Kieran’s POV Growing up, I always thought I was cursed. I mean, what else could explain all the torture I'd been going through since the beginning of time? I'd realized it and accepted it to be the truth. That way, it made my view of everything I was passing through less painful. All I did was tell myself that none of the things happening to me were my fault and I would be okay again.Lies.Honestly, I stopped thinking about it, and the moment Sabrina welcomed me with open arms, I genuinely thought that would be the end of it all. The end of my suffering, and an avenue to try to forget the kind of life I lived before. But I guess fate was a really tricky player and somehow I always found myself on the wrong side of life. If that ant hadn't run over my foot the other day, nobody would have known I was eavesdropping on their conversation and I would be able to go with my activities like every other day, without the constant thought of why Sabrina decided to switch up on me.I could s
Kieran’s POV I knew I should be happy that we'd finally addressed the elephant in the room, but for some strange reason, that feeling never came. I tried forcing it, but it still wasn't natural. I was troubled, and I couldn't place my finger on it as to why I felt that way. After Sabrina's apology, everything quickly went back to normal. We were back to our old selves, almost like we had been speaking to each other in the last few days. It was surprising how quickly we fell back into our old ways. Apparently, I'd missed out on a lot of tea circulating around the mansion. Since Sabrina had some sort of authority over the house, she was the first to know about even the tiniest details. Usually, it was the other way around but reverse was the case for Sabrina. The moment Xander excused himself from my room, we started talking. Our laughs and talks didn't end till late in the night and before Sabrina left, it had come to my knowledge that one of the maids in the mansion was in a relat
Kieran’s POV I allowed myself the time to take in all that had just happened. It was hard, but at this point, I wasn't so sure I had a choice anymore. I dragged my eyes from the tip of my slip and to the lady in the uniform just a couple of feets away from me. She wasn't alone, apparently, and the more I watched her chat with Xander, I wanted nothing more than to wipe that wide grin from her face. Shit. I didn't like her, not one bit, and Xander wasn't supposed to either. Couldn't he see it? Couldn't he see that she was clearly trying to deceive him by being all nice and fluffy? He was an Alpha right, so how couldn't he see the aura radiating from her was nothing less than pure evil and diabolical vibes.I crossed my hands over my chest as another string of laughter from Alice pulled me out of my thoughts. It was infuriating to say the least. How was she able to do it so flawlessly? I mean deceive Alpha Xander that is. Was it her so called charms? If it was, then the Alpha was
Kieran’s POV I sucked in a mouthful of air as I paced around my room. I was furious, no, infuriated and no matter how hard I tried to calm myself down, it just didn't work. The mere thought of it was more than enough to make me run mad with fury, but I just couldn't stop myself from thinking about it. How dare she? Who the hell does she think she is? Just because she was dressed in some snazzy uniform didn't give her the right to talk to me like she owned me. If we were to really compare it, I had every right over her than she had over me. It hadn't been up to twenty four hours and she was already showing her true colors? I just knew she was a green snake under the green grass. From her stupid uniform to everything else, I knew she couldn't be trusted. I just don't know how Alpha Xander could make such a big mistake and…Ughhhh“Relax, Kieran.” I shook my head slowly. There was no use venting to myself about Alice. All it was doing was making me mad all over again and I didn't
Kieran’s POV I sucked in a deep breath, allowing the air to circulate around my lungs and every other part where it was needed. My heart thundered under my chest, it had been like that for a while now. No matter what I did to try to get it back to it's normal pace, it just didn't work. The moment I thought about it, it would spike up again, its speed threatening to tear a hole through my chest. That bastard. It was all his fault.I always thought I'd healed and forgotten about all that happened, but, as I allowed my mind the liberty of going over what happened between Xander and I, a couple of hours ago, I realized I was wrong. Very wrong. A sigh slid past my lips. It wasn't his fault, neither was it my fault. I guess I just had to go through some things to fully understand my potential in life.Lies. All of that were just lies and a bunch of bullshit.How in the world were different kinds of assaults and abuses supposed to help me reach my full potential? Ever since I got here,
Xander’s POV I'd always heard the word “distractions”,but I couldn't exactly say I'd experienced it one on one. Or perhaps, I never considered it a distraction when they eventually occured. I probably saw it as a welcome escape from the task at hand, but right now, this particular distraction in the form of the new help I'd just hired for the mansion wasn't in the least welcome here.I wanted her to leave. Now. A couple more seconds passed, with neither of us moving. Alice stood quite a distance away from the fountain where Kieran and I were huddled together, but I could still see her pretty clearly. Even though the night had fully darkened and only a couple of stars were out, it didn't change that I could still her, and that I wanted her to leave. I felt something shift beside me, or more importantly, someone. It was Kieran. Since our faces were still huddled together, I could tell she wanted to leave. She'd gotten uncomfortable and couldn't be in this environment anymore. But
Kieran’s POV A long sigh slid past my lips as I laid on the bed, the comfy feel of the duvet pressing into my back. With how comfortable I was, it wouldn't take up to a minute for anyone in my shoes to fall asleep, anyone but me. Why? Because my mind was a whirlwind of emotions and for some strange reason, I couldn't bring myself to calm the raging storm that was swirling inside of me.Focus, Kieran. Focus.But no matter how hard I tried,I just couldn't bring myself to do so. It felt impossible at this point because the more I tried to forget about it all, the more the memory seemed to climb to the top of the list of the memories I wanted to forget. Xander. Alpha Xander. Ughhhh. Involuntarily, I found myself trailing my tongue over my lower lip. It had been weeks since the Alpha and I locked lips, but I could still very much taste him. He tasted like whiskey with a hint of mint and cinnamon. A whiff of vanilla too hung around the corner of my lips, but for the life of me, I co
Kieran’s POV The sound of cutlery clanging against the ceramic plate was all that could be heard for a while, and not just from me too. Literally everyone that was seated at the dining table with a steaming bowl of food in front of them hadn't said a word since lunch started and I wasn't particularly sure yet. Of course, everyone probably had their different reasons, just the way I had mine. Alice, Sabrina, Oliver and Alpha Xander were all scattered around the circular table, each one doing their thing. The only person who seemed to be a bit cheery and happy was Oliver. He munched happily on his meals, a huge smile on his face. Sabrina on the other hand, was seated directly opposite me and I couldn't help but notice her throwing some kind of weird looks in his direction.Alice, on the other hand, was being bitch as usual. I didn't pay a lot of attention to her but the little moment we locked our eyes was more than enough to send a scowl my way. From the glare in her eyes, you
Sabrina's POV I've been called a lot of things growing up. Nice, kind, beautiful, caring, rude, even sly. I have never tried to dispute or prove them wrong, because at one point, it was only obvious that I would prove someone's fears and conclusions right, but that wasn't even what I was trying to say. The point was the fact that, no matter how much they tried, no one could exactly say I was a coward. I was never against putting up a fight when the need be and when push came to shove, I always came out victorious. It was a given for me. I don't lose. Even if I felt a little defeated, all I needed was the tiniest push, and I would be back on track again. Just like the push Alice had given me.We didn't really see eye to eye, I avoided her as much as I could, but tonight, she has definitely helped the flames of our friendship burn brighter. I blinked out of my thoughts, just to take a good look at my surroundings. The crowd was silent now, and I felt each and every one of their eye
Kieran's POV Breathe Kieran, breathe. I tried to calm myself and loosen my airway. But it wasn't working. I couldn't breathe. No matter how hard I tried, I struggled. My palms felt clammy and I felt hot all over. Were my clothes too tight? Was it just me or was it hot in here? I suddenly felt like the fabric of my dress had become three times heavier. If that were true, then it would make sense why I was suddenly feeling so heavy and on the verge of passing out. Breathe. I chanted the word in my head over and over again, but one look at the crowd was all it took to take away the little relief I had managed to get a hold of. A million and one eyes stared at me, each one of them judging, their mouths whispering. It was easy to tell what they were thinking though, they all wanted to know who I was. Who was this “Luna”? I wasn't royalty myself, but I had served under them long enough to know how they functioned. At functions like this, the only reason why they were so eager to fi
Sabrina's POVThe sound of my heels clicking against the floors was faint, but it didn't exactly matter. The steady hum of loud music that was coming from the live band was all the sound I needed to hear. Not only was it melodious, it signaled the fact that what I had been looking up to for quite the longest time, was going to be coming into fruition today, and I couldn't wait. I was so excited, it made me wonder how I hadn't burst into my mini victory dance yet. As I walked, I caught a fleeting glance of myself on a glass surface and I couldn't help the huge smile that made its way to my lips. I was clad in a silver dress that hugged my torso firmly, before flowing down from my waist and settling on the tip of my toes. My heels elevated me a bit, giving the dress a kind of floating effect. The dress' edges were hemmed with a white flowery lace that matched the flower pastels scattered around my dress. To top it all off, the dress had a flattering neckline that left nothing to the i
Kieran’s POV I wriggled in my seat as the brush swept around my cheeks. The up down movement of the brush sent tickles spreading throughout my face, but I fought the urge to laugh out loud. If I did, I was sure I was going to ruin all of the artists' entire three hours of work, and if that happened, there was no way she was going to be pleased with it. Of course, she wouldn't dare voice it out, because she was there under the command of Xander, her King. But still, there was no way I would feel good after ruining it all, even if it was a little smudge. That and the fact that if I shifted too much, she was going to have to start all over again and I definitely didn't have the patience to sit here for three more hours. I wrung my fingers together, trying desperately to ignore the knots tying and unfurling in the pit of my stomach. No matter what I did or how many breathing exercises I did, it did nothing to help. Instead, the more I tried, the more my anxiety levels went up the roof.
Xander's POV She had to be joking. I was currently in front of my mother's study in the palace and she quite literally just closed the door in my face and told me to wait until she was done with the person inside. In her free time, she liked to tend to the personal problems of the people. As demeaning or rude she seemed, she was a big problem solver. But right now, I didn't care about any of that. I clenched my jaw in frustration. If it were just any other person, I would have their head. But it was my mother. I breathed to steady myself. Relax, Xander. A few maids passed, busy with the preparations. They stopped to greet me, snapping me out of my calming session, before they went about their day. It made me wonder the kind of thoughts that must have run through their minds. They would think their King was mad, especially since I was muttering to myself. Shit. I let out an exasperated breath, before pinching the bridge of my nose. I glanced at the door in front of me. It was a hug
Kieran's POV“Is that what you thought we were? Why would you ever think that?!” she asked and I was so lost. All those months… that wasn't friendship?“But-”“We're not friends, Kieran.” She cut me off yet again. “Never were, and never will be. You were helpless and I stepped in. I gave you food, shelter and everything you ever needed, and what did I get? You try to steal Xander from me?” She said and I was taken aback. “I didn't steal him. He was never yours!” I exclaimed and she raised her hand to slap me but I swatted it sway. She looked surprised. “If you hated me in the first place, why did you take me in?” I asked and she huffed. Her face was so red by now, I thought she was going to burst. “Because I didn't think you would overstay your welcome. Do you not have any shame?!” she said and I felt so offended. “You told me I could stay. Every single time I wanted to leave, you wanted me to stay” I said, confusion clouding my features. I thought mere words couldn't hurt me an
Kieran's POV I always heard that fate could be a bitch and it could bite you in the places you never saw coming. I believed it, especially after everything I had been through in life. From my early years in my previous pack, I had a first hand share of what it felt like to be on the wrong side of fate. I counted myself lucky when I finally escaped there and I was more than grateful to have stumbled upon the next set of people I considered family. It was stupid of me to think that the moon goddess and every other deity in charge of my destiny was done with my story. I should have known that it was only a matter of time before they would strike again, and just when I had thought my stupid fate wouldn't rear its ugly head again, I realized I couldn't be more wrong. A low breeze rustled,pulling me back to the present. The first thing I came face to face with, was the face of the woman in front of me. A part of me hoped she would have disappeared by now. I thought problems could disapp
Kieran's POV A small yawn slid past my lips as I slowly opened my eyes. Despite taking my sweet time before opening them and sitting up, my eyes still felt tired. I couldn't help the fact that I was still so sleepy. Without giving it much thought, I allowed myself to crumble back into the bed again.A small smile made its way to my lips as my head came in contact with my pillow. It wasn't the fluffiest, but I could say it knew the exact times I needed comfort, like right now. I sighed satisfactorily as I closed my eyes. Before they flew open in shock.I had caught sight of the small alarm clock beside my bed. I stared in shock as the neon green lights brightened before me. I felt my heart thump to the ground. Shit. I jerked up, almost falling over. I was still seated, but my eyes ran a million miles at once, scouring through my room. Once again, my eyes landed on the clock and I still couldn't believe my eyes. I was late. Honestly, just saying I was ‘late’ sounded like a big u
Kieran's POV Even after Xander had walked away, I just couldn't bring myself to move from the spot I was rooted to. The wind was blowing even more harshly and I was freezing, but I couldn't bring myself to care. Goosebumps trailed the surface of my skin, and no matter how hard I rubbed against my arm, it did nothing to shake away the cold. Perhaps it was just the shock. The fact that despite how hard I thought I hid, Xander still found me. I would be lying if I said the thought of our paths crossing again didn't flicker in and out of my mind. Whenever it did, I was quick to push them away because I couldn't bear the thought of him. It hurt too much to think about him, and I had decided to choose myself. I had sworn that I was going to do things that would only benefit me. I had even made myself chant that if I saw Xander, I would turn away immediately and make a run for it. Then why did I not only go to him again, but waited till he was done talking? We had a whole ass conversatio