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Shadows of the Past NOT NOW, CARLA!
MIKEWhen I walked into the restaurant, everyone was giving me positive signs. Everyone was smiling and was happy for me. I went to the place where I was playing with the band. I was the second guitarist in a band that had been established for a couple of years. The lead singer of the band was a professional with years of experience behind him. He started his band after the previous one broke up. With the help of their manager, they turned out a great band. The vocalist saw great potential in me, but they couldn’t accept me as a full member. I never knew the reasons, but I always suspected it was because of their manager.When the band was absent, I was the one to fill in for them, under the orders of the restaurant manager. He was a soulful man who was always there when I needed him. He told me I was like a child to him. When the accident happened, he felt that only music was going to keep me alive after my wife died. He kept me with him and helped me get into this band. When I wa
Last Updated : 2023-02-19Shadows of the Past DREAMS, HOPES, DESIRES
EMILYDreams, hopes, desires, look how they all flew away on the wind over the sea and were blown far away from me. Once again, I fell for it. I believed love existed; I believed in purity, sincerity, and what did I get? God, I was gullible again and now my heart is again torn into a thousand pieces. If before I went out to dinner with him I got excited now disappointment has taken hold of me. A positive outlook for the future was out of the question, as I felt the world had fallen apart. This depression again caught me in the same trap set from which I could not escape. I felt like I was in a deep abyss from which there was no escape.When I saw him here, I wished I had chased him away, only I promised myself I would change. Once I stepped onto this new land, I promised a change was coming. The old bad and immature habits had to be banished, and I did. No fuss! I should have behaved as badly as I could because it humiliated me, but I didn’t. I sat in my seat and gathered what littl
Last Updated : 2023-03-04Shadows of the Past SO, HE WAS RIGHT?
EMILY“What are you doing my dear? How’s life by the sea?” Olivia asked me. “Here we are dying of heat. Honestly, you wouldn’t want to be here.”“I’m fine, Olivia,” I replied in as normal a tone as possible.“Hey what’s wrong with you? You sound sad.” “I’m fine, really.”“Hey, who do you think you’re kidding? I know something upset you. I know you. Tell me what happened to you. Don’t make me get on the first plane out here and check you out. You know I can do it.”“Fine! Calm down! I’ll tell you.” I paused for a moment while I took a deep breath to build up my courage, then continued, “Olivia, I think I’m in love.”“Wow! That’s great. Why are you sad? You’re not still thinking about that jerk, are you? If you’d let me, then I’d have told him a thing or two. ““No, God forbid! I’m not thinking about Kevin. Let him be happy with his mistress. I’m in love with Mike.”“Great! I’m really glad.” There was a brief pause and then she asked me seriously. “What does he say? He’s a great guy wh
Last Updated : 2023-03-04Shadows of the Past HATE AND DESIRE
MIKE“What did you cook? What are we going to serve?” “Surprise! I won’t tell you until we get home.”The longer I stayed around her, the stronger I felt the dancing butterflies in my stomach. My heart was pounding and my breathing was labored. On the way, I was as attentive to the road as possible, but I was still glancing at her. She was gorgeous in whatever she wore. It was clear that I had fallen madly in love with this woman I once considered an enemy and knew nothing about. All I knew was that she was suffering, but nothing more. I wondered if I was crazy; to have fallen in love with the woman I considered an enemy was immoral.For the first time, I wasn’t interested in a woman’s past, which was strange for me too. When I met Mary, I was so curious about her past. I wanted to know all about her. What kind of woman she was, where she came from, what family she had, what she liked... everything. I even asked some friends what they thought of her, which I later found embarrassin
Last Updated : 2023-03-17Shadows of the Past THAT BASTARD AGAIN!
EMILYA hotter kiss than this I’ve never had. There was a mad struggle inside me between the conscience that wanted to bring me to raw reality and the hormones that were totally out of control. His body seemed to boil with the mad desire to kiss every nook and cranny of my body. The look in his eyes gave me such assurance, his eyes burned with a fiery glow and an insane passion to make me his.I could feel the heat from the thrill of passion rising to my head like a mist clouding my thoughts and forcing me to think only of the wet hotness of his mouth and his body tense with desire. My mind went crazy, and all I wanted was to have touched his naked body and the manhood I felt growing. My hormones were unraveling one by one forcing me to react to all the advances Mike was making on me. Although an inner voice was screaming louder and louder, warning me of the danger that might come, I couldn’t listen to anything because at that moment I was determined to have let myself be carried a
Last Updated : 2023-03-17Shadows of the Past GAME OF DESTINY
EMILYI wish he had released me from the hold he had me in. Already the panic was getting worse and my mind was foggy from all the events. There were so many questions playing dangerously in my brain that I could feel myself slowly losing consciousness, something I didn’t want around that man.“What have I got to do with you and your mischief? Do I have proof that you cheated on me? Go away now and leave me alone. Give me the divorce of your own free will or you will suffer the consequences,” I told him in a more lost voice. He laughed and let me go. My hands were already aching. I wished I had such strength that I could have picked him up and forced him out myself, but it wasn’t possible. “I’m not going anywhere, baby.”“Kevin, leave or I’ll call the police.”“You won’t dare. I’m your husband. No one believes that I, such a loving husband, would hurt you. People will laugh at you and not at me. You have no more proof that I’ve cheated on you.”“You are no longer my husband. I’m sur
Last Updated : 2023-03-24Shadows of the Past MY PLACE OF HEART
MIKEI went to the cemetery where I usually found my inner self and calmed down. It was where I always found the answers to questions and made the best decisions. I didn’t know how I drove there. If no police car was following me, it meant it was relatively okay.I sat down on the bench in front of the cross and stayed that way for a good few minutes. The weather was gorgeous. The sun was in the sky in all its glory and was spreading its hot rays over the unbroken expanse, giving everyone a great deal of excitement. “Why did you let me fall in love with that woman? You knew it was her. Why didn’t you tell me? How could life be so cruel and steal you both away from me, and now I fall in love with my fiercest enemy? I fell in love with the very one who took our happiness with no remorse.” Tears streamed down my cheeks. Though I wished I had held back my tears, because it was not very becoming for a man to cry, I honestly couldn’t and gave my emotions free rein.“It was her, wasn’t it?
Last Updated : 2023-03-24Shadows of the Past NOT THE ONE I KNEW
EMILYI could hear everything Kevin was saying, but I hoped it was just a nightmare that I was waking up from as soon as possible. Everything he said about my mother and his plans, how he “bought” me and how my mother “sold” me out of cowardice, sounded more like a horror story to me. I couldn’t believe it. It just wasn’t true. “You’re lying! Mom is a tough woman, but she loves us and wouldn’t put our lives in danger. To her, we, her daughters, are the most important.”He didn’t comment on anything I said, instead he picked up the phone and called my mother. Kevin put the phone on speaker so we could both hear their conversation. He put her hand over my mouth so she couldn’t speak before I could react in any way.“What are you doing, mother-in-law, dear? How’s the firm going? What news do you have of my wife?” he asked in a calm tone.“Kevin? What do you want? Leave Emily alone! I’ve given you everything you wanted. Now leave her alone,” mother replied angrily. I wished I had let go
Last Updated : 2023-03-31
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Shadows of the Past HEAVEN
EMILYI still couldn’t believe everything we had experienced on the last day. It was all worth writing. I was sure it would make a wonderful book. A novel to write about my life story.It was unbelievable. Susan ruined my life, and she saved it. I was home because of her. Why had she sacrificed her life for us?“Why did you do that?” I finally asked her.“What did I do?” she asked me defiantly.“Why did you save me? You know you won’t have a quiet life with Kevin now.”“I won’t have a quiet life, anyway. My parents don’t want to see me and he’s with Carla. He’s sick of me. Besides, Carla’s willing to sacrifice even more than I have. She broke into the house of Kevin’s worst enemy just to get information for him,” she told me. “I also have pictures of her, Luke and other rivals of Kevin’s in various compromising situations and poses. When Kevin was fighting between life and death, she was partying with the rich guys and I was nursing him. But as soon as she came to her senses, she turn
Shadows of the Past THE SALVATION
MIKEI rushed over and pulled Eddy’s body off Emily. She was terrified! The crying and panic was preventing her from breathing normally. Her heart was pounding like crazy. She grabbed her torn dress and clutched it to her chest. She didn’t realize it was me next to her and not someone else. What had that bastard done to her?I tried to pick her up, but she pulled away. She was still in shock. She couldn’t realize I was there.“Baby, it’s me, Mike. You’re safe now.”She looked at me with wide eyes. When she realized I was indeed beside her, she released the wellspring of tears and threw herself into my arms.“We have to hurry. If Kevin comes back, it won’t be good for us,” Susan said from the doorway of the room.I picked Emily up and followed Susan. She knew how to sneak out of sight of Kevin’s bodyguards. The house was empty, so we went through quickly. We went down to the garage and got into a roomy station wagon. Susan was in front of the wheel and Emily and I climbed into the trun
Shadows of the Past ALL I HOLD DEAR
EMILY“Maybe? Have you checked to see if we’re siblings?” I asked in a nonchalant tone. I wanted to be stronger than Kevin could have ever imagined.I didn’t want to continue the conversation. I ran for the door, wanting to leave the room, but Kevin grabbed my arm and pulled me back. Eddy quickly came up beside him and put a hand on his shoulder. He glared at him, then turned back to me.“Stay here until I finish everything I have to say. Don’t you ever dare let me speak alone again. Besides, you’re not going anywhere. Here you’ll rot. This will be your grave,” he screamed.“I...” I was more afraid than ever, but not for myself but for what he was about to say.“I always thought you were his daughter. I took a DNA test to confirm it and that’s when I relieved myself.”“Then what do you want from me? I’m not the fruit of sin. I’m not your sister.”“You are not the fruit of sin, but you are the fruit of my childhood torment. I swore I would make you mine and give you the life I lived be
Shadows of the Past UNBEARABLE PAIN
EMILY“You lied to me?” I screamed.“How else would I get my hands on you?” he asked me mockingly.“Kevin, you don’t get to play with people’s lives the way you want. Why don’t you mind your own life and let us live ours? I promise I’ll talk Olivia into destroying your file,” I tried to convince him, hoping I could talk him down.“And you want me to believe you?” He asked harshly.“I’m not like you! I don’t lie!” I replied curtly.“Emily, you’re mine and you’re mine forever, whether you like it,” he continued in a calm tone.“You can do whatever you want with me, but leave them alone. Don’t touch them, they don’t answer to me,” I replied just as dryly.“Wow! Little princess claws out! My dear, you are in no position to negotiate or threaten. I remind you that you are in my territory. One command and you’re dead,” he replied sadistically.“Kevin, I’m not scared of you and you know it,” I said fiercely.“You really don’t know how to lie. You’re more afraid than you’ve ever felt. I can r
Shadows of the Past BROKEN PROMISES
EMILYI was afraid, more afraid than ever. Kevin was so unpredictable. He proved to be more dangerous than anyone else. He came back from the dead and was ready to destroy us all. I didn’t know what would happen to me there.In the end, it didn’t matter what happened to me. All I cared about was the safety of the people I loved. He promised Mike’s release if I stood by him. I wanted peace for everyone. My life was meaningless without Mike.The closer I got to the meeting place, the harder my heart pounded. I could feel it not in my chest where it belonged, but it was rising into my throat in a big, painful lump that was sapping my strength.In front of Menfail Park, a black car with tinted windows waited for me, just as the message had said. I looked around before opening the back door and seeing that there were no familiar eyes, I quickly got in.To my surprise, there was only a driver in the car who didn’t even say hello. As soon as I got in, I got another text message:“This phone
Shadows of the Past YOU ARE A BASTARD!
MIKECouldn’t believe that this bastard has so many lives, like a damn cat. I hated him. I even came to hate him more than anything else in the world. What had I done wrong to want him to see me destroyed?He kidnapped my wife and my unborn child, even though I left and withdrew from his life. I left him everything, but it still wasn’t right. What else did he want? Emily was mine. I wouldn’t leave her to anyone. I was fighting for her, as I wasn’t willing to lose her, too. Mary caused me enough pain. Then, when I saw Emily lifeless, it was cruel.I knew for sure where he was hiding, and I wasn’t afraid of him or his goons. Rather than live a panic-stricken life, then fight with my life. I was doing it for the woman I loved and for myself. I owed myself, Mary, and Emily.I raced at top speed toward the house where the bastard was holed up. I felt my blood boiling and my heart pounding with the rage I felt.When I got there, I burst through the gate, oblivious to the guards running afte
Shadows of the Past I'LL KILL HIM!
EmilyAs I stepped into the driveway in front of the house, my emotions overwhelmed me. I felt like I saw Kevin in front of me with every step. I even felt like I heard him.“I should have taken Olivia up on her offer to stay at Frank’s,” I thought angrily to myself.At Olivia’s wedding, I felt like all that wound had healed, but I realized there was still a flame smoldering in the depths of my heart.Mike got to know me very well and realized right away that the past broke my peace. I feared for a second that I might be overcome with jealousy, but I soon realized that Mike was not that kind of man. To my relief, Mike realized he was the only one I loved, but that the wounds of the past still hurt. Still, he knew, or at least I hoped he knew, that no one and nothing had any place between us. I only wanted him in my life!I opened the door carefully, as I had the wedding night scene in my eyes and in my ears. I could hear, like a melody on repeat, Kevin’s words that I had heard when I
Shadows of the Past I'LL TAKE THAT RISK
KEVINI wish I could have seen my idiot brother’s face when Eddy shot his girlfriend. Actually, his mistress was because she was still my wife.“Honey, please don’t get up. You’re still in a delicate state.” I hated being nagged, especially by Susan. She’d always been a nag who thought by throwing herself on my bed she’d have me in her clutches like a puppy. Except her plans didn’t coincide with mine, so I quickly chased her away. “You must be cautious, as you’re still weak. You’ve had a very serious accident and you haven’t fully recovered,” she continued, rousing me from my reverie.“Leave me! Get lost!” I yelled at her.“But ....” she tried to apologize in a trembling voice. I honestly had more important things to do than listen to her.“What don’t you get? I said leave!” I yelled at her again.“Kevin!” she said and walked closer to me. She tried to stroke my cheek, but I got so annoyed that I hit her across the face with all my strength. She looked at me with wide, questioning eye
Shadows of the Past FINALLY GOING HOME
Emily“Thanks for everything, baby. I loved the concert so much and especially the dedication you gave me,” I told her flushed.“What? Were you still in a coma?” he asked, surprised.“I don’t know how to explain, but I could hear everything. I wanted to wake up, but something was drawing me into a distant, pure world, something dreamlike. It felt so good there, but I was sad about your suffering. I don’t know if it was all real or just dreams, but I felt present in two totally different worlds,” I tried to explain.Mike smiled gently. He struck my cheek, then lifted my left hand and kissed it. The engagement ring gleamed beautifully in the beating sunlight that streamed nonchalantly in through the large parlor window.“Never mind what it was. You’re here with me now and that’s the most important thing right now. I love you infinitely wonderful woman!” he told me.His daily care helped me recover faster than the doctors expected. They always said that love works wonders, and that I was
