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Chapter 109

Author: Rachel Van Dyken
last update Last Updated: 2022-04-19 14:03:00
Angelica

I ran away.

Again.

This time to the bathroom instead of my doorless room.

I was too confused to keep crying.

Too tired from such an emotional day to even ask what the guy meant when he said he couldn't be my friend yet needed to be my everything.

And a small part of me wanted to run back into his arms and offer him all that I had and see if he'd bite. See if he'd at least be tempted.

But I had nothing to offer.

Except a dirty past.

A shaky present.

An unknown future.

And guys like Will, they deserved the good girls, the ones with no demons chasing them down, the ones with no scars from needles. The ones who weren't constantly showering in an effort to clean the sins away.

I started the shower.

And peeled the wet clothes from my body.

The bathroom door jerked open.

Will stood there, shirtless. His intense gaze moved over my skin like he was caressing me with his eyes. I didn't cover up. There was no point. Because I wasn't a girl who was ashamed of the current
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