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Silently Falling 16-Blondie
I walked out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around my chest and my hair was dripping with water. I threw my dress and my bra on the couch.Ryker was sitting on the bed, still half naked with his phone in his hands. When he noticed me, he dropped his phone on the bed and smiled, a sly smile."Oh! You're done. How's your ass by the way? That was a really hard fall. You know, I could help you massage it If you want, it's actually one of my specialties." He said as he stood up. "Shut up." I told him as I walked to the other side of the bed, with hands on my butt.Ryker grabbed his white shirt and tossed it at me. Thank God for quick reflexes, I snatched it before it hit the ground."You can wear that." He said as he headed into the bathroom.I dried my body and my hair, then put on his shirt. I was instantly assaulted by his cologne, his wonderfully hypnotizing cologne. The shirt stopped just above my knees, I buttoned up and gently sat on the bed, grabbed Ryker's phone and starte
Silently Falling 17-Drunk
"Shea! No offense, but what the heck are you doing?" Mason, the group leader asked.We were currently having a practical. Mr Woods, one of our lecturers had divided us into groups of 10 people each and we were asked to cook different dishes. My group members and I were to make Beef Stroganoff. I widened my eyes in shock when I realized what I had done. I had covered the whole beef with the sour cream."Oh my God! I'm so so sorry guys" I apologized as I tried to scoop off some cream but only ended up making a great mess of it.A girl named Lucia, who was also in my group, stopped me and pushed me aside."That's enough, Shea. You're just going to make a mess of everything and ruin all our hard work. I'm not going to let you screw up our group mark just because you can't concentrate." Lucia said as she and the other group members started to clean the mess I've made.I sighed.I had been thinking about the words Blondie said to me yesterday. I know I shouldn't be bothered about it since
Silently Falling 18-Secret
Ryker's POV"You're coming with me." I told her as I bent a little, placed my hands on her midriff and at the back of her thighs before picking her up easily."Hey, put me down!" She started to protest as she kicked her legs in the legs, but I didn't let go of her.I was about to turn and walk out of the frat house when Brandon appeared in front of me. He watched Shea closely before looking at me with a knowing smirk. I gently placed Shea on her feet and she hit me with her little fist which I barely felt any effect. She swayed backwards but I was quick to catch her."Man, she's so drunk." Brandon muttered. "Oh! By the way, there's a game of spin the bottle in the first room up the stairs. Wanna join?" Brandon asked me.Shea gasped and slurred, "A game of spin the bottle? I've always wanted to play one. Where are they going to play it?" I rolled my eyes at her and said, dryly, "He just said the room up the stairs, Grumps." Before I knew what was happening, Shea was out of my sight an
Silently Falling 19-Sober
Ryker's POVI grabbed a small white helmet and handed it to her, but she just stared at it in my hands."Who owns this?" She asked as she pointed her index finger at the helmet."It used to be my sister's." I told her with a sigh. "Come on, Grumps. Take it and put it on. Stop looking at it like it's going to bite you.""I'm not going to put it on because I'm not going anywhere with you. I thought you wanted to talk.""Yes! We are going to talk but not here and not when you're like this." I said to her, already getting tired of the way she was acting."What do you mean when I'm like this? You mean you can't talk to me because I'm dressed like this or what?" She asked as she placed both hands on her hips."No, Grumps. I mean you're drunk, and I can't talk to you that way because you probably won't remember in the morning, so I'm gonna take you somewhere and get you sober." "But I want an explanation from you." She whined and stumped her feet on the ground like a little child."We are
Silently Falling 20-Trust
Ryker's POVI swallowed hard. I watched how cute her coyness was as she blushed really hard. She rubbed the back of her neck awkwardly before getting into the pool.She shuddered and said, "it's colder than I expected." She slowly made her way towards me as I continued to stare at her. The water reached just below her boobs. She smiled shyly and looked up at me."So, umm...where are we gonna start from, big guy?" She asked, quietly."We are going to start from the basics. First, I want you to get comfortable with the water, okay? Just relax." I said. I tried so hard not to stare down at her boobs as I extended my hands towards her, offering support."But how am I supposed to relax in this? The water is so cold and it's probably going to swallow me."I chuckled and said, "don't worry, you'll get used to it in no time, Grumps. We'll take it slow." I moved my hands to her waist and I felt her tense under my touch. A soft gasp escaped her mouth drawing my attention to it, I stared at he
Silently Falling 21-Brilliant plan
God damn me to hell and back.I just woke up and every stupid thing I had done last night rushed to my memory as I sat up on my bed."Oh my God! Oh my God! What have I done?" I can't believe I was reciting Disney animation lines to Ryker, I even sang on the street. On the fucking street!!!God! How many times do I have to embarrass myself in front of him?I glanced at the side of the room and saw that Sam was still sleeping and what's worse, she still had that tight tube top on.Then I recalled the kiss she had with that guy yesterday. Sam was really wild and crazy, for her to allow the guy to put his hand inside her top, in front of everyone. That was so freaking crazy!Well, she wanted to get railed so badly so I guess she enjoyed it. I wondered if anything happened between them after Ryker and I left yesterday.I got down from the bed and walked towards the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth.One thing I like about myself is that I never get a hangover. No matter the quant
Silently Falling 22-Mine
It was noon on Saturday and I was almost done with my shift at Macy's. The shop was doing so well, it was always filled with customers. Seth had changed and added a few things in the menu, he also increased our pay which means more money for me. I was so excited when he gave us the payment for this week not long ago. Jasmine and I had been studying at the library and when she came over to my hostel yesterday, we got to know each other better. She was a nice person, just like Sam. I hadn't seen Ryker since the night of the party, because I had obviously been avoiding him. Sometimes I'd pass the back door of the café whenever he and his friends came around.Yesterday, I waited in the kitchen until they left before going home. If Lucy noticed the way I had been acting, she didn't say anything about it and I liked it that way. I don't think I couldn't explain what happened to someone else.My phone beeped from a message and I saw that it was my best friend.Dylan: Hey, Shea.Me; D!Dyl
Silently Falling 23-Alien
23Ryker placed his hands on my shoulders, setting my skin on fire, different feelings settled in my stomach and I tried so hard not to blush in front of his friends.I looked up and saw that Cassie was glaring at me, Ryker noticed too but he didn't care about it. He greeted the guys and turned to look at the girls. "Ryker, it's been a while." Laurel said with a smile on her face. I liked her lilac acrylic nails, they were pretty. I loved acrylic nails but whenever I used them, no matter how long I tried to keep them, I always discard them the second day. Back in high school, I was so excited when I used them for prom, but then, to wear my clothes was a struggle, I couldn't wear my earrings, brush my teeth, cream my body or even comb my hair. My mom had to help me with everything back then. As soon as prom was over, I yanked them off and I've haven't thought of using them since then."Yeah, it has. I didn't expect to see you guys here." Ryker said, casting a side glance at Brandon wh
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Silently Falling 80-Fresh start
I closed the door quietly so I wouldn't wake Sam, who was still sleeping inside. I made my way down the stairs and sighted the cab that I had ordered. I got in and gave the driver my location.I rested my back on the seat and sighed as I shut my eyes. It's been twelve days since Dylan and I had that talk and I had been seriously thinking about it because I didn't want to regret my actions.With Ryker's connection and all, Cassie got arrested. Olivia and Jasmine too, since they were accomplices. I was called to the station to give a statement of what happened. I didn't want to go at first but Sam and Dylan convinced me to go.Jasmine and Olivia had been released on bail but Cassie's case was more deeper than that. I knew her parents wouldn't allow her to go to prison. She even lied that I fell into the pool myself but the CCTV footage showed otherwise.Jasmine also came to apologize to me, I had forgiven her but it didn't mean we were going to continue being friends. I don't need frien
Silently Falling 79-Kidnapped
"Where are you taking me?" I asked when he guided me through the dance floor and started walking towards the entrance of the clubhouse. My vision was still blurry and I was still drunk."Somewhere I can talk to you." He answered. "But I don't wanna talk to you, remember?" I told him "I'm not going with you, Sam is still inside." I tried to free myself from his grip."She can go home by herself. I'm not letting you go until I talk to you." "And you think I'm just gonna follow you and listen to whatever you wanna say. I'm not Bruno. I don't wanna listen to anything you have to say. You are just going to lie to me again." I said. We were already outside the club house and I saw that his car was parked on the other side of the road.Ryker opened the door for me and made me enter the car. Then he buckled me up before shutting the door and walking to the other side of the car.He entered the car and started to drive. He took off his cap and mask and that was when I saw that Dylan did a re
Silently Falling 78-Lunatic
The clubhouse was crowded as usual, loud music, sweaty bodies and people making out in dark corners. Sam and I made our way through the crowd and found a spot to sit in front of the bar, drinks weren’t free today. I guess someone paid for all the drinks the last time we came here. I had a shot of tequila but Sam didn’t drink anything, she said she was going to watch over me so I could drink as much as I liked.“Hey, let’s dance.” I told her as I pulled her to the dance floor, the alcohol was starting to kick in. I swung my body to the beat while Sam did the same.“Shea?” I heard someone call my name, I looked back and saw that it was Felix. Why the heck did he call me? Did Ryker send him to beg me?“Hey.” I said nonchalantly and continued to dance.“Look, Ryker didn’t mean what he did, he already called off the bet when he realized how he feels about you.” He shouted over the music.“Do you mind? I don’t wanna talk about that.” I said as I rolled my eyes at him.“Back off!” Sam said a
Silently Falling 77-True friends
As I stepped into the bathtub filled with warm water, I sat down and let the water soothe my skin, I closed my eyes so I could relax but then it suddenly felt like I couldn't breathe, like something was blocking my nose, like I was drowning. The memory of myself, struggling in the pool flashed through my mind. It was traumatizing.I opened my eyes and gasped for breath. I got down from the bathtub. I couldn't do it. Cassie had scarred me for life, I would never be able to have baths again, or even learn how to swim.I grabbed a towel, wrapped it around myself and walked out of the bathroom. I went straight to my closet and grabbed a shirt and shorts to wear."Shea, you didn't stay long in the bathroom this time." I heard Sam say. I turned to her and saw that she looked excited. She was excited that I didn't stay long and cry in the bathroom this time. If she knew what happened to me there, she wouldn't smile like that.But I smiled at her and covered my fears up. "Yeah." I said as I w
Silently Falling 76-Soap opera
“Holy shit! I can’t believe it.” Sam exclaimed as sat on my bed and rubbed my back. I had told her everything I encountered in school today and she regretted telling me to go out with Ryker.“I was just a bet, a stupid bet.” I sniffed. I wanted to cry but the tears wouldn’t come out no matter how hard I squeezed my eyes. I guessed I had emptied my tear sac. I was tired, physically, emotionally and mentally tired.“And- and Jasmine, I don’t blame you for hating her. She was just a snitch for her psycho sister.” I said in a low voice.“I never liked that bitch. I knew there was something shady going on around her. And we should throw those people in jail.” Sam said as she rose from the bed and stood in front of me. I liked how she was taking this more seriously than I was.“I’ve actually thought about that on the way here. But Laurel told me her dad could easily bail her out, so it would be a waste of time.” I told her. Laurel also said that she had a huge fight with Cassie because of J
Silently Falling 75-Ruined
Ryker’s POVShit!I had been screwed by Cassie. She told Shea about the bet before I had the chance to tell her myself. I never wanted to hurt Shea. I just wanted to give her more time to heal from what she was going through. I had plans to take her out on another date, to tell her how much I loved and cherished her and then eventually tell her about the bet. But Cassie ruined everything.I ran out of the pool area to go after Shea, but she was already getting into a car. I knew it was Laurel’s car.I didn’t know what to do. Should I go after Laurel’s car so I could talk to Shea? Or should I give her some time? I honestly don’t know which is better.I slowly walked back to my car and got in. I hit my hands on the steering wheel multiple times and yelled my lungs out.“Fuck!” I yelled again. I groaned as pain soothed through my hands, but it was nothing compared to the pain Shea was going through right now. She called me a monster. She was right, I was a monster. I should have never ag
Silently Falling 74-Busted
*Third person POV*Jasmine took out her phone as she ran out of the pool side. Her heart thrummed fast in her chest and her fingers trembled as she dialed Laurel’s number and placed the phone close to her ear.“Hey, baby girl.” Laurel’s voice rang through the phone.“Laurel, Cassie is going to do something terrible to Shea, I shouldn’t have led her there. I should have just ignored Cassie’s texts.” Jasmine ranted to Laurel.“Wait, slow down. What did you do to Shea?” Laurel asked calmly, unaware of the chaos in Jasmine’s mind.“Cassie told me she wanted to talk to Shea, she told me to bring her to the pool side and I did because I thought she was going to talk to her like a civil human being. But she started to talk about a bet, I thought she told me to become friends with Shea to give her updates because she didn’t want her near Ryker. I don’t know anything about a bet!” Jasmine explained.“And then- I- I think Cassie is going to push Shea into the pool.”“What?” Laurel yelled.“Oliv
Silently Falling 73-Just a bet
“Shea, are you alright in there? Do you need any help?” Sam asked as she knocked on the door of the bathroom. I had been sitting in the bathtub for an hour now, thinking about my mom and how life had been completely unfair to her. It has been a few days since my mom’s memorial service. I haven’t been going to any class because I knew it would be a complete waste of time.Jasmine told me we had an important lecture today but I told her I wouldn't be coming. She kept insisting that I should come but I eventually ignored her messages when they were getting too much. A part of me wanted to go to school, but then, I knew I wouldn't be able to focus.“Hey, Shea!” Sam called out again when I didn’t answer her. She tried to open the door but discovered that I had locked it from behind.“Oh God! Please open the door, Shea. I just wanna make sure you are okay.” She pleaded.“Go away.” I muttered.“What?”“Leave me alone!” I said a little louder for her to hear. I didn’t mean to be harsh to her
Silently Falling 72-Gone
Shea's POVIt's been three weeks since I heard the news about my mom's condition getting worse. I hadn't been focusing on classes and at work. I wasn't able to read very well for my tests, I always zoned out while reading on my own. The only time I would gain something from reading was when I read with Jasmine. She had a reading technique and it really helped me a lot.I burnt six cakes on different occasions at the café. When Brooks noticed that I wasn't myself, he told me that he would handle everything.Ryker had also been there for me. The best boyfriend I could ever ask for. He always called every hour to check on me and sometimes he would stay at café until my shift was over. I made sure to speak with my mom every single day, I would tell her how my day went and we would talk about different things. Her voice keeps getting weaker and weaker everyday and it really breaks my heart.I got down from Ryker's car and waved at him until his car was out of sight, then I went up the sta
