Waking up, I look around. I’m still in the playroom. Smiling, I move, going to kiss Jackson then freezing as I realise it isn’t him. Marcus is asleep, his eyes closed. My mind reminds me of last night: Jackson, work, police.
I need to call him or at least text, and make sure he is okay. Moving, I get out of bed. Walking to our room, I check on the girls on the way past. They’re still asleep. Walking into the shower, I quickly get washed. My eyes look at my body in the mirror, at the marks from the whips and rope. I can’t help but smile, thankful of last night and that Jackson seems to have changed how he feels.
Getting out the shower and dried, I grab my phone. Opening the messages, I see several texts waiting for me from Jackson. Opening them, I scroll to the first one he sent.
Sorry babes. I hated leaving you, but I know Marcus will look after you. If you wake, don’t worry. I left for work. I will be back before you wake.
My mind wonders wh
Marcus is stood at the door. Looking at him, I smile. “Happy 70th, you old bugger.” I can’t help but laugh. He walks in, sitting on the edge of the bed. “Cheers, babes. You feeling better?” Nodding my head, I lie. “Enough of me. That drawer there, open it. Your present is in it. I will give you it now before everyone comes tonight.” He looks at me, shocked. Of course I bought him something. He has something for Christmas as well but it can wait till Christmas. Getting up, he walks to the drawer. Opening it, taking out the small box, he stands and opens it. “Are you sure he is okay with this?” He turns to look at me. “I am not even sure how I feel about last night. If he was actually okay with it or not.” Looking at him, shocked, I can’t help but wonder the same to be honest. “You hate it, don’t you? You’re using Jackson as an excuse. It is so hideous. You’re right.” He starts laughing at my word
Answering the phone, I walk out of the room. In a way, I am glad she is far away from all this drama. “Hi Freya, I am sorry. I totally forgot.” My apology sounds real, yet at the same time, it doesn’t feel like it is enough. “If you don’t want to know me and Max, I understand. I would just rather know, Alena. This is twice now you have cancelled or not shown up.” I feel awful. While I didn’t know her and still don’t know her well, she is my sister and I should be there for her like I am Georgina. “No, I do honestly. Why don’t you come tonight? We are having a party to celebrate Marcus’s and Georgina’s birthdays. Bring Max. We have a spare crib he can sleep in and you can both stay here, then tomorrow we will spend the day together.” It seems like a good plan. The girls can meet Max, and maybe he is the key to not being so afraid of the name since he is my nephew. I have their presents for Christmas so I can invite them here as well for Christmas Day.
Her smile is warming, trying to ease my worries. “I don’t think he would, you know. He and Freya, I just can’t see it. I know you’re worried he will, but I can’t see him going there while he’s sleeping with you.” Looking at her, I want to believe her, but I can’t, I just can’t. “We will find out tomorrow. Jackson is asking him about a double date with him and Freya.” She is looking at me, shocked, like I had said something crazy. “Okay, that is messed up. He isn’t your ex but still. You two have a past, and still a present. Why would Jackson ask him that anyway?” “Well, that is my fault. He noticed I was concerned with Freya and Marcus and said he deserves to find someone permanent and would I really stop them. I told him to do it because I thought it would make him see I don’t, but I never actually wanted him to agree.” This is messed up. Maybe I should have just said the truth, rather than lying and now possibly being the reason why
Sitting, me and Georgina talk more. I miss this - us able to talk without people listening. It feels nice and like old times. The food arrives. Georgina and I carry it in. Jackson has a look of disproval on his face as they all walk through. It feels weird seeing them all together and poor Liam just looks out of place, totally lost in their company. “Food, good I am starving. Jackson cooked dinner but to be honest, I would rather eat my arm off,” Troy laughs, walking in and grabbing a pizza. “A takeaway, really?” Jackson looks at me with a puzzled look. “Yeah, I mean, I have not had one in two years, so I think I deserve one and a night off cooking, don’t you?” Looking at him, I hope he agrees. “Of course. Don’t ever think you can’t have something, Alena. I only meant, no takeaways every night like before.” Sitting down we eat, everyone talking back and forth. My mind is really not into it; I am again tired and ready for be
Putting the food on plates, I walk to the table. As I put them down, Jackson is looking at me, waiting for me to talk. There is nothing to talk about, nothing at all. After finishing eating, I get the girls out of their chairs and go sit with them in their playroom. The morning is spent in there with them, not wanting to face the reality of what is happening and that I don’t have a say in it at all. The door opens, and Marcus walks in. “Jackson said to let you know dinner is ready.” Looking up at him, I nod. “Thank you.” Dinner time already? The day passed quickly. Walking in, I get the girls in their chairs. Sitting, they eat. Pushing my plate away, I can’t eat. I should but I can’t, something Jackson would usually tell me off for. Instead, he just sits quietly looking at me. When everyone has nearly finished, the door opens, and Liam and Georgina walk in. “Came to take the girls to see Helen for a few hours like w
His lips press against mine, his hands grasping mine and pulling them above my head. The restraints wrap around them. His hands trail back down, reaching my top. His fingers slide into the top. Moving his hands quickly, he rips the top open. Laughing, I fight against him. “Another top, really?” He is forever ripping my tops. “Yes, now shush. Daddy needs to fix his kitten.” His mouth presses against my breasts. A moan escapes my lips as he does. His kisses move down my body reaching my trousers. “Mmm, seems there is something in the way.” I can’t help but laugh, his hands slowly unfastening the button and opening the top. As he does, his mouth gently kisses again. His hands slowly pull my trousers and underwear down, throwing them on the floor. His mouth gently kisses down, his hands pushing my legs open, his mouth kissing my clit as I moan. His head lifts up, his eyes looking at mine. “As much as I love you not
Waking up, Jackson is not in bed. Smiling, I get out and dress. Walking downstairs, I see Jackson and Marcus talking. I remember that now Jackson is staying, Marcus will be leaving. I need to be strong. I can’t let Jackson see just how much it hurts to see him walking away, or how much it scares me that he might not return. Looking at the clock, it is 12. I have slept half the day away, but tomorrow is Christmas Eve and I can’t wait for Christmas Day, especially to see what Jackson has planned for our night. Walking into the kitchen, I start cooking. I should eat. I have hardly eaten at all. Jackson walks through smiling. “Going to go get the girls. Marcus will stay here with you to make sure you’re okay.” Kissing my head, he smiles, and I have a feeling this is where Marcus says he is leaving and when. Watching him walk out, I don’t say anything else, just staying quiet. I finish cooking and sit down to eat. Marcus walks over to join me.
Looking at him, I smile, my heart breaking slightly at the thought of Katy. “Thank you. Something I don’t know, who was Katy marrying and why isn’t he around still?” I only knew Katy was engaged when she died. I know nothing else and I always put it off, but I feel like I need to know. “She was marrying a man called Mathew. He was a nice guy, the only guy I approved of. The wedding was meant to be a month after the crash. After the crash, Mathew couldn’t stand to be around us.” I don’t understand, why would he feel that way. Jackson and his family are lovely, especially Helen. “Why would he not want to still be here or at least visit you every now and again?” I can only imagine how heartbroken Helen was at losing her daughter and then losing someone she no doubt saw as a son like she sees me as a daughter. “He blames me. I blame myself. Caroline was brought into this family by me. She was the one who took Katy away, and Mathew could neve