Chapter 201

"Are you that oblivious, or is this your way of mocking my pathetic self? I slept with Matthew. I offered myself. What you see here are not wounds; they're hickies!" Helen seethed. I saw loneliness and rage in her eyes.

I slumped onto my bed, unable to process the news.

"Oh? Does it sting now that Matthew and I are together?" Helen looked at me with the corners of her eyes. The contempt and sadness in her eyes made her look extra pitiable.

"No, you're mistaken, Helen. I just… feel sorry for you."

"He kept calling your name when he was with me until he lost his voice. And when he realized what he had done, he sobbed loudly. He said there was no hope anymore, that he was no longer pure."

Tears suddenly fell from Helen's eyes, rolling down her dainty cheeks. She cried despondently, "Why? How could he do this to me? He was sleeping with me yet he was thinking of you. Why? Why?"

Matthew's text in the middle of the night came to my mind. I now understood why he apologized to me.

I did