There had been nothing wrong with how he had spoken to her the other day right? Absolutely nothing at all, Michael tried to convince himself. All he had done was set barriers between them, proper and well needed barriers. Their relationship—whatever it was that was between the both of them, it was sinful and only attracted pain to the people around them. Yes, see in the tears in her eyes had sought to unnerve him, but he had reminded himself that if had to be that way; she was after all not just his best friend's wife but his student as well, there had to be barriers between them. He had done the right thing.... He had done the right thing, but why did he feel like this? Why did he feel even worse than he had felt about the whole thing initially? "What's on your mind?". His gaze which had been glued to the coffee mug in front of him quickly snapped back to April's on hearing her speak. "Nothing much, just work I suppose". He told her. She nodded though she seemed unconvinced.
THIRD PERSON' S P O V it was early in the day yet both men found themselves in a bar conversing while swirling the brown liquids in their glasses which niether had bothered to drink from. There was a lot that needed to be said and luckily they happen to have the power to ditch work whenever they wanted. "So she wants kids". Calan was saying. "And it bothers you". Michael nodded. "Yeah, but why?". Calan asked him. He had never been opposed to the thought of having children, a slut he'd had a one night stand with could call call him up and tell him she was carrying his child and he'd be glad. And goodness, when his own wife had been pregnant....it was as though he would suddenly grow wings and fly. "I guess I just don't want to bring a child into my life right now, not when everything's so....complicated". Michael replied. He set the glass down before rubbing his temple wearily. Complicated..... Calan could almost understand how complicated his life must be but the fact tha
ALEXA'S POV "He didnt like it? What kind of a man is he? Who wouldn't like a nice little package like yourself?". Sasha raved on. I blinked my eyes a couple of times to clear the tears in them, just think about how it had gone yesterday caused my heart to ache all over again. After rushing to my room I had quickly climbed onto my bed and let all the tears and sobs out, I had cried so much, I had cried till my eyes were sore and till I could hardly breathe at all, and I had fallen asleep. "He didnt exactly say he didn't like it.....". I said quietly. "His......reaction.....it just wasn't what I thought it would be". That night had undoubtedly gotten into my head, it has made me bold enough to think that there actually could be something between the two of us, had made me bold enough to think that he could actually see me in a different way, that he could actually learn to love me. "I'm sorry, honey. I just...I have no words at the moment". Sasha said shaking her head. I couldn't
FORTY SIXTHIRD PERSON'S POVIt wasn't like Calan hadn't known there'd be repercussions for drinking just as little alcohol as he had consumed earlier, he had known but he hadn't cared and he till didnt; he had no regrets. He had returned to the office and had continued his activities hoping that he could drown himself in his work and forget all about what had been discussed with Michael.However, he soon begun feeling the dull ache in his chest and the nauseous dizziness that came with either not taking his drugs or consuming something was wasn't supposed to. Of course he had ignored it, but he eventually had to ask his secretary to alert the doctor when he begun to sweat profusely and his vision begun to blur, not to mention that his body begun to tremble.In short, he had spent the day at the hospital, and it was only when the doctor had been convinced that he was stable did he let him leave."It's getting late, Waltz". He said said quietly from where he lay."Yes, haven't your secr
ALEXA'S POV To say my day had wad going agonisingly slow would be an understatement, it was probably because my mood wasn't getting any better, how could it anyway? I had convinced myself that there was no need to be hung up on the whole thing; i had seen him today after all, and he looked alright, and that was all that should have mattered. If he didn't want to tell me about what was going on in his life then it was fine, his business was his business. It was Friday, Friday meant a Philosophy class with Micheal. I had considered ditching the class but even i knew that wasn't such a good idea, plus it was so very unlike me. I had chosen to seat at the back of the hall so our gaze wouldn't meet by any means. And so far i was doing just fine here, but as i watched him lecture I couldn't help but wonder how he had changed so much; it was difficult to explain, like, he was the same person but he had changed so very much, there was this complete and absolute humorless aura surrounding
Third pereon's pov Dinner was mostly quiet; Alexa and Calan sat in the dinning hall having their dinner quietly, it was almost as though it was the only thing they could do without causing each other any sort of bother. Calan had accepted the fact that Alexa was hurt and upset to the point that she could only tolerate his presence because she loved him, and Alexa had accepted that she could only do nothing but tolerate his prrsence because she so deeply loved him. And when the silence begun to get deafening and unnerving Calan spoke. "What are your plans for tomorrow?". He asked her. She probably should have inquired about why he was asking before she responded but she didn't, she knew it would lead to nothing but more hurt. "I'm attending a party tomorrow". She replied quietly. Calan couldn't stop his brow from arching slightly. "A party?". He asked her, he didn't want to sound like he was blatantly not in support of her attending a party. "What kind of party?" He wasn't pa
Third person's pov The day had fortunately gone by quickly and Alexa found herself brushing her haid once more to make sure she looked alright. It was time for the party and Sasha had texted her the address saying she told a couple of people she would be in attendance and they were expecting her. Her excitement had built up even more but with it came the usual anxiety,and for a moment she just sat in front of her dressing mirror staring at her reflection while deliberating on what to and where to go from here, while trying to decide whether or not she truly wanted to attend the party now. What if no one wanted her there? What if people made fun of her, what if someone tried to harras her? What if she seemed out of place, she couldn't help but think about all that at once. She had to accept that she looked different in the dress she was wearing, looked nothing like herself at all, and though she looked beautiful she couldn't help but feel insecure about her looks. She was dressed i
ALEXA’S POV “What are you doing? Leave me!”. I said as I struggled even more. He ignored not only my protests but my struggles as well. And once we were in his room he backed me against a wall once and leaned into me so we were mere inches apart. To say the whole situation was unnerving would be an understatement, but the proximity, to say it was alluring would be a bigger understatement. “You have two options, Alexa, take it off or I rip it off”. He said to me. And for some reason a sweet surge shot to my core and rippled through the pit of my stomach. I panted heavily as I stared up at him with tears still streaking down my cheeks.“Why….why are you being so mean?”. I asked him.“You’re making me be like this”. He answered. I sniffled quietly as I deliberated on what to do, was I to let down my pride and do as he said or was I to push him to his limits and test his savagery? A lump formed in my throat and the pit of my stomach begun hitting up as I thought about the latter, fo
Alexa's POV I had called Sasha before leaving school but she hadn't picked up, and so i had decided to head back home knowing i could always call her or go to her apartment later on. I probably looked downcast as i sat in the living room staring blankly at the tv screen cause Mildred walked up to me looking slightly worried. "Is there a problem, Mildred?". I asked her. And she shook her head. "I was going to ask you the exact same thing". She said to me. "You look rather sad". Lately it was unusual to see me was, i was always happy or at ease since i was mostly with Calan. I wasn't worried about anything except my friends and my exams. I blew out a breath. "I'm fine". I told her. "I just have a thing or two on my mind". She offered me a warm smile. "That's understandable dear". She said to me. "But do talk to someone if something worries you, it's never good to keep it in". I nodded. "Thank you so much". I said to her. She smiled once more before turning around and walking a
Third person POV For some unknown reason, Alexa had woken up the next day feeling completely scared and unprepared for the exams. Perhaps it was due to the fact that she had been feeling too confident about the whole thing yesterday. What if she had been too confident? What if she ended up seeing question she just couldn't answer? She had even been unable to eat her break fast, she had lost her appetite and Calan had noticed. "What's the problem?". He asked her. "I dont know.....". She replied quietly. "I just dont feel prepared for the exams today". He arched a brow slightly. "You went over the whole course handout with Michael yesterday, correct?". He asked her. And she nodded. "And you understood what he taught you?". He asked. Shw nodded once more. "Then that's all that matters". He told her. "You've got this". She cleared her throat quietly. "What....what if i get confused?". She asked him. He shook his head. "Dont think about it now, dont worry about anything". He
Alexa's POv "Why do you look this way?". Calan asked me as he draped his arm around me for a hug which i hadn't known i had needed till now. He placed a lingering kiss on my head before rubbing my back soothingly. "I'm just so tired". I told him. "That's understandable. Did The lectures go well?". He asked me. And i nodded. After my talk with micheal i had felt better, and we had even gone over the last pages. I was all done now and i had never been more confident about writing an exam. "That's good to know*. He said Against my head. "It was worth it". I nodded once more. We were in the parking lot standing leaning against the car almost lazily while the cool evening's breeze blew softly. "I missed you". He told me. And i looked up at him while my cheeks heated up slowly. "I...i missed you too". I told him. "So much". We had spent yesterday indoors in each other's company, he had helped me study and all, and then later on we had lost ourselves in each other's embrace.
Alexa's Point of view How long had it been? Two hours? Three? More? I had lost track during the course of the lesson, and though i was actually understanding Micheal's lectures, i couldn't help but feel really exhausted. I leaned into my seat tiredly and let out a breath as i tried to focus on what he was saying. The fact that i had been sitting in the same spot for more than three hours now didnt help at all, my body felt stiff and almost numb, even my brain was beginning to protest. I hadn't thought he had meant it so much when he had said i wouldnt be leaving till he was convinced i was ready to approach tomorrow's questions. A small groan left me before i could stop myself, and his gaze flickered up to mine. He probably took in the sorry sight i made cause his eyes softened and he also leaned back into his seat. "Tired?". He asked me. And i nodded immediately. He heaved a sigh before rubbing his temple wearily. "Fair enough, we've been on it for some time now". He sa
Alexa's perspective Examinations had started and to say i was stressed out would be an understatement. All the days of skipping school and spacing out in classes where beginning to take their toll on me. I had decided to not leave immediately after i was done with my exam for the day, and so i found myself sitting in the library while trying my very best to go over some of the work Micheal had covered. I groaned almost exasperatedly. I had beenbat this for hours and i still wasn't getting it right, i was beginning to lose my mind now. I was even beginning to think i was losing my mind. The words on the pages were getting all jumbled up and my eyes were getting sore from having stared at the page for so long. I blew out a breath before shaking my head. I would find someone to explain it to me but of course, i had no one. Sasha and Raymond weren't taking the course and so they couldn't help me, and it truly would be embarrassing to me if i failed Micheal's course. My gaze snapped
Third person POV April woke up to the feel of Micheal's fingers combing through her hair tenderly. Her eyes fluttered open and she found him right where he had been before she had fallen asleep, and she took a moment to just stare at him, took a moment to realize that her stomach wasnt killing her anymore. "You're awake". He said to her. She nodded. "You stayed". She said quietly. "Of course". He replied. "Are you feeling better?". "Yeah. Thank you". She replied. He smiled. "That's good to know". He told her. "I was begining to lose my mind". And a faint smile curved her own lips. "I guess we had that in common". She said quietly. He combed his fingers through her hair once more. "Why dont you ever go to the hospital?". He asked her, he was rather serious now. "I hate hospitals". She replied simply. He shook his head. "I do not wish for a next time, but if there is to be one....we're going to the hospital". He told her. She shook her head. "There's no need". She to
Third person's POV How long had it been since she went upstairs? A few hours, and if she wasnt asleep then it was very unlike her to not have come to him. And so, Micheal had decided to go upstairs and check up on her. Of course he had been surprised to see her curled in the middle of the bed looking all disheveled and pained, even the sheets were disheveled. He had hurried to her at once and gathered her into his arms. "Hey". He said as he brushed her hair from her hair softly. "What's wrong?". For a moment he feared she was having an emotional breakdown or something, giving all that had been happening lately. And on seeing the tears streaming down her cheeks, he became even more alarmed. "Cramps". She told him quietly. His eyes widened slightly and he once again brushed her hair from her face. "What can i do to help?". He asked her. A shuddering breath left April and she held onto his arms tightly. She let the fraagrance of sandal wood soothe her. "Hold on to me...".
Third person's POV Cramps.... April had seen the cramps coming, she had known it would be a shitty day ahead. What she hadn't known however was that it would be painful and teary. After breakfast, she had gone up to her room to get some sleep while Micheal had retired to his study to tend to a thing or two. It had started out well, she had managed to numb her thoughts and had even managed to fall asleep. However, she had woken up to the a dull but rather disturbing pain in her stomach. She had assumed it wouldn't get worse, she had assumed it wouldn't intensify and cause her to break down completely. But soon enough she founs herself clutching her stomach while curling herself up in a ball on her bed as tears streaked down her cheeks again and again. It had actually been a while since she had experienced so much pain during her period, it took her back to her days in college. Days in which she'd lie and cry within the walls off her apartment; being a person who didn't have actu
Third person's pov April woke up to the all to familiar feeling of wet warmth pooling in her panties. Her eyes widened as all sleepiness left her. She hastily pushed the cover off her body and climbed out of bed hoping she hadnt made a mess on the sheets.....on Micheal's sheets. The dull light barely penetrating the curtains told her that the sun was just beginning to rise; it meant she had a long day ahead of her, a long day with cramps and moodswings, a long day of being aware of the fact that.....she wasn't pregnant. Micheal's eyes fluttered open slowly on hearing the rustling of silks as April quickly slid on the robe of her night dress. "April? Is there a problem?". He asked her while blinking a couple of times to get rid of the sleepiness. She spun around to face him at once. "I...i need to go to my room". She told him. "Sorry i woke you". He shook his head. "Why are you in such a hurry though?". He asked her. How could she not be in a hurry when she feel the blood no