"What are their names?" I ask curiously."That you would also know if you were there when they were born" he says simply. I sigh before jumping in the water, the cool water soothing the ache of my muscles. I wash my face and realise how long my hair was and how filthy I am." May I ask why you are so far from your pack?""Only if you tell me why you left my sister"" I don't know why, because I didn't want to admit I was wrong" I tell him not having a reason that would be good enough to explain, me walking out on them."Hazel tried to kill herself after you left, and she and Logan are doing good. They are a proper family, word of advice"" What's that?"" If you choose to go back I would think twice about leaving again, her mate or not I will kill you""Noted" I nod my head."So why are you here?"" I used to come here with her," he says."Who Hazel ?"" No my mate"" Your mate? Where is she then?""Dead, I killed her?" He says like she meant nothing to him yet why was he here. His an
"So you're going back?" He asks when I say nothing, like what do you say to that, the horrors he suffered and inflicted."I could always make you" he says “but honestly I don't believe you deserve them""Do you deserve a second chance mate?" I ask, his tone irritating me." If the goddess granted me one, she wouldn't be trusted easily. That's if I let her live, I don't need a mate. They make you weak, blind you and in my position I can't afford weakness" he says."How did you do it, survive after I mean?""I never marked her, Avery took the remnants of the bond away""Huh she would do that for you but not me"" Aamon and I are best friend's, for over a decade when my father introduced us. Avery knew what she was capable of""How so?""Because she saw it" He says, getting up and dusting his pants off."Come I have spare clothes, I will shout you lunch and later maybe beat some sense into you"I stayed with Clan for a few more hours, not that I had much choice, he could literally comman
“I let you in, whatever baggage from the past gets left at this fucking gate, you don’t bring your problems with you, we have started over I won’t have you bring us back down. So you need to choose because I can tell you right now Hazel won’t put up with your shit not no more, not now that we have kids”“There mine too Logan” I tell him.“Really? because where the fuck were you when they born? Where were you when Hazel tried to kill herself, they don’t know you and I sure as hell won't allow you to come and go as you please, or when you feel like being a dad” He says. Guilt smashing into me violently.“I don’t want to disturb anything, I just want to see them”“Well that’s up to Hazel ” Logan says before walking off. I wait wondering if I should follow him, wondering if I was allowed to.“Leave your problems at the gate Lucas or don’t come with me” He calls over his shoulder. I let out a breath before following him, Titus in my head wagging his tail, he wanted to come home for a while
“I didn't know how to tell you he was back” He mind links back and I nod to him. Lucas watched us knowing we were talking through the link.“Why are you here?” I ask Lucas .“I wanted to see you, see our kids” He says looking at the wall and not meeting my gaze. I make the coffee setting out five cups.“Can you take these up to mum and dad?” I ask Logan and he nods grabbing their two mugs and walking upstairs.“Are you staying or are you planning on leaving again?” I ask, sliding his cup to him where he stood on the other side of the counter.“Am I allowed to stay?” He asks.“Depends if you plan on leaving again, I won't have you walking in and out of our children's lives Lucas , either stay or don’t but if you leave, don’t come back” I tell him and he growls low.“Don’t growl at me, I won’t tolerate that shit, you were gone for months. Just left didn’t even ring, not even to check on your own kids” I tell him.“Can I see them?” He asks just as Logan walks in with Titus in his arms, h
“I am fine with it” I tell them before Logan’s voice flits through my head.“Do you want him to go or not? If you don’t want him here Lana, I will make him leave” He says and I could feel Lucas watching us again.“It’s fine but he sleeps on the couch” I reply and Logan nods before kissing my cheek.“Come, I will get you some clothes so you can shower” He says, grabbing Ashley off him. Logan nods before standing with Titus in his arms, he comes over handing him to me. I take him before walking into the kitchen and placing him in his high chair, Logan doing the same with Ashley while I make their lunch. Both of them walk upstairs while I remain a little uneasy about the situation. I was glad he was okay and as much as I hate to admit it I do miss him, but I refuse to be hurt by him again, refuse to let him hurt our kids.Hazel I mulee up the babies food before sitting down on a chair in front of them, feeding them their carrot and pumpkin puree. I could hear the shower running upstairs
“You don’t need to worry, I have gotten used to sleeping in that form” Lucas says behind me before reaching around me to grab his shorts. I keep my back to him.“Hey little man” He says kissing Titus' head before grabbing him and I know he is dressed. Titus squeals clapping his hands excitedly as his father takes him.I follow them into the kitchen turning the kettle on."Can I ask where you have been all this time?" I ask him.Lucas looks over at me before looking down at Titus again and I hand him his bottle."Mostly in rogue camps" he says and I shake my head annoyed that he would rather live with rogues than be with his mates."Just say it Hazel stop holding back, I know you want to say something just say it"" I am not holding back Lucas , I don't feel the need to yell at you" I tell him."You don't?""Why would I? You made your decision to leave and that's on you not me. I don't care if you're in my life or not. The only thing I care about is making sure you don't fuck up theirs
" No I waited long enough and Logan definitely has, get your shit together Lucas or just leave we don't need you here if you have no Intention of being with us"Hazel I had just walked up the stairs and was walking into check on Ashley when Elias' voice flitted through the mind link."Is Logan awake still?" He asks."No why?""Nothing I can't handle," he replies but I could hear his concern in his voice."Do you need me to come?" I ask him."No Logan doesn't want to worry you,""Well saying that makes me worry where are you?""Eastern border but it's fine I can deal with it" he cuts off the mind link and I refocus on my surroundings. Going in the room. I get dressed, chucking on some jeans and a shirt before chucking my joggers on. Walking downstairs Logan was still asleep and would be dead on his feet if he went so stepping in the kitchen I found Lucas ." Do you think you would be right with the kids for awhile,Logan is asleep and I need to go see Elias""Yes of course but can you
"No place? it is on my packs territory""You don't need to get involved, go home now we will handle this"Chase walks over kneeling beside the box, everyone stepping back and my father shoves me away."Go home Hazel " he growls."No tell me what's going on, why are they attacking us?""Because of Clan now go home. Logan is going to pitch a fit when he finds this out""Is this why you left home, is this going on back home too?""Hazel we haven't got time for this just go" My father yells at me pointing back the way I came. I turned my back on him walking home pissed off that this was hidden from me. Does Janet know? And what does Janet have to do with this? I had so many questions and no one was willing to answer them and I doubt Logan will tell me anything unless I demand him too and even then he can fight it.When I get home Lucas looks up alarmed and Logan rushes down the stairs in panic before stopping when he sees me walking toward him. He lets out a breath of relief.Then suddenl