Chapter 57 - Mayson

I don’t remember a minute of the drive back to the house. I thanked the driver and walked up to the front door. I was hesitant to even walk inside. I had finally stopped crying. I am worried I may start all over again.

I have so many questions that I do not know the answers to. Do I really want to move back to my parent’s house and not see Holden? I lived eight years without him before, but did I want to live that hollow life again. Since I had come back to town I feel like I am whole again. The piece that was missing from my heart was back. I am faced with the fact that Holden could have been lying to me about the use of protection. If that is so, can I forgive him. He has a baby on the way. I wanted to be the one that was carrying his first child, not some ex-girlfriend.

This baby will bind him and Jennifer forever. Do I want to live my life as a third wheel? Will our children suffer because of this unplanned pregnancy? And the biggest question, do I still want to marry Holden?