*
"So," Fahad said the moment he shut the door behind him, "apparently you're my cousin."
Afrah didn't reply as she walked towards the car, her heart threatening to burst from her chest.
"Umma says we used to play together when we were children, but I don't seem to recall something like that happening at all," he continued.
Still, she remained silent.
"Are you naturally quiet, or you just don't like me?" he asked.
'A little bit of both' she wanted to say, but she held her tongue and simply shook her head.
Shrugging, Fahad opened the car door on the passengers side and stepped aside. Afrah stood a few feet away, refusing to make eye contact with him.
"Is there a problem?" he asked, cocking his head.
"Please step back," she said softly. Fahad narrowed his eyes at her, but he took a step back nonetheless. Keeping her eyes glued to the floor, she stuck her head into the car and searched for the charger, all the while feeling his eyes on her. The thought made her skin crawl.
Nearly five minutes later, it was apparent that the charger wasn't there. Giving up, Afrah withdrew from the car and turned towards the house.
"Wait!" Fahad said as he held the door open. "May I please have a word with you?" He asked.
"What for?" she asked.
"It won't take more than a minute," he said. "I promise."
Afrah shook her head as she began to back away. "I'm sorry, but..."
"Please," he said, calmly but firmly.
Slowing her breathing, she turned and walked towards the car. A languid smile on his face, Fahad stepped aside and allowed her to step into the car, shutting the door after her. He quickly walked around the car and hopped in himself, shutting the door with a resounding bang.
Almost immediately, Afrah began to breath rapidly. She had the uneasy feeling of being trapped, and the car seemed to be shrinking in around her. It didn't help that Fahad's perfume filled the car, a strong scent which made her head dizzy.
"Forgive me for asking," he said, "but I believe you are in your early twenties, is that correct?"
She nodded simply.
"And you are about to graduate from the university?" He asked.
She nodded again.
"Okay," he nodded slowly. "Afrah, let me be blunt with you. When I came back to Nigeria, the first thing Umma spoke to me about was you. I know I have hundreds of cousins from her side of the family, but I didn't know about you, if I'm honest."
Not sure where he was going, Afrah stared down at her fingers as she counted the seconds away in her mind.
"She told me you were a responsible young lady, religious, decent, well-mannered and intelligent," he continued. "Naturally, I decided that I would like to see you. Neither one of us is a child, so I'm sure you can understand that her plan was to set us up."
She turned to look at him, but immediately looked away as he was staring too intently.
"Just from meeting you today, I can tell you are a very modest and responsible lady," he continued. "And you're very beautiful, if I must admit."
Afrah looked up at the front door, desperately wishing she could escape through it.
"I would like to get to know you a bit more, if you'll let me," he said. "But I'll have you know that I'm looking for a serious relationship, not some silly throwaway romance that will last a few months. When I date someone, I do so with the intention of finding out if she would make a good wife or not. You've caught my attention, and I would like to explore this connection between us and see where it goes."
He paused, waiting for her to say something; anything. The silence stretched on between them, and he tapped his finger on the steering wheel slowly.
"Aren't you going to say something?" he asked.
"Can I go now?" she asked, still not looking up at him.
"Is there something wrong?" he asked with a slight frown. "Why won't you talk to me?"
"I'm not in the mood to talk," she said.
"And why is that?"
"Because I don't want to," she said irritatingly. He was beginning to frighten her, with his overly aggressive approach and the way her stared at her like she was a piece of meat.
"You know," he said with a cold glare in his eyes, "I really don't see all those things mother was saying about you," he said.
"Well I'm sorry to disappoint you," she said before she threw the door open and stepped out of the car, slamming the door behind her. Fahad watched as she walked back towards the house, mildly upset but immensely impressed by her change in attitude.
*
"There you are," aunt Safiya chortled as she stepped into the living room once again. "I completely forgot that it was right here with me," she held up the charger.
Afrah smiled weakly as she headed towards the stairs.
"Fahad held you up with his long talks, didn't he?" she pressed on. "He has always struggled with the tendency to try and flatter women the first time he meets them, bless him. He never knows when to quite."
"Well, he's a charming young man, isn't he?" Umma smiled, her eyes trained on Afrah. The latter nodded weakly before she dashed up the stairs, towards the sanctuary of her bedroom.
It was just as she opened the door that Amina opened her own door, poking her head out. "Psst!" she whispered, "get in here."
"What is it?" she groaned.
"Just get in here," Amina said before she withdrew into the room. Cursing under her breath, Afrah turned and entered her sister's bedroom instead.
Iman was sitting on the bed, while Amina leaned against the wardrobe with a sly grin on her face. The bedroom was a mirror image of Afrah's, except for the fact that Amina had dozens of shoes lined beside the door, unlike her.
"So," she smirked, "how was it?"
"How was what?" Afrah frowned at her.
"Your little chat with Fahad, of course," she said. "What did you guys talk about?"
"I honestly don't have time for this," Afrah turned and opened the door.
"Don't mind my brother," Iman said. "Ever since he returned to the country, he's been strutting about with his chest puffed out like he's more important than everyone else. I swear it's like living with a stranger."
Afrah held the door open, but she didn't leave the room.
"You should have seen the way Umma and aunt Safiya were talking excitedly when you two went out together," Amina said. "You'd think he just professed his undying love for you to both of them."
"That's what they are hoping for," Iman said with a giggle. "I overheard them talking over the phone yesterday, and they were hoping he would make a good impression on her. That was why he even decided to drop us off instead of the driver. You should have heard the way mother was praising you throughout the week."
"Well, I'm sure he's sorely disappointed now," Afrah said boredly. "He seems to be labouring under the delusion that we both have a connection after barely ten minutes of meeting each other."
"He's gone a bit soft in the head if you ask me," Iman said. All three of them laughed at that. Iman then proceeded to do a very good imitation of him, strutting across the length of the bedroom with her head held high and her arms clasped firmly at her side. Amina and Afrah laughed at that.
Meanwhile, just downstairs, aunt Safiya received a message notification. Absentmindedly, she picked up the phone and unlocked it. It was a message from Fahad:
You were right, mother. She is the one.
*
*There was something about Kano that always made Afrah smile. For the better part of her life, she'd tried to figure out why she always felt giddy and excited whenever she found herself drawing closer and closer to the city. Alas, the mystery remained to be unravelled.Perhaps it was the simplicity in
*Monday - the bane of Afrah's existence - came so swiftly that she was left wondering where the time had flown to. It seemed just like yesterday when she was returning to her parent's home, and yet here she was now, driving into the gates of Bayero University Kano."Good morning, miss," the security m
*The theatre was a large and partially curved hall, not fully a semicircle but very nearly so. Several rows of seats were arranged so they curved with the building, facing inward towards a raised podium on which six plush, brown seats were arranged. All around the hall, several banners had been strung over the many doors, bearing the symbol of a woman extending a small bundle to a little girl, against a green backdrop.
*"Well, that was a complete waste of our time," Maryam said as they peeled away from the lights. "I'm never attending any seminar like this ever again."Afrah merely nodded, keeping her eyes on the road.
*Cursed amongst all seasons is Harmattan, the harbinger of dry skin, crusty lips and the sickening coldness of the air in the early hours of the morning. Though it was much despised by nearly everyone in the north, none of their hatred came close to Afrah's.Abba always told her that 'hate' is such a strong word, and should never be used except for the most extreme situations. Which is why she chose to use that same word to describe the we
*"In the name of everything that is good in this world Umma, please don't make me do this," Afrah pleaded."It's just this once, Afrah," Umma said. "All you have to do is meet with him. I'm sure he's a very nice guy."
*"Are you sure about this?" Maryam asked as she stared out the window for the umpteenth time."Absolutely not," Afrah replied. "I'm only doing this so Umma will get off my back."
*The tense air surrounding the table was beginning to suffocate Afrah. Fahad refused to take his eyes off her, even when he chewed his food or drank some water. It was almost as if his eyes were the needle of a compass, and she was the North pole.It had been thirty minutes already; thirty grueling, uncomfortably silent minutes. The awkward car ride was nothing compared to this.
*The drive to the beach took longer than any of them had anticipated. The weather was dry, with the heat rising to a dangerous level. Twice, they had to stop to fix a punctured tyre. "Are we there yet?" "Just a little further," he replied, wading through the traffic. "It won't be long now."They had left his uncle's house early that morning, with a picnic basket which they filled along the way. They had hoped to beat the traffic by leaving early, but even so they only managed to cover eighteen miles in an hour. By the time they finally reached the beach, it was a few minutes past noon. The sun was high up in the sky, and their shadows had disappeared underneath them. There was a small crowd gathered on the sand, which surprised him as it was a weekday. "Come," he said to her, offering his right hand while he took the basket in the other. "I know the perfect spot for us."He led her away from the crowd, keeping his hold on her tightly. He recognized the group as students from the
* Azra was a bright-eyed, polite, little eleven year old who couldn't meet anyone's eyes when she was brought to the house by Adnan. Afrah, who had been discharged three days prior, watched from her window as he drove into the house with the little girl sitting beside him. Looking at him, she still didn't know what exactly she felt. Of course she still despised what he'd done, but she didn't necessarily hate Adnan himself. Forgiving him was hard. It was probably the hardest thing she would ever learn to do. But it would be worth it if they would learn to live happily for the rest of their lives. Azra's mother had been much too happy to let her go. They had been struggling to provide for the little girl with her new husband, who was significantly less-wealthy than Adnan. Layla knew the girl would have a better future with her biological father. When she got the call from Adnan, a part of her wanted to hang up on him. But since it concerned his daughter, she'd listened to his plea a
*Carpets and curtains. She dreamt of them both, not as separate entities, but as one. Throughout her existence, Afrah had been surrounded by carpets and curtains, each lending its own unique addition to the story of her life. They were always silent, never considered but ever present. She recalled the carpets in her bedroom, how soft and flat it was. Twice a year, the carpets would be taken out so they could be washed and returned. The curtains were washed every month, and Afrah remembered sitting in the middle of her room one time when both carpets and curtains were removed, and she simply stared at the barrenness of her room. Strange how something as insignificant as carpets and curtains could change the entire appearance of her bedroom. She recalled the carpets in her father's room, the plush cream color stretching from wall to wall. His curtains were white, which she remembered complaining to her mother about once. "Why can't I have white curtains as well?" she'd asked. "Bec
*Afrah didn't know she was capable of doing it until she'd done it. Spontaneous action was never her area of expertise, knowing fully well that she was more of a reactive person than a proactive one. But the sight of Fahad falling to the floor jolted her to action. It was like a spark had awakened in her, grinding the gears in her brain. She began by lunging for the gun. Yusuf wasn't expecting her to move. Neither did he hear her move, since the carpet muffled her footsteps. He was still pointing the gun at Fahad's twitching corpse when Afrah's hands suddenly wrapped around the gun and yanked it out of his hands. He staggered back, bewildered by her action. And then she brought the gun to his chest, looking him dead in the eye. Time seemed to freeze in that moment. Neither he nor she dared to move. Between them was their hateful glare, separated by the barrel of the gun. His breathing was calm, while hers was irregular, coming in short bursts. In that moment, their roles were rev
*Every movement caused Afrah to jump; every second his eyes spent watching her made her skin crawl. She didn't sit. Instead she remained where she was standing, her arms folded in front of her. Yusuf meanwhile had leaned back into the seat, sighing comfortably. "What would you like to have?" he asked nonchalantly. "Some water, perhaps? I have some orange juice which still happens to be fresh. Or would you prefer a coke? I have some wine as well, but then knowing how close you and Adnan are, I'm sure he's taught you to stray away from fine wine. So, which would you prefer to have?""I would like to have my daughter back," Afrah replied. Yusuf studied her for a few seconds before he chuckled. "Of course," he said. "It's why you're here, is it not? As for me, I'd like a Bloody Mary."He stood up then, stretched with a slight groan before he left the room. Afrah remained where she was, awkwardly staring at the stained walls with nothing but a single wall clock hanging on them. She tho
*"I remember it like it was yesterday," Halima said. "And I know how cliché that sounds, but it really does feel like yesterday even though it was almost thirty years ago."Adnan tilted his head to the side, trying to detect a hint of deception in her words. "I was a little girl, so foolish and ignorant. I guess I've always been like that. But we can say that my ignorance and foolishness were somewhat exaggerated at that point in my life. Before I tell you how it happened however, I think you should understand the beginning of it all. I believe I was on my way to my uncle's house that day. I'm sure your father told you all about the village we grew up in.""Bakura," he replied indifferently. "Yes," Halima replied, twisting her hands. "It's a small settlement, and we grew up so close that everyone knew the name of everyone else. It was so small that it was impossible to leave home without everyone being able to give a detailed account of where you went. Your paternal grandfather and
*Adnan couldn't bring himself to do it. All through the flight to Kano, he kept staring at his mother in-law's phone number, debating whether he should do it or not. He couldn't. What exactly would he say?'Hello, yes I was just wondering if you have a hand in kidnapping my daughter and I was just wondering if you knew where she was so I can get her back?'Stupid. He couldn't tell Afrah either. Not when it involved her mother. She would be heart broken if she found out. But then Zainab might be lying. She was a pathological liar after all. Why wouldn't she lie to him? It didn't make any sense. Surely she must have just said that to throw him off their scent. And stupid as he was, he'd left the state knowing that she'd been pardoned by the governor. Now she was free; free to wreak her havoc over them once again. He was trapped between a rock and a hard place. When they landed in Kano, Adnan's first stop was the police station. The sergeant was eager to help, and very soon all t
*Some say terror brings an overwhelming sense of confusion, so sharp and painful that the person isn't able to decipher his left from his right. It robs the mind of its tact, and ensnares the person in its claws. For Afrah, terror brought an overwhelming sense of calm. In the seconds after Adnan spoke to her on the phone, her senses heightened, and something inside of her seemed to snap. She was neither aware of walking out of the hospital, nor was she aware of hopping into her car and driving off. Her heart was racing, and the wailing of a thousand exhausted cars desperately trying to maneuver around each other was lost to her. All she heard was silence, so pure and complete that even her breathing was faint, almost nonexistent. And then she screamed.No one heard her, of course. No one heard the anguish in her voice, or the desperation in her every breath. The pain came from within her, seeping out of her pores and wrapping her in a dreadful blanket. Remarkable however, was the f
*Hafsah grew rapidly. It was almost as if one day she went to sleep a baby, and woke up the next day with a vocabulary of over five hundred words. Her growth spurt happened right around the time that Afrah and Adnan moved to Kano. Amina called it their migration, while everyone else called it a relocation. Like birds which migrated south for the winter, Amina told everyone who listened that they'd migrated north for The Long Winter, one which would stretch on for years if care was not taken. Adnan was much too happy to move. Knowing they were leaving the danger of Abuja behind was the only thing which finally made him able to sleep. That, and the knowledge that Zainab was serving a life sentence. The charges leveled against her would have easily amounted to culpable homicide punishable with death, but an unknown party was said to have bribed the judge and reduced the charges to culpable homicide not punishable with death. Adnan had been ready to appeal, but Afrah assured him that