Colin staggered backward and leaned beside the cement railing. He took out a cigarette box from his pocket and lit one. Taking a deep puff, he slowly exhaled it. "It may seem sudden to you. But I've been waiting for this opportunity for 20 years. You don't know how painful it is for me to love you," he said bitterly."When I first met you, you weren't one year old yet. You were small, sweet-smelling, and soft. Your eyes were also big and round. I was scared to break you, so I only reached out a finger to brush your face. You actually smiled at me. "I was only seven at that time and knew nothing. But your smile made me melt. At that time, I wanted you because I thought you were cute."Your smile was like a seed that was planted in my heart. It took root, sprouted, and became a little tree. I carefully nurtured it, fearing to hurt you in any way. "When I was ten, I told my mom I wanted to marry you. But she told me that you were engaged to Felix before you were even born and lect
In the end, Colin almost burst out in tears. He turned his head to not let me see his reddened eyes.My heart started to tear in pain.Love should be built from genuine feelings. I wasn't sure if I could turn the sibling love I had for Colin into romantic love. Plus, I didn't know if I still had the guts to love someone after Felix.Although I did want to try dating Colin before, I didn't anymore because I had already regarded Colin as my brother. I was scared I would lose my brother if we broke up one day.However, there was a voice telling me that I wouldn't know if I didn't try. The voice urged me to be brave and give it a try.Even after pondering for a while, I couldn't make up my mind.Colin patted my head and said affectionately, "You must be hungry. Let's go and eat. Just forget about what I just said, okay? Pretend that it didn't even happen. I'm still your brother, and you're still my sister who I witnessed growing up. I'll still take care of you in the future in the
We ate lunch at my favorite stew restaurant.I sat face-to-face with Colin while waiting for my food. Whenever I looked up, I would meet with his passionate eyes. Then, I would blush and lower my eyes to scroll on my phone. However, I didn't manage to catch a single word on the screen.It was already half past 12. The food came quickly as there weren't many customers.The stew here was known for being hot and spicy. Fearing I would get scalded, Colin scooped out some stew into a small bowl and placed it before me. "Be careful. It's hot."I dug into my food. Although the stew was still as delicious as before, I couldn't eat it happily as I felt weird around Colin. Thus, I ate with small bites.Colin looked at me teasingly for a while. It was obvious he wasn't used to seeing me acting prim and proper. Thus, he clinked the bowl with his fork. "Be natural. You don't need to act in front of me. I love and want the side of you that's fearless and free."I tilted my head and thought for
I was completely speechless.Of course, all of them knew about it. No wonder they scolded me when I helped Jasmine with her love letter. At that time, Colin even refused to talk to me for several days. I couldn't figure out why he was angry despite the many years that had passed. Now, I finally got the answer.I couldn't help but curse these friends in my heart.Initially, I wanted to ask them for advice on how to understand my own feelings. Plus, I wanted to make sure Colin's feelings for me were deep enough for him to spend his whole life with me.However, all of them were so excited that none of them listened to me.I decided to stop talking to them and went quiet in the group.After Queenie and Julia saw that I wasn't replying, they bombarded me with messages. It didn't take long for me to have 99 unread messages.When I scrolled through the messages, they were mostly telling me to quickly accept Colin so that I wouldn't regret it. After all, Colin was as popular as hotc
My phone buzzed with a new notification, "Good afternoon, Lulu. I'm looking forward to the day you make my dream come true."I felt my face burn. Colin was flirting with me again.Not only was Colin a talented artist, but he was also a good flirt. He would go straight to the point when flirting. As someone who had never dated anyone before, I couldn't compete with him.After pondering for a while, I decided to send a message to my mom. I wanted to know about my parents' opinion about something so important."Mom, is it normal if I date someone six years older than me?""It's normal if the guy is older than a woman but not if it's a woman who's older." My mother's reply was quick.My wise mother even considered the gender of my future partner."If it's my ex's brother, is that still okay?"My mother's reply came two minutes later. It seemed that the question was a bit difficult for her. After thinking for a moment, she replied, "Talk. Did something happen between Colin and you t
While talking to me, Hannah couldn't resist but glance over at Felix.Following her gaze, I looked over to where Felix was sitting. He was tucked away in a corner, sitting in the shadows. There was a subtle smirk on his face as he occasionally glanced down at his phone. With his striking facial features, he exuded an air of grace.He suddenly laughed after seeing something funny. A smile played at the corners of his eyes, and there was a hint of mischief in his gaze.He could easily be described as a heartthrob. When coupled with his indifferent and aloof demeanor, he would naturally attract women's attention.I observed Hannah in admiration as she gazed at him with infatuation.After Hannah noticed I was staring, she suddenly blushed and smiled shyly. Then, she hid her blushing cheeks in between her arms.Felix remained oblivious to all of this, placing all his attention on his phone. It seemed that all the enthusiasm in the room had nothing to do with him.After fixing the gen
After Hannah saw that we had finalized the performance, she no longer had any excuse to force us to stay. In the end, she let me go reluctantly after saving my number.I left with the excuse of having something to do. I mainly didn't want to walk together with Felix. We had to keep a distance, after all.When I left, I heard Hannah's sweet voice asking Felix for his number so that she could contact him in the future. …When I had dinner with Colin that night, I told him about the orientation party. After hearing that I would perform with Felix and might have to rehearse with him, the smile and glimmer in his eyes disappeared.Colin forced a smile. "Do your best. You sing quite well. Everyone will definitely like your performance."I knew what he was worried about. Initially, I wanted to tell him that Felix and I would just be performing—nothing else. But I dismissed the idea after thinking for a while. If I really became Colin's girlfriend or even his wife, we would definitely s
I learned the guitar for many years after that. I even bumped into the teacher who tutored me before. After listening to me play, he said that I was gifted and that I was on the same par with many professional players.This was all thanks to Felix's tutoring.After Thanksgiving in the year I turned 18, I stopped playing the guitar. Whenever I started playing it, I would remember how Felix had taught me while sitting on the stool on the balcony. My heart would ache terribly.Five years had passed since then. When I saw Felix standing in the sunlight at this moment, I couldn't help but fall into deep thought."Let's go." He walked ahead while carrying the guitar, and I followed behind him.When the beautiful woman living next door saw us, she cheekily whistled and winked at me. "You guys are even wearing matching outfits. Looks like it's going well."I was stunned.It was then I realized Felix and I were both wearing white tracksuits and white sports shoes.No wonder the woman wo