Because of that, I swore that I would change.My twisted relationship with Felix started when I was still in Mom's womb.Aunt Mel and Mom were best friends, and coincidentally, they both lived right opposite each other on the same level in the same apartment block. Thus, our families were close to each other.When Mom was pregnant with me, Felix was still a toddler who waddled around in diapers.Aunt Mel had been watching Felix play under a tree and suggested, "Harper, if your child is a girl, she should just marry Felix so we could all be a happy family!"Mom had replied, "Well, that's not up to me. We'll let her decide in the future.""Felix, come here! Would you like the girl in Aunt Harper's belly to be your wife?" Aunt Mel asked.Felix had laid in Mom's lap, giggling as he sucked on his thumb and mumbled the word "wife" repeatedly. He had amused Mom and Aunt Melinda so much that they decided to go ahead with the unofficial betrothal. And just like that, my marriage was settled be
I forced a smile on my face as I whined, "Mom, it's alright. I won't think too much about it! I also won't do anything silly in the future, so don't cry!"Mom studied my face worriedly, trying to gauge whether or not I was faking my smile.I couldn't look her in the eyes, so I could only excuse myself to get a glass of water.Mom knew me better than anyone else, and I was sure she could see right through me.As expected, Mom let out a deep sigh before she said, "Lulu, study well. In the future, you can find someone better … Well, you're such a good girl, I know you'll find the best man in the world. It's Felix's loss for not liking you. He will regret it."I nodded as I held the cup tightly in my hands. As I drank, I could feel my sadness surging from within.I had liked him for 18 years, so letting go was easier said than done.I went to bed early that night. But despite my drowsiness, I could not seem to fall asleep.By the time I was about to fall asleep, I heard the Whites
Dad was silent for a while before he finally said, "Alright, I'll start looking for houses tomorrow."Tears streamed down my face.I cried for all the love for Felix that was deemed absolutely worthless and also for the love and protection Mom and Dad had given me. No matter what happened, they would always be the people who loved me the most.I lay back on my bed, but I couldn't fall asleep. All the memories I had created with Felix for the past 18 years came flooding back to me.My heart felt like it was breaking into a million pieces, and more tears streamed down my face silently.The boy I had loved with all my heart just wasn't meant to be mine. Both of us were simply destined to walk on different paths. We would walk further and further away from each other with no turning back.Farewell … Felix and my dreams!…The next day was a weekend, so I lay in bed quietly and refused to get up.Mom and Dad came in to check in on me a few times. Since I appeared to be fine, they
I lay in bed silently. My door was not fully closed, so I could still see what was happening in the living room.Felix had stood up and had his head lowered in front of Mom and Dad. "Uncle Gerald, Aunt Harper, I'm sorry for what I did last night. I should not have humiliated Lulu like that. "Lulu is a very good girl, and I didn't mean what I said last night. I don't know what had gotten into me last night for me to say all of that. I'm really sorry. Please forgive me."Dad's expression was stormy. Mom was silent for a bit before she replied, "Felix, you don't have to apologize. You're both all grown up now and will lead your own lives. It's not appropriate for her to follow you around all the time. "If it weren't for your words yesterday, we wouldn't even have noticed the severity of the situation. Lulu already said she would change yesterday, and we've already talked to her as well. In the future, the both of you will be neighbors and nothing more.""Harper …" Aunt Mel said ple
Now, I understood that his patience for me had nothing to do with that ridiculous pact our mothers made on our behalf. He had already gotten sick and tired of me. It was just that he had been suppressing it the whole time.Mom's and Aunt Mel's words must've triggered him that night and made him explode. Or, perhaps, he had wanted to create such a massive scene so that everyone would know he would never be with me.I would always remember what he said to me. I would do as he asked, but this would also be the last time I would do anything for him or listen to his words.I had loved him for so many years, and now, it was time to let him go.That day, we didn't speak at all as we walked to school.The morning sun was warm and bright, yet he and I were like cold and distant strangers.I stepped into the classroom first, and Felix followed closely after. I had always been following after him, so it was quite amusing now that our roles had reversed.Our classmates loved to tease us.
That evening, I didn't bother waiting for Felix after school. I wasn't going to wait for him anymore. Halfway home, I heard some kicking sounds from behind me. I knew it was him, but I didn't turn back to look at him.I still liked him, but from now onward, I would keep my feelings to myself. Liking him would now only be my own problem. As time passed, I was sure he would soon disappear from my life.Since then, I never went to school with him anymore. Although we would still bump into each other occasionally, I would only nod politely at him without saying anything else.There were many times I saw him stopping by the roadside as if he was waiting for me. He'd bite his lips like there was something he wanted to tell me, but I'd always pretend that I never noticed him and just walk past every time.My classmates didn't quite believe me when I said I didn't want to have anything more to do with him the last time at the podium. After all, I'd been stuck to him like glue for more than a d
They probably didn't expect I'd leave after saying that. I could hear them talking and gossiping among themselves when I left. I heard all sorts of things but pretended to have heard nothing and continued walking. I didn't stop. I didn't even look back.Time passed very quickly after that. In the blink of an eye, half a month had gone by. I felt a little lonely at times, but I also felt free.Felix would still appear in my head from time to time, but whenever he did, I'd force myself to think about other things so I wouldn't fixate on him.But if I really couldn't control myself, I'd just pick up another set of calculus problems and bury myself in work.The moon was big and bright as it hung in the sky that night.After my extra night classes, I said goodbye to Jade and Zara and walked home with a bundle of study materials in my arms.The night was so beautiful that I found myself breaking into song. I was in a pretty good mood, and I just couldn't stop humming along to a tune I'd hear
As time slipped away, both our families were back to being civil with each other. However, we weren't as passionate and inviting with each other anymore. Also, it was as if there was now a screen separating me from Felix.I never entered his room again. I didn't even go to his house often anymore. Whenever we were invited over for dinner, I'd always find an excuse to skip it. I didn't want to be alone with Felix under the same roof anymore. I wanted to stay silent and keep my distance.During New Year's Eve, Mom had initially thought of having a celebratory dinner at home by ourselves. However, Uncle Austin and Aunt Mel kept inviting us over for dinner and refused to take no for an answer. Mom and Dad were running out of excuses not to go, and they eventually gave in.As for me, I never planned on attending the dinner in the first place. It was a holiday, and I wanted to have a good rest. Most importantly, I didn't want to be anywhere close to him.If I came near him, my mind would