times that some of
ALESSANDRO "You owe me!" At this point, I'm pretty sure that Edward Whittle is going to have a heart attack right here in my office. He better not keel over and die before he gives me that damn confession. I lift my eyebrows in surprise. "I don't owe you anything, Edward, and all I'm asking is for full disclosure of a company you expect me to pay twenty-three million dollars for. As you can imagine, that kind of money isn't just lying around." Defeat crosses over Whittle's expression, and he walks over to the couch and sinks onto it, his head falling in his hands. "What's really going on, Edward?" I prompt calmly, moving to sit next to him. I rest my hand in comfort on his shoulder. My skin burns where it touches him, disgust for the high-class addict searing through me, but I breathe through it. This is what I have to do in order to keep my family safe. "I fucked up." He starts sniffing, and I realize he's crying. I squeeze his shoulder in the act of support when, in reality,