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2024-10-29 19:42:56THAT'S SO ASSETIFYING," I said as I shook my head vehemently.
"Seriously? How is that assetifying, which I doubt is even actual word."
"Yes, it a word. Babe implies that I'm a prize, something that can be owned or won by someone," I replied matter-of-factly. "I really hate that word but I loathe baby even more."
Nick stood there quietly analysing me. "I guess.....I'm sorry?" he asked as he cocked his head to the side to look at me but I waved him off. "But technically, my room is painted black with Gray strikes because the darkness soothes me," he said and sat down on the swivel chair at my desk. "Now do tell me why a bright student like yourself is still undecided in their senior year. I mean, don't you plan everything out to the bone?"
The actual answer to that wasn't something that I could so easily say, so instead I went with the somewhat true version.
"I don't plan everything out to the bone. I just take it step-by-step and day-by-day," I replied a
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I WALKED TO my dad's office and took in a breathe before I knocked. It left like Deja vu standing in front of a door knocking to explain myself."Come in," dad's voice said from the other side of the door.Slowly, I turned the door knob and opened the office door wide enough before I stepped in and shut it behind me."Hey dad!""Why are you standing there?" he asked looking over the stack of papers in front of him, "you can sit down Alexis."Reluctantly, I took a seat in front of him and fiddled with my fingers in my laps. "I'm so sorry dad.""I'm the one who should be apologising," he said with a sigh and put the papers down. "You're almost eighteen and I need to respect that. I just figured you'd be my little girl for a long time."My mouth was agape as I stared at this man sitting in front of me. To say I was surprised would be an understatement."I know you expected me to be livid and forbid you from seeing Nick but your old man is
Silently Falling Chapter 32
THE DRIVE TO the hospital was quiet as neither James nor I had anything to say to each other after that outburst a few minutes ago.I leant my head on the window and watched the trees zoom past us until we pulled up into the very familiar parking lot of the hospital.James turned off the car and got out and I closely followed behind until we were walking side by side through the main hospital doors."We are here to see Dr. Dave. Is he in?" he asked the woman at the reception."Do you have an appointment?" she asked. She had dirty blonde hair and appeared to be in her mid-twenties."No! Just tell him that Vance is here to see him," James said irritated."I'm sorry but without an appointment you cannot see him," she said coldly.James ran a frustrated hand through his hair. "Listen here lady," he spoke through clenched teeth, "tell him we are here or we'll just walk straight into his office. Your choice.""Fine!" she rolled her eyes. "Gi
Silently Falling Chapter 33
BEING STUCK IN the hospital for however long I had left was not one of my plans. But more importantly, I hated the fact that I had to be plugged to so many machines just to stay alive.The room I was given was fairly larger than most hospital rooms. It had white walls with a large window overlooking the outside garden, a small flat screen television perched on the wall with a little refrigerator by the bedside. It also had two chairs placed in front of the telly with a small table which was about it.I hadn't seen James since he stormed out of the office yesterday and I know he is upset with me and he just needs time to calm down but I miss him. Mum and dad came over yesterday to sign the papers and they even brought me a few clothes and some novels to read to pass the time.This is my new home, I said to myself as I looked around the room for what felt like the hundredth time in less than 24 hours of me being here.There goes my chance of ever becoming salut
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MY BIGGEST FEAR had come to life and I couldn't move or do anything about it. I was completely frozen on my spot."I'll leave you two to talk things out," Asher said and quickly walked out of the room.Nick was stood by the door the whole time and didn't bother moving. "Why didn't you tell me?" he asked calmly but quietly."I-I," I began but I could not find the right words.He picked up the books from the floor and walked towards the bed where he gently placed them and took a seat."I was worried about you when Asher told me you'd been hospitalised so I thought I could bring you your homework and spend some time with you," he said as he looked at me so intensely that I had to look away. "But then I find out this."My breathe was logged in my throat and I couldn't say anything. I just sat there and listened."I never knew you were only playing me for a fool and planned on leaving me just when I realised that I....." he abruptly stopped t
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"RISE AND SHINE sleeping beauty," Nick's voice said waking me up from my peaceful slumber."Get up, get up," he continued and opened the hospital curtains allowing the sunlight to stream through the entire room and nearly blind me.I quickly covered my eyes with my hands. "Leave me alone and close those bloody curtains, it burns," I whined."Stop whining and get up," he pestered. "You've been asleep for two days and I've missed you like crazy."At that, my eyes snapped open just to have me quickly shut them again. "Hand me my glasses."Instead of handing me the glasses like I assumed he would, he gently put them on my face for me. "There you go love," he said with a fake British accent.I rolled my eyes as I sat up and leant my back on the wall. "Before I say anything about what you just said, let's rewind a little shall we?""Whatever you say love.""I was out for two whole days?" I asked. "Explain."Nick took off his boots and
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N I C KSIX WHOLE MONTHS, that was long how it had been since Alexis passed and each day hurt more than the last. I felt utterly lost without her."Nick hurry up, Kai and Jake are already here and you don't want to be late for your own graduation," mum shouted from the kitchen.I sighed as I took one last look at myself in the bathroom mirror before I made my way to the kitchen."You look so handsome and grown up," mum cooed as I entered the kitchen.I rolled my eyes and joined everyone at the kitchen table and sat down next to Leah. I poured myself some orange juice and placed a few chocolate chip pancakes on my plate."I'm wearing the same outfit I always wear each day except for this stupid cap and gown.""Which I'm totally rocking by the way," Kai beamed as he stuffed mum's chocolate chip pancakes into his mouth and moaned. "I love your cooking Hailee, maybe I should think of moving in with you guys."Jake and I rolled our eyes whi
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Silently Falling Chapter 35
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