Standing on the floor looking up at the stage with a couple of the roadies and several girls from the dressing room, Myrna waited for Sinners to make their entrance. Her heart thudded with anticipation.“Who are you, anyway?” one of the dressing room girls asked.“None of your business. Go get me a beer,” Myrna said.The girl scowled at her, creasing her heavy blue and black eye makeup. Myrna wondered if she thought that much glitter was really necessary. It detracted from her looks rather than adding to them.“Uh. That was a joke,” Myrna said. “I’m a friend of Brian’s.”“Did you babysit him when he was in elementary school or something?”Ouch.“No, actually, I’m fucking him.”“Heh, I thought so.” The girl grinned. “How’d he hook up with a stuffy chick like you?”Myrna shrugged. “Who are you here with?”“Sed or Trey. I was hoping Brian, since Angie split, but he’s a one chick kind of guy.”“Sed or Trey?”“Maybe both. Depends on their mood and how tired they are after the show.”“Not E
He paused and turned in her direction. His smile, meant only for her, dazzled. She ran to him and wrapped him in an enthusiastic embrace. Her ears were numb from the loud music, but every other sense was heightened. The scent of his sweat made her tremble.“You are amazing,” she sputtered.He popped the earplugs out of his ears. “Don’t get all fan girl on me now.”He wrapped an arm around her shoulders and walked her past the dressing room. As they passed, Myrna caught a glimpse of Sed, minus his shirt, surrounded by several girls.“Where are we going?” Myrna asked.“Trust me, you don’t want to go anywhere near Sed for a while. He’s in one of his moods. We’re going to the bus. Is that okay?”She nodded. If he asked her to walk on hot coals, she would have eagerly complied. And why was that? She didn’t understand her own psychology at the moment.He kissed her temple. “Did you like your solo?”“How could I not? All I could think about was you making love to me when you wrote it.”He ch
Brian headed for the crowd, starting at one end of the barrier fence and working his way down. He signed autographs, shook hands, offered the occasional hug, allowed his picture to be taken dozens of times and put up with a heck of a lot of groping from female fans. Myrna waited patiently, trying to curtail her jealousy. She knew this was important. His fans made his entire career possible. Still, she didn’t like all the touchy-feely young women rubbing up against him while he was distracted with signing an autograph or answering a question.After about fifteen minutes, he offered a salute to the crowd and returned to Myrna’s side.“I’ll have to go around the front of the bus and then sneak along the back side. Otherwise, they’ll see me again and we’ll never catch a break. You go between the buses and meet me on the other side. Pretend like we’re saying good-bye now.”“Okay.”He hugged her with the same kind detachment he hugged enthusiastic fans, and waved at her slightly before turn
Myrna caught sight of Jake, the roadie with the blond mohawk, waving at them wildly. “I think they’re ready to leave.”“Yeah, I suppose.” Brian drove up behind the bus and stopped abruptly. “That was fun.”He drew her across the bench seat and kissed her. “Let’s go to bed.”“Again?”“I could use some sleep.”“Oh, we’re going to sleep.” She smiled, ducking her head.“For a few minutes, at least. You’ve worn me out today, woman. And I’m not used to getting up early. It’s usually party all night, sleep all day around here.”The car door opened. “Ha,” said Jake. He tipped his head into the car. “I get to drive the Thunderbird.”“Not if you drive like Brian, you don’t,” Myrna said.“I’ll be sweet to her.”Brian climbed out of the car. “I’m not a bad driver. You can’t put a big engine in a little car and expect me not to see what she’s capable of.”Brian helped Myrna out of the car.“Sweet!” Jake said. He climbed into the driver’s seat. “See you in Des Moines.” The door slammed. The tires s
Myrna stood next to her still-in-one-piece car, which had reached Des Moines a full hour before the buses. Brian stood before her, plucking absently at a button on her blouse. She stared over his shoulder, finding it difficult to look at him. Every time she did, her heart constricted with anguish.She hated good-byes. Especially permanent ones.She slid a hand into her suit pocket and fingered her business card in indecision. She knew continuing this was a mistake. It would just lead to heartache for both of them. They’d both suffered enough in the past, she decided. She pulled her empty hand from her pocket. No strings. For the best.They started to speak at the same time. “I—”“We—”They laughed. Their eyes met. Brian drew her into his arms and kissed her deeply, his embrace tight. Her throat was also tight. Don’t cry, Myrna. Wait until…She pulled away. “I had a great time with you.” She hoped she sounded impersonal, not emotional.“This doesn’t have to be the end.”She ducked her
Myrna answered her office phone on its second ring. “Doctor Myrna Evans, Psychology Department.”“Myrna. Ah. It’s really you.”All the blood drained from her face. “Brian?”“It’s so good to hear your voice.”“How did you find me?”“Trey looked you up on the Internet by checking the faculty lists of the universities around Kansas City. You aren’t hard to find.” He fell silent for a moment. “Are you mad that I called?”She couldn’t lie and pretend she was anything but delighted to hear from him. She was disturbed that she was so easy to find. She wasn’t hiding from Brian, but there was another man she didn’t want to find her. Ever.“No,” she said. “I’m not mad.”“Will you meet me somewhere?”“What? Now? Are you in Kansas City?”He chuckled. Her breath caught and her nipples tightened. How could the simple sound of his laugh turn her on?“No, I’m in Oregon for the entire weekend. More tour dates. I’ll send you a plane ticket.”“I can’t just drop everything and get on a plane to Oregon.”
The first hour of her plane ride, Myrna could think of nothing but Brian and all the things she wanted to do to him when she saw him. The plane could not get to Portland fast enough. Eventually, she grew tired of checking her wristwatch every thirty seconds and sorted through her mail. Among the textbook advertisements and interdepartmental memos, she found a letter from a funding agency. Her last ditch grant! She’d almost missed the submission deadline and knew it wasn’t her best work, but without research funding, the university wouldn’t let her keep her job for long. She didn’t have tenure yet.Myrna hesitated, afraid to open the letter. She’d applied on a whim the day after she’d left Brian in Des Moines. She had the groupies to thank for the inspiration. And now that she knew for sure her government-sponsored grant would not be renewed for the following year, she didn’t just want to work on this project as a fun summer side project. She needed this project to keep a roof over her
He took off his leather jacket and handed it to her. “Put this on.”She slid into the jacket and inhaled deeply through her nose. The jacketsmelled of leather and Brian—the two biggest turn-ons on Earth. She hoped it wasn’t far to the tour bus.His jacket was several sizes too big and draped over her hands. She could almost wear it as a mini-dress. She zipped it up to her chin.He smiled at her. “You look adorable.” He tapped her nose with his index finger.Brian crammed her purse in the small compartment under the seat. He took off his floppy, leather hat and tried smashing it inside as well. It wouldn’t fit.“Would you mind holding my hat while I drive?” he asked.“Not at all.”He handed it to her.“It’s a good thing I didn’t pack a suitcase,” she said.He laughed and scratched his head as he stared down at the motorcycle’s lack of cargo space. “True. I was in such a hurry to get here, I didn’t think things through clearly. Jace’s bike seemed more manageable than the tour bus.”“Th