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Clara
When I told Brent the news , he didn't seem okay . He gave me a look I hadn't seen in a while... I remember the look very well . I had seen it when we talked about his sister Laura and his parents. The day Andrea passed away and the day he almost lost Andrew and me...
" Honey bee , What's with that look?"
He swallowed hard and held back tears. He raked his lush brown locks, held my hand and looked back at me.
"What look sugar?"
"You are not a Rosanerri... "
He chuckled.
" Na ah ... But I'm a Carlyle . I'm just happy to be able to look into your eyes again . I just realized I wasn't there when you woke up and got transfered. I was busy having breakfast at the canteen a full breakfast so don't...
Some of the old staff asked me if I was coming back. "
"It wouldn't be a bad thing. Besides . You were go
Brent*Song : Westlife - Us against the world.*They say a man is only as strong as the woman he loves... I didn't expect to fall so hard for Clara . To be honest when she said yes , I was totally taken by surprised. She was dubbed as the toughest nut to crack by some of the guys and girls I knew... It didn't register properly until the day after the first dinner party when I was playing host and chef that she was it.She had been quiet all night but she seemed to be at peace . She and Andrea got along like milk and oreos. My niece rarely laughed when she was with other people and getting her to eat was always a mission... Clara did that with ease; there were a couple of times when I had to call her cause Andrea just wouldn't touch her food. If she was away I would skype her and I would have Andrea talk to her and after thirty minuets she would be ready to eat .Even with our son she always knows how t
10#song #BlackByrd #still not over youClaraI heard Brent call my name but I couldn't move... What was happening ...My whole body was riddled with shock , my head started to hurt out of nowhere... The last thing I remember was walking into the kitchen and something flew right threw the window shattering the glass I dropped my cup and all I heard was the smoke alarm . We live in a safe area and we have state of the art security on the complex. What the hell was going on ... I was on the floor . All I remember was something painfully piercing through my clavicle . Oh hell no , no , no ,no ... Our Baby ... Brent has been through hell he can't go through losing someone again let alone two people. I thought they caught the guys who killed his parents and sister. It was related to something in his family ... Every time I asked him about it he just got all agro. When I told him six years ago that I was pregnant with A
Song : #EllieGoulding #armyBrentHow do you know?How do you know that you are with the right person ?The answer is simple . You just do.Then the question that I should be asking is ...when do you know?I knew it when I asked Clara to be my friend ,she didn't know me at all but gave our friendship a shot.I loved being around her and talking to her after a long day .If she was too busy or out of the country I'd leave her a message and before sunset she'd get back to me. She as a friend showed up , gave sound advice and was always there when I needed her. She became the best thing I never knew I needed.On the morning we both admitted to having feelings for each other , which didn't come as a surprise. I knew .We had both fallen in love at the same time. I knew when Andrea talked non stop about her , when she wanted her to stay over ,when I drea
#songs #AdamLambert. - Better than I know myself#TheScript #Army of angelsClaraI'm not perfect .I've always said that; perfection isn't perfection unless there are imperfections visible... So we are all imperfectly perfect .There are some moments in life when you feel undeserving of what you have or like a total loser.I've had many of those days and weeks ,when I sometimes feel like I'm not being a good enough mother to my son , or perfect wife to my husband . When you wake up in the morning and wish you could fall back to sleep cause you hate feeling like you are failing at a role you should perfectly fit into cause you've had enough practice, however you still feel like you are always falling short .I guess we all are entitled to have a bad day ... At some point our super hero masks and capes come off and surprisingly enough we discover what we suspected all along, that we a
#Songs#AliciaKeys #no one#JasonDerulo #BreathingBrentI was heading towards the maternity ward feeling excited, when my phone vibrated and I saw that Clara had sent me a message. Just as I was about to open it Andrew called me .When my son calls he usually has something interesting to tell me , ask about something or remind me of something I might have missed...His Birthday was in four months September 7 and he is turning six years old.He was starting to look so much like me. I couldn't believe how fast he was growing .Just the other day Clara and I took him home . He was a so small and now we both went to go get the same hair cut two days ago.His unrully curls needed a trim and my hair was long enough so we both opted to cut our hair short and leave our curls wild .He looked like the younger version of me apart from his eyes , that reminded
Songs#Leona Lewis -#yesterday#John legend- #ordinary peopleBrentJust as Timothy was about to tell me what was going on. Andrew came running down the hall . I picked him up and gave him a hug . I love my boy and his mother so much. To think I almost lost both of them six years ago , triggers feelings of melancholy. He sat down on my lap and talked to me with a very serious face.""Daddy I have a bad feeling.""Yeah I've also had it too Andy. I'm so sorry we left without saying goodbye to mommy. ""Apology accepted. Just as long as I get to see her soon. Where is she?. ""She was on her way with uncle Carlo. ""What do you mean was? She should be here my App says she is here."I went into my pocket and showed him ,his mothers phone which was grey."Okay dad then
#Songs#Mumford&sons #Hopelesswanderer#JohnLegend #everybodyknows#Chainsmokers #InsideoutClaraIn a moment everything can change... You blink and your whole life is turned upside down, you blink again and you cannot believe what's happening to you. You blink a couple more times and looking from the outside in and inside out, you have lived so many lives ,executed so many roles , put out fires that you didn't start, fought and won wars that you never initiated , and learn to let go of what doesn't serve you right...Then you learn to breathe easy and count your blessings.I have a lot to be thankful for. Brent , Andrew and our new edition to our family ... I know I gave birth...via C section. I had flashbacks of everything that happened.I remember Carlo pulling me out of his car , flashing lights , florescent lights, machines beeping,needles and well lala land. Its fu
#songs#AlessiaCara #River of tears#JessieJ Ft #JamesMorrison. #upClaraStorms. We've all in some way have experienced storms . They either give you more character , make you more stronger , or prepare you for a bigger storm ahead. I heard my priest talk about challenges the other Sunday at mass, given my attention span and my ability to spontaneously think... I caught the last bit of his sermon where he said; "if the one thing you fear happens to you once , you are not afraid of it happening again cause you have learnt how to overcome it, and overcoming is a gift that helps you move on ,let go and live again."As true as that may sound...Sometimes we don't even know we are caught in a storm until we are in the eye, where everything is calm inside and way messy on the outside. I always say that if you were ever comfortable with chaos and know how to
BrentWhen life your life flashes before your eyes ; you want to make sure you have no regrets when you think its about to end.Clara always used to say something that had always stuck with me , even when I look back now she had a point. Before I asked her to marry me , she got caught in the crossfire of a war she didn't start and I felt guilty for putting her in a situation she shouldn't have gone through. Her forgiving and understanding nature has always been the reason I kept trying to be a better man . She always said ; there can be no regrets, all you need to say is lesson learned, I understand now and thank you .She's always thinks I don't trust her .Fact is I do. She's always been my better half and the best part of me ...*Flashback*The day started off perfectly. Clara was peacefully sleeping next to me bare skinned. On days when Andrea was away and I had no class to attend or team to assess
ClaraFor the longest of times I've believed that feelings are only sensations felt inside and the rest of the time what we touch in terms of the sensation of different textures are just feelings . Then I grew up. I came to the conclusion that all our senses are connected to our feelings ; be it nostalgic or poignant .The experience is what makes any feeling or memory worth keeping or letting go. The scars, tattoos or memorabilia are proof that you went through an experience or event .The experience is uniquely yours and no one can take it away from you, good or bad it becomes part of you in some way . Eventually your sense of perception and awareness sharpens and you are able to sense what someone is feeling and what they are going to day before they say it . Perception is connected to sensitivity. If you feel deeply about a situation or a person you can relate and empathize and hopefully ease the pain or heal a wounded soul.
ClaraI believe that we are all capable of getting the best of everything, if we just focus on the blessing every lesson has to offer . Sometimes it's easier said than done . There is a saying that has always stuck with me throughout the years and during the times I needed all the support I could get when we lost Caleb; Through darkness there is light , broken hearts will mend, and one day you will look back and understand why it happened. Sometimes it takes a bit longer for the sun to break, broken hearts mend, it may take a while but they heal. However shattered hearts are a different kind of strain .The remedy is available but the ingredients are scarce. Time always reveals why we went through a test and the lessons we are learning may guide us to something unexpectedly good. You will come to the realization that if what happened didn't happen you would have never been on the path to fulfill your destiny.Even through the mo
BrentJealousy ; that ugly green eyed monster that crops up every time you think you have everything sussed out, under control, and safe. I have to admit I get insanely envious and It can sometimes lead to regret for doing what I did for fear of abandonment, seeing someone as a rival or losing what's mine.I've seen my own brother as a rival and threat before. Never have I ever trusted him around my wife, because he always gave off a vibe that he wants her and he would do anything. Some connections are unbreakable; given circumstance and event . Yesterday my father asked me if I ever wanted to be an uncle. When I said yes he directly told me that Clara and Carl's son was alive . Carlo knew nothing and it was for the best because doing what he did then was for the best. He needed to save all three lives and the accident happened at the right time . The same people who had threatened to kill Clara and Caleb were the same People t
ClaraThere is a reason why things are kept under lock and key, and why lovers become friends .Things are kept under lock and key for safety ...or they are kept under lock and key and hidden so that no one can find them .However for lovers who become friends there is an unspoken rule that always remains after the fire and rain. When you say; I love you. It means that I have your back , call me I will pick up , knock at my door at two in the morning crying I will be there for you and anytime you need to talk I am here... But only as friendsCarlo and I made a promise to each other when we became official. If ever we grew apart we'd still be there for each other for support . I had been so wrapped up in my own life that I almost forgot the month we were in. I don't know why it took me getting trapped in an elevator with with Carl to realize that he had been hurting . We were still trapp
ClaraThe heart has a way of healing itself. No matter how bruised, or broken ; our ability to love even when it hurts helps with the healing processes. Everything heals eventually;physically or emotionally .To know that you are loved is the best feeling ever. You were either held by someone in your darkest hour , meant something to someone when you felt like nothing or you gave love and melted a heart of ice . Fact is you opened up your heart to love.We all have reasons as to why we do what we do or react in certain situations. Life happens we can't control it ; how we respond and react can make a difference .Andrew's grandfather was with him when Brent and I made our way back to his hospital room Seppi smiled when he saw both Brent and me enter the room . To our surprise Carlo was alone at the far end looking out the window . His hair was messy and his eyes were blood shot red. My
ClaraThe day told Carlo me he loved me ;was the second best day of my life . If I said first I would be lying and Brent would lose it cause in all honesty my wedding day and night was the best but above all that when I gave birth to both my children who I love to Pluto and back .So I guess it's the third most best day.When Carlo said love he meant love . He was very patient with me and I with him . What made us work at that point in time was the level of love, respect, and appreciation we had for each other . We had already communicated via mail for the first month of our relationship but all in all I thought Ally liked him but she didn't she was in love with Gio .Following our secret meetings and occasional dates, which led to me moving in temporarily with Carl and switching houses to the new one he built, we pretty much had the makings of a college couple madly in love . Except for one thing we hadn't slept together Althoug
34ClaraPeople often say ;you never forget your first love , but truth be told you can never forget who taught you love , made you feel loved, experience love, make love, and give love unconditionally in return. I've always said making love has more to do than just sex .It is the combination of two energies fusing together to create life and love. I have a rule ;you have to know and trust the person you're "making love to " as much as yourself . Communication and honesty is always key . You don't learn how to speak with out words overnight or hear someone's heart without them saying a word. Loving someone unconditionally requires understand and patience .The person you want to be with should compliment and not complete you . You should be a whole being by yourself . I'm also human. I'm a woman too. I have my insecurities ; I freak out sometimes either cause I feel like I'm not thin enough,exciting
ClaraLoss, bereavement, pain and acceptance . Four words that can describe how I felt before I called it a day on my four year relationship with Carlo . As far as relationships go this one really cut me, Luke was a lesson learned... Mainly cause Carl and I had history and never in a million years had I dreamt that the one who swore forever would break my heart ... But then again nothing lasts forever , you have to keep fighting to keep your head above water ; no mater how hard you try not sink to the bottom you end up drowning if you don't get help. Endurance , stamina , will, faith and passion gets you through the hardest of times , you just need to remember you're not in this journey alone ,just when you think the "darkness" will consume you the sun will break. We all possess a supernatural power called love it's like an evergreen plant for all seasons and a power we can all tap into when all else seems hopeless or when things are just falling a