When Colin left, Felix was asleep.Bored, I scrolled on my phone on my chair. When I lifted my head, I caught Felix staring at me.My heart sank, and I looked at the entrance reflexively. But Colin had only just left. He wouldn't be back this soon.For some reason, I was afraid of Felix now that he was awake. He looked like he might hurt me because there was something unfamiliar and brooding in his eyes."Are you that afraid of me?" asked Felix with a hoarse voice."Sorry, no. I was distracted.""Lulu, do you resent me for what I've done to you?""No, not at all. I was young and naive back then, and I did cause you a great deal of trouble. I was at fault too. Why would I resent you? Besides, I'm over it now. So don't let that bother you."The corner of his lips broke into a barely perceivable smile. "Is that true?""Yes. I don't resent you. In fact, I'm grateful to you. If you hadn't given me that wake-up call, I would've never noticed how sweet Colin was. I would truly be unh
"And for a very long time, I couldn't sleep without taking sleeping pills."Lilac is a sensitive person. We fought many times, and she asked if I regretted rejecting you. I told her no. I told her that we were nothing but a past story, and in the future, I'd only love her. Now and forever."I lied to her and to myself. When she asked if we could rent a place near the college, I said no almost immediately. Because I wouldn't be able to face you. On the one hand, I missed you dearly. But on the other hand, I allowed Lilac to bully you."On her birthday, we had agreed to celebrate it together. Then, we ran into you and she insisted on inviting you along. She was the one who came up with the idea that you should find a boyfriend. And I went with it."I thought that maybe I would give up on you once you were taken. Then, I could devote myself to Lilac. But when I learned that you began developing feelings for Colin, I was devastated. I went to confront you stubbornly. "I thought you w
Felix was hospitalized two weeks ago. Colin had lost a lot of weight from taking care of him, but he had to forge on. His parents were also quite old, so he had to be the pillar of the household.However, his eyes still sparkled with life when he was with me. He'd grin seductively at me. Like opium poppy, it was beautiful, lethal, and addictive.He'd coo and ask if I had eaten or why I looked under the weather. Then, he'd feed me the chicken soup Mom brewed personally.He'd also apologized for not spending more time with me and promised that once Felix felt better, he'd travel with me and bring me to a beautiful place.I smirked and nodded my head.Unbeknownst to Colin, he was the most beautiful thing in my world. I didn't need to see any other tourist sights.For his stellar performance, I added even more flowers next to his name in my mental note. He was closer to becoming my official boyfriend!One day, Mom told me during dinner that she had visited Felix in the afternoon. Sh
I was appalled to see Felix in this state.Only love could reduce someone to this worrying state, though I wonder who he loved.He was sound asleep. The crowd in his room failed to rouse him.A bowl of chicken soup lay dormant on the cabinet next to the headboard. Felix never even touched it. I glanced at Colin. He led me to the stool next to Felix's bed.I poked Felix's bare arm, which was resting on top of his blanket. "Felix, wake up. It's time to eat."There was no response."Felix, it's me, Luna. Can you hear me? Wake up now. Eat while the food is still warm."I called out several times, but there was no reaction.Melinda covered her mouth and sobbed on her husband's chest. Mom sighed deeply, and Colin's eyes turned glossy.Just when everyone thought all hope was lost, Felix's eyes fluttered open."Honey, Felix is awake!" exclaimed Austin. Everyone turned to look at Felix.He blinked his eyes and scanned the room with great difficulty. Then, his gaze fell on me. "Lulu
It took Felix more than 20 minutes to finish the bowl of chicken soup. During the feeding, Melinda cried several times out of joy.After the bowl became empty, I was relieved that the whole ordeal was over. I wanted to go home, but Felix called out my name. "Lulu, will you come back again tomorrow? I want to see you."His voice was meek and faint. A strong gust of wind could have overpowered it easily.It was a simple request, yet it filled me with disgust.I had already cut ties with him that day and told him my love for Colin. To my dismay, he still wanted me to stay in my life. It annoyed me, truth be told.Colin was mad. He hollered loudly, "Felix, you're testing my limit here!"Felix did not react or look at Colin. In fact, he looked at no one except for me.It made me think that he was living inside his shell, oblivious to his surroundings.The annoyance I felt earlier deepened.What was happening? Why was he bothering me after Lilac broke his heart? If what he said was
For the next four days, Felix did not bother me.On the morning of the fifth day, before dawn broke, I heard faint screams and crying noises. They were both near and far. I couldn't hear them clearly. I thought I was dreaming, so I pulled the blanket over my head to continue my sleep.Mom suddenly barged into my room and unburied me from the blanket. "Wake up, Lulu."Mom had always been elegant and composed. But her hair was now messy, and she wore a face of shock as if something tragic had just happened."What happened, Mom?" My heart was pounding."Felix, he… he might be gone. Melinda called an ambulance. Come with us. We'll see if we can help with anything."My mind went blank. My hands were already putting on clothes as I struggled to process the whole thing.I did not like Felix. In fact, oftentimes, I wanted to avoid him. But I couldn't believe that one day, he would take his own life.The ambulance rushed to the neighborhood. After administering emergency aid, the medics
Colin was silent when we made our way back to the ward. I was feeling anxious as well.I had heard about depression. It was a mental illness, triggered by a traumatizing event. In some serious cases, the patients might turn violent or take their own lives.When I was studying at university, the sister of one of my coursemates had postpartum depression and jumped off a building, leaving behind a one-month-old baby.If Felix took his life too, I…I was too afraid to imagine further."Calm down, Colin. Maybe the diagnosis is wrong. The doctor only suspects it, doesn't he? Perhaps Felix will return to normal tomorrow morning."Colin patted my head and pulled me into his embrace. He leaned in and whispered into my ear, "Yes… Thank you, Lulu."…The next afternoon, I came to the ward with the dinner Mom had prepared.The ward door was ajar. I heard movement from the bed. Felix was sitting against the pillow with a stoic face.Colin sat on a stool in front of him. They were having a
It was Colin. As soon as I answered the phone, I could hear his trembling voice."Lulu, Felix fell into the lake... He almost drowned. He's under rescue now, but his vital signs are weak..."Before I hung up the call, I heard loud knockings on my door. I could also hear Aunt Mel's cries through the door.Wasn't Felix so sick that he couldn't even walk? How did he get out? He learned to swim in the gym and even won swimming competitions in the district. How could he have almost drowned? Why was there a lake in the hospital?It had only been a night, so how did he become like this? How could this happen?My thoughts were so messy that I felt like I had a splitting headache.Felix remained unconscious for the next two days, relying on an IV drip to keep his vital signs stable.Colin and Dad visited the doctor several times to inquire about Felix's condition. The results were surprisingly consistent."The patient has no significant physical issues, but we suspect that he has a seri