After what feels like hours later, but in fact, was only 30 minutes, the door opens. Looking up, he walks in, totally confused by me waiting for him. “Erm, what is this?” His question shows how shocked he is by what I have done. “Well, I found the bag that said ‘Kitten’ on in your playroom, so I brought it back here and put it on.” Smiling at him, I want to laugh but I won’t. Slowly, he walks towards me, climbing onto the bed next to me. His lips caress with mine, showing his love for me. His hand grasps mine, pulling them above my head and I feel the restraints wrapping around my wrists. “Ah, no, that can come after.” Pulling my hands away, I push him over, climbing on top of him. My energy spikes as I push him down, my hands ripping open his shirt, slowly kissing down his body, my hands unfastening his trousers, pulling them down. Lowering my head, I look up into his eyes. “Actually…” Moving back up, I grasp his
**TW** In this chapter Alena talks about her past abuse by Max. Now is the time to tell him. How has today made me want to share my worst and darkest secrets with him? “When I met Max, he was like you. I don’t mean you’re the same, but he was dominating. I began reading up on it then, just about Dom’s. The first few months were fine then I realised he was shouting at me more, rather than giving demands like you do. He shouted them at me and if I refused, he would punish me: cold showers, no internet, even when I said the safe word he continued. I realised then he was not real, he was not the Dom he had said he was to draw me in. Eventually, when I refused and he realised the punishments no longer made me cry, he started hitting me. Then, as I got stronger and was able to take a hit and stop myself from crying, it turned to punches and kicks.” Can I really keep going? Keep sharing my story with him? From here, it gets worse and I don’t know how I will co
He guides me with the lead, helping me lower to my knees. “I want you on all fours. If you jump, I will use the crop on you, Kitten. Do you understand?” Nodding, I understand, and then I remember I need to speak. “I understand, Daddy.” Smiling, the tears fall from my eyes while his hand strokes my back. “Good.” His hand continues to stroke my back. Lifting away from the skin, nothing is touching me. Suddenly, something frozen touches my back and I jump in response. The sting of the crop hitting across my back where the ice was, tells me he noticed. The Ice slides up my back to my shoulder. My body shivers and jumps from the sensation. The ice is removed and the sting of the crop makes me jump as it hits my shoulder. My body relaxes even more, the ice no longer on my skin, his hand stroking my back. Suddenly, the ice touches my nipple. Jumping, I yelp from the coldness. The crop hits my nipple twice. Relaxing, I try to stop myself
Turning, he grabs the knife and a slight panic rises within me. The tip of the blade slowly scratches down my arms, not enough to cause bleeding, yet the feel of the metal and scratching feels amazing. Lifting the knife, he does the same on the other arm: the scratch from the shoulder all the way down. “Okay?” Jackson looks at me. Nodding, I agree. “Yes, totally fine” He smiles at my confirmation, the knife pushing slightly harder as he pulls it down my arm, a few faint spots of blood showing. It isn’t hurting. It feels like a scratch. The needles and whip caused more pain. His other hand grabs the ice, rubbing it down the scratch. A moan escapes my lips as the toys continue to vibrate. Reaching the end of the scratch, the crop hits hard against the scratch. As I moan, he places the knife between my breasts. He gently pushes down, pulling the knife across my skin down to my naval. My body tenses with pleasure as he does. His other hand follows w
“I kind of snuck your pills. I didn’t want to fall asleep and not give you the whip.” A cheeky smile is on my face as I try to reassure myself that if I did that, he would laugh it off, tell me not to do it again and move on. I was wrong. He is shocked and looks angry right now. “Are you crazy? They are the ones we take on a mission when we know we can’t sleep. Sometimes I would be up for nearly forty-eight hours with just one, Alena!” His head lowers to his hands. Shaking his head at me, he sighs at me. Okay, maybe I was wrong about how he would react. All they are, are energy pills. It’s not like I took something illegal. “How many did you take?” Okay, now I feel I should lie, but knowing my luck he will have counted how many were in the tub. “I took two.” A laugh escapes my lips. Looking up at him through my lashes, my mouth is tight as I fight off the smile. I am awake, aren’t I? Having fun as well. It seems they are good a
The time passes and it gets to half-seven. Jackson walks down the stairs looking for me. Seeing me and Marcus sat together, he walks towards us. Coming into the room, he looks around, like he is missing something or I have forgotten something. “What’s going on?” Is he upset that I am sat with Marcus or the fact I got up and came downstairs when he warned me not to? I get he is worried I could be down here and that someone could break in and he would have no idea at all. “We are watching Titanic. I am going to make breakfast soon for us all.” Actually, I should probably start cooking now. “Actually, I need a drink. Does anyone else want one? I will start breakfast as well.” Getting up I start to walk out, catching the start of their conversation. “Are you sure she will be okay? Can the hospital not do anything?” Jackson sounds worried, and as scared as I am, I actually like this. I don’t feel tired like I have for the last few days, I act
Moving in front of me, he kneels in front of me, his hands lifting my head to look at him. “How do you feel now? I put the girls in their cots.” Looking at him, he is all blurry. I can’t even make out his face. “I can’t see. Everything is blurry.” Rubbing my eyes, I look back up at him. My body freezes. It isn’t real. Why am I seeing Max in front of me? No, it’s Marcus. Covering my eyes, I try to shake the image from my head. “Right, you need to sleep. Alena, can you hear me? Anything else wrong, Alena?” Looking up, I still see Max. Putting my head down, I try to hide from it. I feel Marcus’s hand rubbing against my arm, trying to soothe me. Looking up, I pray when I open my eyes, I see Marcus. Slowly opening them, there is his face, the glare of anger on it. “It’s not Max.” Hiding my head, I try to get rid of the image but it isn’t working at all. Why was I so stupid? “No, I am not Max, Alena. Come on, you need t
Waking up, the light is bright. Rolling over, Jackson is still in bed with me. He looks ill like he’s not slept in weeks. “I’m sorry.” I can only apologise for this. I feel better now though. “How do you feel?” His eyes are assessing me, trying to work out if I am awake or asleep. “I feel fine. Hungry and thirsty, but fine.” Sitting up, I try to remember what has happened, but everything is fuzzy, my mind not wanting to remember it. “You have been out for nearly 24 hours. Don’t ever do that again. I swear every scream was like you were breaking me. I couldn’t help you either.” So I was screaming. I couldn’t tell. I thought I was, yet everything was silent. “I am fine, honestly. How are the girls?” Looking towards the door, no doubt they are in bed already. “They are fine, enjoyed a lot of time with Marcus. Just try and get more sleep.” His hand goes to push me down, but I don’t want to sleep or need it. “I am fi