The words hit me like a ton of bricks. Outrage bubbles inside me like bile, going higher and higher up my throat.
Being crowned is the only thing I ever wanted. I can't let an unborn child take something I spent all my life training for.
The next thing I know, I'm already marching towards the direction of Queen Zuri and Governor Celso's voices. I know they're not far away, and it doesn't take me long to find them, as they're just huddled behind a big oak tree.
"Elora," Queen Zuri immediately says. "How long have you been here?"
I don't answer. I can't. My vision tunnels as soon as I see them standing together. White hot anger whooshes inside me. The last thing I register is their shocked faces before I grab Queen Zuri by the upper arms and shake her vigorously, slamming her against the tree trunk.
How dare she? How dare this low class woman take this away from me?
"Miss Elora!" Governor Celso yells and tries to pry me away, but I hold onto Queen Zuri as tightly as I can, making sure she won't get away even though she's struggling against my grip. "Miss Elora, she's pregnant!"
"Elora, please!" she begs. "Don't hurt me. . . ."
Oh, I want to hurt her. And I'm so close to doing it.
"You did this on purpose," I hiss. "You want to erase me from the picture."
As soon as I said that, all my resentment resurfaced. I remember Father getting married to her, how she went out of her way to make me feel that I'm the odd one out now. Father stopped spending time with me. When we do see each other, he always has this disappointed look on his face, like I have done something wrong. Like my very presence is wrong.
And it's all her fault.
I glare at her, gaining dark satisfaction from the fear in her eyes. My hands clench on her arms. A sudden thought crosses my head, a thought that doesn't seem like my own.
What if I slam her head hard enough? The thought begins to creep in my head. I pull her towards me, overcome with hatred and anger—
"Elora!"
Father's booming voice breaks through my reverie. I spin around, releasing Queen Zuri in the process. She falls to her knees and sobs, while Governor Celso assists her to her feet. All my anger gets replaced with fear when I see Father thundering towards me, but I decide to stand my ground for the first time.
"You didn't tell me," I say in a shaky voice. "You didn't tell me you weren't going to give me the crown!"
His jaw clenches. "Do not make a scene. You have done enough."
Behind him, in the distance, a handful of people are gathering to see what's happening. I spot Uncle Osman among the crowd. He's rushing towards us, to break up the fight like he always does. Usually his presence calms me, but not now.
"I won't back off until you tell me the truth," I demand. "Why am I not getting the crown?"
"That is not the case," Father mutters, casting a glance at the growing crowd. "I'm warning you, do not—"
"Coward," I say through gritted teeth. "You're a coward."
With that I walk away. Or at least I begin to. Father pulls me by the arm, drags me in front of him, and slaps me hard across the face — all in one swift motion.
The flat of his palm lands on my cheek with a loud smack, causing me to topple sideways and fall on the ground. I almost fall head first into one of the protruding tree roots, but Uncle Osman catches me in time.
"Brother!" he says in shock, putting a protective arm around me. "Do not do that again—"
"You're a disgrace," Father spits out at me. "An embarrassment!"
My face is hot with shame and pain. Tears are brimming my eyes. My throat is tight, and his words are still ringing in my ears. There's a collective gasp in the crowd, followed by murmurs that make my insides wither.
I can't believe this happened. I can't believe he did this to me.
But unfortunately, he's not done yet.
"Call this off," Father snaps at Uncle Osman. "Send everybody home. I'm done with this." He turns to me. "And you're coming with me."
With that, he yanks me to my feet, grabbing my arm so hard that I’m sure he’s leaving bruises. Then, he starts to drag me towards the palace, my knees and feet colliding against every bump along the way.
"Father!" I sob, grabbing his hand to get him to let go, even if it means plopping me right in the middle of a shocked crowd. "Father, please—"
"Silence!" he shouts, pulling me through the door and leading me up the stairs. "Don't make me hurt you more!"
"Brother!" Uncle Osman trails behind us. "Odion, stop that!"
Father doesn't listen. He's in a fit of rage that I'm too familiar with, the kind of anger that knows no bounds. I've been the target of this many times before. I should be used to it, but I know that this time is different.
And I'm right. He drags me inside my room despite my struggles, slams the door behind him, and throws me on the floor.
"Stop," I breathe out, my breath hitching in my throat. "Please, father—"
Slap. He hit me again, and this time my mouth got filled with the coppery taste of blood.
I can’t believe this. My very own father, hurting me without any remorse, making me bleed. I, who have done nothing to serve him. I, who wanted nothing but his approval, in the hopes that maybe he would stop associating his hatred for my dead mother.
“You disgraced me.” His nostrils flare as he begins to pace my bedroom. When he passes by my vanity, he sweeps all my possessions to the floor. The loud crash of glass and wood punctures my sobs. “What I expected of you was simple: get married and know your place.”
“I know my place and that is on the throne,” I insist. “It’s my birthright, it’s what I was born to be—”
“You think your little stunt tonight makes you fit to be a princess?” He sneers. “You really are delusional, Elora.”
I wipe my face furiously and face him. “You know I deserve it.”
Father’s sneer grows wider, colder. The lack of emotion in his eyes confirms the thing I’ve been dreading all my life: he never truly cared about me.
“You want to prove yourself?” he asks, his tone flat and detached. “Fine by me. I’ll send you off to The Hunt.”
“No,” I protest. My whole body begins to shake. “No, you can’t make me join The Hunt.”
Father crosses the room and grabs me by the chin. “I can do whatever I want, and what I want is for you to go to the treacherous forests of Bellari to hunt the biggest beast and bring its pelt back here. Only then will I consider you a candidate for the throne. Only then will I consider you my daughter.”
He turns around and leaves, slamming the door behind him and leaving me in the ruins of my bedroom, about to face a mission that will surely end in death.
The Hunt is for Nobles who want to have a place of power, also for Exiles who wish to be reintegrated into the Kingdom. The forests of Bellari are known to house the most dangerous creatures, which is why it's usually not a popular choice for The Hunt. No one has come back from there. No one. Ever. Some of my professors when I was young said that Bellari's forests still carry the trace of the Supernaturals, the powerful creatures who used to rule Acantha along with humans. The Shadow Wolves are the leaders of the Supernatural, and they're all males. They mated with the female humans who are blessed by the moon goddess, called the Daughters of the Moon. The Alpha of the wolves and the chosen Luna rule the Kingdom. But of course, that system was broken. The Supernaturals abused their power. The humans staged
The inside of the carriage is wide, but I find myself getting suffocated by its velvet-lined walls. Not to mention Uncle Osman’s huge frame is taking up more than half of the seat, pushing me against the window with my bag of supplies on my lap. I face the window the entire time the carriage moves. For a long while, there’s nothing but the extension of the walls that surround the palace. I’ve never seen them before in person, but they’re even more majestic than the pictures. All brown bricks, stacked tall and thick to form a path that leads out of the premises. Uniformed guards are patrolling every corner, carrying swords. Seeing them gives me a flashback of Hendrik and his words, but I quickly shake it off. “Stop,” I mumble to myself, lightly slapping my cheek.
I get up so fast that the world around me begins to spin. The ground under my boots seems to be lurching, but I run anyway. My knees are shaking. The rebels must have heard me, I know, so I do my best to slow down, all the while clutching my sword. My bag of supplies is left in the carriage. I want to find my way back to the road and see if my uncle is alright, but I know I have to get moving or else they will hurt me. One of them already very specifically ordered that I’m wanted. Dead or alive. And I know that their first option will be to kill me. If they catch me alive, I don’t think I would want to see what’s in store anyway. “Hurry!” the same voice yells. “Check the tracks. I knew she fell here.” Their footsteps grow louder. Closer to where I a
I’m weightless, tied to nothing, being nothing. Only my essence remains, and it’s floating above everything. It’s bliss. It's completely dark. If this is death, then I would have no issue with it. But it's not death. The darkness soon gives in to light, which turns to different colors and shapes until I find myself looking at the image of the palace gardens, close to the thirty-foot tall walls. There's a woman in white robes standing next to a tree, pointing at the tall iron gates. A dream. I'm dreaming, and this one is too familiar. I've had this dream so many times as a kid, enough for me to know immediately that that woman is my mother. "Elora," she says, her voice echoing even though she's close to me. "Look." Like she always does in these dreams, she point
Did I hear that correctly? "What?" I ask rather shakily. "What did you say?" The man shrugs and fiddles with a bundle of cloth below the stool where the gas lamp is. "Well, you heard what I said. Take off your clothes." My entire body freezes. I don't know what to do, but I do know what it means, from all the romance books that I used to "borrow" from Madame Mara. I think it's highly possible that this absolute stranger wants to do something with me that doesn't involve any kind of clothing, the sacred thing that I want to do with my husband and my husband alone. Not Governor Celso, but with someone I share love with. I can't do this with someone I don't know. I certainly won't do it with someone who I'm sure is a criminal.
The first thing that struck me when I woke up was that I don't know where I am. I open my eyes to the unfamiliar brown ceiling, closed square window, and piled up chests in the corner of the room. I jolt upright with a scream stuck in my throat, scrambling to get up before everything comes rushing to me. Oh, yeah. Right. I'm with the rebels, particularly in Jossie's quarters. I turn to my side, expecting her to be there and watching me with disappointment like she did last night, but her bed is made up and empty. Releasing a breath of relief, I lie back down on my cot. I can't believe I'm here with an actual purpose, after all the things that happened. After thinking for the past days that I would die. Brief flashes of the carriage accident makes my heart const
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I blink rapidly, waiting for the green scaly legs to turn normal. Maybe I’m just hallucinating, right? I rub my eyes for good measure as she begins to dry herself with a towel. When I stare at her legs again, they’re perfectly flesh-colored and ordinary. What’s happening to me? “Enemy, right.” I nod vigorously to hide my growing panic. My entire back is sweating. “Good thing I’m here as an ally.” Gynith smiles at me like she knows exactly what I think and it amuses her. “Welcome to Demika Circus, Lora.” “Thank you,” I croak after a pause. “It’s . . . nice to be welcomed after almost getting devoured by Shadow Wolves.” Gynith’s smile goes stiff. “By what?” “Shadow Wolves.” I point vaguely at the forest. “That’s how Alis