Had she not met him that day would life be any different? No, if she was going to be honest with herself, there had been many chances to avoid Mateo afterwards, yet she didn’t want to. After that first meeting, he was everywhere: at every party, every gathering, at any direction she looked at.
It wasn’t something as far-fetched as fate, simply that the world was small enough that you’d end up meeting people who were connected to you in some way. Would she have met and liked Daniel in the first place if he wasn’t the Garcías’ grandson?
Mateo was Camila’s cousin, and Camila was Valeria’s closest friend at school. That movie night at her friend’s house just happened to be the first time they coincided at the same place, at the same time.
He was charming, a handsome 17-year-old who had just finished his senior year at the British School. After he’d sat on the sofa next to Valeria, he’d instantly showered her with attention, asking about school, about her friendship with Camila, about everything she liked and was willing to tell him.
When she spoke, he listened to her with intentness. His stare was so earnest that it sent shivers down her spine and had her heart racing fast. (She wasn’t sure that was a good thing either.)
“Was the movie night fun?” Daniel asked her this the day after, and she felt like there was a secret she had to keep.
“Yes, like usual.”
They’d just reached the corner of their street, but it suddenly started raining. Daniel looked up and sighed helplessly.
“You don’t mind just this little bit of rain?”
She rolled her eyes.
“You’re going to make us go all the way there anyway.”
She knew him at least that much, and Daniel did not care if it rained or not. When the day was that hot, he’d drag anyone to the ice cream shop.
Fortunately, that only meant they had to run another four blocks. By the time they entered the shop, they were completely drenched. Valeria’s eyes searched for Daniel’s, and the moment they met, both burst into laughter.
“Look, this is your fault, so you pay mine.”
“Don’t I always do that?”
He was already going to order for both of them, while she chose a place near a window to sit down. This, being in Daniel’s company, was very different from what she’d felt last evening talking to Mateo. She’d known this friend for enough time that the comfortable air around them was just natural, and unless the oblivious him came too close to her, he wouldn’t make her heart race.
“We haven’t talked that much since I came. So I couldn’t ask you if you liked the books I sent last time.”
“Ah, thanks for that! I was so glad that I could read ‘The Titan’s Curse’ as soon as it came out.”
“I really don’t get that fantasy stuff, but my girlfriend is Percy Jackson’s fan, too.”
Then she was reminded of the reason why she should stop comparing other guys to Daniel.
‘I can’t just go on pinning on someone who doesn't like me and never will.’
***
Her mother used to tell her, quite frequently, that a girl had to be careful when trusting someone of the opposite sex. Her advice came from her own experience, as Valeria’s father had left them when she was only four years old.
Her grandma made a point to tell this story at least once a week, together with the other tragedies that had hit their family, for years before cancer took her away. “It must be a curse. Someone must have cursed our family.”
Other old families in the neighborhood, like the Garcías, were so numerous that you would not remember the names of all the sons, daughters, uncles, aunts, and grandchildren. The only people making the Gonzalez household were Valeria, her mother, and her grandparents (she wouldn’t count the distant relatives that were only known due to her grandma’s stories). The two uncles, her mother’s older brothers, were killed before Valeria was even born.
The walls of the family’s home exuded melancholy and grief, how could she like to be there? During her childhood, she’d bother Rosa and then Daniel whenever there was an opportunity, and now that she was free to go out with her own circle, most of her time was spent hanging out with her friends. Cami was always inviting her to have a snack at her house, or to do homework together, or just any excuse that they could come up with.
Three of four times Valeria was at Camila’s, Mateo would also be there. Her friend swore that this cousin didn’t visit as often in the past, so the change could only be attributed to his interest in her.
Valeria wanted to be cautious, just as her mother always told her to, and yet this was not easy at all. Finally, on the day of her end-of-school-year party he clearly said what his actions had been indicating for months.
“I like you, Vale. I’m not the type to give up, so when are you going to say yes to me?” His whisper, combined with the almost non-existent distance between their bodies as they danced made her feel nervous and excited all at the same time.
Mateo wanted her to be his girlfriend and found the idea of them taking root in her heart. She was swayed by his persistence in his pursuit of her.
“Okay.”
‘Let’s be together.’
Letting go of a childhood infatuation, and accepting the person who made his way to her heart.
And in the beginning, it was wonderful. Having a boyfriend had its perks. Especially when said boyfriend was someone like Mateo, who treated her like a princess.
The feeling of being kissed, holding hands when they walked side by side, she got to experience all of this for the first time. Valeria was sixteen, and she was over the moon.
***
She didn’t deserve to be that lucky.
That was what other girls at the school thought, but Valeria did not care much for envious people. Her friends all liked Mateo and her together, and her mom approved of him too.
The only one who seemed to dislike the idea of her dating was Daniel, when he learned about this the next winter.
“Isn’t he too old for you?”
Rolling her eyes, she just refreshed his memory and told him two years were not something to be alarmed about.
“Even so, he is a college student.” Once again, he reduced her to a little school girl.
“Yes, and you know so much about those relationships, don’t you?”
Although now he’d broken up with his girlfriend from last year, it did not change the fact that said girlfriend was also in high school back then. (Apparently, only Valeria had the honors to be treated like a baby.)
“I admit that wasn’t one of my most brilliant decisions. In my defense, I was sincere to Emilia and really wanted to wait for her until she graduated.” He sighed. “But it did not go well, because people who are in college and high school are at very different stages, I am sure that is true here, there, and in most places.”
“I’m sixteen, I’m not a child.”
“Exactly my point.”
Part of her felt grateful for his concern. However, it did not help her with her own worries. When they were alone, sometimes the kisses and caresses had given space to more intimate touches, and Valeria had liked it, but she just wasn’t ready yet and always ended up recoiling before they went any further.
Mateo was kind and patient, his words had comforted her afterwards and he told her he’d wait. But would he really? For how long?
[Come with me to a pool party tonight. It’s the birthday of one of my university friends.]
Her boyfriend’s invitation came a couple of days after that conversation with Daniel, and it helped her to lift up her spirits.
[Okay. Let me tell my mom.]
[Cool. I’ll go pick you up later.]
Valeria stared at her reflection in the mirror while trying to choose an outfit, and the smile grew bigger on her face.
The thought that everything would turn in a totally different direction did not cross her mind.
Was it the alcohol? She had never drunk before (except for a glass during the Christmas or New Year’s celebrations at home) and Mateo’s friends kept passing her the bottle. His arm around her shoulder squeezed her tightly from time to time, so she’d smile and take the drink.
“Just one is not going to hurt you. And I’m here.”
Her head started spinning around.
“I think I should go back home.” The moment she suggested this, his face changed. Just for a second, before it went back to his usual easy-going smile, Valeria saw the annoyance flashing through his eyes.
“Let’s stay a bit more, then I’ll take you home.”
But he’d been drinking too.
“I’ll call my father’s chauffeur, ok.”
Okay then. Valeria was feeling dizzy and did not insist any longer. She trusted him.
“I can’t believe this of you, Valeria. Thank God Mateo is a nice young man and he brought you home safely. But how can you come back like that?” The disapproval in her mother’s voice, the disappointment in her eyes, and the words she said at that moment were all a slap in her face.“I’m sorry.” Valeria lowered her head. “It won’t happen again.”Entering her room again without saying another word, she waited until her mother’s steps could no longer be heard, and the silent tears turned into strangled sobs.She did not mean for any of this to happen, but what was she supposed to say now? Her mother was so mad just because she came back home drunk, what would happen if she told her the rest?The sweet fantasy
‘Misfortunes never come singly.’ Why did she remember her grandmother, dead for more than ten years, more than ever these days? Abuela Juana used to repeat this a lot, whenever she talked about the family’s curse, and then she’d lock herself in the bedroom every day to pray for hours. Valeria was sure her grandma went through every bead of the rosary more than once. Maybe she, too, preferred to pray in solitude so no one would come and talk to her.On the long sunny days in the city, Valeria did not feel like leaving her bedroom when she had no reason to. She went to school, visited her friends when they invited her to hang out, and she’d laugh and have fun for a while… but then she’d be back home, feeling more lonely than ever and wishing for her misfortune to be over. For Mateo to leave her alone.
“What are you doing here?”“Just hanging out with friends.”“You’re not old enough to buy alcohol.”Daniel chuckled at the exchange between the two siblings, finally getting Meili to acknowledge his presence.“Hi, Dan.”“Hey, long time no see. You’re getting prettier every year Mei.”“I know.” The young woman smiled. “Would you please tell my brother to mind his business and let me be.”She’d come with her friends, but to her bad luck, ended up in the same bar where her brother was.&
Her mother named him Manuel, after Valeria’s grandfather.“Hi.”The child had been sleeping but woke up as soon as she entered the room, his big eyes staring at her with curiosity.Green eyes. If only he didn’t have those green eyes, she might be able to look at him. Or that was what she told herself. The truth was, the color of a baby’s eyes could change as he grew older, but even if the boy’s eyes weren’t green, Valeria would still stay away.She didn’t hate him. She thought she would because she certainly hated him when he was growing inside her. However, that was pointless now. Manuel was not at fault for his biological father being a fucking bastard. Still, she couldn’t bring herself to care as she should, either
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“A lot of things have changed recently here, haven’t they? I’m sorry for not talking to you sooner, and not seeing how you could be upset. I thought that since you’re already used to Daniel and we all get along well, it was going to be fine.”“I like uncle Daniel.” Manu was grabbing the edges of the blanket and ready to sleep, but his eyes were wide open as he looked at her. “But are you going to marry him?”“Maybe.” She hoped that one day they’d be there. “That is nothing you should worry about. If we marry, then isn’t it like just making him an official member of our family?”“Mom, I love you the most.”Valeria caressed his chubby cheeks, wishing he’d alway
“I was shopping with some friends, and I found him in front of a store. We went to your house, but you weren’t there, and the kid was crying, so I figured out it’d be better to bring him with me until he calmed down a bit.”It felt as if the dark clouds over her head cleared out, the moment Camila called to say she’d found Manu and that he was okay.What were the chances of that happening? And she’d never imagined Camila would call her first, if she knew that her cousin was in charge of Manu that day. Maybe she didn’t know. Either this had been a horrible act from Mateo’s side, which she doubted since the bastard called the police after all, or it was a miracle and she was lucky enough to get her son back in one piece.Valeria barely waited for Daniel to
“What? When? An hour ago? Why didn’t you tell me immediately?” Valeria hated herself for not picking the phone at the first ring, although one minute wouldn’t change or solve the problem at hand. She knew there was a reason for her to feel uncomfortable with letting Manu go with that man. “You are an idiot. And where are all your ‘men’ protecting my son when he’s with you?!” She hopped into the car, and Daniel put a hand on her shoulder to remind “Ask him where they were when Manu disappeared.” Her eyes were red and her lips were trembling after she ended the call, in part because of her anger, but mostly because of fear. “In the Plaza Mall. But they have looked there
After waiting for a lifetime to confess, and then the person you loved was the one to say those words first, it was like suddenly reaching the very top on the stairway to heaven.He loved her.And yet, that day, and even until now, Valeria found herself not being able to say it back.“Look who’s there waiting for you.” Luz elbowed her when they were walking to the parking lot after the staff meeting ended.Daniel waved his hand at them.“And that’s a really nice car that he got. “Her friend seemed to be especially enthusiastic with the story of Daniel moving to the city and celebrated it as a sign that Valeria would soon be joining the club of
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At some point, he’d got to look at himself in the mirror, and all of their interactions in the last ten years, and realize just how he’d remained oblivious only because he wanted to.“I think I started liking you when I was… fourteen, maybe? If I didn’t say a word about it, how could you know?”That’s what she said.However, they had been friends for so long, shouldn’t he have seen it?Daniel thought of Leah, and the last discussion they had before breaking up (was it just around two years ago? It felt like a lifetime had passed after that very short-lived relationship).“Why are you making it so complicated? I’m just saying we should wait a coupl