Chapter 1
London 1854...
Lord Richard Arnold climbed the servants stairs to his mothers home at Westonhigh, she seemed to be more insistent for the past weeks about him getting married, not that she is not always insistent, its just that it was way worse, if that is even still possible.
Lady Amber Arnold was one of those society mamas who wanted every child of theirs married and providing them with more grand children, her methods at matchmaking was quite frustrating sometimes, she could make a thirty two-year-old man to go crazy (that was him), there were times when Richard secretly wondered how many grand children was required to stop her constant chatter.
Richard loved his mother, he loved his family more than any other thing in the world not excluding himself sometimes, and this love made him quite protective of them.
When he was twenty years old,
His father had died of a lungs' infection that had been rampant, therefore it was his sole duty to provide for his family, although they lacked nothing.
His second sister Daphne, now Lady Daphne Mayfair married to Lord Fabian Mayfair, earl of Hartsfield and Richard's best friend, now lived in the country and adored her husband, and of course he returned the feeling.
Daphne had birth two children already and is quite ready to produce ten if given an opportunity.
Therefore, she was free of her mother's constant mischief.
His two younger sisters Arabella and Anabelle just turned eighteen and were entering their first season, and since they are barely out of leading strings, they are hardly a prey to their mother, as they still have time to make respectable matches.
As for Richard, he had plans to marry, every man had plans to marry eventually, therefore he could say he was waiting for 'the one', Lord knows after what he had seen between his best friend and sister Richard could not help but hope for something more than just a title.
He didn't even expect to find someone he adored so much, he just needed to find someone he cared deeply for, and who is not as bird brained as the ladies of the ton that swarm around him.
Richard usually used the servant stairs to escape his mother, he believed he deserved at least ten minutes to clear his brain and sneak in a bunch of hot biscuit from Mrs cook.
As he walked into the empty kitchen, he bumped into a maid he quickly made to catch her, but he could barely hold him self up as she took the impact she landed with a loud “humph...” on her rear
“Ow......” She winced as he offered his hand to help her up.
“I apologize for my tardiness” he apologised realizing she wasn't dress as a maid, she looked more like a governess or a companion, she should be his mothers new companion.
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Ann had not expected to find anyone in the kitchen, as she had been there when cook added the last batch of biscuits in the oven, and She had come to collect them for her charges. She had been hired a week earlier as companion to Lady Arnold, but she sometimes chaperoned the twins and even help them with their hair, as they had not yet hired a lady maid and so far she actually liked the family as unusual as they could be sometimes.
She was allowed to take tea with them, in the private drawing room of cause, since it was informal.
They were a quite peculiar family and their conversation, mostly arguments on the twins part, made her so warm she sometimes wished she had sisters too.
She had worked for the dowager duchess of Cynedon park the previous year, and had been at her service until she died due to old age, then her grandson came back, as he was almost done studying at Oxford at that time, he assumed his responsibilities properly.
Since she didn't have a charge anymore, she resigned and was given proper recommendations, she had secured a job here with the help of her uncle's friend, whose wife who was acquainted with Lady Arnold.
“Pardon me miss...?” She heard the gentleman say.
“Miss Ann Liverbert at your service sir” she said taking a brief bow.
Looking up, he had piercing gray eyes and a light brown hair that looked rumpled yet stylish. With his clothes, Ann could tell easily that he was an aristocrat. Aristocrat usually had too much good look for some of the younger crowd, pride, and a lot of attention to go with them. So, she reminded herself mentally, not to have too much to do with them. Not that he would even find her so irresistible, and even if he did, she would end up as his concubine, and believe me, Ann had been called lots of names, but she still had too much of pride in her not to insult herself too by giving birth to an illegitimate child, which could cause pain to the child as well, and so, these were enough reasons for Ann to not mix up with the gentry if that is a word. Ann knew she might never get married with so many requirements, she did not wish to spend the rest of her life with a servant, and she knew she was asking for too much, but she just did not think she could live forever with a man who could hardly speak correctly, not meaning to be insulting, and when she had considered a clergyman, she remembered how many times she had wiggled her way out of attending service and how sleepy she had felt during most church services, she realized she was not up to the task.
“Ahem....” Richard cleared his throat loudly, bringing her out of her thoughts again. “Pls pardon my woolgathering sir, what would you like for me to do?” she asked looking at his eyes again, it was then she realized he must be related to the Arnold household, he could be Lord Richard, take that back, he is Lord Richard.
“Oh...” She muttered she hadn't expected him to be so handsome and young looking, though she knew he was thirty and two, she had imagined something more.....maybe serious?, with no smile...but his lips looked liked they could spread up too easily, adding more light to his face, if that could still happen, as he was already glowing.
“Did you say something?” He asked carefully scrutinizing her face.
“Lord Richard” she said blushing with embarrassment at the way he was staring at her.
“I just needed some biscuits, it is quite delicious when it all warm up” he said giving her one of those lopsided boyish grin.
“Its right here” she said thinking his smile did light up his face.
She quickly packed some for him and another for her self.
“Thank you” he said grinning as he took a bite.
“Do you care for some” he asked smearing some biscuit particles on his face.
“Um....you have a bit on your face” she said pointing at his cheek, he touched his cheeks causing more to smear.
“ You are adding more she said almost grinning at the look on his face.
“Here?” He asked dusting his hands on a dish rag and touching his face again.
“Yes! You're almost done, on the left, now on the left” She snap when he touched his eyes. He looked at her raising one of his brows.
"sorry sir" she added akwardly.
"Why don't you help me out?" He asked dropping his hands.
" it will be alot more easier" he added when she did not reply.
"ohk" She murmured she touched the spot.
"There you go" she added as if speaking to a child.
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Chapter 2“Thank you” he said lifting her hands to brush his lips in an airy kiss, whilst studying her face. She had amazing hazel green eyes, he imagined drowning in them but as he looked deeply into them, he saw something sad lurking behind them, she seemed to have hidden them quite well and Richard had a sinking feeling that she hide it even from herself, someone had hurt her badly and she pretended to not feel the pain, Richard felt his hands fist up and realized that he actually wanted to strangle that person and hurt him even worse than the way he had hurt this woman.Feeling uncomfortable with his thought, as Richard wasn't a particularly violent person, he drifted his thoughts and looked down, his eyes caught her mouth they were pressed into a thin line reminding him of apricots, well done he thought to him self, smiling at his imaginations.She nibbled at her
Chapter 3He was so damn annoying, that Lord Richard. Ann wasn't in the habit of cursing at her employers, even in her head, but she just couldn't help the fact, that every thing in him annoyed her, not excluding his good looks.After leaving the drawing room, she had headed straight to the kitchen to get a dishrag, and while returning, had met the Butler Mr Ravens croft, dragging a piece of furniture, so she decided to help out, even though he had made it clear it wasn't a companions job to do.He was a very stern man of morals he took his job very seriously, and with great pride, he wouldn't allow anyone to treat him like a weakling, which explained why at 79yearsold, Ravens croft was still in employ. Well the fact that he had been the valet of the previous lord Arnold, before he was promoted, can also be an added bonus as to the reason
Chapter 4Ann took another bite of the hot crunchy biscuit, cook had bake for the evening, she adjusted her chair as she opened her book to continue reading. She had done her duties for the evening and was enjoying the scenery of her newly found favorite spot at the rose garden, she was told that lady Arnold had planted it when she first got married into the Arnold household, there were about 5 different colors of roses, and they were planted in a way that each shade stood at its own patch, there was also a well trimmed apple tree at each side, and a water fountain at the middle, Ann thought it looks magical especially during sunsets. She had barely finish reading a complete paragraph when she heard footsteps behind her, she turned around to see Lord Richard standing at the door with folded arms. He smiled when they locked eyes and strolled over.
Chapter 5“We would stop to visit madame Lambert shop for your fittings before we begin our stroll” Ann announced as she waited for the footman to help the girls into the carriage.“I hate fittings” Anna mumbled.“What about the one we had a fortnight ago” Ara asked sharing in her sister's grief.“It got mixed up” Ann drawled.“She is forever mixing up our measurements” Anna groaned.“ What about the pigeons? You promised we could feed them” Ara asked with a sigh.“ We can do that after your fittings” Ann answered.“But miss Ann there won't be pigeons to feed by the time
Chapter 6“So what do you think about her?” Daphne asked while watching her and Ann feed the pigeons.“I like her” Richard said smirking.“Yes I'm sure you do, but I really hope you do not cause her any...” Daphne said eyeing her brother.“Harm? Why are you all so convinced that I will harm her? Richard asked annoyed."Your reputation should explain quite a lot" Daphne said."Well I do not plan on ravishing Miss Ann" Richard said with sacasm."I know you will not do something untold, I'm saying you are an earl and she is ...Ann"
Chapter 7Richard and Ann sat in comfortable silence as they watched the twins argue about yet another thing.“ Have you finished reading your book Richard asked.“ Yes your grace” Ann answered.“ Your grace?” Richard asked raising a brow.“ Yes, your grace” Ann answered again.“ I suppose you never promised to call me by my given name” Richard sighed.“ I believe my calling you by your name is very improper” Ann announced.“ And I should also believe you find it not improper to say Daphne's name” Richard scoffed.“ I was given proper permission to do so” Ann replied.
Chapter 8The house was bursting with movement when they got to Westonhigh. The servants were busy preparing for the evening.Ann escorted the twins to their rooms and gave orders to a maid to prepare their bath and dresses.After the twins got dressed, she did a quick work with their hair, pining it up into simple styles that were perfect for the evenings atmosphere, before shooing them downstairs.Then she went to her room and changed into a more comfortable dress after which she went to the kitchen to help Mrs cook.Although it was not a part of her job, Ann enjoyed helping in the kitchen.This was because it was very convenient, and the maid were the only other people she could talk with
Chapter 9“ I have come to believe that nothing happens without your knowledge mother” Anna said joining them with her twin at her side and Stephen stopping to give instructions to a maid behind them.“ One day, I just might end up cutting off that vile tongue of yours” Lady Arnold replied eyeing her youngest daughter.“ Good evening your grace, you look exceptionally beautiful today” Lord Mayfair said embracing his mother-in-law in a hug.“ I am positive you said the same thing to Mrs Cook and every other older female” she replied patting his back.“ And I meant every single word” Lord Mayfair said.“ My goodness, Miss Ann, where have you been?” Lady Arnold asked once she saw Ann.
“ Richard!...” Ann called out, peeking in her husband's study, he looked as handsome as ever even when working, Ann thought with a smile. They had moved to Westonhigh after their wedding. Lady Arnold had argued that she needed fresh air from the countryside, and so convinced them to stay in London, while she and the twins moved to one of their family's homes in Yorkshire. She often visited London, but sh
To: Mr Liverbert January 1833Dearest Anthony,I'm writing this letter in hopes that it gets to you at the battlefield safely.I have missed your company greatly, and I imagine you are as handsome as ever on the field too.I suppose you may be wondering how I am be doing, and I assure you I'm quite fine, and I also recently found out that I'm with child.I discover been with child is such a remarkable and exciting feeling, and although I often have morning sickness, I see it as a relic that I have our child growing in me.my family got to know of my predicament a few days ago, and since then they have had this insane belief that I must marry your brother before y
Chapter 22 The Arnold carriage rode to a stop in the front of Liverbert home, the rain was pouring heavily and lady Arnold was briskly protesting about the fact that Richard had blatantly denied her a stop at the inn even though it was raining heavily outside. "Wait for me here," Richard said to his mother. "Where are you going in the rain?" she queried. "you should allow the footman to do his Job" she added holding him back. " There's little time to consider that to consider that Mother," Richard said before unlocking the door and barreling right into the terrace of the house. The door swung opened even before he knocked but he didn't find anyone there. "Hello Sir" he heard from below. He looks down to see a red-haired boy of about 9 years watching him with keen eyes. " I... I presume this is the home of the Ba
Chapter 20Ann rose from her bed dimly reminiscing her room.She had gotten home safely two days ago and she had been warmly welcomed by everyone, surprisingly including her aunty.Her uncle had asked after her health.Her room had been prepared shortly and as usual, she shared a room with Prudence. Ann somehow felt like the prodigal son, but in a good way.She was starting to think that her leaving home was somewhat a good idea.She no longer felt worried about her unmarried status, although little had changed in her marital status since she left.Her aunty had given birth to another set of twins a boy and girl during her absence and they were as wonderful as the rest of their siblings.Ann was relishing the life of a likely spinster.“ Maryann, wake up... wake up...” Ann heard the ti
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Richard opened his fourth bottle of imported whisky and poured a generous portion in his cup, he gobbled it down ignoring the burning sensation lingering in his throat.He was feeling as bleak as he did every other day since the past week. He walked around his friends' study glancing through some books before slumping on a sofa. He instantly recognised the chair, he had taken Ann there almost a fortnight ago, and he surged quickly inspecting for any sign of blood. There was a tard bit, although it was almost invisible on the black chair, he pour in some of his drink and began brushing it off with the tail of his coat. He felt so crude for not been able to give her the decency of losing her innocence in his own home. Richard had retreated to his accommodation that night and had at once immersed himself with his work, he had spent the week giving attention to all his business ledgers that he had left hanging whilst his frequent stay at home. H
It has been a week since the incident and Ann felt no better.The taught that she had been the one who instigated the whole situation did not help matters. she had not seen Richard for quite a while, and she was not sureif she ought to be pleased with him.Lady Arnold and the twins appear to sense her feelings, and Ann noticed that they were walking on an eggshell around her.She felt dreadful for making her employers grope that way, she felt like she was taking advantage of their tolerance even when they did not know why she was acting that way, but Ann could wager that they presumed it had to do with Richard not stopping by for some time.Ann sat in bed eyeing herself in the mirror. She looked pale from her continuous crying. Ann was doubtful of why she was always crying, the tears just came and she found it arduous to control it
Ann lay down in his warm arms, marveling at how a feeling like that could exist. She felt very sleepy as she battled with her eyelids against sleep. She knew once she awakens, it would all be gone like one perfect dream, except that Ann knew it was not.Richard was the best thing that has happened to her in a while, and although she oftentimes denied the fact, Ann had long acknowledged that she loved him, and most importantly, she also knew she could not have him.Since these past few years, Ann had been very uncertain about virtually all her decisions. She was uncertain about her family, he,r past, and her future, she was uncertain about the man resting beside her, and now Ann was uncertain about how she would live the rest of her life with just this one perfect memory. Regardless there was one thing Ann was certain about and that was her uncertainty.“ I love you” she heard him whisper and she panicked. He could not l
Warning ⚠️ : some mature content present.He made her shiver. He made her melt. He made her want to give herself to him, something she'd sworn she would never do outside marriage.She felt his hand on the button of her dress, could feel the fabric loosening as each slipped through its buttonhole, this was everything she'd sworn she would never do, and yet when her bodice tumbled to her waist, leaving her shamelessly exposed, she gasped his name and arched her back, offering herself to him like some sort of forbidden fruit.Richard stopped breathing when he saw her in the dim light. He'd pictured this moment in his mind so many times. Every night as he lay in bed, and every dream when he slept.But this... This reality was far sweeter than a dream and far more erotic.His hand, which had been stroking the warm skin on her back slowly slid over her rib cage.&ld