I ask the waiter to refill my glass again while waiting for Jacob to arrive at the restaurant. It's been 30 minutes since I got here and there is no trace of Jacob yet. I'm starting to think he's not coming, but I also don't think he would pass up the opportunity to have dinner with me.
I'm confident that my threat will work, and Jacob will back off because of where I'm from. I was born and spent some of my youth in Nigeria. His mother always hated me because of the colour of my skin and didn't try to hide it. She looks down on Africans. If the bitch had her way, Africans would still be her slaves.
I watch as the clock in the restaurant strikes nine o'clock, which means an hour has passed and still no sign of Jacob. I can't believe he's standing me up.
"Ma'am, would you like to order now?" The waiter asks for-if I'm not wrong-the tenth time tonight.
"No, but I would like a bottle of whatever you have been filling my glass with."
"Alright, ma'am."
The anger I'm feeling is all consuming, the best thing I can do at this point is try to drown it out by drinking. I know it's not the best solution, but I already feel a little tipsy, so it won't hurt to get thoroughly drunk.
I can't believe Jacob stood me up. I know he's an asshole, but I don't remember him as the kind of person to do something like this. The worst part is I don't even have his number, so I can't call him. I had asked my secretary to set up the meeting earlier today.
The more I sit here and think about why Jacob didn't show tonight, the more memories of us start to appear in my mind. This makes me even angrier and want to drink more-so I can forget those memories. They're built on lies, and they only make me sad, or worse-they make me feel like the stupidest woman on this Earth for loving someone like him. It makes me so angry that even after the seven years I've had to get over him, the seven good years, thinking about the time we had together still makes me tear up. I quickly wipe the teardrops that escape my eyes, pick up the wine glass, and drown it in one go.
I might have been young then, but I know what I felt for Jacob was real. All he felt was nothing. Jacob never loved me back, and he ensured I would never forget it, no matter how many years passed. I hate you, Jacob. I hate you, Jacob Smith. You are an asshole.
"Ma'am, would you like me to hail a cab or call someone to pick you up?" The waiter asks, interrupting my thoughts.
"I hate you, Jacob Smith. I hate you, Jacob Smith." My eyes start to feel heavy. I'm so sleepy.
"Ma'am, please don't fall asleep. Please don't fall asleep!" The person talking to me sounds like they're panicking about something. I wonder what. But I'm too drunk to understand what he's saying.
"I feel so sleepy," I say to the stranger in front of me. "Let me rest my eyes for a little while, just a little while." My eyes drift closed as my head drops onto the table.
***
JACOB
My phone rings, drawing my attention away from the papers I'd been working on all night. I ignore it like I've been doing with all the calls I've been getting tonight and continue to focus on the papers in front of me. Once it rings for the fifth time, I have no choice but to answer. Without caring to check the caller ID, I place the phone to my ear and answer the caller in an annoyed tone.
"What!" I bark into the phone.
"Is that how to greet your favourite restaurant owner?" The female on the other end says. I take the phone away from my ear to check the caller ID. The name shown on my screen matches the voice I just heard. I am a little confused about why my cousin's wife would call me at this hour.
With my brows drawn in confusion, I put the phone back to my ear. "Emilia, I'm sorry; I didn't care to check who was calling before answering. Did something happen to Harvey? You never call this late," I ask, concerned something might have happened to my cousin or Emilia herself.
"We're both fine; I am calling because I have someone at my restaurant that I need you to take home."
"Who is this person?"
"I don't know her name, but she is a Jacobtiful dark-skinned lady. She was drinking for a few hours before she passed out."
"I don't understand. Why are you calling me to take this lady home?"
"I am calling you because your name was the last thing she said before passing out."
"My name?"
"Yes, your name. Her exact words were, 'I hate you, Jacob Smith.' I am presuming you know her?"
"You said she is dark-skinned?" There's only one dark-skinned lady on this Earth who could utter those words while drunk. Emilia must be talking about Sarah. But I can't believe she passed out in Emilia's restaurant. She must have drunk a lot; I'm curious as to why.
"Yes, I did. Please, can you pick her up or call someone to take her home? With her eyes closed, we can't open her phone. I can't call someone to take her home or even get her address to send her home in a cab. You're my only hope, Jacob." I can hear the desperation in Emilia's voice.
"I'll be on my way shortly to pick her up." I get up from my chair and start to clear my desk, filling my briefcase with all the files I would like to continue working on back at my apartment.
"Really?" Emilia sounds surprised. "I have to admit I didn't expect you to agree so quickly."
"She's my girlfriend. Of course I'll help her."
"Your girlfriend?" Emilia asks, shocked.
"Yes, my girlfriend." Sarah might not have accepted me yet, but I still want the world to know she is mine. It doesn't surprise me that Emilia is surprised to hear me call Sarah my girlfriend. Anyone who knows me knows my chances of being in an interracial relationship are zero to none because of my mother. I know once she finds out where I am and what I'm doing I won't hear the end of it, but I couldn't care less right now. I love Sarah, I've always loved her. And it's high time I get her back. When the time comes, I'll deal with my mother. But right now, my whole focus is on getting Sarah back.
"Wow, I can't believe it. Does your mother know?" Emilia isn't just my cousin's wife, but also a close friend, so she knows my mother and her stance on interracial relationships well.
"No, and I would like to keep it that way." I walk out of my office with my briefcase and the phone still to my ear. Once I make it to the elevator and the doors close, I put my phone on speaker so I can send a text message to my driver to get the car ready.
"You know I am the last person who would tell your mom you have a dark-skinned girlfriend."
"I know. You might be married to my cousin, but you sure don't share our family's point of view on such matters."
"Exactly, and that's why we are friends."
"One of many reasons." I reply with a chuckle. The elevator doors open into the parking garage and my car is already waiting for me. "I'm on my way." I say as I get into the car and the driver pulls out.
"See you in a bit. I am waiting for you to get here before I leave."
"Be there soon," I replied before hanging up and asking the driver to step on it. Seeing Sarah can't come soon enough.
***
I walk into the restaurant with a million thoughts in my mind. The whole way here, I couldn't stop thinking about the million reasons why Sarah would drink so much that she would pass out. I wonder if my method of becoming her investor had caused her too much stress. I knew making myself the only investor available for her company would make her hate me, but it is the only way I can get close to her.
"Finally, you're here," Emilia says, standing up from the seat beside a sleeping Sarah.
"What happened? Why is she drunk?" I ask as I examine Sarah. She looks okay, and that at least, brings me comfort.
"One of the waiters said she was waiting for someone, but they never showed up. I guess she got drunk while waiting."
"Oh, and you said she called my name before she passed out?"
"Yes, I was stepping out of my office when I heard her say 'I hate you, Jacob Smith' twice."
"Thank you so much for calling me." I say as I lift Sarah in my arms. Her head rests against my chest comfortably. I watch as she snuggles closer to me and I try to make her more comfortable. I would give anything in this world to see her in my arms like this every day.
"You're welcome. Goodnight."
"Goodnight, Emilia," I say, walking out of the restaurant with my sleeping beauty.
I gently place her in the back seat and let her head rest on my thigh after I settle in next to her. Pushing her black hair away from her face as the car starts to move, I think about taking her home, but I know her father will kill me if he sees me. My place it is then. I know it's not the best idea, but I can handle Sarah's wrath far more easily than her dad's.
***
After we get to my apartment, I lay her on the bed and pull the covers over Sarah's body, tucking her in properly. I thought about changing her clothes, but I also want to live past tomorrow morning, so I decided not to.
I change into my pyjama pants and hop into bed beside her. I know Sarah will kill me when she wakes up and finds herself beside me, but I'm ready for that as long as I get to sleep beside her again for one more night. I've missed her scent and can't pass such an opportunity after seven years. I pull her close to my chest and wrap my arms around her, taking a deep breath as her scent surrounds me, and my heart slows its rhythm.
"You don't know what I would do to have you in my arms every day like this, Sarah." I whisper as I rest my head above hers. It's as if she hears me because she moves closer to my bare chest and snuggles her body against mine in response. "I love you," I say, kissing Sarah's forehead before closing my eyes.
SARAH I move closer to the intoxicating scent around me. It smells so familiar, but I can't place where I've smelled it before. It smells so good that I don't even want to open my eyes to check where it's coming from. It calms my heart and makes me want to spend the whole day wrapped around it. I let out a sigh and feel my breath bounce back against my face. That's odd; why did that happen? I slowly open my eyes to find out what's wrong. My eyes widen as I come face to face with a rock-hard chest. I quickly check my body to ensure I didn't do what I think I might have done. I know I drank a lot last night, but I am not one to have a drunken one-night stand. A breath of relief escapes me once I see I am fully clothed. Thank God, I didn't have a one-night stand.I tear my eyes away from my body and look up to see the owner of the magnificent chest in front of me. Every finger is itching to rub my hands all over this beautiful man's chest, but I stop myself because I need to know who it
"Sarah, what are you doing here so early?" Tamara asks once she opens the front door. "Where do I start?" I walk past her into the house. "Maybe you can start by explaining why you are wearing a dinner dress so early in the morning." "I spent the night out." I sink into one of the couches in her living room. "You spent the night out! Oh my God, it's been so long. I have to ask, with whom?" Tamara asks, getting more excited by the minute. I didn't date much after Jacob, so it is no surprise that Tamara is eager to hear about a date. "Jacob." "You had sex with Jacob?" Tamara asks, wide-eyed. "Of course not; I just spent the night over at his place." "How did that happen?" "I don't know, but I guess he was called to the restaurant after I passed out." "You passed out at a restaurant?" "Yeah," I say, staring at Tamara's TV screen. "Why are you looking at the TV? It's switched off. Is something on your mind?" "Jacob kissed me." "He did what?" "He kissed me." My hands automat
I glare at Jacob as we walk into the boardroom. Unfortunately, there's only two side-by-side seats left. Taking my seat beside Rebecca, I nod at my assistant to start. As the meeting begins, something presses against my thigh. I try to move it away, but my hand gets caught in something-or by someone. Turning to my left towards Jacob, I shoot him a questioning look. One I hope no one else will notice.Jacob gets the message but ignores it. He smirks that devilish smirk of his and continues to hold my hand, interlacing our fingers as he leans over to whisper in my ear. "Don't they look perfect together?" he asks huskily, his hot breath fanning across my neck.Swallowing the lump in my throat, I try to ignore the warmth seeping into my hand and attempt gently tugging my hand out of his without drawing attention to what's going on, but Jacob's hold only tightens. He smiles, showing off his Jacobtiful dimples. I give up and try to concentrate on what's being said in the meeting, and Jacob
Saturday comes as quickly as I had hoped. I've spent all day getting ready, so now I just need to add a few finishing touches to my face. Luckily, I'm very skilled with makeup, so I was able to do my own, and Tamara had helped me to style my hair in a sexy updo a few hours ago.Once I am done applying my red lipstick, I close the tube and admire how the color accents my skin. Now all that's left is to put on the dress. Rebecca had helped me lay it out on my bed earlier. She and Tamara are also coming to the party, so they'll have a front row seat for what I have in store for Jacob. I smile as I look at the dress. Jacob is absolutely going to hate it. It's a sleeveless, nude tulle gown with black flowers, sequins, applique, and a deep V-neck. The back is also open in the same style as the front, with a slit on the side exposing my leg. A thrill of anticipation runs through me as I put it on. I slip on my black heels and then walk to the full-length mirror to take a look at the full ens
It's been a few weeks since the celebration party. I have been avoiding Jacob like he is COVID-19. I know we've seen each other only a few times since he came back into my life, and it may seem like I'm worrying too much, but I am not. Jacob only touched me through my panties, and I was dripping wet. I can't even imagine what would happen if he touches my bare core. Plus, Jacob and I have history, making it easy for me to fall for him if we were intimate. What am I even saying? He's only touched me three times, and my body practically wants the man to fuck her already. She clearly has no shame when it comes to him, and I know it wouldn't be hard for me to fall for him again, so to prevent that from happening I am keeping my distance.As an investor in my company, Jacob inspects the houses we use his investment to build. I am supposed to go with him, but I've been asking Rebecca to go in my place. Today was supposed to be the same, but Rebecca had to visit her mom. She isn't doing so w
A few hours have gone by since I got back from the store and made Jacob lunch. It's nighttime, and I should be on the way home, but I'm worried about Jacob being alone. I am finding it hard to leave him. The hundreds of ways that his situation could become worse have been floating around in my head all day. I just can't bring myself to leave him."Sarah?""Yes?" I turn away from the TV to look at Jacob."Why are you still here?""No reason." The last thing I want to do is tell him I'm worried about him. He'd make such a big deal about it." It's not because you're worried about me?""No.""Hmm." Jacob places his hand on his chin and stares at me, with an amused glint swimming in his eyes."What?""It amazes me how you think just because you can lie about being worried about me that I will believe you.""I am not lying; it's the truth. I'm not worried about you.""It's funny how you think I can't tell you are.""Okay!" I finally say, exasperated. "Maybe I am worried about you, but I be
It's later that night when I get into my car and drive to the hospital like a woman with a death wish. Jacob's driver, James, just called and told me that Jacob is in the hospital. He couldn't tell me why because he doesn't know any of the details. All he told me was Jacob had called asking James if he could pick him up from the hospital, but James is stuck in traffic, so he asked me to help get Jacob. I've been trying to call Jacob as I drive to the hospital, but he hasn't answered. It's making me worry that something horrible has happened to him.I finally get there and rush into the emergency ward, my eyes searching everywhere for Jacob. I am a little out of breath from running into the hospital from the parking lot. Aren't I pathetic? The man broke my heart just a few hours ago, and now I'm in the hospital looking all over for him while my heart beats louder than a drum. I had considered sitting at home and pretending I didn't receive the call from James, but I couldn't. Jacob doe
We finally make it back to Jacob's place, and after an incredibly awkward walk up the stairs, I get him in bed. I'm trying to pretend I didn't just have an orgasm a few minutes ago while Jacob wears the fact on his face with satisfaction. I want to say something, but I know it would only make things worse. His ego has already grown enough. I don't understand why I can't resist him. It's like when he touches me, I forget everything else in the world, and the only thing I can think of at that moment is what his hands are doing to me. It's so frustrating because it makes me look weak. And I hate that. I need to be strong; I need to resist him."Is there anything you want to do?" I ask, standing up straight after getting him settled."I would love to change for bed, but I would need your help, if you don't mind.""I don't; let me get you something to change into." I walk to his closet to get his pajamas.I come back once I find a set and help him remove his shirt before trying to help him
"What are you reading over there?" Charles asks. It's been a few hours since we took off. Charles apparently doesn't care that I'm his sister's enemy and has been talking to me for most of the flight. I think it's because he has an interest in me, but I might be wrong."A romance novel," I reply, switching off my phone screen and turning to face him."You're a romance fan?""Yes, I am.""So, you must be waiting for your prince charming to rescue you then?""No, I'm not.""But you're a romance fan?""Yes.""I'm confused," he chuckles.I laugh before speaking. "I love romance novels, but not the typical kind you might be familiar with.""Hmm, let me guess, you're into dark romance," Charles says, smirking."Yes, I am." I smile. "How did you know?""Once you said it's not the typical type of romance, dark romance was the next thing that came to my head.So, tell me your favorite book and why it's your favorite.""I don't have just one favorite. I love too many.""What if you had to choos
I take a sip of my margarita and lie back down on the beach chair by Tamara's pool. Sighing, I remember what she told me a few days ago. I still can't wrap my head around the fact that Jacob will be married soon. Just the thought is hard for me to handle. It's enough to make me want to drink, which is why I had to come over to Tamara's, so I could do it without Dad eyeing me. I've been drinking more lately, and he worries."There's something I need to tell you," Tamara says as she steps out of the pool."I'm listening," I say, putting my drink down and sitting up."Harvey finally found out why Jacob is behaving so strangely toward you.""Really?" I ask, hope fluttering in my heart. Things might start making sense now.Tamara nods and looks at me with pity in her eyes.I wonder why, isn't this good news? "What did he say?""He hates you.""What?" I ask, shocked."Jacob hates you, and Harvey says Jenny is responsible for it.""I don't understand.""After Jacob was discharged from the ho
Catching up with him before he walks back into the ballroom, I move to grab his arm, but he yanks out of my grip."Jacob, please tell me you didn't just say the word 'fiancée'?" I ask, my heart beating hard against my chest.He's about to reply, but someone beats him to it. My already cracked heart shatters into a million pieces once I hear her voice."There you are, my love," Hannah says from behind me. I hear her approaching, but before she can get to us, Jacob walks up to her. I turn around, and what I see breaks my heart even more. Tears fill my eyes as Jacob captures her lips in a kiss. My shattered heart squeezes in my chest and suddenly breathing is difficult. Jacob doesn't close his eyes as he kisses her; instead, he stares at me. I bite my lip to stop it from trembling and try my best to contain my tears, but I can't. My knees weaken, so I lean against the wall to prevent myself from falling.I can't believe he's kissing her. Does Jacob truly not love me anymore? When he said
Throwing the blanket off my body, I sit up and drop my feet over the side of the bed. Glancing at my phone, I see there's a few important messages that I'll need to reply to while at work. At first, it was hard going back into the office after everything that happened, but as the days have passed, I've been grateful for the distraction.It's been months since my child was taken from me. I can't believe how time flies. A part of me is grateful for how quickly it's passed because it makes it less painful that it's been a month since I last saw Jacob. His mother made sure the day we found out about his amnesia was the last time I stepped foot in that hospital.Not even Yennefer could help me.Not being able to be there for him at such a critical point in his life breaks my heart. I bet he still doesn't even know who I am. I'm certain his mother has made sure of that.Tears sting the back of my eyes, and I throw my head back, trying to blink them away. My heart breaks every time I think a
SARAHI bite my nails and pace the room, waiting for news of Jacob's rescue. Harvey came an hour ago and told me they were able to figure out where the gang was holding him, and that they were going to get him back. I have barely eaten or slept since I found out Jacob had been taken. I can't even think straight. The thought of losing Jacob and how much that will destroy me is all I can think about.The Smiths didn't report Jacob missing to the authorities. They feared the gang would have harmed him more in retaliation if they did. Instead, Edward hired a mercenary group to find him. But I also suspect Edward didn't want to get the cops involved, so the gang members wouldn't tell them about the kidnapping he had hired them for. I disagreed with their decision to not to go to the cops, but I honestly don't care as long as they find Jacob. Someone bursts into the room, snapping me out of my thoughts. I look at Tamara, wondering why the hell she came in like that."They found him!" Tamara
I wake up to the sound of someone calling my name. The first thing I see as I open my eyes is a dark brown ceiling. Someone touches my arm, and I turn."Thank God, you woke up. I was worried sick." Tamara gets up from the chair she'd been sitting in and pulls me into her arms."Tamara?" I don't return her embrace, confused about where we are and what happened. "What's going on?" I ask as she pulls away from me."You don't remember?" Tamara's eyes widen.Closing my eyes, I try to force my brain to recall what happened. Tears flow down my cheeks as I remember. It wasn't just a horrible nightmare. It's true. I open my eyes and face Tamara, just as Harvey walks in."Harvey, please tell me Jenny was lying," I plead, begging him to tell me the words I wish to hear."Sarah..." His eyes are filled with sadness."Please say it." More tears stream down my face. Tamara grabs my hand and gives it a small squeeze."I wish I could."I swallow and force myself to ask a question that I'm not sure I w
Later that night, I wake up to the feeling of something wet and soft on my forehead. I don't open my eyes because I know who it is. Jacob is here for his nightly visit. I don't know how he gets in this late, but he's come to see me every single night even though I asked him to stay away. I won't lie; a part of me is happy he didn't listen, because I look forward to this nighttime ritual. I lay as still as possible, pretending to be asleep."How are you doing today, my love?" Jacob whispers. "I'm here to visit like I promised I would. I hope you're doing better."I want to answer, and say yes, I am doing better and tell him there's nothing to worry about, but I don't. His voice tells me how concerned he is, and I wish I could ease his worries, but I can't. He'll stop coming once I acknowledge his visits, and I don't want that. I need this time with him.Tears sting the back of my eyes. Knowing these are the only moments I'll ever have with him makes my heart ache. I truly wish things c
Jacob sleeps soundly close to my lap. It's been a few hours since I woke up. I went back to sleep after our conversation. Exhaustion from all the crying I had done and the injuries I had sustained took hold of me. I gently stroke Jacob's hair while he sleeps. Lifting my hand away from his head for a second, I wipe away the teardrop falling from my eyes. I've been doing some thinking. And what I'm thinking about makes me tear up. I sniffle a little, and the sound causes Jacob to wake up."You're crying," he says, seeing the tears in my eyes."No, I'm not," I lie, wiping the evidence from my face. "I need to talk to you.""What is it, mon amour?"A bullet tears through my heart hearing him call me that. His love. Placing a hand on his face, I try to memorize every detail. This is the last time I'll ever be close to him, so I take my time admiring his handsome face. He is about to place his hand over mine, but I draw away before he can. I adjust a little on the bed and clear my throat be
Once I arrive at the abandoned building, I rush inside. My heart racing harder with every step. I'm praying it's not too late. I can't imagine my life without Sarah. The guilt of causing her death would ruin me. I pray I won't have to face such an existence. I kick open the first door I come across. The man in the room jumps up from the couch as the door falls off its hinges."What the fuck!" He shouts, the joint he'd been smoking tumbling to the ground. The whole place reeks of weed, I could smell it even before I walked in.I don't care to give him a second glance, instead scanning the whole room for Sarah. I don't have to search long. The blood trail coming from the room's right side is enough to tell me where she is.The man who'd been sitting on the couch walks toward me. "Who the fuck are you?" he growls, but I don't answer and push him out of the way.Dropping to the floor, I take Sarah's head in my lap once I get to her. All the anger I felt as I drove here vanishes as I hold