Ashton POV
I know Alaina is not doing well right now, I can feel it through the bond, but she won’t let me touch her, never mind comfort her. I should have told her before, I should have told her as soon as I found out, but I didn’t think that she was in the right head space to deal.
'And it’s that thinking that caused issues with our mate in the first place!'
'You know what?! You are insufferable when you gloat!'
Jan huffs and retreats to a deeper part of my mind. How was I supposed to know that not only did my mom knew her mom, but that she knew everything that happened. On one hand I am ecstatic that Alaina can finally get some answers, on the other though… I am scared, I am scared that this will be the last straw for her, that thi
Alaina POVAfter Ash’s confession with MORE information, I got up and stomped off to the spare room and slammed the door, so hard the pictures on the wall shook. Angry, pissed, fuming, livid, perturbed 'I’m so glad you found a thesaurus Al.'I can FEEL the eye roll. 'Well, what do you expect? When is this man going to learn? Once again, he’s hidden something from me! Once again, he KNOWS he screwed up and yet he still did it.' 'Al… I don’t think you should be so hard on him for this one.' 'I’m sorry what? I thought y
Ashton POV *ASH! YO ASHTON MAN COME ON.* *Austin, why exactly are you yelling at me?* *Where the fack have you been?* *I went for a run, needed to clear my head.* *Dude, Alaina was looking for you, she’s freaking the fack out!* *Why?* *Probably because she can’t find you AND she’s been trying to link you and Jan but is getting complete silence back?* Shat, I was hoping to be back before she noticed I was gone, but there should be no reason for her to not be able link me. 'Why can’t Alaina get through?' 'I have no idea. I didn’t hear anything, and it didn’t feel like you had a block up with someone trying to break through.' 'What the…' *I’m on my way back now, Janus has no clue what happened either. Where is she?* Janus turns around and starts to run back. We’ve been gone for a while, I would guess cl
Alaina POV Who could, or would, have completely blocked the link? I didn’t, Ash says he didn’t, so in theory by extension Jan didn’t, so then… no, she wouldn’t, Tyche wouldn’t completely block out the link, would she? There’s no other explanation though. OH. MY. GOOD. EVER. LOVING. FACKING. HELL! 'TYCHE! WHAT IN THE HOLY EVER LOVING FACK? ARE YOU FACKING KIDDING ME?! HOW COULD YOU DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS. YOU DIDN’T JUST DO THIS TO ME YOU DID THIS TO ASH AND JAN TOO! WHAT THE FACK WERE YOU THINKING?' Silence I cannot yell at her, I have to have a bit of tact, which is not something that I am known for though. I take a couple deep breaths before trying to talk to her again. 'Tyche...' Nothing &n
Ashton POV “I want you to come in with me.” Those are words that I have been waiting to hear for months! I have been trying so hard to be patient, to give her the time she needs, to not push her into doing something she isn’t ready for, and it has been beyond hard some days… pun not intended. “As long as you are sure you want me there, and if at any point you want me out just let me know and I will leave.” Alaina nods, grabs my hand and we walk into the building together. I feel almost elated, she is trusting me enough to bring me in with her. I know we made the agreement in regards to the douchecanoe, AKA Finlay, but I had also told her it didn’t need to be this soon. Just passed the doors I give Alaina a small tug backwards.  
Alaina Driving back to the packhouse Ash and I talk about the session a little more. I honestly didn’t think that we would be able to get through that much, never mind things that are that deep, in one session! After talking about the possibility, I may not be able to have pups, because I stabbed myself with a silver knife, things were much easier to discuss. Ash made sure I knew, and felt comfortable, with the other options that we could look into. He was not angry, he didn’t show me any pity, he accepted it without a second thought and still loves me. We talked about what we want to happen in our relationship, we went through why I am so hesitant to really commit to anything, which was a lot more eye opening that I thought it would be. “What are you thinking about, love?” Ash asks me, while grabbing
Ashton POVAfter dropping Alaina off at the pack house, I link Austin to meet me at the dock. “Ok, why am I here exactly?”Grinning like a fool, and bouncing on my toes, I am having issues forming a complete sentence I am so excited! “Date with Alaina!”I half yell at him. Austin laughs and nods his head in understanding. This is something that I have been looking forward to for years, but more so in the last few months. The more Alaina has become comfortable, and has been able to work on things the closer this moment seemed to get, just causing my excitement to constantly elevate. “You have a plan yet man?”&nb
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Steven POVI have no clue how I ended up here; running from my Alpha, and the rest of the pack. Running for my life, because if they catch up with me there is no way I am going to be kept alive. Ok, I do have a clue… I know I facked up but I had no choice, I swear I had no choice. At least that’s what I have been telling myself for months! *Flashback*I hate running the border. There are 8 trackers in the pack, right now, and only two of us run the border, so we are doing twelve-hour shifts. I am hopeful that the newest tracker will be fully trained soon to take some of the load off myself and Delaney. We used to have 6 on shift, that was until a couple got too old, and another got hurt. We haven’t had enough pups to take over, when Oston showed the ability to track we were all so excited, when she showed the ability to be str
Ash POV “I’m not sure that the use of the cameras, in the direction of where the actual tribe lives, is a good idea, what can we do to prevent that?” I ask Dan as the phone rings. “Hello?” “Ash, ‘ol buddy, ‘ol pal.” “Uhhh… yes?” “Shane, from Winslow pack in Dundurn.” “Oh, hey! I didn’t recognize your voice!” “I need to know when everyone is being sent to Tsuut'ina pack so I can get some produce and meat shipped over.” “OH!!! I still need to talk to the tribal chief, but I am working with my head of security to come up with a system that wont be overly invasive, and will be easily removed, before I call her.” “Ok, give me a call when you’ve figured that out and we will get a couple truck sent out there.” “Thanks Shane!” I barely hang up the phone before it rings again. “Hello?” “Ashton, I have been waiting f
Ash POV “Well, I guess we have some work to get done.” Scott nods at me. I can see the repugnance on his face. I’m not sure if it’s with himself, me, or the situation in general, but I have a feeling our friendship will never be the same. My relationship with all of the Alphas will have changed by the end of this. I don’t know if we should take up the kingship after dad steps down. I don’t know if I should be an Alpha anymore. “I know what’s going through your head Ash,” Scott says as he places his hand on my shoulder. “We are still good. This is not your fault; you’ve just been dealt a REALLY shit.ty hand!” I nod, not fully believing him. I mean, yeah, the entire situation is completely, and totally, fu.cked up. It’s been reiterated, I don’t know how many times now but, no one could have predicted this. Even if everyone took the ‘bedtime story’ of Selene’s reincarnation as truth… no one could have thought that there would be someone this
Ash POV Within 25 hours of my call with dad we are all on Skype with the various Alphas, and royal families. There are a handful that had to do a phone call, due to fight issues, or their location not allowing them to get places fast enough, but the bulk of them have made it to this call. The Canadians have all amassed at Blue River, St. Bruno, as that was the best place for flights, with the exception of Scott and I, since that as.shole Kushim is currently in our vicinity and actively attacking. Scott did make his way down to my office, to try to eliminate the number of open windows in the chat as much as possible, but we both know he may need to leave in a rush. The pictures are small, but it will work. I notice that as each location speaks their picture lights up with a little ring around it. Well, that makes things a lot easier! “I have called you all to this meeting to talk about the rogue problem and the prophecy of a mad man.” I watch a closely and everyone see
Ash POV I make a slow walk back to the pack house, with Clara draped in my arms, holding her tight. By the time I get back to town she has no colour left in her face, as hard as I try to keep her head to my chest it flops around as I walkAs I pass by pack members I can hear the gasps, see them cover their mouths in shock, and hear the murmurs about what could have happened. The tears fall down my face, and I don’t even try to hide them. The time of being ‘the big tough Alpha’ is over. I can’t pretend like it didn’t happen, I can’t pretend like these things no longer affect me, the truth… the truth is that this is breaking me. It started out slowly, and I don’t even know when it got to this point, but, if I am being honest with myself, I am becoming a broken man. I will always do everything I can to protect Alaina, I will do everything I can to protect my pack… all of the packs… but I don’t know how much longer I can keep it together enough to do it effectively. I have made so many mi
Ash POV Scott agreed to help call some of the Alphas, Cal and Alex have split a bunch amongst themselves and I got Yu and… Kendrick. I sit at my desk, head in my hands, wondering just how I am going to do this. After Alaina took Kendrick down at the Alpha meeting a few years ago I’m not sure he will be willing to help, at least not if its to help her, and Yu… I never did get a read on how he took Alaina yelling at him. I DO know that if they are in the same room together she will likely want to beat the ever-loving sh.it out of him. Fu.ck, having a strong minded, out spoken, and full of… having Alaina as a mate is definitely challenging at the moment! Not many Alphas appreciate Lunas being like Alaina. They want a quiet, subservient, Luna that has no real mind of her own. Alaina caused a lot of waves in Spain and I don’t think anyone has forgotten. ‘That being said… they do still want to be on the royal families good side!’ ‘Good point… I don’t know if t
Ash POV Walking back into my office Alex, and Austin, are waiting, looking at a map sprawled out across my desk. “What’s going on?” Alex looks up at me, then back to the map, before pointing to the eastern border. “They came in from the East this time. Our patrols were able to get to them before they really got into the territory, but we weren’t expecting it.” “What’s with the one that was caught?” Alex gives a little chuckle, turning and, half sitting on my desk. “Yeah… ‘caught’” He air quotes, chortling a little harder, with Cal and Austin quickly joining him. I raise an eyebrow and look at each of them waiting for someone to explain. “She never shifted, the second she saw our warriors she kneeled, hands on top of her head, and didn’t move, or say anything, until after the fight was over. Whe-” “How was she not brought into the fight?” “She stayed back, a good thirty feet, whi
Ash POV I hold Alaina as she sleeps, and my mind wanders to her reaction to all of this. 'I don’t get it, why would she think we would be mad at her?' I can hear his pain, the same pain that I am feeling. 'I have no answer, man, no answer at all.' The door opens and the doctor sneaks in, giving me a slight nod before grabbing Alaina’s chart from the wall. He nods his head to the hallway, wanting to talk to me, but when I look at Alaina, seeing how peaceful she finally looks, I shake my head. He peers over my body to see her curled around me and nods in understanding. “I’m glad to see she’s finally sleeping, without medication.” I nod, in agreement, as he checks her vitals. “I have a question.” I say, trying to keep my chest from vibrating against her head. He nods, and places her chart back on the wall, before coming next to the bed. “She is beating herself up about losing the pups. Fuck she thought I would
***TW Pregnancy loss and thoughts of self-harm. This one was hard for me to write, as I have had a miscarriage. That being said… Alaina’s side needs to be told. While everyone’s thoughts, and experiences, are different, in tumultuous times, I pulled on parts of my own thoughts, and experiences, for this.*** Alaina POV “I’m sorry Luna, we are limited on options…” “We need to make a decision…” “We don’t have much time…” “Do you want us to call Alpha lupin?...” “Luna?...” “Doctor she’s not responding…” There’s a light flashed in my eyes, I can feel hands on my shoulders, laying me down, pretty sure there’s an IV being placed. “Alaina, I’m so sorry, I called Ash and he’s on his way here.” I look up at him, and I can see the pity written across his face. “I understand how you feel Al-“ Bul.lshit he understands! I haven’t heard from Ty since the doctor gave us the news. That being said, I don’t know what either one of us would say to the other.
As the stapler flies apart my phone starts ringing again and Dan quickly glances at the number on the screen then tosses it to me. Looking I see the number for Wild Rose flit across the screen. “Scott?” “I’m sorry Ash, I need you to get out here like yesterday.” I start running out the door towards the garage. “What happened?” “Alaina had an ultrasound…” His pause stops my heart, and my feet. “SCOTT!” “I’m sorry Ash… it’s the pups.” I start running full tilt. “I don’t know much just that there is an issue and she might loose one… some… I don’t know.” “I’m going to run.” I say as I toss my phone and shift mid step. 'We never should have left her there! She should have been with us!' 'Arguing about it now isn’t going to change anything, but we both know that, with what we knew it was the safest place.' 'And now?'